well, today was the official day of Chinese New Year after yesterday family reunion dinner.
therefore i would like to wish you guys to have a Happy Chinese New Year 2013 and all the best throughout this whole year.
somehow i just feel like my life seems to be happening quite similar when compared with last yearCNY 2012 as my post tends to be more boring as there is nothing special happening other than whining about my life when i keep writing it everyday.
after having some "dried meat" with bread as my breakfast, i helped my mother to prepare the raw material for cooking as there will be another second round of potluck dinner at another relative house.
around 1.20pm i have some noodles as my lunch.
then i help my mother to pack the money into the "Angpao" (red packet) as it was a tradition to give to others people when you're married.
while searching some information online, i just found an interesting picture to share about which is "Every Chinese New Year, Ah Ma Say's" as picture below.
on the other hand, i have a little confession here that i still have the "childish thought" of "Can't you just care for me just a while" (睬我一下会死咩?) when i send some wishing message to "someone" (girl) but did not get reply despite i am already 23 years old guy this year.
perhaps this is what people say's when a girl's don't have feelings towards you, she was "cruel" to reject you (当女人对你没感觉，她会狠狠的拒绝你) although my so call love story had been ended long time ago.
in addition, i do receive a reply from the "Chinese prostitution website owner" because i was wondering is there any "earning opportunity" when create similar website although it is illegal in Malaysia and the reply i got was shown below.
of course i do feel "butthurt" when he such thing because if i got earn, then's is okay to say that but it is not and this is like what's happen in my real life too where some people thought i am rich but i am not.
anyways, i also realized that it is good to have a strong direction of goal where he have a high level of confidence and mission/vision to help those "desperate lonely guy to find girls" and earn some money from it although it is illegal. (at least he is doing something rather i am talking empty?)
somehow i also recall back one of my cousin sharing "something" yesterday about marriage where he say no matter you're married young or older as the divorce case is still high although he was already 41 years old.
during the evening, i just enjoy eating dried meat with Shandy drinks and the feelings was so good.
then i just went to sleep since i feel quite tired.
the moment i woke up again was 6.40pm and get myself prepared.
around 7pm we make a move from house and went to my father's elder brother house for "Lou Yi Sang" and have some potluck dinner.
well, i just feel this year CNY tends to be lack of something and one of it was that i no longer can play fireworks due to i am an so call "adult" where i can just watch those little children playing.
then we continue to gamble for 21 blackjack and i just lose RM2 in the end of the game.
around 10.30pm we make a move from there to back home and i finally reach home at 11.10pm.
in conclusion i realized that the reason i feel "sad" was because i have a "poor heart" where the people around me seems to be so rich while i still doing nothing much to earn money.
well, my "definition for rich" in my dictionary now is to have at least three RM500,000+ above property, have a RM100,000 value car, eating good food everyday and earning about RM10,000 per month. (don't get offended as it was my just instant thought about something that i can't achieve with my capabilities now where i just write it for fun)
besides, i think one of the reason i can write till so long everyday was because i am actually quite free and just want someone listen about my opinion since i don't have much people to talk with in real life. (got so pity meh? don't know? LOL!)
at last, my wish for during this CNY was to be happy until the end of this year.
=)