Frankly speaking, I do admit that my English is not good but at least I'm trying to write something down. However, I seems to be ruminating about "something" most of the time and get distracted easily especially when I was studying alone. Perhaps it is important to have someone to monitor me? Beside, I still have some "nonsense thought" (胡思乱想) although I keep trying to say more positive stuff such as "I'm getting better and better everyday in every way" that could cheer my day. At once I even thought that I might be Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde where I was possessed by two character.
This is because I often get conflicted when I have two Facebook account that is my real account and fake account (Lonelly Reload). The fake account seems to be playing as a "lonely" character while my real account play as a "happy+positive" person. Somehow I did accidentally revealed "something" for just few minute and I quickly removed it as I hope no one would see it. Honestly, when I asked myself "why so scare about revealing my identity?", it seems that the answer was I don't wish to let people see the bad side of myself such as having "negative thought", yet I still want to express it out.
In the long term, I had get myself devoured by the "evil" and trying to get out by having more positive thought or posting more positive stuff. Unfortunately the answer for this question would be how strong you can answer the "Why" question. As a example, you can't be asking why I'm so fat but you keep continue to eat so many junk food or not exercise that is a no point question. It goes same apply in my case where I was asking why my English writing skills seems to be not having much improving and yet I still writing in a broken English grammar way while involving myself in social media.
On the other hand, those "outer voices" tends to be keep distracting me although I know it is a choice whether you want to listen or ignore it just like what being shared in the Icarus Deception book. For instance, when you read some feedback such as "Frankly, its the truth. I saw a lot of friend of mine who is forever alone, gave up on relationship and *chiong* their dream. Then all the girls starts to go near them. Just like how you wanted sex or company. People get together for something, and love is just a very, very minor factor of it. Face the truth" and your moral value might get challenged in some way.
During the night, I couldn't present well about the Clarity book by Jamie Smart about "Clarity and Peace of Mind, Resilience, Intuition and Wisdom, Creativity, Presence, Connection, Authenticity, Direction" which is the 8 important clarify mindset. Anyway, I will try to create another mind map for the book that I read yesterday. Actually I still have some thought whether want to go to visits to some places such as Watford Junction to go for Warner Bros Studio Tour London (The Making of Harry Potter), Greenwich, Scotland, Stonehenge and Bath since I was still in UK although my main concern might be the money issue.
Before I end my post, I would like to share an interesting video about "Oldest Living Pianist, Holocaust Survivor, Alice Herz-Sommer" as shown below or the link >>> Here.
It is a true story based on the power of music and she has lived through things you can't imagine. I liked the words that she said especially "Every day in life is beautiful" and "I have lived through many wars and have lost everything many times, including my husband, my mother and my beloved son, yet, life is beautiful, and I have so much to learn and enjoy. I have no space nor time for pessimism and hate" which is quite true. If I had think deeply, we only live once, why we would want to act to live in a negative way right?
In conclusion, the most important thing is to be happy and enjoy your life because it's all that matters.
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