somehow i don't really sleep much because keep thinking about my working related stuff as i haven complete the "Chinese keyword" for advertisement.
besides, i was extremely tired because yesterday slept around 2am+ and just can keep hold myself thinking an "creative" idea for company's marketing plan.
around 7.40am i get myself prepared because wanted to finish the work at office.
well, it is quite "sucks" to wait for the bus during the morning as i have waited about 20 minutes and finally i arrived at Wangsa Maju LRT at 8.20am.
upon arrived at KL Sentral, i just went to buy the marble cake as my breakfast again since it was the most cheapest breakfast (RM1.40) available there.
as i arrive the office at 9am, it seems that my Japanese boss had arrived at the same time as me.
then i just continue my working related stuff before my superior arrive to check.
after that, it seems that there was a bunch of Japanese student came to visits our office and i also not sure why but my boss went to entertain them.
somehow i feel myself quite "pervert" when those Japanese girls (around 20++ people aged around 16~21+ years old) greetings "Konichiwa" all together which make me thought about those "Japan porn" as it sounds like "Kimochi" to me.
perhaps it is because i seldom can see a real Japanese girls and some of them really beautiful but my mind was quite "dirty" during that moment.
in addition, i just have a feelings of want to learn/study Japanese language at that time.
around 1pm i went to have my lunch at Burger King since there was having a RM5.95 promotion as it was consider cheaper than eating at Sooka Sentral.
during the evening, it was my most "scary moment" during the meeting because i was been question what i have done last week and i seems to be can't answer well.
moreover, i was stress again because this week is the "product launching" and i feel i can't reach the target as i need to gather around 900 register user and approximately 10,000 clicks for the "link" everyday for continuously a week.
seriously this feeling was not good because as "an experience employee" from my past experience, i want to find 100 real people via online also quite hard even though with advertising technique.
furthermore, my body seems to be automatically "shaky" as i don't have confidence can do it.
somehow i just remember what my father told me before about working for others people that "If a company can pay you an X amount of salary, they was expecting you can perform 3 to 10 times of the salary that they paid to you" which is so true.
therefore the worst case scenario for me is to get "fired" (sack) if i can't perform/deliver the result with my marketing plan and did feel "regret" to be consider as a experienced worker because i need to contribute more base on my past experience instead of learning from others people.
moreover, the feelings is like "being used" (被利用) as my value to the company is to provide useful information about online marketing method and i had already give up 80% of my knowledge.
in fact, i really keep remind myself don't give up no matter how hard it is because i don't want like last few week where i resign after worked 3 days at another company.
honestly, i admit that i have that kind of "crying feelings" which is quite immature/childish when facing stress/difficulties although i am a guy.
anyways, the thing to make myself to feel better is keep telling myself don't think a way of "losing" (不要怕吃亏) while contribute those knowledge that i experience from the past from ex-company.
around 7pm i make a move from there and to take train back Wangsa Maju.
while on the train, i feel that the only thing that can make me cheer/happy a bit was to see some beautiful girls around and i there is one office lady which i quite like whereby she have a cute big eyes and shorter than me.
when i reach Wangsa Maju, i just went to have my dinner at Kopitiam Desa and it seems that there was a lot of people every time as they have the cheapest fried noodles that cost only RM3 with some curry chicken and a cup of plain water.
well, i was trying my best to control my budget recently as i have the "poor feelings" despite i know it is bad to have such thought as for law of attraction. (so does that means that i need to keep tell myself that i am rich, very rich, very good, very happy, very handsome and all the positive stuff?)
in fact, i had "squeeze" from other extra source of income by transfering the Paypal money that i earned from "promoting" to my Maybank account and also the cash out Nuffnang payment button for this month although it is just very little (really very less loh) as you can see my previous record of total 4 years earning from it.
finally i arrived back home at 8.05pm and feel quite tired again as yesterday i only slept about 3 hour. (T.T)
actually one of the reason that i hardly sleep before 12am was because i need to update my daily life record into my blog.
sometime i do wondering does it necessary and the answer seems to be quite "blur" (not clear).
when further deeper asked myself whether does blogging benefits me, certainly it does such as expressing feeling but it tends to be too over and it seems like "blog whoring/attention whore" to someone.
however, it is quite weird because no people will "store the feelings until night time only release out" and this might explain why some guys choose smoking to release their stress because it is instant effect.
before i end my post, i would like to share an interesting video about "The Lego Story Short Film" as below or the link >>> Here.
basically the video was about the LEGO Group history from 1932 to 1968 in an animated short film while celebrating its 80th Birthday.
according to Wiki, Lego is a popular line of construction toys manufactured by The Lego Group, a privately held company based in Billund, Denmark.
the company's flagship product was Lego which consists of colourful interlocking plastic bricks and an accompanying array of gears, minifigures and various other parts that can be assembled and connected in many ways to construct objects such as vehicles, buildings and even working robots as shown toys below.
seriously the story was so inspiring and as it prove that perseverance, hardworking, passion and ability to take risk is the key to success in life.
however, when i looking back at myself, it seems that i have go into a wrong direction as i am working for others people instead of building something for myself if i want to be success.
one thing i feel that is quite true that each generation will continue be better if you keep focus on your core business no matter it is family business or any others.
furthermore, my friend do told me before a family business fail usually due to being cheated or go gambling.
it is because when one generation dies, they will reimbursed with insurance money that will pass to their son to start business and each when the son's die, the asset will pass to the next generation which show that why people will become richer and richer.
on the other hand, it seems that no use to envy other people filthy rich asset or compare myself with them because it will only make myself suffer more in the end of the day.
so if they want to be "lansi" (mean) that they have sport car to drive, earning RM10,000+ salary, have tons of property, it is totally up to them. (you can say that i am a loser for saying such things but it's okay for me)
furthermore, my friend do told me before a family business fail usually due to being cheated or go gambling.
it is because when one generation dies, they will reimbursed with insurance money that will pass to their son to start business and each when the son's die, the asset will pass to the next generation which show that why people will become richer and richer.
on the other hand, it seems that no use to envy other people filthy rich asset or compare myself with them because it will only make myself suffer more in the end of the day.
so if they want to be "lansi" (mean) that they have sport car to drive, earning RM10,000+ salary, have tons of property, it is totally up to them. (you can say that i am a loser for saying such things but it's okay for me)
at last, i still having the frustrated feelings because i feel myself was incapable to perform the marketing task for my new company and i seems like waiting to be sack since it was a "result oriented" performance.
anyways, i keep remind myself to think positive when compared with yesterday whereby better than being an "emos" guy right?=)