However, I was able to increase one more cycle of "Pomodoro Technique" as I managed to discipline myself for doing 2 cycle as I went to watch the Hobbit Desolation of Smaug yesterday. During the afternoon, I continue to submit my resume after I had taken my lunch. Apparently I had received a call from a "middleman working agent" and the job is Marcomm Executive (Marketing Planning & Communications) in a legal firm. Somehow I do wondered whether want to choose the job or not because it is different from what I study. The job scope was about assisting in the coordination and updating of Lawyer's profiles/cvs, arrange the firm Courtesy Visits to Embassies and High Commissions, preparation of tenders, proposals, presentations to potential and existing clients.
At this moment there is an important question that I asked myself whether I'm talented in the e-commerce field or just "bullshxting" my so call online marketing experience. Sometime I did felt myself seems to be doing the useless stuff such as asking in forum and get some "stupid known answer" and it was did it on purpose. In addition, I do get the meaning of please don't "Sia Sui" (Embarass) overseas UK degree holders with my current qualification. The "Sia Sui" word is actually came from Hokkien dialect as (mempersiasuikan in Malay language) means the act of embarrassing oneself or other around oneself. In fact, I understand that we should plan well and shouldn't simply choose any company to work for because the most valuable things of a fresh graduate is their time.
It might end up that you're not able to ask for bigger increment if when you didn't learn much thing and suddenly realized that you need to start all over again from scratch. Frankly speaking, I was facing my "quarterlife crisis" at this moment when I start to doubt about my abilities partly because I had slacked a lot in the past. The feeling of "losing" kept coming back and the things that I could do was just keep improving myself little by little. Nevertheless, I understand that it is important to have a passion as what my uncle had the passion for the sky and eventually become successful in life. He is one of the person that I admired a lot and I do recall the lesson that to have integrity everything comes hard will eventually bear fruit in the end. I really wanted to find my passion but how could I say that if I achieve nothing if I didn't try hard?
For now, I don't really want to put down the value of a UK Bachelor's degree holders in E-commerce and Marketing as it sounds like I'm using my 5 years time to exchange with a piece of paper and that would create a bad reputation for the last batch of Tarc advance diploma junior who want to go for the 3 month summer program. However, the oversea study experience really make me to grown up in someway although it cost a lot of money. During the night, I try to learn something new from Mr Ng who taught me about PHP language but it require a lot of effort. He guided me to use Digital Ocean and install Putty although I find that it takes a lot of time to learn. Anyway, he was right that I should learn how to crawl and walk before start to run when I keep saying that it is way too much to learn with my current limited time.
Perhaps the secret to success had no shortcut as I need to learn it in the hard way. Apparently there is no use to blame the society's peer pressure when I saw most of my friend went to college. What I can really say for now about studying in college or university could be waste of time and beneficial because there is no right or wrong answer. In fact, there is no use to regret for the past although I seems to repeat the same thing over and over again. At last, I don't really want to end up as a fresh graduate who beg for job right?
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