it was probably due to the "panic shock" feelings as my file deleted and can't really think much sentences to write throughout the night.
frankly speaking, i did really felt to give up at first when i have the guilty feeling towards my parents and there was a lot of negative thought surrounding me.
somehow i just told myself to find the solution instead of being panic around 6am in the morning.
then i just sent an email to my seminar tutor to ask whether can i extend my assignment submission time.
while the time keep past by every hour, i just getting more nervous as i trying to write something but just feel so helpless during that moment.
moreover, i just skipped my Product Innovation and Creativity lecture class at 9am.
suddenly i received a reply email from my seminar tutor around 10am and told me that he can't give me an extension deadline for late handling assignment but advice me to go Student Help & Information Point (SHIP) in the Stoddart Deli area to get advice regarding my problem.
besides, i just search some information from the Hallam Union Academic Advice website where it stated "What can I do if I am not able to meet the deadline for my coursework?" while the answer was to complete a EER1 form available on Shuspace and get agreement from your faculty.
after that, i just quickly pack my stuff and walked very fast to the Stoddart center to find a person name "Sue" from the advice given in the email.
when i arrived to (SHIP), the staff just gave me an "Exceptional Extension Request Form" to fill up while waiting the person who in charge to meet me up.
after waiting for some moment, there is a staff come out and we went to the canteen coffee shop while i just told her my problem.
well, it seems that she believed me without need to hand out the evidence that i can proof and gave me an extension deadline to this coming Thursday.
seriously i was totally feel so thankful to her or else i really would be the first person who fail the exam before going for final in Sheffield.
however, i still need to attend the PIC seminar class after that but don't really recall much things as my mind was so blur as i couldn't understand much thing during that moment.
after the class end, i just quickly walked back home to get some rest and the walking journey back home seems to be so heavy when i felt pain towards my leg.
after sleep for about 2 hours, i seems to be automatically wake up due to stress.
then i just quickly start to write something but suddenly after some moment the file was missing again as i did not save.
seriously i just feel it is so "unbelievable" because how could the same things happen twice that even myself also feel hard to believe although i did not write much things.
after that, i phoned a friend for help and advice me not to panic while he would borrow his laptop for me to use later at night.
then i just forced myself to sleep because i can't really think what to write as it was quite exhausting.
during the night, i just cooked instant noodles as my dinner and realized that i did not eat much food throughout this whole day.
later on, my friend arrived and gave me some advice to start write out something.
honestly, i do feel myself seems to be so "useless" because such a "simple things" also can't settle.
somehow i do asked myself whether having the "Dyslexia disorder" as i seems to be a slow learner and having a lot of problem within myself.
when day by day pass, i seems to be understand myself more and more but tends to be losing confidence in myself over time.
perhaps it was because my mindset was thinking too much of things or weak in planning my work just like what being said about "remember failing to plan, is planning to fail" in the PIC book.
around 9pm i went to sleep back again and couldn't recall anything after that as this post was written based on the short note that i wrote inside my phone's note.
(Self Expenses note: Today £0, Yesterday total £0, Total up to date £0)
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