somehow i still remember that i have a hard time sleeping yesterday as i was lying down on the bed for quite some time trying to sleep because tomorrow is my first day working in gaming industry.
moreover, don't know why my leg having a little pain and the i still can't fall asleep when i check the clock was from 3am until 4am i still haven sleep.
in fact, yesterday was a "Pai Tian Kong" (拜天公) event for Hokkien people but i did not celebrate it.
anyways, i just quickly prepared myself because my working time will start at 9.30am.
around 8.35am i make a move from house but took a taxi because afraid will arrive late to Kl Central.
as i reach Wangsa Maju LRT, i saw some of my friend and we took the LRT together although i just meet them few weeks ago before Chinese New Year 2013.
when i reach the KL Central at 9.10am, i can't have Mc Donalds as my breakfast although i want to eat because my sore throat illness haven cure yet.
somehow i reach there early 15 minutes and the environment of the office was looks okay to me.
during the morning, i did not do anything since the PC haven setup for me and it is lack of some hardware.
well, i just got to know few new colleagues and realized that our boss was a Japanese guy.
around 12.30pm i went to have my lunch with the Japanese boss and a colleague.
frankly speaking, i do feel a little regret that i did not take the initiative/motivation to take the learning Japanese language during the moment at Tar College although it require to pay extra RM200+.
if i ever take that extra paid course last time, i would definitely understand what are they talking about since he was talking with another colleague that also speak Japanese language.
therefore i do feel a little awkward when they speaking and i just can smile when they laugh.
besides, the boss also quite looks quite humble when he speak English we me and i do questioned him a lot of things as i was curious about Japan's related information.
for example, he told me all the Sushi King, Sakae Sushi, Sushi Zanmai, Sushi Tei and other local brand's Japanese restaurant is having different taste when compared with Japan's Japanese restaurant because the Malaysian's Japanese restaurant had been "localized" to suite with the local market taste.
moreover, i just know that why some Japanese people ate Whale's meat was because they was poor during those olden days as it is consider illegal to eat Whales nowadays where it is an endangered animal.
anyways, the boss do eat before the Whales meat and the Japanese most famous Bluefin tuna's (cost few hundred per small pieces) where he say it is quite nice to eat. (i don't know, never eat before)
furthermore, my boss seems to like to play golf and i feel that it is essential to know someone interest before can create a conversation with people.
upon back to office, i do get a new monitor but need to format the PC which spend most of my time.
therefore we just a have a little meeting and i do start to feel stress and i not sure whether i am capable to handle it or not as i did not have that kind of those "in-depth analytical tracking" knowledge.
one thing i can confirm now is no matter what company you go, you should not expect the company to teach you much thing because they was hire you to help company to earn money, not to educate you where you need to research all the available source by yourself and come out with an solution.
therefore that's why i was feelings "stress" because i might incapable to handle it but i keep told myself "die die" also need to settle it and don't feel afraid as long as i will not "die" for the worst case scenario.
it is because if i can't meet up to their working requirement, the worst case i will face is they "fired" (sack) me or i leave the company only right?
in addition, i keep told myself that don't like last few week ago having the "First day or last working day" feelings, then confident drop when i still waiting offer letter at the second day and finally resign after working 3 days for Free.
anyways, i think i should not think so much and just stick to the main objective which is to help company to maximize profits no matter using what techniques despite the feelings is like influence the youngster to become addicted on games so that they will spend more money to play games.
in fact, no business can survive without any sales/income and this is the harsh truth i must accept whereby if no sales, company how to provide salary to me?
at last, i think my situation now was quite "dangerous" as i just know so many "in depth analysis" information when they trusted me by showing me all the company credential information of private reports.
around 7.40pm i make a move from the office after "pretend pretend to be hardworking" work till so late as it one of the "working skills" that i learn from superior last time.
guess what, i just feel my life seems to be so "coincidence" as one year and this month, it was my first time working for Marketing Executive job but luckily i had cleared now when reading back the old post and now two day after the date of last year, i am still writing a similar post of working first day.
after that, i just took LRT back to Wangsa Maju and have my dinner in Kopitiam Desa again at 8.20pm.
finally i arrived back home at 8.45pm and just feel quite tiring but quickly went to take a quick bath to get myself energetic.
frankly speaking, i do know what is poor really means such as no place to say, no food to eat but the "poor feelings" i mention here is myself have a "poor" heart feelings.
for example, i do have a childish and immature thought to my own father that "haiz, father ah father ah, you do business so long liao still haven success, some more say got almost 30 years of experience in the printing field, other's friend father got open factory already living in big bangalow house by their age now, having few luxury car parked in their house, when they son/daughter want buy car, their father direct help them pay a lot of down/full payment for the car whereas your son (me), keep whining and complain about how poor he is and now working for others people" which is something i would never say in real life.
furthermore, my fathers seems to be easily angry nowadays partly because the business not good.
in addition, you might say that i should be proud to use own capability to earn money to pay for my own living expenses but who will really give a damn to me when my banks account left very less (don't feel to say, see liao also very sad) money that eventually generate the "poor" feelings that i having now.
therefore it just end up giving me a "jelly" feelings when i just can see rich people always gets the things they want so easily with their parents bank.
however, would i become a mean person if i came from rich family or ended up as a "Bai Ga Zai" (败家子) that is like a prodigal son?
somehow it might be true that when you did have the thing you have and when you get it, you will eventually tends to be more appreciate and treasure it.
for my case if i want to be rich, it seems that finding rich people or rich connection is the only way and this is why people likes to be crony with the government to get those project/tenders.
maybe this can explain why the opposition political party just can "butthurt" to see the government simply spend money because themselves can't due to poor? (no idea, simply say)
over time, i used to keep track of myself by keep updating my feelings to see whether i have improved or not but it seems like there is still a long journey for me to grown mature.
that's why i can't really blame why those girls want to choose a mature guys as their husband.
besides, i would like to share an interesting picture about "11 ways to be un-remarkably average" as below.
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2) Don't question authority.
3) Go to college because you're supposed to, not because you want to learn something.
4) Sit at a desk 40 hours a week for an average of 10 hours of productive work.
5) Go overseas once or twice in your life, always to somewhere safe and easy.
6) Get the largest mortgage you qualify for and spend 30 years paying for it.
7) Don't try to learn another language, everyone else will eventually learn English.
8) Think about writing a book, but never do it.
9) Think about starting your own business, but never do it.
10) Don't stand out or draw attention to yourself.
11) Jump through hoops check off boxes.
Here lies an un-remarkably average man. You don't have to live your life the way other people expect you to.
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perhaps i will just end up "dying alone" like the guy did working for others people and only get a material rewards that does not bring him happiness in the end of his life.
anyways, this post was finished updated at 1am and i seems to be still so keen to update my post everyday despite i know i have left not enough time to sleep and wake up to continue work for tomorrow. (anyone want donate me money for writing so long? LOL)
in fact, i am sad that i seems to be got cheated from promoting the "adult products" where the advertiser did not reply me back after i had done it.
T.T