somehow i just feel that the reason i can wake up automatically at such early was because i awake at the similar time for this week.
anyways, mother have prepared prawn "Siu Mai" (dumpling) as my breakfast and i liked it very much as shown picture below.
actually i have planned to complete my "working related stuff" by this weekend since i have not finished it during my working hour but it quite hard to think about new creative idea.
in fact, i still worry i might get "fired" (sack) next week if i can't perform well as the game launching event was just few more days to go.
besides, i do feel that working is actually quite same with study whereby you need to research yourself and come up with an idea written in words, then convince your boss with your strategic marketing plan.
after some moment, i start to feel tired and went to take a nap.
the moment i woke up again was 1.40pm and mother cooked chicken rice as our lunch.
after that, she continue to cook a lot of food (around 8 different dishes) because my mother's side relative (20++ people) will came to our house tonight for a small open house gathering.
on the other hand, there is another "headhunter" company phoned me and asked about my current working status as i haven update back my latest availability in the job market on the website.
somehow i just have a feeling of "wah, i am so high demand in the working market meh? LOL" when talking to myself or is because there is less people want to work nowadays? (all people want become own boss?)
anyways, i think the reason i was "demanded" was because i have "blow too much water" (lied) when writing my resume using my past working experience of my ex-company that i contributed a lot of good result.
moreover, i think if i include my blog link inside my resume, i might be wanted if it is related to the "online marketing" field but i will never add in since my blog was quite private to share in the public.
in fact, i have a little regret now for "cheating" too much as it will only *sia sui" (embarrass) myself if i can't deliver what i promise in the marketing field.
furthermore, sister have helped me to find the courses that related with IT (Internet Technology) technical skills and the skills development road was map divided into four categories which is Client, Server, Database and Development as shown picture below.
basically the price of the course was ranged from RM2000 to RM20000 depending on which certificate you choose that start from Microsoft Certified Solution Associate (MCSA), Microsoft Certified Solution Developer (MCSD), Microsoft Certified Solution Expert (MCSE), Microsoft Certified Technology Specialist (MCTS), Microsoft Certified Professional Developer (MCPD) and Microsoft Certified Information Technology Professional (MCITP) program.
seriously i just feel frustrated once again because myself already knew that "marketing" is mostly depend on talking skills and it is not very demanded in the working market when compared with the technical skills.
moreover, i do asked myself why so "stubborn" to spend RM30,000 to complete the degree course in SHU upon approval which myself already know the working market is not all about certification.
perhaps the answer was my "face problem" that i want to proof that i am UK graduate too if i study there.
in addition, i just heard my brother's said about his previous manager earning about RM18,000+ a month in the Oil and Gas company with his degree certification but they need a lot of engineer qualification and don't need marketing people at all.
therefore if i ever get my degree, i think i "die die" also must target big multi national company (MNC) to work for no matter what to get my return of investment. (ROI)
somehow it seems to be the same keyword theory of "finding the rich" no matter it is people or company just like guys will join big rich company and girls will find rich guys to marry with.
anyways, feel free watch the "The Candidate" video from Heineken as shown below or the link >>> Here.
finally the winner was Guy Luchting to work in HEINEKEN HQ at Amsterdam when respond to extraordinary circumstances as he was enthusiasm, creativity, spontaneity and passion personalities.
around 7pm half of my mother's side relatives came and we have our dinner at 8pm.
then i just go upstair to rest since my sore throat still haven fully recovered but i had eaten a lot of fried food just now.
eventually i get asleep as i feel tired and woke up again at 11pm.
anyways, i do feel happy that i still have some "Angpao" (red packet) despite the Chinese New Year was almost coming to an end.
before i end my post, i would like to share an interesting topic about "I don't understand why people want to suicide, really no other solution" from the forum and below was the details of it.
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Instead of die straight away, why not run away and start a new life, maybe go to the place where nobody know you or can find you and start a new life there.
1) Run away as far as you can, possible overseas if you qualified, if cannot then find local place where nobody know or can find you.
2) Find new place to stay.
3) Cancel all your contact with your family, friends, colleague etc.
5) Forget everything about the past.
4) Find new job, find any job you qualified, lower your expectation. (possibly a job where can keep you busy all the time, overtime job will be perfect as long as the job can keep yourself busy the whole day, so you won't even have time to think about the past and makes you want to suicide again)
6) Start the whole new of you from here.
Better than suicide right?
At least now you still alive with new job, new friend and possibly with new partner and soon will have new family too.
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therefore i just feel that finding motivation to survive is important when you get depressed in your life.
moreover, i was quite agree that "Everyone has their own problem but the fact that you didn't notice it because they seal their problem better than yours" which is quite true.
well, people who want to "die" when face with love problem was probably due to immaturity because they lack of proper upbringing as their parents never teach them about bees and butterfly story.
as for those who suffer from depression was because they are unhappy with their lives as it could be their disappointment for not attaining something in life.
however, talking and taking actions is totally two different things again.
in the end, yourself really need to find a goal or motivation about what you want to do or become in your life.
as for my sister, her motivation to continue to work was because she need to take care of her new born baby.
as for myself, my situation was still in "walk one step, see one step" (走一步，见一步) which means depend on the environment that happening around me to make a decision..
somehow i do wondering whether how long i can express my feeling with blogging as it seems like no long term goal.
perhaps my intention to continue writing this blog was to create a guidance to some Tarcian Junior for not following my mistaken footsteps as no one would really teach you when you're young. (I am already 23 years old from this moment of writing where i regret on "something", how great if i know all this things when i am 18 years old)
anyways, as long as i still alive, there is still hope and one of the reason to continue blog was to prove that i still living in the world despite so many years of whining in life.
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