Packing Luggage With Disappointment Feelings

I was awaken at 4.05am early in the morning. Unfortunately I didn't manage to "fight" with myself and cram due to unfinished task. While packing my luggage, I was in a deep disappointment feelings due to personal matters that related to the unfinished task. Frankly speaking, I know that it is useless to write this blog post without any clear direction. Everyone also knew that life will be getting "hard" in Malaysia starting next year and it's it irony that you could earn more money by being a waitress job instead of fighting with other candidates with the RM2K~RM3K salary? Anyway, it shouldn't be compared in such way as this was merely based on my sudden thought.

During the afternoon, I finished packed 1 luggage and it weight around 18KG out of the total 40KG luggage allowance from Emirates airline. Somehow I found out that the "Enjoy 40kg Baggage Allowance in Economy Class" offer has expired in their webpage because the checked baggage allowances is 30kg in Economy Class, 40kg in Business Class and 50kg in First Class for their standard rate. (If you have calculated your allowance to be over 32kg (71lb), please note that Dubai Civil Aviation prohibits the acceptance of any one piece of baggage weighing more than 32kg (71lb), into, out of or via Dubai International Airport.) Beside, I was not sure about the check in luggage size for 75 cm x 55 cm x 35 cm is correct or not.

After taken my dinner, I have some conversation with my cousin's husband and found out that it is better not to check in any plant seeds because it would cause some problem or even get fines in some way. During the night, I did have a negative feeling about disappointment about myself due to avoiding unfinished task and seems to be not eager enough to change.
In addition, the feeling of "owe people's favor" (欠人家人情) really not good use to experience. The thoughts of "I shouldn't make this decision at first" seems to be useless because talking anything further now would not make any changes. Furthermore, "over-promise" attitude seems to be just an empty talk if it doesn't deliver. Perhaps life without internet would really make myself changes to another person. Who could I really say sorry to other than myself and it just sounds like a self pity behavior.

By now I shall understand the reason why creating value to others seems to be more important instead of focus in yourself. In fact, there is no need to seeks for attention if the things is beautiful in natural. Anyway, I'm looking forward for tomorrow activities in London although the "down" side came in due to the unfinished task again in term of resume and assignment. One thing I would like to share about self-sabotage is "You Quit When the Going Gets Tough" just like blogging as it say's "The Internet is a sea of dead blogs. What most internet marketing gurus don’t tell you is that it takes years to build a following online. I don't mean the one or two outliers who did it in 6 months. The vast majority of blogs at the top of the Alexa rankings have been around for a long time, 4 years or more" which is quite true. This could be the end for a "future copy/paste" blogging style as I were taking to myself. At last, it is quite true that my level of sarcasm has got to a point where I don't even know if I'm kidding or not. Don't feel like self negative talk so much as it could influence your real personality going into darkness one day.
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