I Might Be Just Another Hypocrite Person?

today i woke up at 7.45am.
well, the bus seems to came a bit late when i was waiting but luckily i just get to know a "friend" (a guy who going through his internship at market research company) as we have some conversation while waiting.
upon arrived Wangsa Maju LRT and we was inside the train, he saw his friend (a girl, quite beautiful look+no boyfriend as i "listened" something from their conversation) and then he introduce her to me but i don't know say what other than a "Hi".
anyways, they was talking all the way long and after his friend (the girl) left, the "friend" told me that actually he does not know her much since the girl is his friend's housemate that live nearby.
therefore i just ask him about "what is the secret to talk with people especially a girl" and he just told me that there is no secret but to act "stupid" by asking all sort of question no matter it is what.

somehow i do feel worry about myself because i don't even have much courage to look into any girl's eye directly as i might having the "scare woman/girl" (女人恐惧症) disease as i was afraid to see people especially girl and just don't know why in my real life.
in fact, i do clearly know that if i still continue like this, i will not get any girls and don't even can think about start a new relationship after "emoing" so long which i realize something wrong is going in myself.
besides, i just feel that our position should be "swapped" when he told me that he like to talk with people but he study programming while i don't like to talk with people but i study marketing that is quite "funny".
frankly speaking, until now i still don't know whether sales and marketing skills can be trained  time to or must suite with a person characteristic because if a person who does not like to talk and approach with people, how to become a successful sales+marketing and don't even need to talk about success right?

around 9.20am i arrived KL Sentral and quickly "run+walk" to my office as i might be late.
when i reach office, it seems that there is a new colleague arrived.
during the morning, i seems like "don't know what to do" (acting stupid) but there is a lot of thing to do when my superior told me that all the marketing plan shall be planned ahead before i left this company.
suddenly i just recall what my friend (ex-cousemate+current UK friend) say that there is no need to be responsible to giving 24 hour resignation notice because a staff that is under probation period don't no need to have the so call "working reputation" when i told him that i wanted to protect my own image as a "good employer" when i tender my resignation notice before 2 week i left the company.
therefore i seems to be having a little "regret" because need to go office "do show" (做戏) until end of this month although i know i can learn something with my own research.

during the afternoon, they went to Malones but i did not follow since i no longer working soon which i feel there is no need to introduce myself although i know the Japanese boss will treat all staff eat whenever there is a new colleague arrived.
therefore i just walk to Mayflower food court and having my lunch there alone.
somehow i feel that i was quite a "silent busybody" person especially when i eating alone because it is more easy for me to focus on listening any conversation that around me.
when i reach back office, i just continue to do my stuff but feel a little contradict because the Japanese told me do this but my superior ask me do that marketing stuff which i don't know want to listen to who.
anyways, i just hope the 5 more working days will quickly end fast as i just need to work until 30th April and "run" after getting my salary. (can cover some laptop cost~ XD)

around 6.35pm i make a move from office and arrived Wangsa Maju at 7.15pm to have the economy rice as my dinner.
somehow the weather still raining and i just like to listen to "Yu Shi Tian De" (雨是甜的) by Bell Yu Tian as i am enjoying this kind of "emos" feeling especially walking in the tiny rains.
finally i arrived back home at 7.40pm as i took the taxi while the weather still raining.
while looking on those political news recently about the coming 13th general election in Malaysia, i start to feel that "Hypocrite" is everywhere because there is so much advertisement, news, scandal and much more being revealed but just don't know true or not.
according to Wiki, hypocrisy is the state of pretending to have virtues, moral or religious beliefs, principles that one does not actually have which involves the deception of others and is thus a kind of lie.

in short, it means that a hypocrite is a person who says one thing and does another, pretending to be someone who can be looked up to and admired for the way they say they live but really do not.
somehow i do wondering myself whether i might be just another hypocrite person because i seems like keep saying "it is bad to find pros" but what if i ended up going for it one day? (well, i still haven "try" it yet but i think the reason i have such thought might due to keep reading the "pros blogger review" [1malaysiawomen] since the write up is so real)
on the other hand, i think that some people is being hypocrite may because they did not get what they want.
for example, let's say government pay you RM1,000,000 to placing their advertisement in your website or giving you one billion construction contract, i don't think much people will resist it right?
therefore this might explain why those "crony" will use whatever tactics to protect their "boss" right?

actually i think it is just a point of view about how we look at the political case in a way that how we work for our boss.
i believe it will getting the same outcome no matter who you "work" with as the majority employee will do their best to satisfy their boss need right?
therefore in a bigger scale when apply it with politics, i believe the majority will still vote for the "BX" after received those "candy" because our country still not ready yet for a change since there is too much conservative and a lot of low-labour cost foreign. (not racist but telling the fact as you can see KTM is full of those people)
anyways, i don't feel like talking+thinking much about this issues and just went to sleep around 9pm.
the moment i woke up again was 11.10pm and continue to surf some information.

well, the Yoobao power bank from China seems to be quite convincing because the battery did not drop much after i charged it again. (finally saw something good about China product or too fast to say it is good?)
anyways, i just feel myself seems to be so easily going to the "negative" side when looking through something.
somehow i would like to share a video about "Why Do We Cry?" as shown below or the link >>> Here.
when day by day past, i seems to be understand more about myself and the reason why i feel "lonely".
can you imagine this situation that how you feel when you're being "alone" in KL, then you feel like want to talk, but seems like nobody in real life can talk to, even some close friend also have their private time too and you can't always find the same person to talk/express feeling right?
therefore i ended up blogging by trying to understand myself better when i write out all the things that happened to me everyday so i can have a review about it.