Anyway, I tried to spend my time by having more conversation but my I was hold by my own personal matters. In fact, I kept remind myself don't dwell because my time is my own value. Frankly speaking, there is so much thought keep going on around my mind although I know I shall stop this kind of unproductive activities. Furthermore, I try to apply the Pomodoro technique (every 30-minute session is 25 minutes of high-focus, distraction-free work, followed by a 5 minute break) to stop my procrastinate attitude to stop thinking so much but it couldn't last long. This could my side effect for self talking too much using blog platform and resulted this type of "imagination addictive" effect.
Beside, i received an electronic dictionary bookmark as my Christmas gift as I liked it very much. The Snowman walking in the air song seems to be quite nice too. During the night, I am having anxiety again because I didn't complete what I'm supposed to do during my stay in UK. Furthermore, there is few more days for me to pack myself before going back Malaysia and this make me felt "stress" especially I didn't finish write my CV (resume, job task proposal) and I still haven pack much the stuff that I want to bring back to Malaysia. Guess this could be serve me right when I rather spend my time watching some Youtube video such as "岛国奇欲记" since Akiho Yoshizawa acted in as below or the link >>> Here.
Suddenly I just feel a little sadness when think about it.
Apparently 5 days without internet when I was in the countryside doesn't really help me change much when I was addicted to computer in my past. Before I end my post, I would like to share something in Chinese about "只有笑脸的人" as shown below.
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渐渐发现，很多人不快乐的时候，都不会找朋友倾诉，甚至是，不想被别人知道。也许，我们会选择去听歌，独个儿用歌曲去抒发感受，又或是去一个人看书看剧集看电影，用情节去将自己的情绪投射的同时、也令自己再没有去思考或面对不快的时间，不要令自己有太多情绪无法排遣，也不要让朋友察觉或发现得到。
和朋友见面，也只会风花雪月，就算那天你其实工作怎么不顺利，但是你就半句都不会提起；在脸书或其他社交网站，你也只会贴一些快乐或有趣的新闻和图片，不会分享你其实已重播了多少次的情歌，也不会在 status 透露半点、其实这天你已经很疲累了 ......
越不快乐，就要越表现得快乐，但在脸书贴出了更多的笑脸，渐渐你又会觉得自己虚假、没有意义，最后你可能又会变得什么都不想说不再贴，收起一切的情绪，做一个笑脸人甚至无脸人，一个人去躲起来，逃避去面对别人，就由得情绪自己继续发酵消沉，
让自己偷偷的继续去想不通、或沉溺更多；即使你坚强地相信自己一个人可以撑下去，但你最软弱的那一部份，却没有太多人可以了解，而你渐渐又会习惯了这一种生活方式，太过适应独处，就连快乐的时候，也开始不懂得向别人分享。
是的，心情不好，大概你会不想见朋友，怕自己言语乏味、面目可憎，惹得朋友生厌，也怕被别人看不起；但真正的朋友，是不会太介意你心情不好、言语乏味、面目可憎，再难顶，也会陪你一起走过去，直到你心情好转为止。始终我们交友，并不是为了要交换微笑，你没必要看轻你自己，也不应该看轻，与你真正交心的那些朋友。
即使最后，大家未必会帮到你多少，但如果有一个人可以陪自己抒发一下感受，可以陪自己呆半天、蹲一会儿，相信难过渐渐会变得没有那么难过，就算你还想苦笑，也有对方陪你相视而笑；只要是真正的朋友，一定会愿意关心你、倾听你的问题，只等你哪些时候，觉得可以说出来了，也只望不会给你太多的压力，只愿你一个人的时候，不会钻进了牛角尖......
其实，大家并不担心你找不到其他快乐，就只担心你不快乐的时候找不回自己，也忘了，你身边还有着疼爱你的人而已。
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That's all for today, cheer to myself and hopefully I can wake up in few hour time to complete my task.
T.T