well, there was no class for today because the time table has been rescheduled.
after having some Nutella chocolate as my breakfast, i just update back my delayed post which is the hiking experiences at Peak District National Park Kinder Scout mountain in Edale few day ago.
somehow i do questioned myself whether blogging was a "task" or just "wasting time" expressing myself because it seems that i still haven totally let go of it as i still continue writing again. (=.=)
in fact, i do get "criticize" on the forum saying that "If the objective of blogging is to make money is consider good, other than that is really damn waste of time" from some people.
besides, there was some positive comment too such as "Having a hobby is not wasting time, doing something you like and happy to do is not consider waste of time too" from some people.
however, if blogging intention was doing something you don't like and curse yourself or other people everyday is consider a waste of time said by some people too as i do doubt about myself.
anyways, it is very subjective again when debating the blogging issues.
after that, i just search some information and saw a video that is quite interesting to share which titled "莫陌， 微电影 一天私会一个男人!食色男女徘徊性与欲的边缘" as shown below or the link >>> Here.
basically the story line of the short film talk about a girl who used "Momo" social media tools to date with every single rich guy that she could with her beautiful faces.
somehow i do have a thought that it might be true that why rich guy tends to be more attractive because they do have their own high confident level to earn a lot of money and also the "chasing girl" skills.
therefore if i am a girl, i would rather choose a guy that is capable rather than those weak guys right?
during the afternoon, i waited for some friend and we went to have our lunch at Hong Kong Harmony Cafe which is just located beside the Noodle Inn Westfield restaurant if you saw the picture on that post.
well, the reason we wanted to try there was probably of the special lunch set promotion for £4.80 from the menu outside and 10% off for student as shown below.
somehow the taste was quite nice but the portion was quite small just like the single plate of chicken rice that we ate in Malaysia with a little more.
at the end of the bill, we just realize that there is no 10% discount promotion for the special lunch set because it has already discounted while the 10% off for student only applicable if you had spend £25 and above.
well, i couldn't really "blame" anything because i did not see properly and guess i should expect that we will get a small portion when paying such price. (so true about you pay peanut, you get monkey?)
around 3.40pm we walked to Aldi supermarket because i wanted to buy something and i had spend another £4 to buy some groceries.
frankly speaking, i don't really like "something" because some people keep say no $$ but had bring more money to UK while keep telling other people that very poor and just bring very little $$. (£3100 not many?)
in fact, i was the 20% of the people who bring less $$ without transfer to UK because i don't really want to spend so much $$ here.
somehow i don't really want to talk about this because it is useless to keep compare and it just make myself feeling worst if keep "argue" about this matter.
next, i just went to Heron Frozen Foods Store to buy some crispy chicken fillets for £1.25 while spending another £0.75 for some sweets at Granelli's sweet shop.
upon arrived home, i watched the 32nd episode of "Triumph In The Skies 2" (衝上雲霄II) HK drama as shown below.
well, i was quite interest with the "Airline Transport Pilot Licence" (ATPL) when the drama said you need to pass the 7 subject such as radio navigation aids, instrument flight, flight planning, radio telephony, navigation, meteorology and met prac although i did not know true or not.
however, it might be true that after passing the exam, you will get a Frozen ATPL license but need to accumulate a 1,500 total flight time in order to qualify as a ATPL pilot although you manage to get "Commercial pilot license" (CPL) based on some information i found on the internet.
actually the reason why i having such interest about aviation was probably influence by my uncle and the salary of a pilot in Malaysia.
however, the study cost to become a pilot is extremely expensive and the pilot job might be retrenched if the "Pilotless Airliners" (an aeroplane can fly without a pilot) has come into effect in the future.
somehow i was "speechless" in someways because my uncle blog is to aspire young teenager to become a successful pilot as he still writing nowadays and will be publish his first aviation book with Airasia while my blog seems to make people demotivated or become more "sad+emo" if he found out one day.
around 8pm i went to my friend house to cook the spaghetti with pineapple, crabstick, hotdog sausage and ham as our dinner as shown below.
after that, i just do some edit in the PIC group assignment and finished it at last.
later on, my friend asked me to go to the Sheffield Spearmint Rhino Gentlemen's Club as shown below.
around 11.30pm we make a move from there and we need to show our student ID because the admission is only FREE to enter in every Tuesday for student night and outsider need to pay £10 for entrance fee.
as i enter to the club, i saw some of my friend and just feeling quite awkward when there was some Tarc College girls around too because it might reflect an image that i am a "pervert" guy.
after that, we just ordered some Budweiser beer that cost £5 for four bottle because my friend said the "watcher" will scold if we did not buy anything.
well, the "performance stage" started with a girl dancing with her seductive move in front of a pole that look similar something like the picture below. (no take real picture because it is prohibited)
seriously it was my first time to see a girl's breast in real life other than those porn/XXX movie experience that available on the internet.
however, i was feeling shy and just can "see a little" (看一点，不看一点) because i was busying thinking how other's people (Tarc girl) will see me as i keep having the awkward feelings.
in fact, i do get "a little scold" by friend for keep distracting by chatting rather than "enjoying" the strip show.
anyways, the performance was continued with 5 different girl go up dance and strip for two song.
after that, the girl will come down ask you whether want to see her totally nude performance with seductive move for £10 in a private room.
well, we wouldn't go that far because it might be too "over" although a friend keep say want to treat me for free since i did not have such experience before.
therefore from the outside of the private room, i just can see the strip girl was "playing/fondling/touching" with her seductive move to the foreigner guy but he cannot touch their breast or make any move which explain why it is call as gentleman's club because prostitution is illegal across the UK.
anyways, the guard blocked the view when he say us watching towards the private room.
moreover, my friend seems to be so "pro" who can differentiate whether which girl is having a real or fake breast by just looking at it and i was "speechless" in some way.
somehow i was having so many thought again thinking about "what is those strip girl's feeling" when they perform at the stage because it seems like a humiliation to girl who went there watching it.
honestly, i did feel a little horny when watching it but also feeling sad in some ways. (hypocrite?)
around 1.20am we make a move from there and i had spend £2.50 for the beer fee.
finally i arrived back home at 1.40am although in a "drunk" mode.
however, i was "spotted" by girl upon arrived to the hostel and just feel totally "shy+guilty" feeling as i done something wrong when my friend said we went to the Spearmint Rhino gentlemen's strip club.
well, i believe that 51% of the guys of Tarc College student who come to SHU UK summer program to study will definitely go to Spearmint Rhino Gentlemen's Strip Club that just located beside Sheffield Hallam Union (SHU Union) partly because want to experience what it is all about as it would be once in a lifetime.
frankly speaking, i feel that it was my personal problem for keep "thinking too much" such as if you said that you never had a sex experience with real people or whether got buy a condom or not before throughout the age of 23 years old as a guy, not much people will believe it because they might think "you want cheat who o" (骗鬼吃豆腐) besides than those watching porn, masturbation (TFK) or any "own" sexual activity.
therefore i think this might be the reason why i feel "emo" and Twilight might be true that i might probably possessed by a "sad ghost" because watch a girl strip off their clothes also seems to be not very happy.
in fact, there was so many question again arise in my head such as "What you want oh lonely reload? love? sex? money? happy?" and it sound quite "gay" if you say you have no feeling towards girl at this moment.
moreover, it was irony to understand the reality of the materialistic world that money still plays an important role if you every read on my "prostitution in Malaysia story" that how a guys can "play a girl" if they are rich enough or being born as "second rich generation" (富二代) inherit with family wealth.
seriously if there was a girl who have a similar face or look with the girl that you really really like until "cry father cry mother" last time, would you pay the money just for a one night stand or sex experiences?
somehow i really scare that i would become "that guy" one day or end up being hypocrite for keep saying those "guy who go for prostitution" is bad guy.
perhaps my "lonely reload" journey would really ends if i lost my dignity as a "good guy image" one day.
in conclusion, today's i was quite tired after the yesterday's Sheffield Fayre event and the night time Spearmint Rhino gentlemen's club experiences seems to be making me think more based on own assumption about life. (self pity? dramatic?)
(Self Expenses note: Today £12.50, Yesterday total £137.30, Total up to date £149.80)
T.T