today i woke up at 7.10am.
somehow i was awakens by a "sad" dream again and i not sure whether this was the second time or not.
well, the dream was about a girl that i like as she had married to someone and give birth to a child while i feel so sad in there as the dream was so real.
anyways, i really don't know why i still having such dream although i am at far away from Malaysia.
during the morning, i just have cupcakes as my breakfast in my relatives house although i was alone in the home since they went out to work.
around 11am i make a move and took the Piccadilly line to Knightbridge at Ickenham station as below.
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upon arrived Knightbridge tube station at 12pm, i walked to Harrods shopping mall as i was helping a friend to buy a wallet.
well, it took me about 30 minute+ to find the Harrods shop because the shopping mall was too big and it was full of luxury brands such as Hermes, LV, Gucci, Prada or any luxury brand you can name it.
besides, i do wonder whether how much it would cost in Malaysia for the Harrods wallet that cost for £25 as shown below.
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moreover, i do feel that most of the price there seems to be quite expensive as their objective was to earn money from foreigner buyer (mostly China people) because my brother's girlfriend asked me help to see the Burberry perfume and the price was more expensive than in Malaysia.
anyways, i make a move from there around 1.20pm as i don't really have branded things to buy although there was too much brands to see.
then i went to Mc Donalds to buy Mayo Chicken for £1 as my lunch. (poor leh)
after that, i walked to Victoria and Albert Museum (V&A) and Natural History Museum because that day i didn't really see much of the gallery as below.
actually i have taken a lot of picture at there and even get "scolded" because some place was not allowed to take picture especially the jewellery gallery as below.
around 2.45pm i walk out from V&A museum and head to Natural History museum because 2 days ago i feel that there was nothing much to see as i might not able to look all of it and below was some picture of it.
after spending an hour at there, i make a move at 3.45pm and head to Albert Memorial status and took some picture around there as below.
somehow i feel "afraid" during the moment i took the picture of myself because my face seems to be not happy at all although i thought that was my '"smiling face" and this is the reason why i having low confidence.
seriously the "happy smile face" need to a lot of time to practice in front of the mirror and i realize the "inner heart" need to be always happy and don't be so calculative so much with time because emotional feeling really can affect a person's looks.
around 4.25pm i make a move to Hyde park other than Serpentine Gallery but there seems to be nothing to see as i had rest a while at there around 5.20pm after my leg start to feel pain again as below.
guess it was because i had been walked a lot throughout the whole day for this continuous few day for my "solo experience" of London trip while waiting for the Europe trip.
during the evening at 5.50pm, i walked to Saintsbury to buy the £0.50 cookies as picture below.
then i just depend on my phone's GPS walked all the way from Marble Arch, Baker Street, Bond Street, Oxford Circus Street just wanted to try one of the famous fish and chips store in England.
well, during my journey at Baker Street, there was a lot Lebanese cuisine restaurant and i do feel a bit afraid to walk alone while there was so much of "black big people" walked pass. (not racist but just feel scary)
as i arrived the Traditional Golden Union Fish Bar, i don't feel like dining in (extra £2+ service charge) or try the fish and chips when i have the thought of "converting the price to Malaysia" because i can eat 5 times for this amount of money as i look at the price as shown below.
in the end, i just buy the chips for £2.25 as my dinner when i was so hungry after walk all day long and couldn't have a good meal in London.
in fact, i do feel myself seems to be like a "homeless people/beggar" when i ate the chips beside the street as i wouldn't never forget the scene in front of me while eating it as below.
over time, i really asked myself whether is the money issue that can determine my happiness?
well, i don't really sure whether i am "playing the poor character" or whether i am really that "poor" to have such feeling and i would start to "dwell a lot of feelings" about the "lucky" question.
for example, i would think that "lucky i am not in relationship or married, if not i might make others suffer; lucky i didn't know much people, or else i don't have face problem to meet other" and other matter.
perhaps it was my own problem because i don't wish to trouble my relatives to cook the dinner for me as i can see how she seem to be "struggling" for survive in the London city by working until so late and i was grateful to have a place to stay although it was not a proper room in the living room.
on the other hand, maybe i was the "luckiest guy" who can keep enjoying travel and my "small problem" was just thinking where to play for the next day in the city of London.
somehow i do feel a bit "guilty" for not being happy about what i already had.
around 8.10pm i arrived to the Piccadilly Circus and walked to the Her Majesty's Theatre in front of Theatre Royal Haymarket to see the Phantom of the Opera ticket price.
it seems that the price was quite expensive and i still not sure whether want to watch or not as below.
anyways, i just walk back to the took the Picadidly line underground tube as below.
after some moment, i realized that i was in the wrong train and walk out to Hammersmith station waiting for the next train as shown below.
somehow the train schedule time was quite frequent and i reached Rayners Lane at 9.10pm, continued with Ickenham route as i arrived there at 9.30pm.
finally i arrived back home at 9.45pm and my time seems to be so limited as i feel quite tired to research about the place i want to go for tomorrow in London.
well, this post was updated at the next morning when i feel so tired in night as i had eventually fall asleep around 11pm if i am not mistaken.
before i end my post, i would like to share a meaningful picture by Zenpencil about "We're adult, but emotionally we're a culture of 7 year old" that seems to be quite true as below.
perhaps i was no different with the drug addict if i am addicted to blogging everyday or look through those status updates in social media sites as you can see the last picture above.
in the end, maybe i was just another "attention seeker" who want someone to "acknowledge me" and i feel that the reason i continue to write this blog post was because i want those "feedback" so that i won't feel so lonely in real life thinking that no one cares for me besides than my family, relatives and some friends.
overall today really feel tired and i was worry whether is there any side effect for walking too long as i had been walked for almost 8 hour everyday continuously just like yesterday.
(Self Expenses note: Today £9.80, Yesterday total £56.90, Total up to date £66.70)
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