Cracked My Head For Doing Nothing?

Have you ever wondered what is the feeling of thinking too much or "cracked" my head for doing nothing in life? Well, it was actually known as "procrastination" when you try to delay something as you thought that you could do it later on. However, when you acknowledging your procrastination, your future self will procrastinate and it is a symptom, not a cause but the power of being properly motivated can take you far. Frankly speaking, I seems to be giving up easily when I was doing something on the half way. For example, I would easily get frustration after doing a lot of research about the business opportunity. Furthermore, i felt the same when I was searching different kind of job that is available Malaysia.

In fact, I do understand that there is a lot o job opportunity in Malaysia but the main reason that I concern was about the salary part. Perhaps it is because I seems to be lack of time to be able to earn the money that I've wish for. Sometime it is quite "stress" for guy to think about the future especially when we compared ourselves to other people. For instance, when you say a guy get married at the age of 22 year old, and have a kid when he was 24 years old while earning a salary of RM8,000 per month, you might feel a little upset about yourself wondering what are you doing at this age. If you're fortunate enough, you would probably have your own family at the young age instead of wait until you're 28~35 years old, and start to chase girl or have your own family when you're financially stable.

During the afternoon, I was having some conversation with my sister and agreed about the things that she had said previously. For example, most of us would be a "servant" working for other people unless you're the boss. Seriously I was in a dilemma now as I should be grateful of what I have and shall enjoy my stay in UK to the fullest. Later on in the night, I do feel quite ashamed about myself when my cousin say something that is quite true. What I can say is that every person also have their own problem and it is not as easy as what we thought to be true. (家家有本难念的经，家丑不可外传) For example, she know that my father's struggling for the printing company with its related stuff and I don't know want to give what reaction. Beside, I had owe her a lot of things and wouldn't forget about it for the rest of my life.

Apparently most of the time is due to my own careless and she was right that I shouldn't care so much about what other people things and concern about those thing that does bring value to me. One of the example that I received about an unhappy and positive feedback regarding the journey to UK study as I shouldn't let other people to upset me was shown below.
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Unhappy feedback: The trip to UK was unnecessary, just spend more for no reason, your degree is not much different from those who didn't go. Your salary be the same as those who didn't go even... lower maybe cause less work experience due to time spent in UK, UK is more like honeymoon time.

Education are seriously way to expensive. What are you really paying? Seriously just some course notes or some lecture materials. Are you really paying for what it's worth for ? I don't think so. If i can turn back time, and i can choose to re-spend them money that i spent on my education, definitely i would buy a shop and learn business from scratch. Not succeed nvm, at least can learn something realistic but with perseverance sure can be somebody rather than end up in a dead end job.

Now a lot of people are questioning the value of colleges or universities, pay so much and get in debt after graduate ,how to survive? USA got a lot of such case and still a lot of ppl cannot pay up cause interest keep going higher and higher.

Positive feedback: Don't care what other people think of you...come back you have bunch of experience in the foreign country...I come back I become more confident and brave..I myself had change a lot..my family once said I'm a shy and timid person but now I transform into another person..I am once a person who dare not talk to people. .maybe my friends can be said is lesser to you..but I always try to do my best..if you ask my classmate than you will know I'm not a good at socializing. .maybe when you start to work you won't be so frustrated. .I really hope you can be more positive person. .remember one last point...I can transform so can you..
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Therefore I should just focus on improving myself although I was undecided to go back to Malaysia. After all, it was my own problem that I had cracked my head for thinking too much. Anyway, I would like to share a meaningful quotes about "Today I close the door to the past, open the door to the future, take a deep breath, step on through and start a new chapter in my life" as shown below.
At last, I should be happy that I have the opportunity to go to Stratford upon Avon to visits William Shakespeare house at tomorrow.
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(Self Expenses note: Today £0)