It Is All About How You Think Positively Or Not?

today i woke up at 7.55am.
actually i had automatically awakens around 6.15am but my "lazy persuasive" attitude have drag me sleep back since i slept late yesterday.
anyways, i quickly get myself prepared and went to take the LRT as usual with some friends.
around 9.10am i reached KL Sentral and have the same marble cake as my breakfast again.
during the morning at office, i was quite nervous about the meeting that held on every Monday as i seems to be not contribute much.
therefore i just wrote the report about what i did yesterday although it seems like "blowing water" that might be the required skills of any marketer need to have in order to "survive" in this competitive/complicated  working world.

around 1pm we went to have lunch together at Sooka Sentral at another noodles shop name.
well, the taste was quite nice and the price was slighly higher which is about RM8.90 per bowl but i had forgotten the name of the shop. (might recall back tomorrow~ LOL)[Update: Xin Dong Ting Hunan Cuisine]
somehow i still feel it is hard to create a topic as my colleagues and Japanese boss was older than me.
after back to office, i just do the final check up of my report.
during the meeting, my body seems to be "shaking" and my voice become softer when speaking due to my nervous feeling when explaining the report.
the duration for the meeting was about 1 hour and i finally feel relieve when came out from the room as i am "save" for this week before being "fired" (sack) by company.
honestly, i do admit that i have the thought of "can live a day, then one day" (能过一天就一天) feelings.

in fact, i think my colleagues might having the thought like "What is this guy presenting just now?" as it seems like no add-in value.
therefore if my company know i have such working's thought/attitude or feelings, i will definitely get sack and luckily i still can blog anonymously until today.
however, tomorrow task will be quite difficulties as if i spent the advertising money and still get no sales, i really don't know want how to say myself which looks like i can resign myself.
actually i should think in a good way that at least i know most of the advertising cost for those media website such as the "N", "C", "G", "L forum" (can't disclose much as it is quite confidential, self reference) although sometime it is quite "shock" to know how they can earn so much money just from advertisement.
around 7pm i make a move from the office despite i still haven finish those "keywords" related things.

well, i just can say it is not easy to be creative enough to think about those words that can attract the attention of people although my English level still at the "secondary" level.
when i arrived Wangsa Maju at 7.40pm, i just went to have my dinner at Kopitiam Desa again.
sometime i just comfort myself that at least i have some food to eat when i was wondering about why i want to eat that kind of "RM2.50 cheap curry chicken with fried noodles" as my dinner.
seriously the moment that i can always have a full stomach was always at my Klang house instead of living in KL house as i can eat until very full every few hour when finding food at my hometown kitchen.
on the other hand, i feel that it is not my problem for being "busybody" to listen other's people story.
for example, when i sit on the bus waiting to back home, eventually i will listen a lot of story from other people when i was alone and i can't close my ear so obviously right?

somehow i just listened how a guy can flirt chat with another girl by talking those things that girls like.
guess i am "jelly" about those guys that can always have "sweet mouth skills" when chatting with girls to draw their attention.
finally i arrived back home at 8.20pm and get myself prepared (bath) before seeking for information online.
well, i would like to share meaningful Chinese story about "Cerebral palsy" disorder" that related to mentally disabled (Mental retardation) that have a happy mindset in life as below.
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有一位牧师的女儿，她天生就是一位脑性痲痺患者，且无法言语。
但，她却靠着无比的毅力与信仰的扶持，在美国拿到了艺术博士，并到处现身说法帮助他人。

有一次，她应邀到一个场合演「写」（不能讲话的她必需以笔代口），会后发问时，一个学生当众小声的问：「妳从小就长成这个样子，请问你怎麽看你自己？妳都没有怨恨吗？」
这个无心但尖锐的问题让在场人士无不捏一把冷汗，深怕会深深刺伤了她的心。
只见她回过头，用粉笔在黑板上吃力地写下了「我怎麽看自己？」这几个大字。
她笑着再回头看了看大家后，又转过身去继续写着：

一、我好可爱！
二、我的腿很长很美！
三、爸爸妈妈这麽爱我！
四、上帝这麽爱我！
五、我会画画！我会写稿！
六、我有隻可爱的猫！
七、还有……
八、……

忽然，教室内一片鸦雀无声，没有人敢讲话。

她又回过头来静静地看着大家，再回过头去，在黑板上写下了她结论：「我只看我所有的，不看我所没有的。」
众人安静了几秒后，一下子，全场响起了如雷的掌声与无数感动的泪水。
那天，许多人因着她的乐观与见证而得到激励。
这个乐观的脑性痲痺患者是谁？
她，就是美国南加州大学艺术博士，在台湾开过多次画展的黄美廉女士。
「我只看我所有的，不看我所没有的。」
幸福，不在于您拥有多少事物，乃在于您用怎样的态度去看待、享受自己现下所拥有的一切。
若是能这样，即便您看似一无所有，也能比那些大富豪或身体健壮但成天愁眉苦脸的人们更快乐、更富有。
注：黄美廉出生于台南，父亲是位牧师。出生时由于医生的疏失，造成她脑部神经受到严重的伤害，以致颜面四肢肌肉都失去正常作用。当时她的爸爸，妈妈抱着身体软软的她，四处寻访名医，结果得到的都是无情的答案。她不能说话，嘴还向一边扭曲，口水也不能止住的流下。十四岁时，她全家移民到美国，进入洛杉矶市立大学就读，之后转至洛杉矶加州州立大学艺术学院，如今已取得博士学位，成为画家。
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the sentences that highlighted in red means that "she only see the things that she had, not the things that she did not have" when questioned by the audience whether she have hatred for being born like that or not.
therefore i feel that it is all about how you can think positively or not about your life, just like whether you want choose to be happy or sad in your life. (知足长乐 as told by a friend)
somehow i told myself that i should be appreciate that at least there is someone caring me in blog right?

actually i admit that i am such a "greedy" guy because all the time i keep say "lonely" was because i want someone who care for me in real life rather than in an online world.
to my fellow online reader, please don't misunderstand that i do not appreciate you guy's feedback, is just that i hope when friend's gathering in real life, they would invite me.
besides, there is a Chinese sentences that i quite like that is "如果你想拥有从未有过的东西，那么你必须去做你从未做过的事" which means "If you want to have something that you never had before, then you must do something you've never done before" in life.
somehow i seems to get the answer about how to be success in life which is doing something special/unique but i still doing the same things everyday.
anyways, i am trying to "plant" the positive thought in my mind nowadays.

however, do you think is it back to see those poor country picture as below to remind myself how grateful i am about my life?

some people might say that this is just a typical Malaysia mentality whereby we always compare with those people who having lesser capabilities or less fortunate than us to boost our ego in order to feel better for not being successful than other's people.
anyways, writing all this feeling seems to be like a post card message from the "older me" to a "younger me" because when it gets hard, remember you are not alone, it gets better, i'm waiting for you from the older me as shown picture below.
Be Positive Lonely Reload !!! (talking to myself again~ LOL)
=D