Well, no people had force me to make the decision to back Malaysia or not although the advice is focused more on self improvement and English related problem.
It is because what's my brother said was right and I do know that the truth is always the most hurt.
A lot of people trying to help me but it would be meaningless if I didn't want to help myself.
In fact, I do know that I should be grateful about what I have as I was fortunate enough to have so many things.
I cried like a baby alone and my brother did comforted me.
[Bro: If u feel very stress then just come back la. Seriously I do want my broth become sot jor there.
Me: wont lah..
Bro: There is no need to cry. Life moves on whether u like it or not. But think wisely before make any decision. Once decided, do it and face the consequences no matter is a good decision or bad decision. Life is like that. U will learn from it. If u always stay in comfort zone dare not make decisions, then u never learn.]
The song that can describe the moment is "Only Time" By Enya as shown below or the link >>> Here.
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Who can say where the road goes,
Where the day flows, only time.And who can say if your love grows,
As your heart chose, only time.
Who can say why your heart sighs,
As your love flies, only time.
And who can say why your heart cries,
When your love lies, only time.
Who can say when the roads meet,
That love might be in your heart.
And who can say when the day sleeps,
If the night keeps all your heart.
Night keeps, all your heart.
Who can say if your love grows,
As your heart chose,
Only time.
And who can say where the road goes,
Where the day flows, only time.
Who knows? Only time...
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Seriously only time can proof everything is worthwhile.
Honestly, I do dwell on the past decision about "What If I didn't accept to study this English course, then I wouldn't feel so bad for the £2000+ that was spend on me because the $$ can be use in a more better place." Moreover, I feel bad if I back early to Malaysia without repaying her effort that she put on me. Furthermore, if my cousin see this, she would eventually upset if I ever have such thought. In the end, I only know how to cry instead of finding or solving the way in a positive way.
T.T