! A Growing Teenager Diary !

today i woke up at 7.45am.
actually i had awakens automatically around 5.55am but went to sleep back due to tiredness.
after having some biscuit with chocolate as my breakfast, i went to common room to online since our block's internet connection still on the offline mode as we were told that it would be fixed on this coming Monday.
after done my research, i went back room rest a while and microwave the chicken curry as my lunch before heading to the Adsett library at 11.50am.
upon arrived there, it seems that there was not much people and i just continue to do my stuff.
well, it seems that the individual PIC report marking method was diferent with last year when i asked a friend about it.
somehow i just feel that the main reason i couldn't finish it was due to think too much and did not write much.

in fact, i just wondering how i can write so much my feelings but not the assignment about general specification, competitors, target market, intellectual property and others.
around 5.20pm i reach home and keep thinking the ways to write more while waiting others friend preparing the barbecue party at somewhere near Park Hill Sheffield.
after all the preparation, we make a move around 6.50pm and started to grill it using the instant grill package.
honestly, i did have a lot of feelings again during that moment thinking about "something" and sometime it seems to be great living in the "imaginary feelings" that at least can be cheer up a bit.
anyways, i would totally agree with what Mrs Anonymous saying that every individual has a different personality by nature but it doesn't matter how we are different as we must have something in common that is self-confidence about ourselves.

on the other hand, i just feel that it is true that when you did not talk much, other's people might feel you're unfriendly or not outgoing person.
therefore i realized that the people who take action to talk or express out their feelings will eventually get what they want.
for example, if a guy did often approach a girl, how the guy can chase the girl right?
anyways, it was quite a harsh truth that i understand a lot but taking actions tends to be holding me back as i still thinking back of my own weakness that eventually made me having less confidence.
anyways, i just did my best to keep smile no matter what since it has been a long time i keep carrying the "emos" feeling inside my heart that eventually make me hard to "fake it" become a very outgoing, talkative or interesting guy.

what i can really say was the way we think about ourselves will really affect our life.
at the end of barbecue party, we celebrated a friend birthday and continue to take some photos.
moreover, it seems that drinking beer in the cold weather was quite good as my body will feel a little warm.
besides, i do heard a lot of information regarding backpacking and travel stuff.
somehow i just feel that studying in UK seems to be very enjoy as people will keep talking about travel where and next destination.
frankly speaking, i was having a little hard time to manage myself and did feel time seems to be not much when every week had the weekend trip.
furthermore, it seems my decision to buy all trip at the first week of college from the hubs tends to be waste as other's people will sell out their tickets for a cheaper price after heard others people said it was not fun.

overall the barbecue party experience in Sheffield was good although i might be consider as a stranger to the current new classmate.
in conclusion, i just can say i realized a lot of stuff that happens was actually came from myself and really feel "funny and afraid" when thinking my past for "someone" about the things i had done.
if you ask me, i wish it did not happen but that's seems to be a way of life where we can't predict the things that happen and the most important things was think before you speak.
finally i arrived back home at 12.40am and just feel so tired again with a stress feeling for the individual coursework that need to hand out next Tuesday.
perhaps i was "playing too much" such as cooking Japanese Chawanmushi and other not very important things.
(Self Expenses note: Today £3.50, Yesterday total £315.60, Total up to date £319.10)
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today i woke up at 5.35am.
after getting myself prepared, we make a move around 7.50am waiting in the downstairs room.
around 8.20am the bus make a move from the Hubs although they did not check tickets whether we have it or not as below.

anyways, we received a tourist attraction note for the place to visits in Blackpool just like every weekend trip like the Whitby for last week as shown below.

somehow i still some stress thinking about the PIC assignment and i just write down some notes in my phone in order to get some idea later and this blog post was actually based on my phone's note since i had forgotten a lot of stuff as it was quite hard to recall back something 4 days ago although i know it is not necessary to remember so much things.

well, the journey took about 2 hours+ driving journey and we reach Blackpool around 10.45am.
then we start to walking to Blackpool Eye Tower and i just took some picture along the way such as below.

however, it seems that most of the place need to pay for the entrance fee to visits such as Pleasure Beach Blackpool that have roller coaster, Water Theme park, Madame Tussauds, Coral Island, Tower Eye and others place as shown below.

therefore i might start to understand why some friend say it was not worth to visits Blackpool as it was just a "waste of money" if you just walk around that area without going any amusement park.
around 12.30pm we arrived the Blackpool Tower Eye and we just bought the tower entrance and Tower Circus for £12.50 via online because it would be expensive if you buy at there as shown below.

therefore the place we did not go was Blackpool Tower Dungeon and Black Tower Ballroom.

the first thing we enter the entrance was to take a 3D spectacles to watch the 4D movie inside a glowing dark room as shown below.

then it is followed waiting the lift to go up for the tower and i do record a bit experience when i was inside the lift where a staff say it would take 69 second to reach to the top as shown below or the link >>> Here.

upon reach to the top of the tower, there is few more staircase to continue walk upstairs until the limits and i just took some picture as shown below.

around 2pm we walk back to the downstairs to go for the Tower Circus and i just took some picture at the lobby while waiting others friends as below.

when i reach the environment inside, it seems that there was quite special to me as shown below.
perhaps it has been around 10 years i did not visits circus before.

the performances circus start with 2 person while one of it was a clown and continue with some performance as shown below.

after some moment, there was a staff told us that we cannot take picture of the performance.
anyways, the performance ended with a stage full of water and i thought circus was involving the performance of animal and a friend told me that the protection rights of animal is very strong at UK.
therefore there don't have any performance involving animal and all of the performance was about people.
according to my phone's note, it seems that i was "imaginative someone" while sitting with a short hair girl although i feel to talk something but ended up.
in fact, it was just my imaginary and "self assumption" whenever i saw any short hair girl while heard that she was already have boyfriend.

seriously i did feel "funny" when saw such thing written on my phone based on that day feelings.
however, one thing i do really know and real was as i grow older, any girls or boys will either being chased of chased by another partner and those leftover seems to be "having own problem" that eventually lead to being single and even would be remain the same for the rest of their life. (talking to myself)
anyways, i just can say it was my "own personality" problem that resulted the "me" of today's and guess i shall think in the more positive view.
after that, we went to take some picture at the "comedy map" located in front of the Blackpool tower eye.
then i went to buy some Mc Donald's as my "lunch" since i was quite hungry and collected another Despicable Me 2 toys from Happy meal as shown below.

somehow i did know myself seems to be quite "childish" for buying such things.

around 6.05pm we make a move from there and i just sleep during the moment at bus.
somehow i did listen some story shared by a girl that sit in front of me talking a guy about her "love story experience" as i eventually listened since the voice is quite loud.
anyways, i just can say everyone has different personality and there is no exact way to understand a girl feeling throughout as i seems to finding "some answers" about life.
finally we arrived the Hubs at 8.25pm and continue to walk back home.
well, there was no internet connection again as the notice say will be fix on Monday.
during the night, i just microwave the curry rice with hams and hotdog as my dinner below.

seriously i can't do really much things without internet and start to feel frustrated about the assignment.
on the other hand, i just feel that time passes so fast as it was already 1 month i stay in Sheffield UK.
as for the food expenses, it seems that i only use around £100~£150 per month without adding the trip or buy some others stuff.
overall i feel that everything we do was just trying to make ourselves and i tends to be on the other way round partly because it had become a "habit" and "no motivation.
anyways, this post updated back after i handled my PIC assignment although i really feel to write down every single things happened to me but over time, i might not able to achieve it and would leave here one day.
perhaps i had discover a lot of my own weakness as i write more and sometime not everything can said in the public no matter how "anonymous" i am in the blogging atmosphere.
(Self Expenses note: Today £14.70, Yesterday total £319.10, Total up to date £333.80)
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today i woke up at 7.30am.
then i continue to read the information that i stored previously about the assignment related things.
however, i just feel tired and do the "power nap" skills again but i eventually fall asleep.
the moment i woke up again was 9am and realized the reason why i feel tired was due to no eat any breakfast as we would only have the energy to do after eating something.
around 11am my friend arrived to my house and cooked some egg sausage to wrap with tortilla as our lunch.
after that, we went to another friend house to do assignment since the internet connection still on the down mode although i saw there is some technical stuff fixing it.
somehow i was feeling stress because the deadline to pass up is tomorrow but my progress still very slow when compared to my friends.

during the evening, we went back to our hostel and the internet connection has been recovered.
then i just cooked some instant noodles around 5pm as my "dinner" tonight.
somehow i was quite agree with a friend's saying that it is all about mindset problem because if you feel you can't do it, then you can't which might be friend.
besides, the friend also share some story about a guy faced 99 rejection from girls before can get 1 girl to hang out which make me feel that it is all about how a person can accept rejection in life.
after that, i felt so stress again when every moment keep passing while i can't really write much academic stuff for the assignment.
anyways, i just keep forcing myself to write anything that i could by following the reference that i got from friend's who graduate last year.

while i was in a "blur mode" during the midnight, i suddenly done something that caused me to have a "dying feelings" for panic shock when there it no way to retrieve back the data when i accidentally closed the Microsoft Word tab and below was my feelings on that moment.
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seriously was in dying feelings now as i accidentally close the file without safe it when select "No" changes to Microsoft document although i haven complete yet resulted a sudden panic shock, that means PIC individual coursework get 0% of of 50% if delay 1 day according to the website saying that about the penalties for handing work in late as the answer was "If you do not hand in a piece of work by the specified deadline or you don’t attend an examination you will receive a mark of zero and will fail. You will then need to re-register on the module before you can have a further attempt at assessment. This will incur a fee and you will need to attend lectures and seminars again? goodbye to my UK academic journey? deep shit now can't really find a way to express my current dead meat feelings as i am not same with those pro study student. sorry to my father and mother for wasting your effort to let me continue study at UK, i don't even deserve a degree cert at SHU.
having too much thought and a very negative emotion almost cause me gone crazy without sleep whole night.
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sometimes i do feel that maybe i shouldn't go for the Blackpool trip since there is a lot of stuff need to do.

anyways, the assignment has been settle since this post was updated back when pass up my work.

(Self Expenses note for new month July in UK: Today £0, Yesterday total £0, Total up to date £0)
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today i did not sleep.
it was probably due to the "panic shock" feelings as my file deleted and can't really think much sentences to write throughout the night.
frankly speaking, i did really felt to give up at first when i have the guilty feeling towards my parents and there was a lot of negative thought surrounding me.
somehow i just told myself to find the solution instead of being panic around 6am in the morning.
then i just sent an email to my seminar tutor to ask whether can i extend my assignment submission time.
while the time keep past by every hour, i just getting more nervous as i trying to write something but just feel so helpless during that moment.
moreover, i just skipped my Product Innovation and Creativity lecture class at 9am.

suddenly i received a reply email from my seminar tutor around 10am and told me that he can't give me an extension deadline for late handling assignment but advice me to go Student Help & Information Point (SHIP) in the Stoddart Deli area to get advice regarding my problem.
besides, i just search some information from the Hallam Union Academic Advice website where it stated "What can I do if I am not able to meet the deadline for my coursework?" while the answer was to complete a EER1 form available on Shuspace and get agreement from your faculty.
after that, i just quickly pack my stuff and walked very fast to the Stoddart center to find a person name "Sue" from the advice given in the email.
when i arrived to (SHIP), the staff just gave me an "Exceptional Extension Request Form" to fill up while waiting the person who in charge to meet me up.

after waiting for some moment, there is a staff come out and we went to the canteen coffee shop while i just told her my problem.
well, it seems that she believed me without need to hand out the evidence that i can proof and gave me an extension deadline to this coming Thursday.
seriously i was totally feel so thankful to her or else i really would be the first person who fail the exam before going for final in Sheffield.
however, i still need to attend the PIC seminar class after that but don't really recall much things as my mind was so blur as i couldn't understand much thing during that moment.
after the class end, i just quickly walked back home to get some rest and the walking journey back home seems to be so heavy when i felt pain towards my leg.

after sleep for about 2 hours, i seems to be automatically wake up due to stress.
then i just quickly start to write something but suddenly after some moment the file was missing again as i did not save.
seriously i just feel it is so "unbelievable" because how could the same things happen twice that even myself also feel hard to believe although i did not write much things.
after that, i phoned a friend for help and advice me not to panic while he would borrow his laptop for me to use later at night.
then i just forced myself to sleep because i can't really think what to write as it was quite exhausting.
during the night, i just cooked instant noodles as my dinner and realized that i did not eat much food throughout this whole day.

later on, my friend arrived and gave me some advice to start write out something.
honestly, i do feel myself seems to be so "useless" because such a "simple things" also can't settle.
somehow i do asked myself whether having the "Dyslexia disorder" as i seems to be a slow learner and having a lot of problem within myself.
when day by day pass, i seems to be understand myself more and more but tends to be losing confidence in myself over time.
perhaps it was because my mindset was thinking too much of things or weak in planning my work just like what being said about "remember failing to plan, is planning to fail" in the PIC book.
around 9pm i went to sleep back again and couldn't recall anything after that as this post was written based on the short note that i wrote inside my phone's note.
(Self Expenses note: Today £0, Yesterday total £0, Total up to date £0)
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today i woke up at 2am.
somehow i think it might due to yesterday slept too early at 9pm if i am not mistaken since i have no memory about it after that.
anyways, i just continue to do a little about the assignment and sleep back at 4.25am.
the moment i woke up again was 8.10am and quickly get myself prepared to attend the E-Business management lecture at Adsetts centre.
well, the lecture teaches about the rise of social media with its advantage and disadvantage for company to implement for getting a better market awareness.
well, i was quite agree when she said "just because a company spend money on you, it doesn't means that they will keep spending money on you" since i have a little past working experience in social media.

as an example, a lot of big company in Malaysia such as Maxis, Digi, Celcom and other's will keep spend a lot of advertising money in Facebook but i think they will stop it advertise on it one day.
moreover, i feel that the lecturer sharing was quite true about the people who spend time on social media sites was actually "too free" and nothing to do. (seems to referring myself)
another things that she said that make me feel demotivate to keep blogging everyday was "be careful when you post anything online as it might haunt you one day" because myself do understand the risk when someone find out my real identity and it was actually useless or not necessary to tell other's people about your personal life. (feel sucks)
seriously not much people would understand my intention to keep writing as i don't really have the bravery to talk with real people and do know i have my own personality problem.

one thing that the tutor said that i feel so true and real was "Nothing In Life Is Free" (exclude oxygen) because everyone would have a motive to do something.
however, it would be different intention if a person was facing death and that person mindset would change to help someone who in need regardless of money or other's stuff.
if i was facing death one day, i think my blogging effort seems to be telling the whole world that at least there is a person named "Lonely Reload" (nickname) exist in this world that can be a long term proof for at least few hundred years as long as internet never dies.
in addition, the SEO capturing cache technology that can trace back every deleted link, web achieve service that store a domain name screen shot whether it has changed owner or never renew seems to can prove my existence in this world. (LOL, feel like writing my own death story now)

there i do have the fear of social media privacy while i still alive because it might just keep bring a lot of disadvantage to myself. (imagine a lot of people stalk you whole day, why did you still do? =.=)
anyways, it is still a very good debatable topic to talk about "Free stuff versus Money" and the lecture just share an interesting video about "Obermutten -A little village goes global" as below or the link >>> Here.

well, i think why the village was so successful might partly because the people like to see unique things.
therefore i was agree about a statement saying that "Test everything you do, keep track of your results, refine your methods and trust no one because marketing isn't something you learn, it's something you do" in life.
in addition, i just record the lecture class again because afraid miss out something as shown below.

overall it was a great learning experience although it sounds like common knowledge and i know i might not be able to absorb everything that being teach at there.

after the class end, we went to walk around 99p stores, Fulton market, Castle market to buy something before going back home.
upon arrived home, i just fried the bacon, chicken hot dog, prawn and egg as my "English breakfast set" for my lunch as below.

around 1.30pm i went to attend the E-Business management seminar class and it was about the Linked In case study.
anyways, the tutor shared an interesting video about "Social Media Revolution" which i quite like it as below or the link >>> Here.

one thing i was agree with what the tutor say was "if an assignment can be completed within a day, there is no use to call it as assignment" especially you're now in learning for your degree certification.

after that, i walked to Castle market again to see any things that i might find useful to buy.
finally i arrived back home at 5.30pm after walking the few small booth shops.
during the night, i just cooked some instant noodles with some vegetable, bacon, fish as my dinner as shown picture below.

later on, my friend arrived and assisted me for my assignment.
besides, i do shared the Turkish Delight chocolate together and it was quite delicious to eat as below.

somehow i do impress with him can do it spontaneous as he had helped me with the social and technological factors for PEST analysis and target market with segmentation analysis.
around 11.40pm my friend went back and i just "die alone" with my assignment again.
at last, i had finally finish do it at 6.10am in the morning to meet the deadline of submission assignment date and quickly went to sleep.
overall today feelings was just stress when i discover more and more about the "bad side" of myself but luckily it was over now.
(Self Expenses note: Today £6.40, Yesterday total £0, Total up to date £6.40)
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today i woke up at 8.35am.
well, i was feeling quite shock when wake up at such time because i need to attend the academic study skills at Stoddart centre at 9am although i just sleep around 2 hour when i sleep at 6.10am yesterday.
anyways, i quickly get myself prepared and went to attend the class as soon as possible.
upon arrived there, the seat seems to be almost full but luckily still have places left for me and we get some paper sheet distributed by the Lyndon tutor.
basically the academic study skills teaches about how to write a professional English in our report and assignment that can bring lifelong benefits to us.
the first part teaches on how to analyze the component of an essay title by separating the topic, focus, instruction and restriction of a sentences.

for an example, "Outline the advantages of using computers in the workplace" answer would be computers is for topic, advantages is for focus, outline is for instruction and in the work place is for restriction.
next, the tutor teaches us to further understand the meaning behind every instruction of question such as support means agree with, describe is to look at the surface of something, investigated is to look for, assumed is to believe something without evidence, illustrate is draw picture with words or writing step by step in business academic and others more example.
besides, i just realized that there was a lot of words that need to be avoid slang or idiomatic language and try to use another word such as avoiding using "like, things, lots of, little/big" replaced with "for example, factors issue, significant number and large, few many" that need to be specify.
there is one word that i remember most was "getting worst" that can be replace with "deteriorating" word.

after attending the learning study skills for academic writing in this lecture, i realized that my English level seems to be still stuck in my secondary level and there was a lot of grammar error with wrong usage while i faced a very hard time to learn or improve my English partly because i had written almost the same things for so many years.
seriously until now i don't really know which English, Chinese, Bahasa Malaysia language that i am good at other than my mother tongue Cantonese language.
after the class end at 11am, i quickly walk to Adsetts Library to print my assignment and it seems to be quite expensive to print each paper that cost £0.05 per pieces and i just reloaded £2 for it.
then i continue to walk back Stoddart and head to Student Help & Information Point (SHIP) to pass up my assignment.

well, the staff there just told me that the deadline for submission was actually 5th July and i don't really need to fill up the "Exceptional Extension Request Form" (EER1) but it was the seminar instruction to pass up during seminar class as everyone also passed up few day ago.
anyways, i just can say this would be a very "extraordinary case" for myself to have such experience.
after passing up, i do feel a bit relieve and also worried about my work as it it not very good.
then i went to top up £5 in my phone for Lebara network and realized i had used a total of £15 accumulated from last month.
on the way walking back, i went to Castle Market to see anything can buy and saw a live lobster tied with bands that sold for £12 moving around out of water just like the picture below.

somehow i don't really know whether want to laugh or not as it looks like a poor living thing being tortured.

during the night, the "guai lou" (foreigner) housemate suggested me to cook the "english fish pie" with milk since i don't really want to eat instant noodles again.
well, the ingredient was potato, cod fish, egg, milk, flour, beans, some seasoning pepper and he helped me to prepare it as below.

the "English British fish pie" process took about 1 hours+ because need to put in the oven for about 25 minutes and it is finally ready as shown picture below.

frankly speaking, i just say the taste was "quite new taste for me" and i don't really know whether it would make him feel that "it is horrible to eat or not" because normally people will say "good good" whenever someone cook but that time i also say "still acceptable" which maybe sounds offended.
overall it was a great experience for to have some communication with "guailou" foreigner people although i don't really understand much about British English culture.
(Self Expenses note: Today £10.30, Yesterday total £6.40, Total up to date £16.70)
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today i woke up at 8.05am.
then i get myself prepared and went to attend the Strategic Marketing Lecture at Stoddart building.
well, it seems that the venue had changed to Adsetts centre and luckily the lecture haven start yet.
the morning lecture teaches about the Ansoff Model, Porter's Competitive stance, strategies based on competitive stance by categorizing market leader, challenger, follower and nicher.
frankly speaking, i just feel it tends to be exactly same like what we learn in Strategic Marketing and Decision Making (SMDM) at our advance diploma back in Tarc College.
anyways, there was a sentences that i like from the slide was "If you don't know where you are going, any road will take you there" by Lewis Carroll's Alice in Wonderland.
after the class end, we walked around the area while waiting for the next seminar class.

somehow i do have some thought again within myself when my friends share about finding what job, buy car, house and others things after back to Malaysia.
perhaps it was because until this moment i don't really have much bigger goal and just be a follower by listening what others people said.
around 11am we went to attend the Strategic Marketing Management seminar class and it started with my friends presenting the Metropol Zoo case study.
then it is followed by the Avon case study and i just got to know about their "Door to door Ding Dong" selling method during the olden days.
after the class end, i walked back home with a friend but he asked me to follow go out together instead of keep staying at house.

therefore i just followed him and went to take the FreeBee bus to Aldi supermarket to meet up with some others friend.
while walking along the way to Aldi, i just took some picture around and bought a chicken pasty that quite nice to eat for £0.50 as shown below.

upon arrived at Aldi, i just buy some cheese, butter, hot dog and others things can be cooked.
after that, we head to KH Oriental to buy something since there have more different type of Chinese food as shown below.

the next destination we went to was Tai Sun Oriental which is also similar to KH Oriental that sell a lot of different type of Chinese food that can be cooked as below.

well, i just manage to buy the instant noodles although it is consider a bit high price.

honestly, i still not able to overcome myself to talk more when walking in a big group or with so many girls around and do know that it was partly because i don't really have much things to talk.
if i am able to put myself in other friends point of view when they saw someone did not talk anything throughout the journey, it might be means that the person might be not friendly, not sociable, boring or being mean right? (self assumption)
in fact, i did really asked myself if i was to talk something, i don't have anything talk rather than spreading "sadness or emos" feeling to others people.
finally i reach home at 4.20pm and it is quite tiring.
during the night, i just cooked the Korean "Jia Jang Men" instant noodles with hot dog as shown below.

somehow the taste was just okay only as i was not very familiar with it's taste.

after that, i just continue to see some information online while waiting for the Disney Party In Replica Nightclub Sheffield organized by Viva La Fiesta.
actually i saw a lot of people "throwing the price" by selling the ticket for a very low price such as £1 and i did feel a little "butthurt" to buy at £5 during the first week of school semester as shown below.

the reason why they don't feel like going was probably the bad experience from the previous James Bond Party experience in Bloo88 and Embrace Nightclub Sheffield that resulted this incident happen.
therefore my advice for next year 2014 Tarcian junior who buy weekend trip or party ticket can don't need so rush to buy all at first week because over time, some people would have the feeling don't want to go by sell cheaper £1~£2 or even half price.
moreover, it is important to attend the academic study skills since although it looks like not useful.

around 11pm we walked to the Replica Nightclub using the Google Map guide that i saw previously and there was a lot of people queuing up at the entrance door as shown below.

when i going in the club, it seems that the environment is not very good since the place is packed with a lot of people and below was some picture taken at there.

besides, i also order the Vodka sorted mix that cost £5 for 3 bottle that have red, blue and white colour and the most drinkable was the white colour which taste like 100 plus from the menu as shown below.

around 2am i plan to leave and just took some video during that moment where everyone is dancing for the LMFAO Sexy and I know it" and "Psy Gentlemen" song as shown below or the link >>> Part 1 and Part 2.

before leaving there, i just took a last scene that i saw from the club as shown below.

well, i did feel a bit "lonely" when walking alone since i just inform my friend that i am leaving.

while on the way walking back home, i saw another group of friend and they asked me to follow go to Genting Casino but i decided to go back home in the end since it was already quite late.
the sentences that i found meaningful said by a friend was "it is so stupid to think over the past or someone that offended because people who you feel offended will never feel it and you just need to ask yourself what does it bring to you other than sadness" that is quite true.
overall my feelings for this Viva La Fiesta Disney Party was not very good since i don't really know what to do inside the club other than "jumping" on the floor and it is like "shock sendiri" (ownself happy) which until now i still don't understand why those girls like this kind of things.
finally i arrived back home at 2.30am and my ex-room mate from my previous KL house in Malaysia just told me that their house has got robbed yesterday 5am morning for a total of RM26,000 cash.

seriously i still doubt it because where got a Tarcian student will bring RM22,000 in cash on hand that is quite unbelievable but it is real since he say the housemate keeping it for paying school fees or another thing.
anyways, they had make a police report and the police came to the KL house to take picture.
moreover, the police also "scold" the housemate who bring RM22K cash for not thinking logically for holding so much cash instead of using cheque.
somehow i do feel that there might be something "fishy" happening since the overall case is so coincidence.
before i end my post, below was the Chinese transcript for the Chan Fong (大城心事) sharing program every Friday but there was no recording.
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1) 第一位：阿玲～她的男朋友（交往 7 年 / 双方都是北马人）要求和她先注册结婚，目前对方目前 KL做工，但是她不适应当地的生活甚至越来越不能和他相处下去，有想过和他分手的念头。【陈峰大哥叫她先搞清楚对方的性格到底是否符合自己不讨厌的接受范围之内，如果和自己原来想象的有出入就应该理智的决定是否要离开】

2) 第二位：邱太太～她孩子目前进入反叛期，她不知道要如何管教他们才能让自己放心，她担心孩子误入歧途学坏。【陈峰大哥叫她减少对孩子不断地唠叨碎碎念，不能用太强烈的方式去教导孩子】

3) 第三位：阿君～三十几岁不曾拍拖，她不知道要怎样和异性接触和表达才能有机会进一步的发展。【陈峰大哥建议她可以试着多参加一些社团活动或者是相关的联谊会等等，必要时觉得对方如果是自己喜欢的对象和类型也不妨大胆去向人告白】

4) 第四位：Alferd～他姐姐一年前开了一家摩哆店，他当时在那里帮忙打理了九个月，后期姐姐觉得生意业绩不如预期的理想然后想转手给他再向他要个割名手续费，他觉得这个要求优点过分（毕竟他始终觉得兄弟姐妹之间的关系不能因为钱而被破坏关系）。【陈峰大哥劝他先不要急着创业，创业前必须要搞清楚当时的目标和精神为的是什么，决不能是因为外在物资的影响而受到干扰就冲动】

5) 第五位：阿杰～他太太和自己最要好的朋友有染，他不足道药怎样和太太继续下去。【陈峰大哥认为他应该成全他太太和那个男人在一起，拖拖拉拉下去不是大丈夫的作风】

6) 第六位：林小姐～她在工作上整体来说一切都算是顺利，但是感情方面对象竟然是她工作伙伴兼上司，现在的情况和条件又让她爱不释手。【陈峰大哥劝她记得要把感情和事业拆开来看待，何况对方已经是个有妇之夫更是不能把关系继续发展延伸】

7) 第七位（最后一位）：晓雯～她女儿开始拍拖谈恋爱了（而且还是同性），同时还对于她这位母亲的关系也因而开始渐渐疏远，她无法接受和理解这样的事情发生在她身上甚至也控制不了自己的情绪。【陈峰大哥原则上也是不同意同性恋，但是也劝她不要尝试去阻止女儿的决定以免互相伤害甚至也很可能导致母女关系破裂，只能说要尊重女儿的选择权】
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hopefully someone will have the podcast recording as i wish to listen it back.
(Self Expenses note: Today £10.40, Yesterday total £16.70, Total up to date £27.10)
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today i woke up at 10.45am.
at first i was planning to wake up early but it seems that i can't due to sleep late yesterday after back from the Disney Party organized by Viva La Fiesta.
then i just search some information about the few ways to cook eggs and others simple dishes.
somehow i decided to make my own Burrito with Tortilla wrap since i still have a few ingredient leftover in the fridge.
around 1.50pm i walk to Tesco Extra to buy something with a friend and the walking journey took about 20 minutes from my house as we arrived there at 2.10pm.
well, the was quite a lot of people compare shopping when compare to last time i had visited here during the night time.

anyways, i just bought some ice cream, salt, white ground pepper, tortilla wrap, Heinz tomato ketchup, sweet corn and other stuff that interest me.
upon arrive to home, i prepared the ingredient of the food that i will be cooking and i would like to share on how to make Burrito with Tortilla wrap.
first of all, you need to prepare bacon, egg, butter, hot dog, cabbage, Mozzarella cheese and tortilla wrap.
then heat up the pan with butter to cook the tortilla wrap, followed by frying the egg, continued with bacon and hot dog and put all into a plate as shown picture below.
next, just put the cabbage into the tortilla wrap, then half egg, half sausage, half bacon, half cheese, tomato sauce and start wrapping it up together.
well, the taste of my own cook Buritto was quite delicious and very full to me.

the whole process of cooking and eating took me about 1 hour+ when i finally finish make it at 4.10pm.
after that, i went to settle my clothes laundry and dry it.
then i just borrowed the "ping pong" (table tenis bat) from the hostel facility and played with my friends.
well, until now i still haven learn much on how to "smash" the ping pong and it seems quite hard to learn it.

anyways, we played until 6.50pm and i went to my friend house a while.
upon arrived home, i plan to cook the sweet corn and it was quite easy when i just heat up the sweet corn using butter and salt without adding extra water to it as shown below.

during the night, i went to my friend house and he helped me to cook the "Sichuan hot noodles sauce" as shown below.

the paste of the noodle seems to be very spicy when i keep sweating while eating.

after that, i went to take my Ben and Jerry's clever cookies ice cream and go my friend house to share different flavour of it such as the Ben and Jerry's Half Baked ice cream and Ben and Jerry's Clever Cookies ice cream as shown below.

later on, i just watch the "Awfully Lawful" (熟男有惑) drama from Hong Kong and just feel that the "Solo" character in the drama seems to be suite with me.
on the other hand, there was some "negativity" thought came back again and i still need to see those "poor and rich" video to cheer me up as below or the link >>> Here.

it is because some people don't even have clean water to drink everyday and looking at myself seems to be just "wanting too much" when i still complain on some small stuff.
therefore it might be true that when our basic need is fullfilled, we tends to be wanting more and more.

during the midnight around 1.30am, my house phone keep ringing but i did not pick it up.
after some moment, i heard someone knock our door and my heart seems to be quite worry.
when i went to open door, it seems that there was 3 guy asking me for the "ping pong bat" since there was a record that i had borrowed it.
anyways, my feeling at that moment was like "OMFGBBQ" (unbelievale) because it was already 2am in the morning, yet there is still people want to play ping pong at midnight.
perhaps they was too bored when there is not much activity can be do as a Tarc student who don't like to play computer games.
at last, i just told myself to sleep early tonight because tomorrow still need to go for the weekend day trip to Liverpool city.
(Self Expenses note: Today £9.20, Yesterday total £27.10, Total up to date £36.30)
=)

today i woke up at 7am.
then i get myself prepared as we will be going to Liverpool city for this week just like last week's Blackpool weekend trip from the Hubs Sheffield.
frankly speaking, i do feel quite tiring to continue update myself using blog and start to feel frustrated when asking myself why so particular to update my life that bring not much value to people or even myself rather than just a place to "express or whine" about my own feelings?
anyways, i still continue writing again after ~~complain~~ saying so much thing after knowing so much disadvantage of social media privacy invaded and other negative stuff.
around 7.45am we make a move walked to the Hubs and waited quite a long time inside the bus because there was another bus going to Bicester Village.

as usual they did not check our ticket and we would be getting a brief introduction about the place to visits in Liverpool city as shown below.

after waited for almost an hour, the bus finally make a move at 8.50am and we just fall asleep in it.
around 11.10am we reach Liverpool Albert Dock and i just took the surrounding picture as shown below.

then we went to the Beatles stores as shown below.

during the afternoon, we went to Chinatown Ma Bo Chinese restaurant to have our lunch and i just ordered "Wan Tan Mee" noodles for £4.50 (RM22.50) that is the cheapest food in the menu as shown below.

somehow my friend joined another group and we just continue to walk to the Liverpool Cathedral church.
upon arrived there, i just continue to took some picture inside the church as shown below.

well, i do saw "Simonhar Blogger" but i did not tell him since we were just stranger. (top)

actually i do have a feeling that "a group" from the beginning of college was important because they was the friend that you will be hanging around for 4 years+ since diploma while i just "alone" from the beginning in my "own imaginative" world.
therefore i think i am qualified to say that a longer friendship bound is definitely important than a shorter friend that you know for just few month and no matter which group you join, there will be definitely have those gossiping issue from other people to you.
honestly, i don't really feel happy regarding this matter since my life tends to be so "complicated" and it has been a result of accumulation for years that caused the "me" of myself today.
anyways, i walk with another 2 friend and we headed to the next destination which is Metropolitan Cathedral using phone's GPS.

upon reached the Metropolitan Cathedral, i just realized that we're not allow to take picture inside the church and below was some picture of it after i noticed it.

after that, we walk on to our next destination which is Liverpool World Museum and just took some picture around the surrounding such as Liverpool John Moores University (LJMU) and radio city tower as below.

when we arrived the World Museum, the building is dividing into five floor and we move from the 5th floor that is space, time, planetarium; 4th floor is dinosaurs, natural world; 3rd floor is world cultures, ancient world, ancient Egypt, Weston Disovery Centre; 2nd floor is bug house, Clore natural history centre and 1st floor is aquarium from the directory board as shown below.

therefore i just took some picture around there with my "noob" camera as shown below.

guess i was "jelly" for not having a DSLR camera to take those professional photos.

actually there was a lot of picture that i had take but just feel to keep in other place.
after that, we walk to the next destination which is Museum of Liverpool as shown below.

well, there is not much things to see at this museum when compared to the world museum because this Liverpool museum just have 3 floor and mostly display on train and some historical facts.
before leaving there, i just buy some cheap pencil as my souvenir visited there since i don't feel like spend much money on it.
around 5.30pm we walked back to the Albert Dock that just beside the Merseyside Meritime Museum to gather waiting for the bus.
somehow we did not manage to go to Aintree Racecourse to see steeplechase because it is too far to walk for 2 hour on single route since we don't have any transport.

around 6.05pm the bus started to make a move from Liverpool back to Sheffield and i just sleep throughout the journey.
finally we reached the Hubs Union at 8.35pm and i just feel quite tiring to walk back hostel.
during the night, i just make the Burrito with Tortilla wrap using same ingredient again as my dinner and finish cook together with eating it at 10pm.
overall i just can say that one day is not enough to visits most of the place in Liverpool city.
on the other hand, i do heard that some people spend most of their time shopping in Liverpool for branded item while i did not buy any since i feel it was not necessary.
what i can really say about the weekend trip was always based on what is your objective whether you're focusing on visiting place, focusing on eating, focusing on shopping or others things.

as for myself, i would like to focus on visiting more places than spending $$ to buy things back.
maybe i was "jelly" that i don't have a huge financial fund such as £7,000 to spend on buying things as i heard from others student.
seriously i do asked myself that the reason i keep feeling "not happy" was probably don't have much money to spend and wondered whether i would be happy if i have a RM100,000 to spend on the overall SHU degree program?
however, the answer seems to be not always about $$ issue but also with the person i going with since i don't have much people to hang out as my past seems to be very complicated and messy.
moreover, until this moment i still depend on my blogging platform to cure my so call "lonely feelings" or express my dissatisfied feelings that seems to be a totally wrong move to start since i am sure i would be deleting all this whining stuff one day just a matter of time.
in conclusion, I want to refresh my mind, delete all my problems, undo all my mistakes and save the happy moments about my life but it seems impossible due to my personality problem.

(Self Expenses note: Today £6.80, Yesterday total £36.30, Total up to date £43.10)
=D

today i woke up at 9.30am.
after having my some biscuit with chocolate as my breakfast, i continue to search some related information related to social media marketing topic as i need to submit another 50% E-business management coursework at next week 15th July 2013.
actually my friend asked me to go follow go to Meadowhall shopping mall today but i had rejected as my "excuse" was doing assignment.
however, i was addicted to the TVB latest drama movie that is "Awfully Lawful" (熟男有惑) and manage to finish watch until the latest episode.
during the afternoon, i cooked the curry instant noodles with mozzarella cheese which is quite special and the taste was quite nice to eat just like putting cheese on top of pizza.

then i continue to watch the Awfully Lawful Hong Kong drama in a quite fast pace to catch up 16th episode.
basically the plot of this drama was about the 4 main male character who was a well known lawyers across the industry and how they overcome their relationship by understanding girls together with other story.
well, i just have a feeling that if i was one of the character in the movie, i would be like the "Solo" by Roger Kwok as i seems to be "enjoy" with my living alone lifestyle.
besides, the girl's actress that i like in this drama movie was "Grace Wong" (王君馨) because she had a short hair and was beautiful. (feeling quite funny within myself)
however, several discussion of forum criticize that this Awfully Lawful (熟男有惑) Hong Kong drama was actually copying the "A Gentleman’s Dignity" (紳士的品格) Korean drama but i not sure whether true or not since i seldom watch Korean movie.

through this drama, i think we can learn a lot of moral value and the reality of our world whereby we might do something bad just for money without knowing it is the things that we want or not as shown below.

in fact, i might be able to understand a few thing about why people who "wipe their boss ass" (拍马屁) would have a lot advantage when compared with those people who did not talk much.
frankly speaking, i do worry about my future job since it would be a more competitive world at that moment but just told myself don't think so much again.
anyways, i just like one of the song that being played inside that is "Take My Breath Away" by Berlin as shown below or the link >>> Here.

during the evening, i went to update my yesterday Liverpool weekend trip blog post since i have been delayed it for quite some time although i know it might not necessary to keep update.

around 7pm i went to the kitchen to cook my own home made Burrito with Tortilla wrap as my dinner as shown picture below.

somehow i just feel that i might eat to eat this same food for two more time since i have bought more ingredient at Castle Market last time.
overall today my mind tends to be think a lot again and it is quite frustrating when i seems to be doing nothing much.
on the other hand, i just feel that sometime having dinner with a big group of people tends to be more happy than eating alone.
later on, i listened to the "Love You You (2011)" 夏日樂悠悠 song and quite like it as below or you can watch the full movie in the link >>> Here.

perhaps i should not listen to this kind of "emos" song at first?
somehow the "assignment stress" feeling came back again but i just told myself to stay positive.
(Self Expenses note: Today £0, Yesterday total £43.10, Total up to date £43.10)
=)

today i woke up at 7.55am.
then i get myself prepared and went to attend the Product Innovation and Creativity lecture at Stoddart.
well, the lecture teaches about the development process and split out the product architecture with it's relationship to cost of prices.
there was one quotes that i like from the lecture slide was "Good design is about looking at everyday things with new eyes and working out how they can be made better, it is about challenging" (James Dyson) and the lecture advice us to put quotation for the group assignment since a lot of people did not put a person quotes in our individual assignment.
besides, the tutor also shared a video about Unibody of Macbook Pro design at the link >>> Here.
therefore this might explain why so much people being so obsessed with Apple product due to the precision.

after that, i just went to buy some drinks from the canteen using the voucher that i got from doing the library survey with my friends.
then i went back to attend the PIC seminar and it was the last day for the tutor to teach us before changing to another tutor.
anyways, the seminar is the continuation part of morning lecture and i just feel it is quite complicated to split out the component of my product and voted for others friend product to do for the group assignment.
after the class end, i walked to the Castle Market to see anything that i want to buy and just bought 2 packs of peeled prawns for £4 since i like to eat seafood.
upon arrived home at 1.45pm, i just make the Burrito with Tortilla wrap as my lunch again but this time i had added with fried prawns instead of using hot dog.

somehow i just found out the egg that i put inside the refrigerator had been cracked due to the temperature was too cold.
therefore i just throw away the remaining 5 eggs and feel a bit wasted although i had tried to cooked it into hard boiled egg but the texture of it was so hard.
after that, i continue to do some research for my E-Business assignment but the tired feeling came back during the evening and i just went to rest.
the moment i woke up again was 6.20pm and just cook the pineapple ham pizza by adding extra mozzarella cheese and prawns to it as my dinner as shown below.

however, i don't know why the bread of the pizza tends to be so bitter (苦) to eat and i just eat the top filing of it while throw away the bottom toppings.

then i cooked another pack of instant noodle with sausages and cheese as my dinner since i am not feeling very full.
during the night, i just saw some friend celebrating another friend birthday and start to have some thought within myself again.
honestly, i was feeling a bit disappointed when my friend did not even phone me or message me on FB whether want to follow or not because it sounds like i am not welcomed or whatsoever which is quite "sucks" to think about. (own assumption)
moreover, some "negative thought" start to flow in my mind such as i have a thought that "i always use my phone credit to call you but did not get the call back whenever there is something" where i had already total top up £15 and ended up left few pence for now.

somehow my negativity thought continue to grow and make me to think about others whether they are pretending to be good people or not just like the picture below.

then i start to think about whether i my destiny to be alone in life seems to become real?
as soon as i have this kind of negative thought, i suddenly realized a few things about myself again that my "personality progress to improve" seems to be not improving much. (i still remain childish and immature?)
for example, the plan to get a totally new start of myself seem to be not going very smooth when i don't really like someone who know about my past and talk bad about me to others people.
in fact, it would still continue to "haunt me" up to this date when i continue to write my feelings whereby even myself also feel "disgusting" to keep writing but i still do it.
perhaps what i really need was to have the "sense of belonging" to others people.

on the other hand, "Peter" seems to be quite understand me when his comment about the issues was always so real which eventually make me doubt whether how he can understand and explain most of my problem that arise so well.
for instance, i seems to be "procrastinate" at yesterday by watching the Awfully Lawful Hong Kong Drama (熟男有惑) instead of focusing on my assignment.
maybe i was too over confident that i can write a lot of stuff regarding the social media issues as the deadline for submission was next week's Monday.
then i also realize the reason why i can write at least 1000 words within 1 hour in my blog everyday was probably because i just write based on what i feel without thinking much instead like doing assignment that need to do a lot of research before writing in paragraph.

basically this post was just another "whining" expression from me thinking about whether it is my destiny to be alone in life or continue to stay single for the rest of my life.
in order to get myself being cheer, i still depend on those meaningful words such as "Live as if you were to die tomorrow, learn as if you were to live forever" and looking back to the Dr Richard Teo thought of Life, Wealth, Success & Happiness video as shown below or the link >>> Here.

therefore i should not have the thought of "doing a show for my parents to see" that i am very happy to study abroad because that will only make my parent feel sad.
moreover, i tried to think in a positive way when feeling "alone or lonely" that at lease i have someone who is genuinely care for me such as Mrs Anonymous, Peter, MEcoy, Twilight, Simple Person, xiu yi, 小影 and many other bloggers more even it is just a few people.

frankly speaking, it is not easy to have someone care about my life especially i am anonymous and might not bring much value or necessary to others people.
however, i am truly appreciate and feel thankful about the help and advice i got from blogging.
furthermore, i do understand that it is so stupid to spend time for being "not happy" because your time is limited, so don't waste it on living someone else's life which is something i am trying to be more positive by using this kind of meaningful words.
later on, i continue to do my E-Business management assignment draft to show to the tutor tomorrow as i can still edit it before the submission date on next Monday.
(Self Expenses note: Today £4, Yesterday total £43.10, Total up to date £47.10)
=D

today i woke up at 6.50am.
well, it was the day to submit draft for E-business Management individual assignment and i just continue to write the things that need to be review for the tutor later.
around 8.30am i make a move to attend the (EBM) lecture and saw others friends while walking towards the Adsetts centre.
frankly speaking, i realized that the reason why i have such a thought of "destiny to be alone" in life was probably because i don't really like the feelings when others people saw me that i tends to like always being alone or left out.
therefore i would just keep follow the big group and hope would not miss any gathering whenever there was a lot of people because being afraid become a "topic of discussion" when did not attend.

moreover, i know i shouldn't be so greedy to say that i am "lonely in life" because at least i still have some blogging friend in the online community who care for me although what i wish for was to have more REAL LIFE friends communication.
besides, i just realized the Lebara network call to Lebara network for free was just limited to 14 days according to a friend sharing and resulted me to keep reload (top up) my mobile.
during the morning (EBM) lecture, the tutor did not teach the new chapter 6 but focused on our coursework assessment for guiding us before handling our work on next week Monday as we might not answering what the question want.
after that, i went to the Adsetts library to edit the draft for (EBM) and went to buy some Sainsbury's milk chocolate cookies as my lunch since i did not eat anything throughout the whole morning.

then i head back to Stoddart to attend the (EBM) seminar class and the tutor also focusing the things to note for our coursework assignment and he say the university also wish all student will get good marks for it.
well the question for our assignment was "With appropriate reference to social networking sites, analyse and critically evaluate how their actual strategy and business models have allowed them to secure such a large Internet audience and to become a viable e-business proposition (or not). Your answer should include a clear analysis of any business models and strategies being used by the social networking sites you identity" and i just feel it is quite tricky because need to relate a bit with the case study.
moreover, the word limits was 2,500 words and weighting 50% of our final examination mark.
besides, i realized that the marking style was quite different compare to Tarc College because if you did not need to pass both assignment and examination to get at least 40% overall in the final.

for example, you need to score at least 50% out of 100% for both coursework and exam in Tarc College to pass but in Sheffield Hallam University, you can score like 70% for coursework and even get 30% in final exam can make you pass without the need of scoring both but you need to get at least 40% in the final of total the combination of coursework and examination.
however, it wouldn't be easy if you have done wrong for the coursework and do bad in final examination.
somehow i do feel a little sad for my PIC assignment as i don't really do well for it.
anyways, i do receive some positive and negative feedback from the tutor when submit my draft for the EBM as i still have time to edit my mistake before handling it for next Monday.
after that, i followed some friends to hang out around the shopping area that near to Barclay's bank and saw a lot of different things.

somehow i just feel that other's people life in UK tends to be focusing more on shopping and buying things while i was like "hanging around" with not much wants.
moreover, i would never know what's others people think and feel i tends to be having a disadvantage when someone know me but i did not know much about others.
after that, i went to Tai Sun Oriental to buy some noodles and seasoning as shown below.

during the walking journey back alone, i start to have some thought again while passing by the Electric works building as shown below.

finally i arrived back home at 5.10pm and cook the noodles that i bought just now.
well, the taste of the seasoning was quite spicy as i did not expect it to be spicy and now no choice but to finish it up for the next following day.

during the night, i just "wandering around" rather than focusing on the assignment and relax myself when watched the latest 18th episode of "Awfully Lawful (熟男有惑)" HK drama.
on the other hand, i just feel that the more i write about my feelings, the more i feel myself seems to be so childish and immature.
maybe it was due to not much people talk in real life and just can express my feeling in the online atmosphere with my "own assumption" again?
at once i think i should be happy to be single because i would not ruin any girls life when they know i have such weakness and personality.
therefore i think i still need a longer time to the "matured guy" that girl's want and might understand why some girls rather choose the guy who was older than them instead of being relationship with the same age guy.
later on, i set a "power nap" for myself around 10.30pm before continue to do my (EBM) assignment since there is no class for tomorrow (Thursday) but eventually fall asleep and this post was updated on next morning.
(Self Expenses note: Today £3.50, Yesterday total £47.10, Total up to date £50.60)
>.<

today i woke up at 7.15am.
however, i went to sleep back again due to my "laziness" feelings at that morning.
the moment i woke up again was 10am and just feel "regret" in someway for sleeping too much.
then i just quickly write back my yesterday post since i had accidentally sleep at 10.30pm last night although i was planning to rest a while but eventually fall asleep until next morning.
after that, my friend asked me to whether want to hang out and i just make a move from hostel at 11.45pm.
somehow the Freebee bus seems to be not very punctual as it promise will arrive every 7 minutes but it took almost 20 minutes when i reach the bus stop. (at least better than Malaysia?)
when i arrived to Aldi supermarket, my friend phoned and we head to the Noodle Inn Chinese restaurant near London Road to meet another friend.

after that, we order the duck with pork rice and egg fried rice together free a dessert soup as shown below.

well, the duck rice was quite delicious to eat since it has been a long time i did not eat any Chinese food from outside in Sheffield.
seriously i really like it but the price was quite expensive and below was some picture with address about it.
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Address: 156, London Road, S2 4LT Sheffield. (Noodle Inn London Road Sheffield)
Contact Number : 0114 255 4488
Business Hour : Open all week from 12 noon-11pm, 7 days a week.
Website: www.noodleinn.co.uk (currently offline or no longer renew domain name?)
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overall the food was nice to eat but and would the staff seems to be very mean when we called them few time to pay the bill but some of them pretend never see us and continue talking with others staff.

after having our lunch, we went to Aldi supermarket since i still haven buy my stuff.
on the other hand, i went to Primark to buy 2 pieces of cheap shirt for £6 since the clothes i bring to UK was not much.
somehow i just wondering whether selling the "brown paper bag concept" can be implement in Malaysia and there is so much question arise again since i don't have much knowledge about recycle paper bag things.
finally i arrived back home at 2.40pm and just feel my time seems to be "wasted" in some ways.
then i just make the Burrito with the garlic sausage ham that i bought just now as my lunch as shown below.

well, the taste was quite nice to eat and would buy it again since it just cost £0.37 in a pack.
after that, i continue to search some information and read more information about social media to prepare for my E-Business Management (EBM) individual coursework assignment.

however, i was procrastinate again after some moment by watching the l9th episode of "Awfully Lawful" (熟男有惑) HK drama again but find another link since the previous website has been deleted as below.

somehow i do have a similar feelings for "Solo" character that like to be an "island" in the drama.
besides, i think Peter was right about me that the reason why i keep blogging was because i would rather write it in a virtual way that other's can't hard it where it would be my "island" according to him.
during the night, my friend invited me to a mini party and we chit chat while playing some games.
honestly, i just feel myself being in a "contradict mood" as i having two kind of feeling that is being alone or joining a larger group where myself also confuse.
finally i reach back my room at 10.30pm and just feel so tired again although i was worry about the coming next Monday (EBM) assignment deadline submission.

before i end my post, i would like to share a meaningful Chinese article that i read about "六分醉，七分饱，八分的爱情刚刚好" as shown below.
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有人说：喝酒的时候，六分醉的微醺感是最舒服的。肌肉会变得松弛，身体得到完全地释放，心事烦恼暂且搁置一边，眼中看到的一切都是可爱的，如果你还继续喝，很可能隔天会感觉头疼欲裂，全身不舒服，完全丧失了喝酒的乐趣。

吃饭的时候，七分饱的满足感是最舒服的。口中还残存佳肴的香味，胃里的食物有序地蠕动着，偶尔适量的饭后甜点、水果，保持身材和身体健康绝对足够。如果你还继续吃，那就会感觉撑着，食物就变成了负担，很可感觉能会肠胃不适、又变得不爱动，昏昏欲睡，完全丧失了吃饭的乐趣。

当你爱一个人的时候，爱到八分绝对刚刚好。
所有的期待和希望都只有七八分，剩下三两分用来爱自己。如果你还继续爱得更多，很可能会给对方沉重的压力，让彼此喘不过气来，只有让对方想逃，同时逐渐忽略了自己，弄伤自己，完全丧失了爱情的乐趣，只剩下一个人的独角戏。

所以请记住，喝酒不要超过六分醉，吃饭不要超过七分饱，爱一个人不要超过八分，再多就过了。
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well, the sentences that highlighted in purple means that if you love someone, you just need to have the "love level" of 70~80% because the remaining 30% is to love yourself rather than using all 100% to love a person.
in fact, i know i should think about this kind of things especially in this moment when i still having those immature thoughts.
furthermore, i did asked myself whether i was happy for just even a single day or it is because i was focusing too much on the "sadness/negativity" side and creating my own sorrow feelings as what Mrs Anonymous said in my "destiny to be alone" post.
(Self Expenses note: Today £10, Yesterday total £50.60, Total up to date £60.60)
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today i woke up at 8am.
then i quickly get myself prepared and went to attend the Strategic Marketing Management lecture at the Adsett centre.
well, the tutor teach about the factors that influencing segment attractiveness and relative company strength but i feel that it is similar to the SMDM subject that we had learn before in Tarc.
anyways, i just recorded this morning lecture so that i can listen back it later on as below.

after that, we went to walk around that area while waiting for the next seminar class.
anyways, the seminar class started with the Zippo Bicycles case study that presented by other friend and continued with the tutor teaching about writing different type of targeting decision matrix using the segmentation matrix.

after the class end, i followed some friend went to buy some noodles at Tai Sun Oriental.
besides, i do heard some friend sharing about other's friend successful story about working in insurance, direct sales, Forex and others things that make myself doubt again whether is this a right decision to make for spending the money to get my degree certification?
frankly speaking, i did ask myself why i wanted to get this certification so badly seems to be actually for a "face problem and personal status" where i can say that "at least i have a degree certificate" when i back to Malaysia for finding jobs.
somehow this kind of question about whether want to come out to work at the age of 18 or decide to study in college for few years seems to be quite unclear because no people can guarantee the future you have for the decision you made.

after that, we went to buy some bread at Poundbakery shop which is quite nice to eat and affordable that cost about £1 for 2 pieces of flavored pastry bread.
besides, i also heard some friend saying about where to buy branded stuff and travel as i do have a "jelly" feelings about "some people" can be so rich when buying thing like nobody business which probably having a huge financial support from "FaMa" (Father + Mother) bank.
finally i arrived back home at 2.30pm and quickly turn on my Skype in order to chat with my parents since it was already 9.30pm back in Malaysia time.
well, when my parents asked me whether i am happy to study at UK, i really feel like "drop water from my eyes" because i had failed to be happy most of my time but i just told them that i am very happy.
somehow i just told myself to be grateful about the life i have rather thinking on the other way round.

besides, my sister just told me that she had bought back the "website" and asked me to do something about it and i just feel quite "down" when thinking back now.
it is because i feel myself quite "disgusting" because i was like talking "cxck" after so many years since the day i write my "东山再起 (Comeback)" post where i had make some "promise within myself" back in 2009 but did not fulfill and feeling helpless it had left me a strong memory in my mind after so many years.
therefore this might had proven the disadvantage of blogging too much feelings which i might just be another "talker" instead of "doer" who take action to change something.
around 3pm i went to cook the potato, bacon with sausage as my lunch as shown below.

after that, i was in a contradict feelings again to decide whether want to follow tour guide or backpacking travel journey because i heard some friend say it would more fun and cheaper to back pack.

however, i still decided to follow the Tong Hang Europe trip in order to be "safer" in some way although i know that it might not worth since travel agency also need to earn money with extra payment excluded and their journey might be quite rush as shown below.

somehow i faced some difficulties when paying the remaining £799 to them because today is the deadline of the payment (i know i shouldn't do it at last minute) from their guide but failed although i had transfer the money from everyday saver to student additions as shown below.

therefore i just can wait the reply from them and still not sure whether they would remove my name or not although i had paid the £40 deposit.
after that, i watched the final 20th episode of "Awfully Lawful (熟男有惑)" as shown below.

somehow i just feel the ending was just "so so" only but it is still quite nice to watch.

however, there is one Chinese sentences that i found meaningful was "我终于明白，同一件事，发生在不同时间，地点和人身上，你都会有不同的看法。也就是事情本身没有所谓对或错，等到你将来回顾的时候，你可能会后悔，又或者会庆幸。但是在你眼前这一刻，你不可能知道将来会怎样，你唯一能做的，就是做你当下能做的事。如果你只是顾着不停盘算将来会怎样，在你最惊慌和担心的时候，你已经浪费了你当下的时刻，接着下一分钟你又会觉得自己已经失去了最好的时刻。这样下去，你只会越来越害怕，越来越担心，最后的结果，你什么也没做过" which is so true about myself when think on the past and doing nothing in the end.
besides, i also like one of the song that being played in the movie that title "Something Stupid - Frank & Nancy Sinatra" as below or the link >>> Here.

in deed the lyrics of the song was quite nice and lovely in some way.

during the night, i just cooked some sweet corn as my dinner as shown below.

then i went to do my cloth laundry around 8pm and finish dry it at 9.30pm.
well, i just feel that the weather at UK seems to be quite "hot" in someway since it is summer now.
before i end my post, i would like to share the Chan Fong "大城心事" sharing story recording podcast for every Friday as shown below.
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1) 第一位：阿晶/阿睛（24歲）～她說自己的小弟（今年16歲）很不思長進，不但把人家的肚子搞大而且還無牌駕車撞到別人的車。【陳峰大哥說她弟弟一定要自己碰到大釘子才會反省，畢竟之前犯下的錯誤都是由家裡人替他承擔負責】

2) 第二位：Helen～她說對公司的懲罰感到不服，因為她那天因為只是忘了打卡拿了病假而遭到對付，不止連加班的薪水被扣而且連請的病假都不被接受。【陳峰大哥的看法是說：她凡事在處理公事應該以公司的利益和立場為主，只要提醒自己別過於把同事和上司之間的想法和感受混入考慮的範圍內就不會影響到自己的辦事進度和效率了】

3) 第三位：阿東（23歲）～他說18歲開始就做煮炒這個行業，有想過自己出來開一間餐館但是又擔心萬一生意失敗的話會導致自己無法承受經濟負擔。【陳峰大哥認為，他應該再磨練多一段時間，比如老闆是怎樣開餐館和運作之類的，在心裡完全沒有恐懼的情況之下出來開店才是最佳時機】>>> Here.

4) 第四位：曉雯（上個星期五才打過電話來話說自己女兒是個同性戀的那位）～她今天打電話來說，自己還是放不下，自己不知道要怎麼辦；她一心只想要女兒能夠過著正常的生活但是又接受不了她和那個“她”同居。【陳峰大哥認為這是一個很難改變的事實，畢竟她女兒的年紀已經是個成年人的階段了，搞不好女兒遲早會不見她了】

5) 第五位：瑛姐～她打來是要勸之前那位安娣叫她看開，因為她的遭遇和她一樣，話說她的女兒離開她已經兩年之久。她承認自己太過於執著而失去，她也一直對這件事很心痛耿耿於懷又放不下。【陳峰大哥勸她，必須先把過去的一切不愉快放下，然後試著打個電話給女兒重新聯絡回來坐坐吃過飯】

6) 第六位：阿茵/阿欣～她是想勸之前打來那兩位安娣不需要太過於緊張自己女兒的幸福，因為她的妹妹自己也是個過來人，曾經和之前那倆位的經歷接近；但是好在最後她還是覺醒過來重新走回正軌最後家人也當做從來沒有發生過。

7) 第七位：Amy～她就是那位戀上有婦之夫的那個受害者，那個男的是新加坡人但是目前還沒有和自己的妻子離婚卻又一直說很愛她之類的甜言蜜語。【陳峰大哥最後只是說自己該說的已經說完了，最後還是叫她儘早覺醒並且承認自己曾經是愛上一個不該又不值得愛的男人】Part 6 + 7 >>> Here.

8) 第八位：盈盈～她想問問陳峰大哥，關於夫妻之間長時間分開生活的問題該怎樣去改善和對待。【陳峰大哥認為她還沒有準備好結婚，但是同時事業心又重導致兩個人之間的關係存在著一個很大的缺陷，就看是誰主動先犧牲去修補夫妻之間的協議和共識】>>> Here.

9) 第九位：張小姐～她之前在工作上認識了一位供應商對方是個台灣人，大家聯絡公事將近一年半之久，後來和他們之間開始產生了一些曖昧關係但是最終沒有在一起，。直到最近她聞之他已有了男朋友；她覺得有些可惜因為當時無法和對方順利發展。【陳峰大哥告訴她能免則免，因為遠距離的關係不容易維持；何況他們始終沒有開始就不要輕易地選擇陷入痛苦的困境】>>> Here.
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well, i just listened to the 3rd person who called and just feel myself seems to be quite "useless" if i compare myself with the guy because we were same 23 years old but he already planning to open a restaurant when he started to work at the age 18 years old.
therefore when looking at the "me" now, i seems to be "so free" can watch drama, writing yesterday post and doing nothing much things in my life.

what i really want to say was as i grown older, i feel myself tends to be more "kiasu" (scare lose) in some way when compared with others people.
later on, i just continue to do my E-Business Management individual coursework after finish writing this post.
honestly, i really feel happy when i express my feeling by saying all the things i want to say today before continue to do my assignment although i know it is still not necessary to keep update myself.
besides, i should not "worry" (烦) about the "Europe trip" because that is not my priority at this moment.
at last, i just can tell myself to be positive since this coursework was writing about the social media (Facebook and etc) topic although i might not going to Cambridge this coming Sunday if i not able to finish it by tomorrow (Saturday) since coursework submission deadline is on Monday. (15th July 2013)
(Self Expenses note: Today £1.90, Yesterday total £60.60, Total up to date £62.50)
>.<

today i woke up at 7.10am.
well, this post was written based on the note that written on my phone and i did really have a "weird" feeling when write it back now after submitted my E-Business managment assignment on Monday. (15th July 2013)
anyways, i just eat some chocolate biscuit as my breakfast and search some information for the (EBM) individual coursework but not did not have much "motivation" to do.
besides, my friend has went to Bicester Village for shopping but i did not follow since i was "worrying" about the assignment.
therefore i had decided to go to the Adsett Centre Library to stay focus and make a move around 11.40am.
upon arrived there, i just went to look into the book that can do reference based on the lecture slide of social media where the tutor had advice us to search for it.

somehow i do faced some difficulties when finding the book because the subject code such as "658.054678" located in the shelf was quite hard from the SHU Library Gateway as shown below.

anyways, i was manage to find the "E-business and E-commerce management about strategy, implementation and practice" by Dave Chaffey in the end as shown below.

while doing the assignment, i do heard some voice from the people who came from China since there was not much Malaysian people came to library and they was gossiping about their boyfriend story.
well, i don't mean to listen others people story but the surrounding was too quite and i just feel that it is quite funny to listen other people culture where most of the people who came from China study at UK came from a very rich background.
around 4.30pm the library announced their closing time at 5pm and i started to pack my stuff.

before leaving there, i was planning to borrow the book but they say can't be borrow since it was a reference book and i just take a picture of the "Facebook case study" as shown below.

anyways, below was details of the opening time for Adsett Collegiate Learning centre for Summer from 3rd June to 25th August 2013.
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	Staff and students	External users / Helpdesk service
Monday - Thursday	8:45am - midnight	8.45am - 5.00pm
Friday	8:45am - 5.00pm	8.45am - 5.00pm
Saturday	10.00am - 5.00pm	10.00am - 5.00pm
Sunday	10.00am - 5:00pm	Closed

- Many electronic resources including ebooks and ejournals are available 24/7 on and off campus through the Library Gateway.
- Phone support is available 24/7 by calling 0114 225 3333.

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therefore i just make a move around 4.40pm and went to Fulton Foods market to buy some hams that cost around £1.70 for 400 grams.

finally i arrived home at 5.05pm and i was invited by some friend to drink herbal soup at their house.
upon reach back my house, i just went to make the last pieces of the burrito wrap with the hams i bought just now as shown below.

then i went to settle the remaining payment of my trip although i was doubting whether want to follow tour or backpack travel during yesterday and finally i decided to follow Tong Hang tour guide for Europe trip from Sheffield since i had previously paid the £40 deposit and get "brainwashed" in some way at the first week of orientation day.
well, a friend had had just borrowed me his Barclay's bank PinSentry device when i failed to pay the remaining £799 because i don't have the PinSentry device to authenticate payment as shown below.

somehow i was faced some difficulties after put the Visa card inside and failed to key in my pin for two trial.

therefore i tried to use the second option which is through mobile banking using the Barlay's apps but it is quite complicated as you need to use computer to select the payment details > confirm details > receipt and mobile to sign both 8 digit code to sign and match both side as shown below.

in deed my heart do have a "money pain" feeling after Barclays bank show payment has been successful made as below because i know i might "rugi" (lost) in some way when joining a tour guide although i know other people can go to a lot of places and have a more adventurous journeys.

anyways, the different between Travel Agent (TA) and Tour Guide (TG) was (TA) are responsible to tell you about all the places you could go on a holiday by showing you brochures, describe the sights and sounds of vacation spots and even book the tickets but they don’t go with you while (TG) are responsible to walk, explain, interpret all the information by going together with you.

on the other hand, i do feel very appreciate and thankful to Peter when he offered me some help and i did hope can meet him in real life for once since he had been guiding me during last time.
guess he was right that my problem was just probably because i don't know that i am actually happy to study in Sheffield, UK.
moreover, i don't think i would be able to come to UK or visits to Europe in few years time once i back to Malaysia to work since i was not came from rich family background.
during the night, i just continue to do the assignment since i will be visiting to Cambridge UK as a part of weekend trip at tomorrow.

however, i do saw some people sell the ticket price by "throwing the price" for as low as £4 although we bought for £15 at first.

therefore my "ultimate advice" for next year 2014 student who come to study in SHU UK was "think wisely before buying weekend trip tickets from SHU Student Union" because some people will sell in a very cheap place when they did not able to go in last minute for some reason such as rushing assignment.

furthermore, if you are "alone" and dare to become "thick face + unethical" person, you can try to go any trip without buying any ticket since they did not check any ticket in the bus other than the Manchester United weekend trip that you need to present your SHU student union ticket at the entrance to get the Manchester visitor pass.
please note that i am not here to defame the Sheffield Student Union and i would like to say that it is just my personal opinion about the trip.
in fact, i can't really search any detailed opinion from last year senior opinion since everything said on the internet was so positive and good that is different with what i encounter. (Or maybe is my own problem that lead me to think in a negative way? LOL)
(Self Expenses note: Today £800.70, Yesterday total £62.50, Total up to date £863.20)
=.=

today i woke up at 7.45am.
somehow i was awakened by a friend's call and i was having the "panic shock" feeling because the bus might depart at 8am since today was the day to go to Cambridge UK weekend trip from the Hubs Sheffield.
therefore i quickly get myself prepared with a "super fast speed" and just ask my friend go first without waiting me while i hope that the bus will not depart in time.
actually i do feel a little "regret" for sleeping very late yesterday when i told myself to finish write the Facebook social media part for my assignment before i finally sleep at 4am.
during the journey while walking out from hostel, i met a China girl student and have a little conversation when she asked me how to open the door as i just said press the green button although i was quite rushing to "chase" the bus during the moment.

anyways, i just get to know that she was studying for some course like "运动体操" (Sports Gymnastics) and i do feel quite weird about the course that she study in UK.
around 8.05am i arrived to the Hubs Union and just feel quite lucky that the bus still haven depart yet.
moreover, i do feel thankful to my friend who phoned me this morning, or else i would be wasting £15 to buy the Cambridge ticket although i did feel "butthurt" when heard someone sold it for £2 pound as below.

well, the bus make a move at 8.20am and we received a guidance note for the tourist attraction place to go just like last week's Liverpool weekend trip as shown below.

somehow i was sitting beside with a girl when most of the bus seat was occupied during that moment but did not talk anything and just sleep throughout the journey since i was quite tired.
around 10.40am we arrived to Cambridge and the weather seems to be just okay instead of very hot.

the first scene that i saw after walking out from the bus was shown below.

after that, we was persuaded by some travel agent to go punting in a boat at the river as shown below.

well, he just told us that we can get a cheaper price as low as possible if we gather a lot of people.
at last, we manage to get a price of £8 per person for sitting the boat and thanks to a friend who negotiate for the price at that moment.
then i just take some picture about the Granta Canoe and Riverside Seating beer garden bar restaurant with the picture about the £18 pound per hour or per boat or guided river tour sign board as shown below.

after waited for almost 1 hour+, we finally finish wait for our turn to sit the boat and we was guided by a girl's staff who rolls our boat with guided river tour as shown below.

besides, i do saw some other friend from other boat rolling the boat by themselves as it seems quite fun.

then i just continue to take some picture about the river side view of King's college chapel and bridge, Queen's college, church, Silver Street bridge, Clare bridge, Magdalene bridge and some unknown historical church building along the river as shown below.

around 12.40pm we finish the guided river tour trip and it seems that not very worth to pay for it but i just told myself to stay positive.
perhaps it is because i heard some people said that it only cost below £20 pound to rent a boat and roll by yourself but i can't verify true or as we just pay £90 for a single boat together with the tour which will divide with 11 to 12 people as it was £7.50 per person but the staff had round it up to £8 per person.
after that, we continue to walk around the Cambridge city while waiting some friend to buy some food as i wanted to buy my lunch at another place.

while walking pass the street, i just took some picture around the area such as the King's College chapel, Queen's College, Corpus Christi College and St Mary's Tower as below.

however, most of the tourist attraction famous place are require to pay some money for entrance fee to visits and we did not go inside.
anyways, there is place is free of charge to enter such as the church but i forget it's name as shown below.

after that, i just walk around the marketplace (looks like pasar pagi in Malaysia) and was interest to try the Ostrich burger for £3 from Bisbrooke Ostrich Farms as shown below.

moreover, they also sell the uncooked ostrich meat for £1.10 each and Caramelised Onion Chutney jam for £2.50 while the ostrich egg was quite big as below.

anyways, i can't describe the taste of ostrich burger meat since it was quite weird.

after that, there was a street art performance in front of the Guildhall and i just recorded it as shown below or the link >>> Here.

at the end of the show, the performer just told us that he do this just for a living and would like to get some donation without any limit but i just feel myself quite "cheapskate" for paying £0.10 to see the show.
then i followed some friend to the shopping center nearby and i just feel i have a little sore throat. (maybe Karma for eating ostrich burger?)
on the other hand, i heard some friend say that the Fitzwilliam Museum Cambridge is FREE of entrance fee charge to enter but it had closed on Sunday.
therefore i did not go there since my leg start to have some pain as i has been walking for few hour from morning till evening.

however, the Fitzwilliam Museum do open at Sunday when i check it online at home and just feel that sometime don't keep listen what other's people said unless you see or experience it by yourself as below.
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Fitzwilliam Museum, Cambridge

Address: Trumpington St Cambridge, CB2 1RB, United Kingdom

Contact No: +44 1223 332900

Website : http://www.fitzmuseum.cam.ac.uk/

Admission to the Museum's collections and to exhibitions is free. Visitors' donations help keep the galleries open and are much appreciated.

Opening Day / Hour : Tue - Sat from 10:00 am to 5:00 pm, Sunday from 12:00 pm to 5:00 pm

CLOSED: Mondays, Good Friday, 24-26 & 31 December 2013 and 1 January 2014

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around 5.20pm we make a move from there and go to the place we wait depart from our bus this morning after i bought a £3 souvenir from Cambridge.
well, the bus depart at 6.05pm and i just continue to sleep throughout the journey again although i was sitting at the same place this morning beside the girl.
finally i arrived back home at 8.10pm and some friend invited to go their house to eat some spaghetti although i still not very use to it.
upon arrive my room at 9.30pm, i continue to do the E-Business Management (EBM) individual coursework assignment since tomorrow Monday is the deadline for submission.
later on, i just cook some instant noodle as my "dinner" and continue to do the EBM coursework throughout the whole midnight until next morning without sleeping.
anyways, this blog post was updated on 16th July 2013 after i finish pass up the assignment as i start to have some free time to blog about my life again although i feel that not necessary to continue writing.

(Self Expenses note: Today £14.10, Yesterday total £863.20, Total up to date £877.30)

>.<

today i did not sleep.
well, it was actually the "continuation part" of yesterday post where i spend my whole midnight until morning to finish the remaining essay writing for my E-Business Management individual coursework assignment.
around 10.10am i make a move from hostel and went to the library at Adsett Centre to print my assignment.
however, it seems that i had accidentally print wrong stuff which is probably i still in a "Mong Cha Cha" (feeling quite blur) mode due to lack of sleep.
in the end, i have used almost £1.70 in total for printing the assignment all over again.
after that, i walked to the Student Help & Information Point (SHIP) in the Stoddart Deli centre to pass up my assignment and received a receipt of confirmation pass up assignment verification as shown below.

however, we are require to print the special bar code first from assignment diary in the SHU Space.

after pass up the assignment, i just feel so relief and decided to walk to Tesco Extra to buy the tortilla wrap for making the Burrito wrap since i had finish ate it although i was feeling tired but energetic in some way.
around 11.45am i reach the Tesco and i just spend around £3.30 to buy some uncooked food with the tortilla wrap.
then i took around 18 minutes to walk back home from Tesco Extra around 12.10pm and finally arrived my room at 12.30pm.
somehow i start to feel hungry and cook some instant noodle with ham as my lunch.
after that, i just listened back to the Friday's Chan Fong "大城心事" podcast recording a while before going to sleep again because i heard other's people said that it is harmful to sleep after having food in terms of gaining weight or some unclear side effect.

well, i feel that the No.7 girl's who phoned in to express her feelings seems to be having the "lonely sickness" because she tends to be so "desperate/dry" to be with a guy that live in Singapore who already married and have children as shown below.

somehow i do agree with Chan Fong DJ saying about the girl that sometime when girl fall in love, they will be so obsessed and stubborn for being with the "bad guy" although knowing that the guy might cheat her money or even her body as long as the guy treat the girl well by flirting those "sweet words".
anyways, i don't think i have the power to judge the girl decision since everyone is different but there was a strong moral value i can see from this case which is "if you don't willing make a decision to change, you will be forever stuck in the same problem and always in a depress emotions" which is quite true.
around 1.30pm i went to sleep after being exhausted for the whole night.

the moment i woke up again was 5pm but i was wondering why i just sleep 3 hours+ and can automatically wake up without getting any tired feeling.
honestly, i did feel a bit worry about my health status because i was wondering whether my sore throat will getting worse or not when i did not sleep much and my friend told me that i forget close the stove just now.
anyways, i still continue to see some news, information and watching the latest 14th episode of "Attack on Titan 進撃の巨人" (Shingeki no Kyojin) and Hunter x Hunter (2011) anime.
besides, i would like to share a very meaningful video about "Source of Depression" (压抑的来源) in our life as shown below or the link >>> Here.

seriously the video really inspire me and i do understand about the people that we mix around might affect the way we live in our life.

for example, people who like to "suppress" others people will never feel they was wrong and always feel it is normal to do those things.
according to the video, it say that the world have only 2 type of people which is "社会人格者" (Sociable Personality) person always want themselves and other's people to have a good life while "反社会人格者" (Antisocial Personality) always assume others people is their enemy and the way the trust people had reach into a critical stage to do wrong things.
frankly speaking, i just feel myself tends to be always having my "own assumption" (对号入座) about how other's people think about me and that might be the reason why i keep having the "afraid and worry" feelings most of my time.
in fact, i couldn't find a effective way to fully cure my "afraid and worrying" feelings.

anyways, i do feel thankful to Maxieos feedback from forum as he said that "Do good things, Speak good words, Show goodwill" will definitely help as shown below.
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There are 2 kind of people as mention:
1) People who wanted a Peaceful life be happy together.
2) People who wanted to Oppress other people to fulfill their needs.
You need to have wisdom not differentiate them and not to get winded by them.
For the future must benefits to the social and the process getting into the aim must not offend or hurt anyone when climbing to the top, not hurting or giving bad impression to social.
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moreover, research has shown that there was 20% of teens sink into depression as shown below.

well, i do know that i no longer a teenager but the "stress" tends to be keep finding me.

at once i did have a thought that it is possible the reason i have the "unclear stress" was because feeling "lonely" within myself based on my own assumption as shown below.

in addition, it might probably heard and listen too much of story such Chinese link >>> Here.
perhaps i still haven cure some of my "immature thought" as i feel a little "butthurt" when i received criticism feedback such as "blog so much for what if it can't even earn any money" and it might be just waste on time other than expressing my inner feelings.
perhaps we had been brainwashed that "a successful is only measured by how much money you can make in life" instead of others thing.
well, they might be true that without money, how we can buy food, education, clothes, travel, things we want and others in order to be "happy" that eventually made us to become a materialistic person in the end?

moreover, it is quite hard to explain to others people about my blogging intention because the person who likes you doesn't need it while the person who dislikes you won't believe it no matter how much you explain yourself to others people.
for example, if i really want to get earn money or get the fame, i should be showing all the my picture across the blog instead of using an anonymous identity. (or maybe i am coward? even myself also don't know why)
however, i do admit that i still want "some people" to know the problem i faced but not "some people" which eventually quite hard to keep writing more on the thought i think about and just keep inside heart.
besides, i just realized that some of the Harry Potter movie scene seem to be filmed in Cambridge UK and i feel a little regret for not paying the entrance fee to the St. John's college for having some inside view from my yesterday Cambridge weekend trip.

however, there is still chance for me to visits the place that Harry Potter movie scene take place such as the Christ Church, Oxford college that near to the Bicester village when i look through the map.
during the night, i went to some friend house to have some porridge as our dinner since i agree to pay some $$ to share cook for the dinner.
somehow i just feel that the reason why i feel not very worth to share seems to be "afraid of getting lesser or being at the disadvantage situation" but i learned that in order to maintain a good relationship with others people, sometime you just need to "sacrifice a bit" by not being so calculative in some matter.
besides, i think i shall be grateful and happy to be able go for the Europe trip when i heard some people just direct fly back to Malaysia without going anywhere after finish study in Sheffield Hallam University.
upon arrived home, i just throw the rubbish with my friend since there was some flies around.

later on, i just research a while for the next PIC group assignment as we need to present some draft for the tutor to see tomorrow.
before i end my post, i would like to share a meaningful picture about "I Am Graduating" comic drawn by Zenpencil as shown below.

well, it was true that now i am scared of my future ahead but i just keep remind myself to be positive although i still need to depend on those positive words like "Good things come to those who believe, better things come to those who are patient and the best things come to those who don't give up" to get myself cheer up and have more positive feelings as shown below.

therefore there is no reason for me to have "depressing emotions" on my own assumption and should be happy as "YOLO" (You Only Live Once) right?
(Self Expenses note: Today £14.30, Yesterday total £877.30, Total up to date £891.60)
=D

today i woke up at 7.30am.
then i just get myself prepared and went to attend the Product Innovation and Creativity lecture at Stoddart centre although i still have some tired feelings.
well, the lecture teaches about proving the financial viability and evaluating the financial evidence using different type of analysis such as the payback, sales forecasting, sensitivity, break even, cannibalisation assessment before making the final decision.
anyways, i just record the lecture podcast again since i can't focus well due to lack of sleep as below.

before the lecture end, the tutor shared some video about the RakaStaka stand in Dragons' Den show started with part 2 and continue to part 3 although she did not start with part 1.
somehow i feel that the guy should accept the offer of £50,000 for 20% of his company shares.

however, he does have his point to reject the deal as it might be able to turn to million pounds profit in return.
after the lecture end, i just head to the seminar class to be prepared for the next session about the draft for PIC group assignment.
well, it was changed with a tutor and he does give some positive feedback since there is no right or wrong about the product pitch related issues.
after that, i went to 99p stores to buy the flies pesticides and continue with Castle Market to buy something to cook for tonight.
after that, i just joined a group of friends to Hong Kong Wok Chinese Cuisine restaurant (香港茶餐厅) to have our lunch near the London Road Sheffield.
then we took the Freebee bus to there since the walking distance was quite far.

upon arrived there, it seems that the price of the food was quite expensive as most of the food price ranged from £6~£10 per dish while looking at the menu below.

anyways, we just ordered the HK WOK Special Noodles (招牌炒) which have "a bit of everything with chicken, prawns, fish balls, squid, pork and Chinese mix vegetables" and Three Roasties Rice (港式三烧饭) which have "roast duck, crispy pork and honey roast pork served, on a bed of rice with Chinese vegetables with duck soy and sauce drizzled on top" according to the description to be shared with few people as shown below. (around £4+ each person, picture adapted from official website)

when the food arrived, i just took the actual dish picture with my "noob phone camera" as shown below.

well, the customer service at here seems to be better than the Noodle Inn restaurant because the waiter will refill our tea pot when the water was finished.

moreover, the interior design of the place was quite clean and nice as shown below.

while i eating the food, i just feel so satisfied because it has been a long time i did not eaten such a nice Chinese meal especially the duck and pork meat.
anyways, below was the details of Hong Kong Wok Delicious and Affordable Chinese Cuisine restaurant.
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Address: 200-204 London Road, Sheffield, South Yorkshire S2 4LW ‎
Business Hour: Mon to Sun starting from 12:00 pm to 10:00 pm
Phone: 0114 258 8694
Email: info@hkwok.co.uk
Website: http://www.hkwok.co.uk/
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overall it is a recommended place to eat at Sheffield UK although the price was quite expensive.

sometime i just wish that our Malaysian currency rate would be RM1 change to £1 and i would definitely feel very happy to spend every single cents in UK.
after that, we just walk around the area and i finally reach back hostel at 4.15pm.
during the evening, we just clean up the kitchen a bit by killing the flies since other housemate tends to be not very hygiene to wash their plate after eating.
around 8pm i decided to cook the instant noodle with ham, prawn, hotdog, egg, cheese, potatoes, vegetable as my dinner as shown below.

somehow i had used almost 55 minutes to prepare my dinner because the potatoes need to cook for a quite long time and i finally finish eat and wash my dishes around 9.15pm as shown below.

actually i do know that eating such a food as my dinner seems to be not healthy.

in fact, i just stumble upon an "interesting" picture about "What is in your hot dogs" and the answer was chemicals, bugs, bone, pig snouts, metal, rodent parts, pig anuses and plastic have all been found in hot dogs as shown below.

seriously i do eat a lot of hot dogs as my meal during my stay in the Sheffield hostel.
during the night, i finally finish write my delayed blog post for "Cambridge weekend trip" and just questioned myself again that is it necessary to keep writing?
furthermore, it might resulted me to have some "weird depression" feelings when for having too much inner thought that is based on own assumption or perception about a particular things that i see or heard.
somehow i do feel that i was waiting "someone" to solve my problem if they ever "read my life" although i know it was so boring as i was like repeating saying the almost same thing everyday.

after judging the pro and cons, i think i shall be happy that at least i have kept a "logs/diary" of my life that would last for eternal which thanks to the "Wayback Machine: Internet Archive" technology, my existence will not be deleted even if i no longer write my blog or renew my domain name.
it is because the disadvantage would be quite "scary" as i can't wipe my record forever right?
for example, i can't delete the "Jeans Pants" blog post that i write during 2010 because it just reflect how "immature or childish" i was during that moment by tracking back the web achieve record as shown below.

however, if i was able to see it with a positive way, i would be laughing when reading back now and i should feel special about myself that i am able to experience something that not much people would understand better than myself throughout the few years of blogging although it might sounds like a waste of time.
in conclusion, i just told myself to be happy no matter what happen.
(Self Expenses note: Today £6.70, Yesterday total £891.60, Total up to date £898.30)
=)

today i woke up at 8.15am.
after getting myself prepared, i walked to Adsett centre to attend the E-Business Management lecture.
well, the morning lecture teaches about the important of supply chain management system.
somehow i just thinking about the "disposables" last slide because if you can think a way of how to dispose all the rubbish effectively without resulted any harm to the environment, you will definitely earn a lot money from having the "idea" where even myself also don't know what about it.
besides, i also recall back one of my previous Tarc college's tutor said before that if you can solve the food, fruits, vegetables and other organic product problem from being waste in the supply chain, you would also earn a lot of money too in those big Megamall supermarket.
anyways, the tutor shared the "Future Supply Chain 2016" video but the sound system was not working.

after that, i just walked around that area with my friend since our next seminar class start at the afternoon.
somehow i manage to get some cheap discount deals for buying the "Hennes & Mauritz" (H&M) clothes for £7 and another River Island clothes for £8 although there is not much choice left.
frankly speaking, i was not fancy about those branded clothing but sometime my decision tends to be easy get influenced by other people opinion as i heard they said it was very cheap when compared with the same brand of clothing price in Malaysia.
moreover, i don't really know much branding about the clothing categories since i seldom buy those UK brand clothes other than Padini clothes in my country.
anyways, i do get to know some new brands of clothes such as the Marks and Spencer, Bench, Republic, Superdry, FCUK, Next, Hollister, Topshop, Topman, Jack Wills and others more.

after finish "hunting" for cheap clothes, i went to buy the honey and lemon in hope that it would "cure" my sore throat infection.
around 11.50am i arrived back home and cooked some instant noodle with ham as my lunch.
somehow the honey with lemon juice that i make with hot water seems to be not really helping much to cure away my sore throat problem.
anyways, i make a move around 1.40pm and went to attend the E-Business Management class at Stoddart.
well, the seminar class continue to explain about the Supply Chain Management system and the most important things was Cost and Time for (SCM) distribution related things.
then the seminar class is continue with the case study by showing different kind of video such as the inside Amazon warehouse, Netflix distribution center, RFID and the engine behind Newegg.

around 4.35pm i finally arrived back home and just took a nap as i was feeling quite tired.
the moment i woke up again was 6.50pm and i was sweating as when i awake because there was no fans in my room which is also summer.
after that, i went to my friend house to eat my dinner as we have shared for food cost.
somehow i do understand that eating in a group would be more focusing on the moment of being together rather than thinking about whether full or not.
after finished do the washing, i arrived back home at 7.45pm and get myself prepared for the PIC group assignment discussion at night.
around 9.45pm the group discussion ended with a little clearer focus about the things we need to do for the final group assignment.

besides, i just feel that studying in UK seems to be focusing more on traveling as everyone talk about the traveling places to go such as London, Barcelona, Ireland and others more.
upon reach home, i continue to see some information and news online.
it seems that a lot of people was "crazy" queuing up for the Despicable Me 2 minions toys for Mc Donald's Happy Meal set in Malaysia and just feel that the "Minions" is overrated.
later on, i just started to watch the Triumph In The Skies 2 (衝上雲霄II) Hong Kong Drama and it was quite okay so far for the first episode as shown below.

somehow this drama do make me recall back one of my uncle who was a reputable pilot in Malaysia and just feel myself seems to be not able to achieve the ambition to become a pilot since young.
perhaps i don't really have a strong determination or goal about what i want to be during last time.

anyways, below was the detailed synopsis of the Triumph In The Skies 2 Hong Kong drama (衝上雲霄II).
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The story of Triumph in the Skies 2 takes place roughly a few years after airline pilot captain Sam (Francis Ng 吳鎮宇) marries Zoe (Myolie Wu 胡杏兒), a passenger service agent who was born with a severe heart condition. When Zoe dies, the introverted and mournful Sam resigns his position as pilot captain and spends a long vacation in England. There, he meets the heartbroken student pilot Holly (Fala Chen 陳法拉), who convinces him to return to Hong Kong to join Skylette Airlines.

At Skylette, Sam meets Jayden (Chilam Cheung 張智霖), a boastful and womanizing captain-in-training whom Sam is in charge of examining. Their opposite personalities clash and their rivalry become even stronger when both of them develop a fondness for Holly.

Meanwhile, Sam’s younger brother Isaac (Ron Ng 吳卓羲) meets aircraft maintenance technician Summer (Myolie Wu), Jayden’s cold and withdrawn younger sister. Summer bears a strong physical resemblance to Isaac’s deceased sister-in-law Zoe, and Isaac finds it hard to ignore her. An unfortunate experience in her childhood causes Summer to loathe her elder brother Jayden, but Isaac helps the pair patch up their relationship. Summer falls in love with Isaac, but Isaac does not want to remind Sam of his heartbroken past.

Isaac’s good friend, first officer pilot Roy (Kenneth Ma 馬國明) is emotionally caught in relationships with two girlfriends. He confides to senior cabin crew leader Heather (Elena Kong 江美儀), whom he considers as his soul mate.
In a related story, Hong Kong national swimming team athlete Jim (Him Law 羅仲謙) quits the team to earn a pilot license. He befriends the ground crew and pilots at Skylette Airlines, also falling in love with cabin crew leader Coco (Nancy Wu 胡定欣), now a pregnant surrogate mother.

Filming for Triumph in the Skies 2 took nearly seven months to complete. Aside from Hong Kong, the drama was also shot at various locations in mainland China, Taiwan, France, and England.
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overall i would rate this drama movie as 3.5 out of 5 stars since i just watched the first episode as my review.
somehow i do enjoyed the "Fly Me To The Moon" song which has been played inside the drama although it was not sang by Olivia Ong as shown below.

at last, i was able to catch up with my latest post blog after finish write the yesterday HK Wok UK restaurant (香港茶餐厅).
seriously i really like this song so much as i keep playing it repeatedly while writing this post throughout my so call "lonely" night.
later on, i just keep continue to drink more water and hope that my sore throat illness will cure faster.
(Self Expenses note: Today £16.70, Yesterday total £898.30, Total up to date £915)
=D

today i woke up at 8.10am.
well, there is no class for today and i just followed some friends in a big group to the Heeley City Farm that located near Sheffield South Yorkshire.
around 9.35am we make a move from hostel and the walking distance towards there took around 40 minutes by walking as we arrived the main entrance at 10.15am as shown below.

after that, i just took some picture around the farm and there was few type of animal such as peacock, chicken, duck, peacock, sheep, goat, cow, horse, pig and others as shown below.

besides, there was also having some botanical garden view such as the flower, organic, herb, garden as shown below.

somehow i just feel that the farm tends to be not very big as it just take a short time to see everything inside.

however, i not sure whether the reason i said it was small might probably because i haven explore much deeper inside the farm.
anyways, below was the detailed info about Heeley City Farm Sheffield South Yorkshire.

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Address: Heeley City Farm, Richards Road, Sheffield S2 3DT, United Kingdom.

Open Hours: Mon - Sun from 9.00am to 5.00pm (10.00am - 4.00pm in the winter)

Admission / Entrance Fee : FREE ! (except eating in cafe)

Phone : 0114 258 0482

Email : info@heeleyfarm.org.uk

Website : http://www.heeleyfarm.org.uk

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overall it can be consider a great farm to visits since i seldom see much animal in real life.

around 11.40am we make a move from there and head to some marketplace nearby the area to see any good things to buy.

besides, i just feel that the concept of "Big Yellow Self Storage" tends to be useful in UK but not in Malaysia if i was to seek for an opportunity that can bring back to my country as below.

it is because the crime rate in my country might be "slightly" higher than UK as we can't guarantee the safety of the goods when stored in a particular place.

finally i arrived back home at 12.50pm and just cook some instant noodle with ham as my lunch.

after some moment, i just feel quite tired and took a nap around 2.25pm.

the moment i woke up again was 4.15pm as the room was quite hot and i went to my friend house as we would be going to Norfolk Park to exercise together with picnic.

around 5.15pm we make a move from hostel and reach the Norfolk at 5.40pm.

well, there was quite a lot of people going there as the total head count was approximately 30+ people.

then we just played some football games and i do feel quite "exhausted" in some way as i seldom do exercise recently.

after that, there was having some little barbecue and i was quite enjoyed with the scenery.

actually i do listened a lot of "story and conflict" happened and just feel that it is better to keep inside heart rather than express out.

one thing i realized was no matter which group you're joining, there would be definitely someone say/gossip something about someone as this require some "maturity level" to have that kind of "nevermind / don't too care/ it's okay" (无所谓) mindset because you can't please anyone to accept your personality.

however, it might be legit that the people you mix around would affect your life just like the "Source of Depression" video that i shared previously.

around 8.40pm we make a move from there and i finally reach home at 9.10pm.

besides, one of my "guailou" (foreigner) housemate has packed all his stuff back his hometown as we might no able to meet anymore in future.

during the night, i just cook some Burrito with ham, sausage, egg, vegetable as my dinner as shown below.

later on, i just continue watch the 2nd episode of "Triumph In The Skies 2" (衝上雲霄II) Hong Kong drama as shown below.

well, i just feel that the second episode seems to be not very nice but i did research a bit about the Gia Carangi that being mentioned in the drama.

anyways, i did feel that my UK lifestyle seems to be "very free" when i still can "procrastinate" a bit for the group assignment that will be handle on few weeks time.
perhaps i should be more happy that at least i have this kind of "opportunity" to waste some time.
in fact, it would be cost me a lot of money if i had choose to explore or traveling more new places whenever i leave my room.
at last, i just make some honey with lemon drinks in hope that it would faster cure my sore throat away.
in conclusion, i found that people who keep carrying a smiling and happy faces would having more friends as they would be more approachable than those people who keep carrying with a "fxckxxg emo/sad/mean" looks on their faces.
somehow i was practicing my "happy face emotion" with the mirror in order to be more positive and happy.
furthermore, if i keep think about my main objective about getting degree certification is my priority and being confident that i will definitely get good job in future, i would be more happy and appreciate instead of thinking those "imaginative down side" thought such as "would it be wasting time study if compare with those people who start to work at the age of 18 as they earned a lot money through selling insurances, direct sales, MLM, or invest Forex/shares price" which i know it is useless to think about it now right?

(Self Expenses note: Today £0.70, Yesterday total £915, Total up to date £915.70)

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