well, today was known as Chap Goh Meh (元宵节) festival which represents the 15th and final day of the Lunar New Year celebrated by Chinese communities.
therefore would like to wish all of you to have a Happy Chap Goh Meh 2013 元宵节.
according to the olden days, this events was related with "Throwing Oranges Events" or known as "Pao Kam" in Cantonese language whereby the girls was allowed to go out home to pick the oranges that thrown out by mens from the nearby river together with their contact names.
anyways, i did not have any place to go for today since i myself have a low confidence in finding partner.
somehow i feel it is like doing yearly record of my life again when i check back my Chap Goh Meh 2012 post and it seems like i did not improve myself much despite one year have passed.
it is because until now i still haven able to "support" myself, how can i care for others people, yet still want to find a girlfriend? (自己都搞不定，怎样管别人?)
therefore i am agree with those older people saying that you must keep upgrade yourself in order to improve.
on the other hand, i think i should be thankful to God for giving me a "horny sex dream" with the girl i like although it was just a dream. (hopefully it will be longer dream next time~ LOL)
after that, i just have some biscuit as my breakfast and have some chat with my sister.
well, i was agree with my sister when discussing about the "police had arrested those people who bought baby as their children" as there was pros and cons.
for example, if think on the baby's point of view, some of their mother was raped by others people and hence selling their baby away.
so when the baby was bought by a rich family who can't able to produce baby, they might can provide an even better education and lifestyle for the baby but the police had arrested those parents who buy baby as their own children.
however, the disadvantage was it might encourage more kidnapper to kidnap new born baby to be sold to those rich people.
anyways, no people will really know who is right or wrong as there is so much things to be debate about.
during the afternoon, mother cooked some delicious meal as our lunch because we will be preparing to back KL to work.
well, i can't find back my 2012 post about "opening all Ang Pao event" as it was my yearly routine to count all the accumulated red packet money.
anyways, the total i get for this year was around RM900+ but have used all to pay the £300 pounds sterling deposit money for SHU application.
around 3pm i make a move from house and brother fetched me to Taman Paramount LRT.
when i reached there at 3.35pm, i took the train to Wangsa Maju LRT and arrived at 4.20pm.
somehow i keep reading the books that i borrowed from the library to "kill" my time.
finally i arrived my KL house at 4.40pm and went to wash my clothes.
after that, i keep on research some information and still finding the "Chinese keyword" for my working related task.
in fact, tomorrow was the deadline and i was quite worry because if i can't perform well to my Japanese boss, i might get "fired" (sack) by him.
so my "goal" for now is try to sustain myself as long as i can in the new company because i don't have much money left to survive in KL and i need the salary badly.
moreover, i told myself that "die die" also need come out with something to present tomorrow no matter what.
seriously working is not same as studying because if you can prepare well for your tutorial class in study, the worst case is being scold by tutor whereas if in working, the worst case is being sack by boss and this is a matter of "live or death" because you need money to survive.
therefore my task now was to "settle/satisfy whatever boss want me to do" and it had become my motivation to work.
around 9pm i went to have "Cincang ayam" (minced chicken) as my dinner despite the weather was still raining.
in addition, when looking those couple eating happily just now, it just remind me about the Chap Goh Meh festival out of sudden.
well, i was agree about what the video says regarding the organic chemical of Dopamine can make people addictive.
anyways, i don't really have much mood in watching porn because i have a very weird funny feelings that "No money lead to no motivation to chase girl, if no think about girl, how to think about porn?" thought.
~.~