somehow i just feel that i might late arrive to the office as the bus still haven come.
anyways, i manage to reach the office just in time and it is exactly 9.30am when i punch the card into the time machine.
during the morning, i can "sense" that the Japanese boss seems to be quite unhappy as he send more and more "analytic" related things which is quite unusual when compared with last time.
around 12.35pm i went to Mc Donalds to have our lunch with my colleagues.
well, it seems that one of my colleague just know about my "resignation" yesterday although i did not tell him and just feel that "news" really can spread so fast.
moreover, i also feel that the topic that we talk can be more "open" when compared to last time.
perhaps it is because one of the colleague did not felt that i have any threats towards them since i will be leaving soon after finish serve my last day work.
besides, he also start to comment most of the "marketing" activity that i implement and say that there is more ways to cut the cost.
however, he did not tell me how to do it and just ask me to find the answer by myself from "Google".
once again i feel it is so true that not much people (90%) will teach you much about the things they know because they might afraid you will snatch their "iron bowl" (抢饭碗) since they also use a lot of time to find those answer by themselves.
therefore this also explain why people tends to become more "selfish" (including me?) because if a "thing" really can earn a lot of money $$, the "thing" must not be known much by people.
or else it would end up many people "duplicating" it especially in Malaysia market where we can see so many China/low quality product being sold in our country nowadays all because want to maximize profit.
well, when i ask him why he don't share out all the strategy he knew, his answer was "do more or less also get same salary", that's why keep all the knowledge by himself. (做酱多都不会拿更高的工钱)
furthermore, i do feel a bit "emos" when another colleague shared something which make me feel that i seems to be wasted a lot of time rather than doing something useful when i was young.
for example, he start to make some game's private server when he is still Form 4 and also created some music sharing site in order to earn the GA income when was young.
somehow i think the reason why i keep feeling "down" was keep thinking on my past that "how great if i know all this information when i am 18 years old?" and ended up keep "self-comfort" to feel happier.
in addition, i just wondering why the people around me seems to be so "geng" (strong/rich) and very capable but i seems to be the one who seems lack of something. (一山还有一山高)
upon back office, i keep continue research and read a lot of information although i keep having thought.
somehow i was thankful to a friend (Gxbxxxl) told me that it is normal for a person to think so much and shared a meaningful article to me which title "5 Ways Your Brain Is Tricking You into Being Miserable" from Cracked website as shown below.
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1) Being Happy Takes Effort.
How many people do you know who say their ideal vacation would be to just kick back and do nothing at all? All of the "doing" in their lives comes at the job or at school as all the stuff that they're forced to do by other people. So they think that relaxing means doing nothing at all, rather than doing the stuff they like.
They fall into the trap of thinking that happiness is simply the absence of doing unpleasant tasks instead of actively doing pleasant ones ... and the human brain just doesn't work that way.
And this isn't going to get any better as time goes on; among seniors, their satisfaction with life didn't correlate with the state of their health or anything else as it was based on whether or not they had friends and hobbies. Of course, it's never harder to go out and make friends or start a new hobby than when you're in the throes of depression, and at that point, all of the above cycles that keep you in that valley start coming into play.
2) You'd Rather Be Unhappy Than Uncertain.
Thanks to evolution, the teenage brain is all about taking risks, like attacking a woolly mammoth with flimsy spears and having lots of sex with multiple partners, all for the continuation of the species.
As you get older, your brain wants you to stop taking those risks. You already did all your kid-having, now you need to settle down and stay alive so you can raise those children.
The problem is that most people grow so scared of risk that they are more likely to stay in situations that make them miserable than take a chance at happiness.
Studies have found that taking depressed, self-critical people and trying to make them think positively about themselves just confuses the shit out of them.
In other words, even if you take the risk and the risk pays off, if you're not used to happiness, then it just feels weird, or phony.
Ask yourself: When you're sitting in a bar or coffee shop and there's a group of friends next to you just laughing and having the time of their lives, how do you react? Do you find yourself annoyed by that? Do you hate them just a little? There you go.
3) Grief Is Addictive.
Think about how much of our entertainment is based around negative emotions. Why do we like scary movies? Or sad songs? Why do we watch movies about disasters or obsessively follow morbid news stories about sensational murder trials? If something horrible happens to us, why do we find ourselves constantly thinking and talking about it?
That chronically grieving person you know isn't enjoying it, any more than the junkie "enjoys" being an addict. They just get trapped in a feedback loop because they're subconsciously afraid to let go of the one strong emotion that makes them feel alive.
4) Killing Negative Thoughts Only Makes Them Stronger.
Negative thoughts are like the Sand People: If you chase them away, they'll come back in greater numbers.
It's actually insane when you think about it that we're constantly trying to banish bad thoughts from our mind, but the human brain simply doesn't have a mechanism for doing it.
They are the reason why you only want the stuff that you can't have, why trying to suppress laughter only makes you laugh more, why you fail at stuff when somebody is watching, and so on.
5) Your Brain Latches onto the Bad Stuff by Design.
Researchers have found this in a laboratory setting about participants pictures of angry and happy faces, and the participants will identify the angry faces much faster than the happy ones.
Your brain already identified the shit parts of your day before you even knew it. You have a sixth sense for misery.
Think about the implications in your everyday life as you can wind up walking away from a pretty good job or relationship because you only remember the bad times.
If there's a good side to it, the effect does seem to reverse as we get older, when nostalgia starts to set in and we focus more on the good memories. Unfortunately, for many of us the only effect of that seems to be that we can't stop talking about how freaking great things were back in our day.
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seriously i just feel the word that highlighted in colour was something that i feel so meaningful (seems like saying myself?) and would like to remind myself to get better in for my condition.
around 6.40pm i make a move from office and decided to go for a movie since there is a RM9 promotion at TGV cinema every Wednesday.
while i arrived at there, i saw my room mate was promoting the "B" cosmetic product.
anyways, i just choose the Oblivion movie that suit my time at 7.15pm in TGV KLCC.
below was the synopsis of the Oblivion Movie.
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A court martial sends a veteran soldier to a distant planet, where he is to destroy the remains of an alien race. The arrival of an unexpected traveler causes him to question what he knows about the planet, his mission, and himself.
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well, the movie seems quite okay as i feel the actress below is more beautiful than his wife.
somehow i do feel it is quite "sucks" when cut those "sex scene" in this movie because it might people eager to find out more about sex?
overall i would rate this movie as 3 out of 5 stars as the story is quite contradict but have great technology.
around 9.50pm i arrived Wangsa Maju and went to have Penang prawn noodles as my "dinner".
finally i arrived back home at 10.35pm.
somehow i do still think back the Oblivion movie as it seems like "reflecting" myself as i wish to keep all those memories i have although it is in a blog format.
perhaps in the future when i having "forgetful" disease, i might able to read back my own story to "back up" my brain data? (LOL)
on the other hand, i try not to think so much whether want to put what title for this blog post as it seems to be relate more into being positive rather than the Oblivion movie review.
over time, i found the best way to feel great about yourself is don't keep compare yourself with others although saying it is easy but as long as you keep "think this positive energy in your mind, it certainly will change something although it might take some time.
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