today i woke up at 12.10am. actually i have awakens around 9.20am because my mother ask me to take care of my baby's sister as she went out to buy something. then i just go downstair to see her at the baby bouncer but eventually i had fall asleep after some moment when i lay down at the sofa. during the afternoon, i just have chicken "nasi lemak" as my lunch. somehow i saw an unknown number phone me and i just phone back because seldom people phoned me in real life unless there's is something important. then i just realized the call was from Nuffnang but i told them wrong number as i though it might related to employment as i have send my resume to them before. (LOL)
another thought was maybe because i have said something in the Facebook page that i had not even get one FREE premiere movies ticket before although i have joined their ads service for so many years. in the end, i just don't know what it would be. (anyone have received calls from Nuff staff before?) during the afternoon, i helped mother a bit to tie the sugarcane and hammer some pole into the tree. somehow i do feel grateful where my parents have planted a few useful plant such as coconut, mango, sugar cane, ginger and some Chinese herbs plant. (no coconut to cut this week~ T.T) besides, i have got my hand injured a bit due to the torn at the plant. (maybe i seldom do gardening or any outdoors activities that cause me easily injured) around 3pm the part time Indonesian maid came to my house to do the cleaning stuff for the coming CNY. then i just surf the computer for some information and news as my internet connection have back.
honestly, my "childish attitude" seems to be haven cure yet because when i see some friend's comment and got her comments in it, i will start thinking something although i have promised myself not link the few year ago post anymore. (if the solution to totally forget is by deleting all my friends that is mutual friend with her, it just prove that i am childish right? help!) however, i will just "self-comfort" by talking to myself to feel better even if it a quite negative or childish thought such as "aiyah, lonelyreload, you scare no girls want you meh? it is just you haven found yet mah, so gan jiong for what? your life journey still long way to go way? if really so desperate, the last choice mah go find prostitute lah? why so care how's other people think about you? you're nobody too~") therefore now you can see how's childish my thought as i still in my "teenager" that i still whining about my life which might resulted a lonely life. (what is your impression when saw a guy talk like that as a girl view?)
talking about prostitution, i think i have get some answer about why do men find prostitutes articles adapted from Alternet as you click the Article Words button below.
___________________________________ The appeal of prostitutes to politicians is, in fact, identical to their appeal to "ordinary" men. On a psychological level, it doesn't matter if the women come from the Emperor's Club or a sleazy strip joint. It doesn't matter if they cost $2,500 an hour or $40. The appeal of hookers lies in the temporary psychic relief they supply to men struggling with conflicts about guilt and responsibility.
Having studied the dynamics of sexual arousal for almost 15 years, and having treated dozens of men who find prostitutes irresistible, I have found that for the overwhelming majority of them, the appeal lies in the fact that, after payment is made, the woman is experienced as completely devoted to the man to his pleasure, his satisfaction, his care, his happiness. The man doesn't have to please a prostitute, doesn't have to make her happy, doesn't have to worry about her emotional needs or demands. He can give or take without the burden of reciprocity. He can be entirely selfish. He can be especially aggressive or especially passive, and not only is the woman not upset, she acts aroused. He is not responsible for her in any way. She is entirely focused on him. He is the center of the world. Now, of course, these interactions are scripted. The prostitute is acting. But it doesn't matter. For men who like to go to go to prostitutes, the illusion of authenticity is enough.
If a man is compelled to use a prostitute because it makes him feel free of guilt, responsibility, and worry, then those feelings must be a special burden to him. Such men feel psychically weighed down by the belief that they're supposed to take care of women, that they have an obligation to make women happy, to please them. Such beliefs are often exaggerated and based on a belief and perception that women are high-maintenance, helpless, or disposed to be unhappy and dissatisfied. These beliefs are formed in childhood and are reinforced by our culture. They are often false, but they can inhibit such men in their sexual relationships. In real relationships, they feel that there is always a hidden quid pro quo, that they can't get much unless they give a lot, that they have to pay a high price for getting what they need. Of course, intimate relationships then suffer. For these men, a prostitute is sought as a relationship in which the man can "let go" and freely express his most selfish desires without feeling guilty and worried about the effect of these desires on his partner. ___________________________________
as for myself, i did not go for prostitution and still maintaining my so call "virgin" although i had "TFK/DIY/Masturbate" before. (no real intercourse with another person is still call as virgin guy right?) there is few reason that prohibited me to do so was shown below. ________________________________ 1) I scare Buddha Karma. (boy's who play girl will end up suffer a lot in hell.) 2) I want to maintain my "good guy image" on others people view. 3) Get infected with Sexually Transmitted Diseases (STD) or Human Immunodeficiency Virus (HIV). 4) It would be not fair to your love partner if you "cheated". (偷吃) 5) Might end up no excitement when came to marriage. (that's why so many divorce case happen) ________________________________
when someone asked what would end prostitution, one person laughed and said, "Kill all the girls" but this would take "all the men to be locked up". on the other hand, i do received a lot of feedback from the forum comments if you click button below.
1) Long long ago. If prostitute gets virgin they rugi geh. Not only the prostitute don't get paid. They must pay angpow to they virgin boy. This unwritten rule maybe was valid in your father time. If he don't know then check with your grandfather.So why you so sucker get born in this time and age.
2) Say also don't lor. Say enough time sure end up do geh.
3) That's a little unfair. I disagree with the whole business of forcing a woman into sexual slavery myself, but I would like to point out that there are women out there go into this field of their own free will, either because they enjoy the job or want the easy money.
4) Prostitution is a disease that generates and perpetuates broken homes which creates a future where children do not receive a healthy family life.
5) Still its dangerous for your gugu. If later gugu itchy, pain when peeing, darah darah, smelly, how? Eeeyer i don want to even imagine.
6) Damn! u remind me of a person i know..that treat a jiken like his gf...bring her out movie/dinner etc and give her branded bags and even a handphone... haiz....
7) Pancakes should be banned and illegal! Why? Because the consumption of pancakes is unhealthy. It makes you fat. It promotes gluttony. Gluttony is a SIN. Why are pancakes not banned, but prostitution is? On a more realistic note, let's put aside pancakes. However, I do think its hypocritical for anyone to think that prostitution should be banned but will not take the same stance against smoking as well. Those of you who smoke but disapprove of prostitution are just outright hypocrites, plain and simple. For me, you will never get satisfaction from pros. At the end of the day, i know i am paying them to make me feel good to make those sound, for rheir service. Someone mentioned its not satisfaction, but addiction. I totally agree. Do not judge those to visit pros. I am neutral actually. Its your way of life so long as you are happy. ________________________________________
besides, "thanks" to Anonymous comments but currently my blog have been spammed with a lot of "buy viagra+robot" comments as you can see it as accumulated almost 45995 dated today as below.
seriously until now i still haven found any solution except enable the word verification but it would make some people feel annoyed and i just delete it manually everyday. around 5.30pm i went out to buy "Shu Fen Geng" (薯粉根) as my dinner as it was one of my favourite food. during the night, i just spend about two hour to read the books that i had borrowed from Tarc Library yesterday.
somehow i do feel a bit annoyed when reading the "72 Amazing Ways to Internet Profits" because there is few sentences that i feel a little "butthurt" since i still haven do anything up to date and feel free to click the "10 sentences" button as below.
___________________________________ 1) Observe what is happening on the internet, then decide whether want to become either a creative or innovative marketer, it will give you more profit but reduce your word load. Then, take action!
2) If you ask a general question, you will get general answer simple as that and it is not a good thing if want to be successful in business.
3) If you are persistent and take action on daily basis you can have a success in your life.
4) Real students of success love to read about successful people in the chose field because you can “learn” from them, see what other successful people had done, how they overcome obstacles, setbacks and disappointments.
5) If the idea of spending whole week to read a book turns you off, then think of it as a learning experience, if you still have it, then you probably should consider other field than “starting a business”.
6) Once someone finds out how profitable your online business is, it doesn’t take a rocket scientist to figure out how you achieved it, if you are getting traffic from the search engine, it is just a matter of time before your competitors figure out how you get top ranking at Google.com.
7) Don’t just go trying find new ideas, but look at old ideas as a reminder of your present situation, “repeat” information may lead you to getting more ideas because if the idea is available on the internet, don’t be disappoint as it prove that the idea works, otherwise people won’t be talking how useful it is.
8) When you’re working, you must constantly have in mind that ultimately what you want to achieve from your online business and the answer would be work less, earn more.
9) There are two ways for you to make money online, either you sell your own product or sell others people product as an affiliate.
10) Your time is very valuable, spend it wisely to be supper effective such as think first before you do anything by asking yourself “Are you doing what you are suppose to do to achieve your goal or you’re just avoiding the things that you dislike?” ___________________________________
well, i think i realized something about how other's people earn those money when they see there might be some opportunity. for example, "some" (don't know who caused they hide the whois) people make use of the "Dr Richard Teo" keyword about his sharing of Life, Wealth, Success & Happiness by creating the domain name using "Exact Domain Match" (EMD) to generate a passive Google Adsense income. frankly speaking, i do "envy" about those people can earn income from GA while i just keep talking empty in the blogging atmosphere until now.
furthermore, regarding the "Malaysia prostitution website" that i don't know who make it, i also found something interesting how they can "cheat" those pervert old uncle to pay money. well, i think i shouldn't use the word "cheat" as they was smart in doing business although it is quite illegal in our country. for example, i believe RM100 to some uncle is just a small amount but let's say if one day got 10 people pay RM100 just to get the so call "Golden Key" to see the picture, the website owner would be earning RM1,000 per day by just sharing more "prostitute blogger review". anyways, most of the website was in Chinese and the below content was the email i used to "spy" on their way of writings. (sorry lazy translate)
anyways, i just feel that at least they tried to earn something rather than me just know how to talk only.
perhaps i should create such a similar site although it is quite illegal? (say for fun only, those who knows me know i just know how to talk, not to take in action) somehow i do feel it was true that maybe there is no short cut to earn fast money if you did not involve in some illegal stuff. at last, i would like to share a meaningful+funny sentences when you writing a love cards to someone that is "Do me a favor, i couldn't think of anything to write, so please pretend that you're reading something really touching, maybe even wipe away a tear, and then look at me and say, "That's so beautiful, i didn't know you could write like that", then if anyone ask to see the card, refuse and tell them it was just too personal, thanks, i owe you one..." as shown below.
in conclusion, i just want to say what i write is just purely my opinion and it might not brings any facts. furthermore, it was true that not much people would believe what's a blogger said as some people might thought it is a paid review. in fact, i do know myself well that i am consider a useless guy where i spend my time in blogging by writing useless feelings everyday. besides, luckily i no need to use my mobile to blog as it was more time consuming. perhaps my sister was right that i have so much funny thought was because i was too FREE in my life. what a "lonely+emo" night again but i seems to "enjoy" it although i am not really and not much people will give a damn how i feel too. T.T
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