Anyway, the case seems to be solved and I feel that my cousin was right we would like to gain something in return for the money we paid. Honestly, I did feel "money pain" although it was not my money because the money spend on education can buy 5 pieces of iPhone 5C if converted to Malaysian Ringgit and if I didn't improve at the end of this English course, the person who lost was only myself. On the other hand, i try to cut short my time to express my feeling although I still want to include some event that happened on today such as the video shared by our tutor about a guy who went to travel in 42 countries as shown below.
After our class end, I joined some Brazilian friend by taking underground tube train to St John's Wood station and walked to somewhere near Abbey Road for visits one of the Beatles famous walking spot as below.
After that, we took the underground tube to Camden Town and walked to one of the famous fish and chip restaurant that is Poppies Camden Town Fish and Chips as shown below.
For example, she had explained why my personality might reflect something not very good if I am an introvert person. It is because if I didn't speak much or share much of my feeling with real people who didn't know me, they might jump into a conclusion that this kind of people might be an arrogant guy who doesn't want to talk. Therefore this might make me "self reflect" about my past again back in Tarc College. Beside, when we talk about those programming, SAP or any other thing, she was quite right that it is all depend whether do you really have the heart to do something or not. It is because all the while I keep saying want to do but my action didn't really show how keen I was doing it. For example, if you want to earn a lot of money, you will try to do a lot of things in order to achieve it instead of talking. Furthermore, we can't always be "50-50" while making decision just like why a girl will abandon you if you couldn't able to make any decision no matter how big the problem is. (做男人不可以一直犹豫不决)
In addition, I do feel a bit "down" when she talk about my mother because I seldom share my problem with my mother. In fact, I do feel myself quite "funny" about why I can share all my personal feeling with stranger instead of someone who was so close with me? Anyway, my cousin's saying was quite right too that depression really can make a person to go to the negative side until the worst case scenario might be relate to something with commit suicide case. Moreover, it is true that "To be able to love others, you have to learn to love yourself. To be able to love yourself, you have to first learn to accept yourself as who you are. To accept yourself, you have to understand that you are flawed. To accept others, you have to understand that everyone in the world is flawed, just like how you are. Acceptance comes before love, and love does not exist if there is no acceptance, always remember that"which is quite meaningful too. Over time, it really take a lot of effort to improve a person as I shall start investing in myself for some new knowledge.
Before I end my post, I would like to share a meaningful positive article although it is so long as shown below.
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Your life is your message to the world, make it inspiring. Life is full of positive experiences. Notice them. Notice the sun warming your skin, the small child learning to walk, and the smiling faces around you. Smell the rain, and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential by reveling in the beauty of these experiences, and letting them inspire you to be the most positive version of YOU.
What would happen if you approached each day intentionally, with a positive attitude? What would happen if you embraced life’s challenges with a smile on your face? What would happen if you surrounded yourself with people who made you better? What would happen if you paused long enough to appreciate it all?
Living a positive life is all about creating positive habits to help you focus on what truly matters. This is the secret of super positive people. Here are nine simple ideas to help you follow in their footsteps.
1) Wake up every morning with the idea that something wonderful is possible today.– Smiling is a healing energy. Always find a reason to smile. It may not add years to your life but will surely add life to your years. A consistent positive attitude is the cheapest ‘fountain of youth.’ You’ve got to dance like there’s nobody watching, love like you’ll never be hurt, sing like there’s nobody listening, and live like it’s heaven on Earth.
2) Celebrate your existence.– Your mind is the window through which you see the world. The way to make this the happiest day ever is to think, feel, walk, talk, give, and serve like you are the most fortunate person in the whole world. Open minded, open hearted, and open handed. Nothing more is needed. All is well… and so it is.
3) Appreciate life’s perfect moments.– Your life isn’t perfect, but it does have perfect moments. Don’t let the little things get you down. You’ve got plenty of reasons to look up at the sky and say, “Thank you, I will do my best to make this a great day.” So slow down and pause for a moment to stand in awe of the fact that you are alive, and that you have the ability to rediscover life as the miracle it has always been.
4) Embrace life’s challenges.– Uncharted territory in your life is not good or bad, it just is. Yes, it may rattle your foundation, and you may be tempted to pullback, say you can’t do it, or bail completely. But these are exactly the conditions that set you up for massive amounts of personal growth. Each experience through which you pass operates ultimately for your own good. This is the correct attitude to adopt, and you must be able to see it in this light.
5) Become addicted to constant and never-ending self improvement.– It doesn’t have to be January 1st to give yourself a chance to make the most out of your life. Every day is a new day to learn, grow, develop your strengths, heal yourself from past regrets, and move forward. Every day gives you a chance to reinvent yourself, to fine-tune who you are, and build on the lessons you have learned. It is never too late to change things that are not working in your life and switch gears. Using today wisely will always help you create a more positive tomorrow.
6) Live and breathe the truth.– It’s the most positive, stress-free way to live, because the truth always reveals itself eventually anyway. So don’t aim to be impressive, aim to be true. Those who are true are truly impressive. Being true means having integrity; and integrity is doing the right thing even when you know nobody is watching.
7) Fill your own bucket.– Choose to be happy for no reason at all. If you are happy for a reason, you could be in trouble, because that reason can get taken away from you. So smile right now because you can right now, and make it a point to fill your own bucket of happiness so high that the rest of the world can’t poke enough holes to drain it dry.
8) Help the people around you smile. – Today, give someone one of your smiles. It might be the only sunshine they see all day. Sometimes just a single genuine smile or compliment can lift a person’s spirits to new heights. At the right time, a kind word from a stranger, or unexpected encouragement from a friend, can make all the difference in the world. Kindness is free, but it’s priceless. And as you know, what goes around comes around.
9) Spend time with positive people.– Life’s way too awesome to waste time with people who don’t treat you right. So surround yourself with people who make you happy and make you smile. People who help you up when you’re down. People who would never take advantage of you. People who genuinely care. They are the ones worth keeping in your life. Everyone else is just passing through.
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(Self Expenses note: Today £22.40)