well, i was still struggle with myself whether it will be my first day or last day of working as there was too much opinion "shouting" inside my heart.
moreover, i do remember i have a hard time sleeping yesterday as my mind keep continue to think a lot although my eyes have closed.
in the end, i have choose to try to work for another day despite i have been said by a friend that "i think you is better sit at home work as a (yi sai zou) (二世祖)" which means spoiled child or pampered child.
anyways, i just told my ex-housemate go first as i want to try to reach in time to Mid Valley if i do not depend on others.
as usual i still need to wait about 15 minutes for the bus to go to Wangsa Maju.
then i quickly took the LRT to Bangsar and i chosen to take Metrobus from there as i had missed the schedule time for Free shuttle bus to Mid Valley.
upon arrived at Mid Valley, i saw a lot of people queue up outside the building but i just walk into my office without checking what's happening.
during the morning, i just keep on research and read a lot of related information.
moreover, my superior did not tell me much on the thing i need to do but just execute the "things" that i write for yesterday and do feel quite "something" as there seems like no advertising fund to do marketing.
well, i do know that some people might say "if a pro marketer, no need spend money also can create awareness one lah" and this just make myself feel like no capability in for online marketing.
in fact, you can see that i had tried to not use some "sensitive keyword" as i afraid being "searched".
it is because that in the corporate world, you can't really put your emotions into work and i will definitely die if someone found out that i have a blog like this.
besides, i do listen a lot of story as it is related to "finding some famous people" for "something" and this make me realized that's how others people can earn so much money.
actually i do know that if i keep continue my "whining attitude", i will not go any further and it is meaningless to blog everyday even though it is just for my own leisure time to express feelings.
therefore i just can blame myself that i do not have much capable, that's why need to work for others people.
during the afternoon, i just went to have Mc Donalds with some colleagues and realized that there is no longer RM5.95 (RM6.30 after tax) for Mc Chicken set as it is replaced by the new Mc Egg set.
as i arrived back to the office, the human resource staff told me that my offer letter still haven ready yet.
therefore i still having the "worry" feelings as i was still waiting for the job offer letter because it will be consider working for FREE if i did not sign at the first day of work.
basically my job scope was about "something related" as picture below. (cannot use sensitive keyword)
at the end on my day, i was required to write my working report and related stuff since my office did not have punch card system.
around 6.15pm i make a move from there to wait for the free shuttle bus to Bangsar LRT from Mid Valley will arrive around 6.35pm.
then i went to Pasar Seni as i need to sit bus to back Klang and bought some bread.
it is because the car has been repaired from the "scratch" and i need to go drive back as my brother will come to meet me at this Thursday where he back from his Vietnam business trip.
somehow i do feel quite "sucks" to sit bus as it is very time consuming.
around 8.10pm i reached Klang bus stop and took another bus to back somewhere near my house where i reached my hometown at 9pm.
then mother just cooked some noodles and "siu mai" (chinese dumpling) as my dinner before i go back.
well, i just get "shoot" (advice) by my sister that i am "so good to do free work" for my company as i haven sign the job offer letter.
around 9.40pm i make a move from house to drive back KL and i have enjoyed myself very much with Hatsune Miku song again throughout my journey.
finally i arrived back KL house at 10.50pm and start to feel quite tired.
however, i do still have some "funny" thought to compare myself with prostitution as prostitute just need to "do" few time for rich client which can earn my full month salary and yet this is my second day of working which already can drive me "crazy" partly because i might be lack of skills.
sometime i just wondering that is it my own problem that keep causing "unforeseen problem" such as i was try to avoid difficulties task instead of facing it.
furthermore, i was unhappy because there is no leave for this coming Thursday public holiday and for the 2 week off, it is consider as no pay leave which means i will not earn anything during Chinese New Year.
around 12.30am i was feeling to login to the fake account to see how her news recently to get my "miracle energetic energy" but stopped at the end while typing.
honestly, i do feel quite "stress" and my tears was like dropping down when the "self-pity" feeling came back which make me question back myself about "why this, why that" things happened.
moreover, mother do told me that if i am not happy with the work, just quit it as there is still much more other work available but i afraid it might be my own problem instead of others.
in addition, i do questioned myself that writing this kind of "emo" feelings seems to be like want to get attention from people to pity about myself of being an "attention whore or blog whore" as i was being criticized badly in the forum.
before i end my post, i would like to share a funny video about "Internsh*t" from JinnyboyTv as below or the link >>> Here.
well, i do feel it is quite true that some company hire internship just for cutting cost instead of teaching skills to the student as most of the "chinaman company" in Malaysia was "cheapskate". (can't really blame it because that's how rich people get richer by becoming more stingy)
somehow i do feel quite "money pain" too as i had just paid RM150 for repair the car. (anyone want donate me money?)
=)