There is a lot of excuses that we often tell our brain such as "Don't ship on time, late is the first step to never; procrastinate, claiming that you need to be perfect; ship early, sending out defective ideas, hoping they will get rejected" and much more. Besides, "I don't know what to do" is actually a type of resistance when we try to find more excuses to delay the task. Seriously I do felt hypocrite when I read more as it was saying about myself. Suddenly I felt that blogging is actually a waste of time especially if you did not provide any value in term of making your reader more productive, healthier, wealthier, happier and more good feelings. If I really like blogging, I shall start it after I had retired at my older age because I could have more time. Anyway, please don't get me wrong as the opinion was based on my assumption and thought without any support.
This is because those time that I had spent in research and reading information tends to be not worth because those valuable time can be use in a better way. It was just like a friend who say something smart, insightful or meaningful everyday in blog and share those post in those social media platform. At the end of the year, he do gain a lot of likes and follower to show off, but that's the end of the case. What if he could use the precious time to do something more productive and fought hard enough actually make something out of it, as he could ended up as a person who can change he world or a multi-million company at the end of the year. Over time, the resistance can force someone to repeat the same unproductive work over and over again without creating much value.
For example, I could check my email for almost 30 times per day to see what people think about my thought, what feedback I get and comment it back if appropriate and I can do this forever as it never ends. Seriously it is so addictive but it must come to an end by putting myself on an internet diet such as checking email 3 time a day instead of 30 times as this could end up a higher productivity. If I can't make it, the only way is to quit. (Talk only no action, lol) During the afternoon, I phoned up my father to fetch me to the Klang KTM as I will met my sister at Masjid Jamek. It is because I had finally decided to seek for "Fortune/Fate Analysis" service to gain some guidance of my future career although it seems like I'm superstitious. Hence, I need to stay a day in my sister house in KL as I need to wake up early in the morning.
Before my father fetch me to the train station, we went to the office and CIMB bank. Somehow the same "old feeling" (resistance/lizard brain) came back when I saw the office as I told myself what is past, shall be past. In fact, I didn't have the bravery to ask how could I help when what he say was outsourced and seems like going to close down soon. The only thing that I could told myself was to have the heart to advance (上进心) when working for my future employment. Around 4.30pm I arrived the Klang KTM and it has installed a new computer screen when compared 6 month ago as shown below if I'm not mistaken.
Well, it is quite coincidence that I meet one of my colleague from my previous company at KL Sentral. We do have some great conversation and he planed to go New Zealand for the "plucking fruit" job although he was a game programmer. I'm impress with his bravery because the agency did not guarantee a job for him as he need to travel there to find the seasonal fruit picking job alone. Beside, he told me that it is important to have confidence through my conversation with him as I'm the one who lack of confidence. It is because if you don't have confidence, how can you persuade or impress your future boss to hire you right? After some moment, my sister arrived and we took the train to Bandar Tasik Selatan as her car parked there. Once again I gained some "truth hurts" advice from my sister.
She advice me to join banking field in term of management trainee or something related to IT job in the bank field. It is because my excuse to her was I don't have much IT background and her advice was train or somehow convince those employer that you have the skills. The future employer dislike employee who find a lot of excuse or "cannot do this and that" as it was an lazy answer. At this moment, I'm still not sure whether want to work in the online marketing, purchaser, merchandiser, marketer, management trainee, banking field and much more work. Furthermore, the secret of getting a job fast could be lowering down your salary requirement and try to be as humble as possible to your future employer even if you had a degree cert when the most important is the communication skills.
For example, I heard that one of her team leader who earn around RM7500~RM8000+ don't really need to turn up in work because he was strong in communication and could convince his boss that he could deliver the task given even he just turn up few time a year in the office. As an employee, I think the most important that we need to fight for was the bonus we received every year no matter it is in one month or few month. It is because that's the only way for "Da Gong Zai" (employer) to buy a better car, house or any payment that require a huge money. After I had lived for almost 24 years old, I couldn't find any excuse to say that I'm lack of communication skills because it is a skills that can learn through hardship. What had holding me back was my avoidance of something that resulted me to bear the consequences now.
During the night, we had some "Wan Tan Mee" (one of my favourite food) as my dinner near the hawker stall that near to my sister house. Furthermore, it is important to spend the money wisely as I seems to be simply spend money by going those cafe restaurant as I heard my sister's husband could sacrifice to eat less or bread just to able to save more money to buy another house. Hence, it might be true that everything great behind comes with a sacrifice without we known about it. It is just like what I heard about the ibilik/carsifu/propwall boss has his hard struggle too behind his success story. In conclusion, sacrifices is needed to success in life. Somehow I do have a worry feeling that I might end up a low paid job if I didn't improve myself when I start to stress with my commitment every month. Finally I arrived her house at 9.10pm and start to feel tired although I continue to find some job and research a bit about the SAP/ERP related information. However, I "wasted" 2 hour to write this post instead of doing something remarkable.
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