Frankly speaking, I do get annoyed with myself when I talk more about the e-marketing plan to increase awareness partly because of my own personal problem. In fact, I couldn't blame anyone because it is my own choice to study "E-commerce and Marketing" course in Tarc college (Tarcuc) continued with Sheffield Hallam University (SHU) and I had finally graduate as a Bachelor of Arts with Honours in Business in E-Commerce and Marketing. (feeling proud now? but who would really know the drawback when you acquire a higher education?)
One of the reason that make me felt pressure is that I will not probably accept a lower pay job when compared to my previous job using my advance diploma certificate. Apparently I had come to this far (study abroad in UK) and the drawback will be some debt awaiting me to clear off. Isn't it irony that you could earn a clear profit of RM5,000+ (accommodation and food is covered) by becoming a "waiter/washing plate" in UK while a lot of people struggling to earn that just RM3,000 job (without minus those EPF, food, accommodation, loan and etc) if you're lucky back in Malaysia.
Anyway, there is too much argument about working that kind of job since there is no right and wrong as it is based on different perspective of a person. Guess the reason I felt a little dissatisfied with my decision was probably because I wasn't in any of those category during my stay in UK other than finding way to improve my English. (How great if I had followed my friend working illegally in UK for 3 month and I might be carrying RM15,000+ cash back to Malaysia?) However, talking anything is useless now since it was my last few weeks before going back to Malaysia to start the "slavery" job working for others people.
During the evening, I just felt that the time past so fast again as the sky became dark at 4pm. Besides, I didn't manage to finish the marketing plan again when my mind is full of thought due to being busybody. Those "busybody" topic include one of my primary school friend is getting married and she was one of my friend's friend as it suddenly make me think about someone. Well, I guess most of the woman would probably getting married to someone who is older than them. If I didn't waste my time thinking those nonsense and focus on do the important stuff, I might be getting married by the age of 25+.
Looking at my current financial situation, I have a thought that I will not getting married until I reach the age of 30. Maybe this is the reason why so many "uncle" get to marry to those girls who range from 20 to 25 years old. In addition, we can't blame those girls who choose older man as their life partner because they are more financial stable and matured than us. In fact, I did have a feeling that if a guy did not have his own financial ability, he will eventually lose the confident to chance any girl based on my own assumption. Afterall, I'm just a guy who keep complaint without much real action to improve. (我没有权利抱怨)
Another issue that make me become busybody was about a 21 year old guy go "cheong" (finding chicken if you know what I mean) although he already have a girlfriend to satisfy his XXX need. However, I get calm down when I asked myself deeper the reason that make me felt annoyed such as "Why you want to keep your virgin for so long? (i mean real sxx, masturbation not included) Is this something should be proud of that you can tell your future children? Or because I heard too many guy say the same thing all over again about getting laid as you will not feel lonely?" and I know it was just my impulse thought when I saw such things.
OMG !!! My time seems to be passed so fast again when I spend some time writing this post. Perhaps this would be the reason why I had those so call "black dog depression" when I spend my time doing the wrong stuff such as writing this post. If I really think in a conscious way, I wouldn't log in my Facebook or visit the forum on the first place if I really want to get my stuff done right? (feel bad because I keep say quit blogging but still choose to continue write this post, old habits can't change instantly?) In the end, I know I might get devoured within myself if I kept staying on the same situation.
During the night, I was having some great conversation with my cousin after I had taken my dinner. It seems that she was right that most of the social media / application might ruin someone real life activity as their intention was just a facilitator apps. What really matters at the end of the day is someone in real life who really care for you. For instance, when you're sick, does your Facebook/Blogger/online/any social network friend will come to visits you in real life to care for you? Furthermore, life is just a waste if you keep care for the others people voices that they doesn't care for you in the first place.
In fact, people who contribute or share thing without having the intention to get anything in return is the most humble person that you should be friend with. Furthermore, the world will not end even if you didn't update or write any post because life still goes on without any consequences. On the other hand, my deadline for finishing up the marketing plan would be this coming Wednesday and next week I might be spending 6 days in my relative grandparent house. Therefore I might not be able to update.and it would be a no internet world for someone who is social addict in someway.
At last, today was my 23rd birthday and it seems to be quite "lonely" in someway although I have some social media friend who had wished me a happy birthday. Well, Google does wish me birthday too as shown below.
Perhaps this is the reason why it is not good to have some "history diary" since you can recall back as it is like happening yesterday. Anyway, this year I don't have any cake to blow again and start to feel that it isn't a big deal whether how you want to celebrate your birthday. Perhaps I should be happy that at least I have a virtual birthday cake although I felt myself like a Harry Potter in someway as shown below? (Happy Birthday Lonely Reload! LOL)
At last, I shall be grateful of what I have and should be happy that the decision to stay in UK was great as I am able to make new international friend by attending the super
=)