Very Poor Feelings (穷到死)

today i woke up at 11.30am.
well, my throat was getting more pain and i quickly drink a lot of water.
after that, i get myself prepared because will be going out to have some lunch and visits a relative house.
around 12.10pm we make a move from home and went to the V Garden Restaurant (辉煌大酒家).
it is because my uncle was one of the "Cantonese association community" and he bought the ticket for us.
the lunch started with "Yee Sang", continued with "Poon Choi", fish vegetables and others.
somehow i do feel a bit "pity" for the magician because everyone is busy eating instead of watching him performing as shown picture below.
on the other hand, i do listened a lot of different kind of story from my uncle and other's old uncles that sit same table with us but i don't know it real or not.

for example, he say the "Cantonese Association" (广东会馆) does not make any income when organize this kind of event and even all the top management member need to pay extra to fund this kind of event.
moreover, some of them pay the scholarship (奖励金) as a motivation's education fund for youngster who score an A for Chinese subject.
another kind of sponsor is about giving any Chinese's family who have give birth to more than 4 children a reward of RM1000 as a motivation to increase Chinese population.
however, i don't it is effective because raising a children is so damn hard compare to the older generation when they talk about our younger generation don't feel like giving birth.
after that, the event is continued with some little game to win some "Angpao", lucky draw hamper and the chairman's speech.

well, the Chairman (会长) apologize for coming late because he was attend the Prime Minister Najib where they organize an open house for Chinese New Year as there was 333 tables+ at don't know where today.
however, i do get an "insider news" that every association leader who go for the open house can get RM2,000 (don't know for what and i don't know it is true or not since there is no online source said where i just heard from people about this sensitive things)
in addition, i also heard something like the government will keep give out money to attract more votes where one of the uncle said "they don't care liao since the money they use was our AH KONG money" and this might explain why they might increase the BR1M  financial fund of RM500 increase to RM1000.
anyways, i just feel that luckily i am blogging with an anonymous identity because if not, i might be arrested into jail for "misleading" people to gain vote for opposition.

after that, we went to one of my relative house at Bukit Kemuning and arrived there at 3pm.
somehow i have a very sad feelings during the moment at there and can't express it out because it is something i dislike about my own father. (as a son, i can't really say some bad thing about him)
seriously i just have a "Wanna cry feelings" and this proved that not everything can be express out so freely in the online world no matter how anonymous i am.
around 5.20pm we make a move from there and my sister's husband just can fetch me to Bandar Tasik Selatan KTM instead of Asia Jaya LRT as it is not very convenient. (顺路)
anyways, i reached the TBS Terminal Bersepadu Selatan around 6.05pm as below.
it is because the feeling is like "Chap Sang" (捡生) which means figure it out yourself when i at there.

then i just asked around and read the guide as you can see below when i was at the Tasik Selatan station as shown below.
around 7pm i reach Wangsa Maju LRT and went to have my dinner at Kopitiam Desa (好口味糖水小点) where i still like the cheap food at there with my favourite "Laici Tofu" dessert.
after that, i went to cut my hat at Mocco hair studio and just feel quite "sucks" when they said there is no RM15 for student cut promotion during Chinese New Year.
moreover, it is also cost RM26 if you just want to cut your hair without wash and left me no choice.
furthermore, i do feel myself quite "bias" when a guy washed+massage my hair because normally this is done by a girl.
however, i also have a little chat with the hair washer guy and it seems that he was same age with me.

then i just comforted myself that "lonely reload ah lonely, you still want how oh? people same age with you work as hair washer also no complain/whine so much like i did" where i talking to myself.
around 7.40pm i went to take bus back KL house and finally reached home at 8.10pm.
somehow i do feel a little "sucks" again when received a SMS message that i have won a grand price of RM20,000 from The Shell but the website shown is ww.shell-malay.co.nf where it look so obvios that it is a scam message as shown below. (wonder how they can get so much number to send?)
after that, i continue to check on my SHU online application status.
then i found that i have a record in their system that i had registered during 18 December 2011 and myself do read back my post on that day as shown below.
certainly it is "sucks" to read back on that day post as i say want to have a new goal but end up like nothing.

in fact, that time i had applied to Sheffield Hallam University with a failed result.
anyways, it is to see it back now where i did questioned myself "WTF i doing that time?" in my heart.
at last, i want to talk about my "promoting adult product" post yesterday and want to admit that it is consider as a "sponsored" post where i need to put the advertiser links.
therefore i had "hold" my yesterday feeling as it is related to a "Very Poor Feelings" that make me feel emos.
so if i had written too much of my personal feelings, advertiser might not happy, if advertiser not happy, there is no money for me.
in fact, it is a "Write First+Publish, Pay Later" basis where i had take a risk by waiting for their payment to me since they was from the United States company.
hopefully this will be not another "Scam/Cheat" case that i will being conned by the advertiser.

moreover, all because of the "poor feelings" i have, it make me so desperate until accept to promote it.
sometime i did feel "funny loh" for myself that my blog post just can attract those "18++ things" as it is like "No blogger want write about it, then only me willing to accept" this kind of offer.
furthermore, it was my first time to promote an adult website after so many years of writing own feelings.
over time i feel myself seems to be "changed" because of MONEY as you can see my case now.
therefore i have no rights to say one of a "Girl Fan Page" that she have around 170K fans because last time when i ask whether she have provide advertising for her page and she say NO but now she say YES.
therefore this had proved that over time, a people can lose to the power of MONEY no matter boys or girls  just like what i feel too as i grow older.
so i just feel that this concluded that not everything came free in this world.

guess it was true that no one really give a "shxt"of what you feel and this might generate a negative attitude of "if you are poor, that's your problem" in our society.
however, it would be great if the advertiser really pay me and this explained why some people write article also can earn until 5 figure income every month in a part time basis.
in addition, i do wonder if the government pay me RM10,000 for writing good stuff to support "BX", i would accept it too since i am desperate for money?
the reason why i having this "very poor feelings" which is like "Poor Dao Si" [Poor Until Die] (穷到死) was because this coming week i need settle the two payment of "A bank draft for the amount £300 payable to Sheffield Hallam University and another bank draft for the amount RM200 payable to Kolej Tunku Abdul Rahman" for my SHU application.
another reason i feel "emo" when some online friend thought i am so rich in real life when got so much follower and reader in my blog but the fact that i what i write is based of my feelings 99% of the time.
however, if you like to earn some income from writing, you can try Sponsored Reviews as i have personally earn some bucks from it last time.
the disadvantage f accepting it was the blogger will only accept 50% of the payment.
as an example, advertiser pay you 10 USD to write but you only get 5 USD in the end.
moreover writing too much of the sponsored post will definitely spoil your website credibility.
in the end, i would like to advice all girls who read my blog to find rich guy to marry with because a poor guy will whine a lot and having a lot of problem when facing the materialism world. (don't compare with boys who still living in Kampung rural area)

in conclusion, i just want to say that time really can change a person feelings/behavior.
so i might just another hypocrite guy too in future. (hope i will still maintain this "naive" thought by that time)
tomorrow will be a new start for me as i will be start working and i hope i am able to delete all me negative feelings based on the first impression since i don't know what will happen also.
=D