! A Growing Teenager Diary !

today i woke up at 7.45am.
somehow i was reluctant to wake up but keep told myself don't repeat last time "late" habit.
after that, one of my ex-ex-classmate from college called my name and i realize he was just behind me when i went to my seat.
anyways, just have some conversation with him and just feel that it is good to have goal despite myself already seems to "give up" on create own website and things that related to E-commerce.
around 9.10am i reached office and continue to do my working related stuff.
actually my feeling's now damn worry because the advertising amount that had spend did not suit with the previously record and the performance result seems to be so far from the "goal's target" from the marketing strategy planning.

therefore i definitely "die" for the upcoming next Monday's meeting as i can't deliver what had planned although i can still "act" like nothing happen at the office now.
besides, i just heard something from my superior said that "ask that XXX no need to come next week" which means get "fired" (sack) due to something.
anyways, i just quickly do my part and keep monitoring the ads performance every half hour.
during the afternoon, we followed our Japanese boss to somewhere near Sooka Sentral but he suggested to go to Malones Irish Restaurant and Bar.
well, my feelings during that moment was "die loh, i want to save money but seems to be can't" and the cheapest food also cost about RM19+ after the afternoon promotion discount.
so if think positively, i should think in a positive way that to enjoy the environment right?

anyways, below was some picture of the Malones Irish Restaurant and Bar that is just opposite from Sooka Sentral mall.

the set that i ordered was stuffed chicken breast with mushroom and the real picture is seems to be smaller portion than shown in the menu picture when you can compare it as shown picture below.

well, you can choose either want salad or soup of the day as a complimentary free side dish.
somehow i just feel that they was targeting high end consumer as the normal price range from RM18+ to RM50 per meal.
suddenly i think that this theory is like whether you want to sell "1 Lamborgini or 10 Luxury car or 100 Myvi car" because it can relate to expensive food restaurant too as if they serve less customer but most of the customer are rich and it is just same as a "Wan Tan Mee" seller who sell 1000 bowl of noodles per day.

below was the details address of the Irish restaurant.
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Malones @ Sooka Sentral
Annex 1 & 2 Sooka Sentral,
Jalan Stesen Sentral 5, 50470 Kuala Lumpur
(In the building across the street from KLIA Ekspres)
Opening hours:
Mon – Fri : 11am to 12am
Sat : 12pm to 12am
Sun & Public Holiday : Closed. Can be open for functions upon request.
Contact No. : 03-2166 8430
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overall i would rate it as 2.8 out of 5 star for the food as it was in small portion. (maybe i am cheapskate?)
in the end, the Japanese boss treat all of us and i seems to see something in the bill like almost reach RM300 total cost for the meal.
after that, i just continue to do my working related stuff.
somehow just feel that there is so much opportunity in online atmosphere but all you to do was create some website that user want but until now i don't even created any those "niche" website and only know how to "whining" by blogging which seems to be wasting time.
around 7pm i make a move from office and arrived Wangsa Maju at 7.45pm.
then i went to have my dinner at Kopitiam Desa again and added a chicken drumstick for RM6 total instead of eat the chicken curry fried noodle that only cost RM3.

actually i just wondered whether will i really "die" if i keep eat the fried noodles every single night at there as my lunch since it was so cheap.
after that, i took bus back to my house and stop at Tar College main gate at 8.35pm because i want to return the book that i borrowed from Tarc Library.
somehow i have the feeling to learn Japanese language and took the self-learning study program book as shown picture below.

during the moment i check out from the library, it seems that the staff told me that i can't borrow anymore book as i almost graduate soon and no longer study at Tarc.
moreover, i was fined RM0.80 for late one day to return the 2 books and did feel a bit "sucks" that i no longer have a great resource to learn from. ( guess i shall not return the 2 books and steal it? LOL)

finally i arrived back home at 9.20pm and feel quite tired again.
when i went to check my salary statement in my online banking, it seems that the cheque still haven clear yet as i had deposit it yesterday although it did not even reach RM1,000 which is like the minimum wages for foreign worker since i just work for few days during February.
then my brother just told me that the banks require 3 business day to clear the cheque and i feel that the Paypal $$ transfer to my local bank account is even faster when i write the "promote adult" post.
anyways, tomorrow i will be going to college to ask about the RM250 book voucher despite most of the people say it can only be redeemable from Monday to Friday.
after some moment, sister phoned me that my mother have went to do a little small surgery on her hand and i need to go back hometown tomorrow.

on the other hand, my room mate just told me about his working experience for the Baby fair at Kuala Lumpur Convention Centre (KLCC) today.
somehow i feel that to be success, you need to be very talkative as if you can persuade more people to buy your product no matter how expensive it is.
besides, anyone here have receive the Malaysia International Tourism Blogger Conference 2013 Invitation card‏ at Levek 3, ballroom 2, KLCC as shown picture below.

well, i just feel myself quite bias when i saw the guest of honour was YB Dato's Sri Dr Ng Yen Yen, i don't think i will go unless they pay me RM1,000 for attending it. (LOL)
at last, it was the Chan Fong "大城心事" story sharing every Friday and below was the recording podcast for it.
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1) 第一位：xxx（某位女士 / 已婚十五年 / 有三個孩子）～（前面的故事沒有聽到）她打電話來投訴說老公不願意配合她一起去照顧孩子而且給的家用也是不夠用，她很不明白為何老公在這種情況下還能夠經常晚上出去說藉口【（喝酒）】應酬客戶。【陳峰大哥建議她不需要去改變對方，但是有必要做好將來“萬一”的心理準備】>>> Here.

2) 第二位：周先生（已婚 / 目前失業）～他覺得自己和太太陷入婚姻之間的問題，他發現最近老婆一直跟另一個男人走進走出很親密，但是老婆並沒有向她透露和誰一起出入。【陳峰大哥有三個建議：1=儘快找工；2=別再生孩子；3=放心自己無謂多餘的疑心和顧慮（設下心裡底線），多相信太太一些】>>> Here.

3) 第三位：Alice（已婚 / 目前有兩個女兒）～和老公之間的問題，這三年來爲了一點小事就要吵架說離婚，她也不想補救婚姻裂痕但是又不想失去女兒的撫養權。【陳峰大哥建議她把重心焦點投入在女兒的身上，如就算說果要離婚就要事先談妥離婚協議】>>> Here.

4) 第四位：姓林的（已婚三十多年 / 有兩個兒子）～和老公的問題，老公最近戀上另一個女人不止很親近甚至來往還很頻密令她無法接受很容忍（故事的內容太長無法交代完整）。【陳峰大哥建議她是時候該放手了，必要時就選擇離婚，免得自己繼續痛苦下去】>>> Here.

5) 第五位：David～和爸爸的關係問題，他自小爸爸就是個爛賭鬼所以得不到父愛長大成人，現在爸爸終於回到他們身邊親近了但是他卻覺得無法原諒和接受這個爸爸過去所做一切的行為；他不知道不想照顧爸爸會不會被人批評不孝。～【陳峰大哥建議他儘量忘記和原諒父親過去的行為，多給機會爸爸去關係他們】>>> Here.

6) 第六位：阿君（育有一子一女）～今年過年很不開心，因為女兒沒有做工還要亂買東西花錢甚至還嫌棄給的紅包太小（她打電話來純粹只是向陳峰大哥發牢騷）。>>> Here.

7) 第七位（最後一位）：阿蓮～她孩子之前叫她搬出去住然後又叫她搬回來，她說自己接受不到孩子為何有這樣的安排和舉動，其實她是很想回去的。【陳峰大哥鼓勵她嘗試放下身段很面子，通過宗教的力量化解兒女紛爭；別爲了一口氣兒執著】>>> Here.
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guess there was a lot of story to listen again about other's people life.
before i end my post, i would like thanks to AkiraCeo for helping me design a banner although it is not fully completed yet as shown below.

sometime i wish i can be a comic blogger but i really lack of drawing talents.
in conclusion, i feel that life have too much things to talk about and it is hard have a change in life.
>.<

today i woke up at 10.25am.
*first of all, i would like to confess on something where it would be a very long post for tonight and hopefully anyone who reading this sentences will spend your 5 minute to read through this post and give me some feedback although "maybe" my blog's readers only got 1~10 people who interest with my story.*
after i get myself prepared around 11am, i walked to Tarc SBS office to get my RM250 book voucher as some friends say the school did not open but i would like to find out myself.
unfortunately, it seems that the door's locked when i reach there and looks like i can't get my voucher because i need to work on the normal day. (Mon-Friday)
then i just walk to the canteen to buy some fish ball as my breakfast since it was one of my favourite junk food when i still study at Tarc.

upon reach home, i just continue to surf some information and read some blogs.
somehow i feel a bit "sad" when being said as a "content stealer" from "someone" as i don't ever credit the source that i found when i post those funny memes picture in my Facebook page.
honestly, i just feel quite "down" when i received a comment saying that "you're saying that you're stealing without knowing that you're stealing, but it's okay, you're only one of the thousands" which seems legit but i just act like nothing happens.
then i just replied a very childish/immature comment such as "the secret to creativity is knowing how to hide your sources" to cover up myself.
seriously i feel that why whatever i do also will get critics and i really fed up of keep need to do on what people said.

perhaps this is can explain why so many crimes happens as those people keep doing what they like.
for example, a guy like to go find prostitute, then he have a strong motivation to earn a lot of money so that he can have sex with different girls that he choose every night.
another example is a person hate a person, then he go buy gun to kill all the people that he don't like or just rape whatever girl he like, if not happy with life, just go "14th" floor. (LOL i write until so childish/immature)
well, you might say what he do was totally wrong but at least he is being real and happy for own satisfaction.
around 2pm i went to have chicken rice as my lunch again but this time the taste of it was not nice.
after that, i just listening back to the Chan Fong story from yesterday post and feel that we can't use the word "guarantee" in life as there was no such thing as 100% guarantee because life is full of possibilities and different kind of people.

as an example, most of the people think that a couple who married and even have produce few kids will not end up divorce but there is still a probability that it will happen.
besides, i do read on Chinese article from Cheryl Lee Xin Yee FB page where you can search for the "我是个对丈夫不忠的妻子" keyword that is related to the married woman feel guilty for not being loyal to his husband although they were married 10 years+ and have kids as she keep think about her ex-boyfriend who came to chase her back.
actually when looking this case, i think it is true that why many people say girls are a loyal "creature" as if they like you, they will always like you no matter what how wrong you are.
so after reading the post, i afraid myself will be like the girl despite i am a guy because if let says if i was married, but the girl that i liked so much during college life find me back, what should i react?

it is because that is something so "memorable" for me as it was my first time be prepared to chase a girl in real life last time but failed and this is the reason why i will spend my "night energy" to keep blogging everyday to tell myself to be lucky that i am still alive until this day. (don't feel like talking my past)
therefore this might be the reason that explain why until now i do not have any girlfriend yet and i was afraid/shy to see any beautiful girl or anyone that looks similar with her with a short hair.
around 5.10pm i make a move from house and waited the bus to Wangsa Maju and i need to arrive at Taman Paramount LRT to meet my brother there around 6pm.
since i do not have any book to read, i just keep playing the games on my phone throughout the journey and feel that time passed so fast if you focus on something.
around 6.15pm i arrived the Paramount station and went to buy some chocolate.

while i was paying for the Kit Kat chocolate, the cashier told me that it was RM3.50 instead of RM2.80 and when i see back the price, it was placed just beside which is very misleading and i would say their "marketing tactic" really good as it not only "accidentally place wrong the price tag", but also free a Fox sweet together as you can see picture below. (LOL, even buy a chocolate also got story? =.=)

during the moment at car, i was "scolded" (advice) a lot by my brother as i still doubt about my working related stuff but i do know what he say was true and very mature.
for an example, he say that if company know i got this kind of "scare die/scare this and that" (怕死) attitude, company will lost confident in me.
anyways, he just told me that luckily that time i did not make a decision to buy car as i did not have a job secure feeling in the job that i done.

somehow the reason i did not have job secure feeling was because i did not meet with the company result where i will "die" on this coming Monday when they see the report.
other thing that i get "scold" from him was because i still have that childish mindset as i keep compare myself with other people where he scold me for no put much effort to earn money and just whining about life.
finally i arrived back hometown at 7.10pm and have KFC and some "ba gua" (dried meat) as my dinner.
then i just continue to surf some information and news as it seems like i have no life other than facing with the computer screen.
there is something i would share for the RM250 book voucher from Tarcian page where that is a shop named HARVEST STATIONERY in Sungai Wang can accept bb1m book voucher as they say anything you found in that shop, you can purchase them using the RM250 voucher and 100% no limitation of usage.

after that, i just tune on the TV and found program that named "爸妈好犀利之洪兰篇" from Astro AEC that talking about child's education that is very meaningful although it was in Chinese as shown below.
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父母的烦恼是孩子的苦恼！父母急于开发孩子的大脑，但孩子的身理成长是否真的能接受呢？父母害怕孩子输在起跑点，所以强迫孩子去做超过他年龄范围的事情，这样真的能帮助孩子快速成长？
洪兰教授指出，孩子的青春必须要让他留白，太过急迫的学习环境是无法让孩子发挥他的创造力。每个孩子在成长过程中都需要被鼓励的，但你知道称赞孩子也是一种学问吗？父母永远是孩子的榜样，孩子会透过模仿父母的言行举止来建立他的价值观。
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moreover, i just search the "Harry Harlow monkey theory" when the show talk about it and found out he was a psychologist that best known for his maternal-separation and social isolation experiments.

after the show end, i was attracted with another show title "Bella Awards" ay NTV 7 when i saw the Ronan Keating was on the program.
besides, the program said that it was the first glamour local celebrities awards and it was a live show.
while the show start with the cat walking, i just have a "bad" thought that what if someone falls down while walking at the stage.
however, the shows was quite boring as i feel it was purposely made for some "Dato" to be happy by awarding them.
overall i just enjoyed with Gary Cao song and Ronan Keating's when you say nothing at all song.

then he continue to sing another Fires song and end with saying "Apa khabar, wanita Malaysia sangat cantik" (how are you, Malaysia woman is very beautiful) sentences.

after the show, it is continue with something like talking bad about the opposition politics news and we just directly switch off the TV since i feel they was a controlled media by Malaysia government.
at night, there is a friend asked me whether want to do online business but myself tends to be not very interested as i seems to be "die heart" (死心) to e-commerce website.
on the other hand, one of my friend have borrowed me his "GA" account and i just test it on my blog today.
well, he say it's okay to get "ban" since he no longer use and i also have a bad feeling about it since another friend borrowed me before and get banned when i put at my blog.
over time, i seems to be discover myself was actually an attention seeker on the online atmosphere where i just want to have someone to care for me. (at least 1 or 2 because i feel lonely)
actually it is hard to explain the reason of my blogging intention since they do not understand me.

well, i just can say try think in my point of view that if you did not have much friend in real life, you might start to feel lonely and probably want some attention in online since my real life socialize skill was not good.
in fact, i would like to make a confession as i think i am the only one who willing to spend some advertising money to get some attention by promote my diary blog since 2009 at Facebook as shown picture below.

it is because most people will only advertise when they're selling something online but not like me just spend without getting any return.
moreover, i seems to have accumulated about 200 USD in total to advertise as i was using other FB account which explain why Facebook can be so rich.
besides, i also advertise the banner using free credit from Google as below.

seriously i just feel myself so "funny" seems to become an attention seeker.

furthermore, i also feel myself like to use SEO "trending keyword" as my title as i have various of choice to choose for today's titles as below.
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1) The most Attention Seeker Blogger in Malaysia.
2) Top Blog Whore Blogger in Malaysia.
3) How To Use BRIM Book Voucher?
4) Bella Awards Malaysia Live 2013.
5) Why I want to be an Attention Seeker.
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so as you can see, i can choose any topic i want to talk about and that's how i can maintain 1 post per day.
the fact of life is i do know it is useless to spend ads on my blog because no one will care what you're doing in your life and the things that people care was how can you benefits them if they read your blog.

actually it is just like telling people that "wei ! i am lonely leh ! please care for me, care for me lah!" which is totally useless.
at last, i just can say that i have already gave my most honest, real opinion and activity that i do but some people will just think that i must be doing it for money. (admit have a little for time, human do change right?)
if you really understand the situation and think in my point of view that if no one would really care what you do such as working alone in KL or anything about your life, you will only understand my intention.
well, i think you have "won" because your words can make me to write until so long when you criticize me about not being "original" than just a thief/stealer content.
there is one Chinese picture that is so true about "who do you sad for" when i asked myself as below.

in addition, my intention of reveal all this thing was just write whatever that i have in my mind and being real for who i am instead of keep pretending like want to be a "good guy".
on the other hand, i might delete this whole blog in future if it had threatened me which i even think in the long term that how would my future wife think about me if i have such thought or feelings?
so please "enjoy" my story while you still can read this post before it dies or i "dies" in life.
=)

today i woke up at 12.10pm.
then i just get myself prepared because will be back to KL house for working lifestyle.
during the afternoon, mother have cooked a lot of delicious food for us as our lunch.
after that, i just continue to surf some information online and some news.
well, i just feel the Lahad Datu news seems to be quite a trending topic nowadays.
anyways, i don't think i can comment much about the news as i saw one of the article state that "Everyone, including bloggers should support the authorities in their efforts to address the intrusion of Filipino armed invaders in Lahad Datu and Semporna, Sabah and maintain the confidentiality of the movement of the security forces" which means that bloggers should not post negative remarks that could divide the people.
it is because there is so much source available online until i don't know whether which is true or fake news.

around 4.10pm we make a move from home where my brother fetched me to Taman Paramount LRT.
besides, i just feel quite "funny" again when my mother asked me whether have $$ to eat or not while working at KL and i just say i can take care of myself there without the need to take money from her but the fact is i still waiting my February salary to be cleared within this few day.
i arrived the Paramount station at 5.20pm and just continue to play my phone's game throughout the journey.
when i reach Wangsa Maju at 6.05pm, i went to have some noodles as my dinner at Fancy Mee Corner (爱面子板面) restaurant.
finally i arrived back home at 6.55pm and check on some online things again.
somehow i was quite worry for tomorrow as i did not achieve the target that set by the company and my feeling now was like waiting to be "fired" (sack) on tomorrow.

on the other hand, i do feel happy when one of my ex-ex-room mate came to visits and comments on my yesterday "emos post" where i feel myself like no one cares and become an attention seeker (being criticize as blog whore/kudaing/kuda/godie in some forum) as well in the online atmosphere.
before i end my post, i would like to share an interesting news about the Big Blog Exchange program where sixteen passionate bloggers will swap lives, blogs, cultures and places simultaneously in real life for ten days starting from 7th June to 17th June.
well, i just like the video so much when it say's that "Do you believe local knowledge can generate global understanding? That my hometown, can become your inspiration? Do you believe that exchanging cultures can prevent war?" as shown video below or the link >>> Here.

seriously i do believe that exchanging cultures might can prevent war from happening.

the competition phase start from 1st March to 15th April 2013 where bloggers who interested in the project will be able to sign up at http://www.bigblogexchange.org by clicking the "Participate" button at the top right of your screen.
after signing up, bloggers are require to gets VOTE in order to compete in the 100 finalist.
the 25 of the top bloggers from four region (Africa and Middle East, America, Asia Pacific, Europe) blog will be be review by the jury panel before selected to just 14 finalist at 15th April.
moreover, the other two final bloggers (or wildcards) will be chosen based purely on their passion, inspiration and their motivation in being one of the 16 ambassadors as no votes are taken into account so that smaller bloggers will have the chance to take part without it relying on or worrying about popularity which is quite good.

therefore i just feel that this is quite fair for any new blogger who just start writing also have the chance to participate without need to get any votes.
during the 29th April, the live draw will be held, where the jury will reveal the 14 "winners" from the finalists as well as choosing the two wildcards to make up the final 16 bloggers.
after the finalists have been notified, there will be a 5 week period until the exchange for those finalist bloggers to prepare visas, vaccinations and so on.
furthermore, i feel that this is quite great where they will give you a total amount of £500 as a pocket money for your trip. (Wah, i want the MONEY leh! It is RM2,500 !)
anyways, i do joined the Big Blog Exchange 2013 as a Malaysia participant as shown picture below.

feel free to VOTE me to as below or the link >>> http://www.bigblogexchange.org/blog/116002

(my gender was accidentally put as female but i have requested them to change~LOL)
actually i just feel quite contradict as if i really won, i can't participate also since the SHU degree program will start at 3th June to 6th September 2013 which means i can't go also.
in fact, i have a problem to reveal myself in the public if i really win this competition since i still like to stay as anonymous person.
perhaps all i want was is just to get noticed by the organizer that "There is guy who expresses his feeling through blogging everyday in Malaysia" as i was just an attention seeker to "some" people right?
OMG, it's 1.20am when i finish right this post and i still need to wake up at 7am+ tomorrow.
guess i will really "die fast" soon if i still want to maintain my 365 post per year.
T.T

today i woke up at 7.30am.
after that, i just update all the links as usual and get myself prepared to work.
around 9.15am i reach KL Sentral and my feeling was quite worry as there will be a meeting every Monday to track/observer our "key performance indicators" (KPI) about our work.
well, the news of a colleague had been "fired" (sack) seems to be quite true as he no longer come to work anymore.
somehow i just feel life is so real that "the real business is not fun like the online games you've played" as said in the Top Ittipat movie that i shared before where you will not have second or much chance/life if you made some mistake.

anyways, i have been so nervous every second throughout the morning when i completed my report.

it is because i have spend a lot of "marketing $$" which is almost equal to my one month salary within just four days+ for the company.

besides, i just feel that my value that i worth for the company was just my past working experience and all those "good" information but i had almost gave/share out all thing i know about marketing.

actually my brother did told me before that "no need to share out so many thing so fast" and i guess that is the "technique" when working for people but this show that why our productivity in work keep reducing.

anyways, i think i need to learn "new skills" no matter is what such as programming or learning Japanese language which is not just said only.

around 12.40pm we have our lunch at the Sooka Sentral food court and i just feel myself quite "sucks" as i was not talkative guy.

during the afternoon, my body just keep "shaking" throughout the meeting when comes to my part to explain my work to others and the Japanese boss.

one of the reason was because after spending so much $$ within just few day, the sales is totally zero and if you're in my situation, how would you explain to your boss when yourself also not sure where goes wrong? (when company no sales, where got income to give you salary?)

anyways, i just feel that "marketing knowledge" really easy to get copy/steal by other people and that's why i keep said said learning a technical IT skill is definitely better as you no need worry/afraid other people can copy your coding skills knowledge.

besides, i start to feel myself not very like anime movies compared to last time when it have become commercialized as a earning money material.

seriously i my head seems to be "almost burst" and headache after the meeting as i did not meet with the company requirement.

if you're boss and you see a staff spend so much $$ and did not bring back any sales, would you sack me?

around 6.45pm i make a move from office and arrived back Wangsa Maju LRT at 7.30pm.

then i just have my dinner at Kopitiam Desa again and feel that who said "KL never have cheap food" as my dinner just cost me RM2.50 for the fried noodles with plain water but i know it is unhealthy. (not sure i will really "die" or not if keep eat at this stall for the whole week)

in fact, have you ever wonder why some people can eat 1 meal/dinner for RM100 or even RM1000 and my thought was just "as long as i am full, there is no need to spend so much money on a single meal right?" but it seems to be like a "loser thought" to comfort myself as i can't be like them.

over time, i just feel myself tends to be having more thought when i am living alone in KL.

for example, when crossing the Wangsa bridge, i can even have a "scary" thought that "what will happen if i jump down from there?" where there is many car passing by but the fact is no one will give a damn about you other than your family/very close fried that cares about you.
besides, another "funny" thought i have while standing inside the bus was when i saw a couple hugging so tight/close and the girl was beautiful, my mindset was like "Sien liao loh, the girl will be fxxk by his boyfriend tonight liao" while i just can "jelly" on those people who have that kind of "night time" lifestyle.
therefore i just feel my thought was not like my "teenager/children" time where i still naive.
anyways, guess my sister was right about me that only "too free" people can think so much (太得空的人才会想酱多) because if when you're busy, you don't even have the time to think.

finally i arrived back home at 7.50pm and feel so tired.
then i went to take a nap and suddenly automatically sleep.
the moment i woke up again was already 1.55am midnight and i was like "WTFBBQ, i no need sleep liao?"
furthermore, i am trying to sleep after finishing writing this post as tomorrow still need to wake up at 7am+.

somehow i just feel that it was true about "you can never earns a lot of money when you're working for someone because by the time you earn enough money, your boss already earn more than you and your soul/body might be sucked dry by the job, yet you still need to spend the money to cure back your broken body/soul" right?
in addition, i just wonder how much time left in my life because i seems to be counting my "remaining days" everyday by blogging instead of express my feelings to release stress.

certainly it does help to release some stress after saying what i want to say but how long can i whine or mumble about my life in the long term?
perhaps it was true that if you did not have goal in life, "that the fullstop" whereby you will work for people and continue to build other's people dream.
at last, feel free to Vote me for the "Big Blog Exchange" program at http://www.bigblogexchange.org/blog/116002 link (need to verify in email to get counted for the vote) as i wish to get some attention from this contest.
in conclusion, i feel thankful and appreciate to all the blogger/people who came to my blog to give me some advice/suggestion/feedback about my "boring life" as it was one of the reason i can stay alive till now despite i still worry how much time i left. (at least i have few people to care for me? or not? LOL?)
well, i just can say that everyone have 24 hours everyday and it is just depend how you use your time.
=)

today i woke up at 8am.
in fact, i just sleep around 2 hours+ during yesterday as i was accidentally slept during the night time.
anyways, i quickly get myself prepared in a "super fast" speed mode as i know the bus will arrive on the specific time.
around 9.15am i reached KL Sentral and quickly walk to my office place.
after that, there is a meeting with the "N" group and where he start to explain on how their company can help us to gain more awareness.
somehow i just acted like don't know anything about blogging and do saw a lot of blogger name while he was presenting all the related stuff.
through this meeting, i think i have learned some valuable information but can't disclose much.

well, the answer to success seems to be related with "How Influence are you" and i can see how they can make money out of it.
guess this is just like the real world about why celebrities tends to make more money than normal people as they have the "magical power" to influence people to buy those product from those big brands company but they need to be famous first.
overall i can see he seems to be using two of the "King and Queen cards" as the main selling point where most of the people know about "Beauxxxxxxara and Chxxxei" blogger. (scare being searched)
somehow i did feel myself quite insecure as the "N" company knows my name since i have requested payout before from them by using real name but they don't know my real look.
therefore i just feel that i am "naive" to think about blogging anonymously while earning some $$.

anyways, i think their advertising cost might be consider quite expensive as they was quite well known and one of the top brands in Malaysia.
during the afternoon, i just have my lunch with one of my colleague at the Meals Station Sooka Sentral.
actually i don't feel like going their as i know it would be quite expensive but i just follow the colleague since he want to eat at there.
during the afternoon, i just continue my working related stuff and need to find some graphic related things.
somehow i do feel quite worry as i heard the Japanese boss asked the superior whether the "marketing position" has has been posted in the website or not. (it might means that i will get "fired" (sack) since my performance was not good as i bring zero sales to the company)
so if you're a boss of the company, would you fire a staff that did not perform good?

actually i do feel my job was just like a online business promoter which like no different like those offline t-shirt/product/camera/drinks promoter.
what my value to the company seems to be "those links" as it was quite valuable but it is very easy adaptable by people when they know it.
in fact, it is just like those offline seller whereby they have good contact to sell their products to those VVIP or rich people.
around 6.50pm i make a move from there and arrived Wangsa Maju at 7.20pm.
then i went to have "Wan Tan Mee" as my dinner since the Kopitiam Desa restaurant did not open.
finally i arrived back home at 7.50pm and went to wash my clothes since i have delayed to wash it during weekends.

at night, i went to surf some information and check on news online.
somehow i just saw the article of my successful uncle have been published online at Travel3sixty magazine.
actually i do saw the exclusive article before it publish out during father's side reunion dinner for CNY.
honestly, i was feeling quite "emos" when recall back my olden memories where i told my uncle that i want to become a pilot but end up just talking empty.
furthermore, i just know how to whine/complain about my life and posted some negative stuff by blogging instead of being like successful uncle where he have the passion to share his experience and stories with readers who are not familiar about the aviation industry.
as for now, he was famous in the aviation industry and he still continue writing for AirAsia's inflight magazine every month together with his website started 12 years ago.

as for myself, now i just keep working for people instead of doing something for my own and my "rice bowl" is all depend on those links just like picture below.

anyways, i don't feel like talking much about the job thing.
on the other hand, i just have some chat with "prb" and feel emos when he shares about those couple related things.
after that, i also have some chat with Jamie about something related to working at Australia.
before i end my post, i would like to share an interesting video about "The Best Jobs In The World" as below or the link >>> Here.

currently there are six positions available which is "Chief Funster, Outback Adventurer, Park Ranger, Wildlife Caretaker, Lifestyle Photographer and Taste master" all around Australia as shown below.

in addition, each job comes with a six-month contract and a package worth $100,000 (RM317,000) which is definitely the best job ever.
if you interested, feel free to apply it at http://www.australia.com/best-jobs.aspx although i not sure whether it is real or not.
guess at the end, all of the "poor guy" like me just waiting to have a chance to get this kind of opportunity right?
well, if i ever won this $100K contract, i might delay my SHU study as i certainly can go there next year.
at last, i just keep comfort myself don't think about how much time i left in my life but start to doing on something useful better.
=D

today i woke up at 7.55am.
then i just quickly get myself prepared and went to work.
when i arrived KL Sentral at 9.15am, i went to buy the marble cake as my breakfast again.
upon reach the office, i continue my research and working related things.
somehow i did feel stress when see the "registered user" because the record can be seen by all staff while the result keep dropping everyday as i had paused all the advertising expenditure.
for now, i was agree that "interest" (兴趣) can be relate with "capabilities" (能力) for a person as if you did not have capabilities to finish a task, you will eventually have less interest to do it.
maybe it is because i found it is quite hard to promote "something" without any advertising expenditure as next week is performance meeting and if it really so easy, no people will spend money to advertise right.

during the afternoon, i followed some colleagues to have lunch together at Mc Donalds.
at first we did not talk much and i keep told myself to take the courage to take with them by asked the related topic.
after some moment, it seems that the situation seem to be start okay and i just get know more and more about current company situation but just can't reveal here in my blog. (feel that no longer anything can be shared in the online world as i afraid being search)
however, i get "adviced" by one of the senior colleague about the Monday meeting for this week that i shouldn't say "how do you think" to my Japanese.
it is because if you say such thing, your boss or some people might think that "you're incapable to make decision" because your boss hire you is need you to make decision for him, not ask him back on how.

somehow i did feel appreciated when the colleague voice out during our lunch time because if a person who want you to be fired, they will not tell you what's wrong with you right?
anyways, i feel that "blogging" tends to influence me a bit because i like to ask for advice while i blog and in real life, i also like to ask my colleagues for opinion and it seems to be quite "annoying" to them if keep asking as it looks like i did not have any skills in working.
perhaps it has been quite some time i did not work and forgot those common "working skills" about things that you should do or shouldn't.
upon back office, i just continue my research and it was quite a difficult task to find those "rich spoiled kids that have nothing to do in life other than playing" because if they did not buy those top up/reload cards, company where got income to out salary for us?

therefore i feel it is true that if you have a product that can let people spend their valuable time to play it, the things must be profitable and here comes the role of an online promoter to find this kind of people.
on the other hand, i found out that Google Adwords tends to be quite useless for a company to spend money because most of the online banner ads is dominated by local big/public listed company.
moreover, there is more people create Google Adsense to earn those money and this eventually will explain why it is quite a waste for a small company to spend money on Adwords.
in fact, i did saw a Chinese forum offer something like "Member can place the Adsense code in their own profile (C Plan)" to earn some money whenever they comment.
so in the long term, you can see more and more ads posted in the forum and this will make those Advertiser to lose money instead of getting people who are really interested with their product.

during the evening, i was feeling quite awkward to listen those Japanese language as i did not understand because the colleague in front of me can speak Japanese and my boss likes to talk with his language.
around 6.40pm i make a move from office and arrived back Wangsa Maju at 7.20pm.
then i just have my RM2.50 curry chicken fried noodles with plain water at Kopitiam Desa again.
finally i arrived back home at 8.10pm and went to take my bath before doing any other things.
somehow i was worry about this coming 18th March about the SHU related thing whether i am eligible to go for it or not.
seriously there is so many decision need to make as i still have a choice to choose what i want but i seems to choose for "buying insurance package" which is getting my degree certification as i afraid i am not competitive enough in the market although i do not like much about "marketing" for now.

all is because i had spend 2 year diploma and 3 years (including repeat semester) for my advance diploma at Tarc college where it will be a waste if i did not go for my degree right?
the reason i feel "sucks" was always because i think that "marketing" seems to be a useless knowledge if compared with programming skills because anyone can learn about marketing in a short time instead of spending so many years to study it.
talking about decision making, i would like to share Common Decision-Making Mistakes that i saw from SBA website where we had relying too much on expert information, overestimating the value of information received from others, only hearing what you want to hear or seeing what you want to see and not listening to your feelings or gut reactions.

in fact, i think i am not a good decision maker because having too much of doubt.

it is because i always "scare this, scare that" as i afraid if i make wrong decision, the company will "fired" (sack) me as it was the nightmare for most of the marketer who afraid to lose job.

anyways, i was on my way to "eat sotong" (sack) very soon although i know it is not good to have such thought whereby if you think like that, it will be like that for the law of attraction.

for most successful marketer in making decision, they will follow four steps to plan a successful marketing strategy as shown below.

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1) They get the information they need.

2) If required, they then speak to someone who has the expert knowledge they need.

3) Next, they evaluate their options.

4) Finally, they make their decision and back it up with action.

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there is one sentences that i feel meaningful for marketing a product was "If we spent more time on developing our ability to present ideas and less time blaming others for not buying them, a lot more might get accomplished" which is quite true.

in addition, i found out that a poor decision maker can relate with chasing girl theory as if a guy don't know what to do in his life, any girls will also run away from him right? (seems to be saying myself~ LOL)

anyways, the only thing that accompany me now was my own blog where i keep talking more with myself especially when i am lonely.

before i end my post, i would like to share the worlds virtual diva which is Vocaloid Hatsune Miku as below or the link >> Here.

basically Hatsune Miku is a 16 year old girl with long green pigtails and was a virtual singer with a computer-synthesized voice.

she has gain a lot of fans worldwide as her songs was appealing to music industry.

overall i just want to say that i like Hatsune Miku so much especially her Melt song.

today i woke up at 7.50am.
well, it seems like every morning activities tends to be the same where i will just get myself prepared and wait for the bus to Wangsa Maju.
somehow i did feel bored to write the same things but i just treat it as my own recording as i like to write whatever i want in my blog.
around 9am i reached KL Sentral and went to buy the cheap cake as my breakfast again.
upon reach office, i just continue my daily research stuff.
besides, i was facing some difficulties to research something about the forum as i need to write the roles of admin, moderators and users.
during the afternoon, we went to have our lunch at Ayam Penyet Express as one of my colleague suggestion.

somehow we just waited about 50 minutes for our food to arrive and there is a lot of customer seems to be quite angry as they also waited so long. (not sure whether is just today or happening everyday)
while waiting, i was quite "ke poh" (busy body) to listen the lady conversation with a guy just beside me as they talking something about "creating a marketing gimmick" to get don't know what 10% commission where they were from Axxxxz bank.
anyways, my colleague say that he will not visits there again anymore when compared to last time service and i think they should rename their shop name as "Ayam Penyet Lambat" instead of using the word Express.
moreover, i just feel the taste of the chicken is like those road's side stall as it does not even worth for RM12 per set with soup and if you want to have drinks, you need to add more RM3.
furthermore, if you want to refill your drinks, you need to pay for RM1 for refill one time.

well, i don't think my feedback will affect their business as they was franchise type and it is like "you don't like to eat here is your problem" as they still have so much customer.
on the other hand, i did feel myself quite "cheapskate" when i walk to somewhere further just to find the toilet as the toilet beside Ayam Penyet Express need to pay for RM0.40. (OMG, seriously i think myself too over free until can be so calculative in just few cents~ LOL)
during the afternoon, i continue to work my working related stuff also i myself seems to be having not a very effective marketing planning.
in fact, the result of my KPI is only able to find 10+ new people when the report come out everyday, yet my target is to find 900+ people.
after that, i just keep research a lot of related website and can say i almost visited 300+ different website.

besides, i just got to know the cost to maintain a server was so expensive as each server will cost about RM10,000+ where it still depend on the service and quality.
therefore i think i had understand why some people work in the maintaining server IT related field can earn so much money every month.
around 6.40pm i make a move from there and arrived Wangsa Maju at 7.20pm.
then i have my dinner at Kopitiam Desa again and the weather was still raining heavily.
after some moment, my friend phoned me and we just have dinner together at there.
finally i arrived back home around 8.40pm and feel quite tired.
however, i still want to surf some information to get myself updated.

somehow i saw an opportunity to earn RM600 by just writing 5 blog post about travelling but i don't think i will accept it despite it is so attractive.
while checking on forum, i was agree about a guy saying that "no one will be so stupid to go against money" when talking about the cronies political thing. (might explain why politician will use whatever "bad tactics")

for example, if you are rich or have power, it is consider quite natural for you to do anything it takes to maintain/protect your current status.
guess he was right that "You're just minions and cheap slaves labor that is ready to trade and abused by corporation, there's always more room for a man's heart to be greed, just like having sex with women, who would genuinely believe having sex with 1 women is enough as men wants more and variety of choice from time to time" according to his opinion.

in fact, no people would really know who is right or wrong as we did not experience what they have.
as an example, i keep say that i will be very loyal to just one girl in the future but who would really know whether i will change or not since i am poor in my current status where i can talk anything i like.
actually the guy expressed a lot about the political views as i would like to share some of his opinion which like brainstorming people as below.
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When you have power, it is natural you want to maintain it. Indirectly you will do whatever it takes. When you encounter another person or friend which has nearly same wealth and power as you, you cannot go against them, there's no choice for you except be friend with them. Because if they’re on the opposite side, they can form different forces and go against you. Is that what you want? Of course no, therefore we have those pimp daddy to scout other wealthy and powerful people and ask them to join onto this board, which is known as the parliament.

When all of us sit together in parliament, we would discuss how we are gonna scratch each other back and compensate each other. The person who can suggest most lucrative way to enrich us will have the chance to become prime minister. That's why every year we had this "Santa Claus gift" giving ceremony, or which is known as ‘annual budget’. Our best friend or sometimes known as best leader (prime minister) would announce how many cash will be given on some sort of development project. Then money will be channeled to our allies company, to do this or that project and enrich our own CEO company friend and family. Of course, all of you who read this is just peanuts and minions will not have a chance to receive the gift, you have to remember, you are just slaves labor in this market afterall.

Furthermore, we have come to realized. These day minions has become more intelligent. Therefore we use the exact same tactic and strategy in commercial world. Which is by giving you a choice. Studies has shown that people feel they had freedom when they can buy few more types of soda in supermarket. So we funded another political party which is known as opposition, we purposely plan whatever people in opposition do should object and against the government so that those people minions will feel they are not hopeless after they heard about opposition, therefore giving them some sort of choice.

Well, what haven't change or will not change is the seat in parliament can never be increased, because if everyone is sitting the same level as us, there is no more women for us to choose from, lack of sex choice, there is no more slaves labor continue to serve the upper class, there are no more pilots flying our airplane for vacations, there are no more mechanics fixing our Ferrari and Lamborghini. Of course we doesn’t want that from happening. So it doesn’t matter opposition is in power or government is in power. Minority always be must the elite and majority should continue to serve them. Its like giving you a choice to drink Pepsi today instead Coca-Cola, then you can stop dreaming and go back to work.
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somehow i just feel that no one is willing to go back their poor life if you're a rich for most of the time right?
furthermore, i think the reason i keep whining everyday seems to be like i can't get the things i want in life. (not sure as i afraid i will change over time, therefore i just write whatever thought i have for now as i still being real)
later on, my sister phoned me whether want to follow her back home tomorrow and i just complain about my working lifestyle where i feel myself like contributing nothing much to the company and will be sack by boss.
guess what? my sister just told me this "Aiyah, as long as you got go office to work consider work liao loh, why think until so complicated? Maybe your boss just want to see human coming to his office leh?" which somehow cheered me up a bit other than thinking so negative.
actually the reason i feel so frustrated was because i feel like so many things can happen in just one day as my computer turn into "blue screen" and infected with virus, yet i don't willing to spend the money to repair it as long as i can still write this post.
at last, i would like to ask anyone who read this post whether "will you go back to your poor life if you're rich?" despite it sounds meaningless.

anyways, i think that life is all about how you think on something rather than make it complicated.
maybe i should just write my blog post by posting up a picture with a sentence of words rather than write so long.
=D

today i woke up at 8.05am.
as i saw my awakens time, i quickly get myself prepared and went to work.
around 9.20am i reach KL Sentral and quickly walk to the office.
while waiting for the lift, suddenly a 40 years old+ woman approached me and asked me whether got play any Forex or buy shares and asked about what do i work where her office located at 16th floor.
during that moment, i was quite "stunned" since i seldom talk to stranger but i just keep say not interest when she wanted my contact number where i refused to give.
anyways, i think i learned something from her which is "a person need to be thick face to talk to anyone without afraid of being rejected" and i can foresee she sure can find someone who interest with that is just a matter of time.

besides, i encounter a stomachache during the morning where i think is probably because i did not have any breakfast before come to office.
after that, i just continue my working related stuff despite it look like i did not contribute nothing much.
well, today was a International Women's Day (IWD) and i would like to wish all my reader who read this post a Happy International Women's Day 2013 although i am a guy.
according to Wiki, IWD was a general celebration of respect, appreciation and love towards women to a celebration for women's economic, political and social achievements but also become a day for men to express their love to women which falls on 8 March every year.
somehow i do feel myself seems like "attention seeker" as my topic post did not relate much to what i really want to talk about for today.

around 1 pm i went to have my lunch with one of my colleague at KFC Kl Sentral.
somehow he do shared a lot of good information with me and i appreciate it so much.
for an example, he say that if you want to buy a property, you will always find a ways as he shared his own experience whereby if he did not make the decision to buy the RM450,000+ property that near Wangsa Maju area last year, he would not able to buy it this year or later because the market price have raised to RM600,000+ and will continue to increase.
so lesson here seems to be never ever think too much because you will never achieve your goal.
well, how he was able to buy it was to borrow some $$ from people and pay together with his girlfriend for the down payment with EPF savings since he had worked for almost 5 years+.
actually i did tell him that my plan is to buy car first before buying a property.

then i just feel what he say was quite meaningful when he asked me "Why do you want buy car? You really need to ask yourself whether you really need it or not as car value will keep depreciated every year at the moment you buy it. If you want a car just for go some place to watch movie, i suggest you to take taxi because it is more cheap which is like RM30 per day x 4 weeks = RM120 per month if compare with car installment. Moreover, if you use RM700 for monthly installment+petrol for car, you might as well spend it to buy a RM140,000 flat property which also cost around RM700 monthly installment with 40 years repayment period right" which is sound to right.
therefore i think i should be thankful to my brother for advised me not to buy car in a hurry which mostly due to my own "ego" where i saw most of my friend have their own car at this age, i also wish to have one.
so it might means that my dream to have a own car at age 23 seems to be vanished.

perhaps i should do some part time job as one of my friend told me that his brother sell Streamyx package at KL Sentral also can find 1 customer to sign up in a day where the commission is at least RM100.
around 6.40pm i make a move from office because need to meet my sister at Masjid Jamek (MJ) station.
while waiting inside the train, i do "whined" to my brother that i feel myself quite useless in the office because it is like waiting to be "fired" (sack) and his reply was something like below.

somehow i think i should be appreciate to have someone to cheer me up whenever i feel "down" despite my thought seems to be bad/negative thinking.
as i arrived MJ station at 7pm, i waited a while for my sister and we went to took another train to Bandar Tasik Selatan where i reached there at 7.35pm.
then i drive back from there to my hometown since my sister say she was quite tired to drive.

however, i still continue to talk anything i want to ~~whine~~ express my "unhappiness" to my sister since i seldom talk much with other's people in real life.
finally i arrived hometown at 9.20pm and have my dinner prepared by mother.
well, i just received a RM195+ cheque from Nuffnang after "My First Nuffnang Payment After 4 Years" blog post and this time i have took about 7 month+ to accumulate this amount as my second payment.

somehow i think i have understand why they can't pay out so much like Google Adsense (GA) because they do not have much big advertiser and yet so many blogger complain their payout is so less.
furthermore, i think i have get something clear about Nuffnang ads whereby your blog need to be "liked" by advertiser to be eligible for Buffered Earning (BE) as most of my earning come from BE from Microsoft Ads to introduce their latest smart phone product.

in fact, my "Nuff PPC" was same like normal people whereby i get around RM0.25~RM0.75 per clicks and that's explain i took so many years to cash out my first payment.
on the other hand, i feel that "whining/complaining" is my major problem because when i keep say i had been banned by GA for so many years ago, i did not take any action to solve it other than whining.
anyways, the GA ads i have now was on my friend account where started to test it few day ago where it seems like so far so good.
perhaps it was true that "Complaining does not work as a strategy. We all have finite time and energy. Any time we spend whining is unlikely to help us achieve our goals. And it won't make us happier" when one of my tutor said about it.
in fact, i feel quite "emos" again as i seems to wasted a lot of time.

on the other hand, HB have invited me for the Blogger's Breakfast gathering session at McDonald's Sri Damansara this coming Sunday but i had rejected with a "busy" excuse.
actually the real reason was i really can't face the public because i shared too much of "can share/cannot share thing" in my blog and i also afraid my "picture" will be shared out.
guess not much people will truly understand why i want to stay "anonymous" but if you think in my point of view such as "will you want your real life friends know about you actually have such childish/immature thought despite i am already a 23 years old guy? how my future girlfriend will see me if i written such things? how can i share my diary in such a public way?" and so many how this and how that question in my mind.
if you ask for my opinion about blogging, there is actually many advantage than disadvantage if you use it in a right way instead of talking your own private/personal stuff.

around 10.20pm is the Chan Fong "大城心事" sharing program and below was the recording podcast of it.
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1) 第一位：Auntie The（七十多歲）～自從她女兒（39歲）被強姦后就患上精神病，她很擔心將來的日子女兒逃不出困境，話說故事的發展是女兒從當年十多歲開始時被一個男人影響；她知道那個男人還曾經騙過她女兒甚至懷疑那個男人對女兒下了降頭。【她說到最後，陳峰大哥的意見是建議她去報警還有尋求政治人物的協助】>>> Here.

2) 第二位：陳小姐～她想問如果一個男生追求者的學歷到底重要嗎，。？作為伴侶合適嗎。【陳峰大哥認為她是面子問題，也向她說明其實學歷並非全部；顧家疼她才是重點要素】>>> Here.

3) 第三位：阿盈～交往已經三年多感的情問題，她覺得男朋友一直不會遷就自己。【陳峰大哥聽完故事之後認為她純粹只是小題大作，說穿了就是她性格小氣】>>> Here.

4) 第四位：阿順～感情問題，他問：“是不是每對情侶分手之後都是不能做回普通朋友”。【陳峰大哥覺得是因為他單方面個人心裡障礙，導致女方害怕擔心與他繼續保持聯繫之後會發生不必要的意外】>>> Here.

5) 第五位：阿Jack（29歲）～他目前是自己出來創業，想聽聽看陳峰大哥的意見。【陳峰大哥基本上是鼓勵他趁年輕出去闖蕩的】

6) 第六位：Ms Lim～她想放棄了和對方的感情，一直投訴男友的不體貼，她擔心如果和對方結婚的話會有可能產生後遺癥等等之類的問題一直存在。【陳峰大哥覺得她是已經快要受不了才會打電話向他尋求解決問題的方式，實際上她自己也是心裡有數只是不敢面對現實又狠不下心做出分手離開的決定】

7) 第七位：阿熙（二十來歲）～她說自己的母親很嘮叨，家裡的大小事都一直念念念。【陳峰大哥認為問題不大，至她們少是一家完整；要妥善處理家人的關係就必須找出一套能夠令對方滿意的方式去應對】

8) 第八位：Vicky～她想奉勸之前那位聽眾要多多和母親溝通和孝順，不要一直處處都和媽媽頂嘴和鬧架。

9) 第九位：（最後一位）（已婚 / 育有三個孩子）阿婷～他老公有外遇不捨得抽離，她很願意接受老公把小老婆接回家一起生活就只是爲了要維護這個完整美滿的家庭生活。【陳峰大哥建議她離婚，或者要丈夫做一個選擇和決定】
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sometime i just feel that listening too much story seems to be making myself feeling quite worry because i will ask back myself that "am i that kind of people" despite most of the people said just treat those story as a reference about life.
for example, those "whining/complain/jelly" emotions is usually exists in girls but not a guy like me.
when think in the long term by using blog to express so much "negative energy" as my rubbish, it might affect me to change to another person in real life right?
it is because whenever i am trying to find happiness, there is always two thought being generated in my mind.

anyways, i feel that the definition for happiness is different in every person because as for my sister, she feel so happy whenever she see her baby every weekend and will eventually forgot all the stress she faced at office.
in addition, i think my thought seems to be influence by other's people and i keep doubt whether what he say is true or wrong which is quite meaningless.
some people might say we're just a having a typical Malaysia mentality whereby we always compare with those people who having lesser capabilities or less fortunate than us to boost our ego in order to feel better for not being successful than other's people.
while updating this blog post, i just keep listening to "Ai Ni Mei Cha" (爱妳没差) [Love You, No Matter What!] song as shown below.

at last, i would like to share a meaningful picture about "Life" as shown below.

sometime i do asked myself does it really necessary to update a post a day despite myself already know the answer that i might not be able to make it in future. (so why i still writing? for money? if yes, then it shouldn't be anonymous right? somore is broken english~ LOL)
=)

today i woke up at 1.25pm.
somehow i just feel that it is a "repayback" time for me to be able to sleep until so late because i have been sleeping about 3~5 hour during my weekdays.
after that, i went to have "Wan Tan Mee" as my lunch.
during the afternoon, i surf some information online and watched the Naruto anime.
honestly, i don't really have much thing to do and i was planning to do something useful.
however, i did not do anything useful in the end when i was reading on some news in forum which is quite time consuming.
in fact, i do understand the theory of "if you spend so much time to reading, listening, watching others people stuff, you will have never time for yourself" as told by someone.

anyways, i would like to share about those stories i see or read throughout today.
first of all, the "Famous Lazy People" video by Ryan Higa was quite funny as you can see below or the link >>> Here.

somehow i can see it can relate to "I will always choose a lazy person to do a difficult job, because he will find an easy way to do it" quotes but i not sure whether it was actually said by Bill Gates because i can't find the source/video that he had said such things, yet i saw another video about his speech at Harvard.
besides, i think it is true that it is no use to find who really said that because the idea behind it is the same as anyone has to know that to become creative or innovative while being lazy isn't simple.
the next story i see was about "how to get free food" in Malaysia which is quite "cheapskate" as not much people will do such things.

for example, if you dare, you can wear smart and go any high class hotel that you like.
then you just look around he notification board there as there will be always a seminar, group course or something happening daily.
most of those event will come with food served and you can go join together after the seminar but you must be very "thick face" to get the FREE food no matter it is breakfast, lunch or dinner seminar although it might sound like a "beggar" right?
anyways, i have never done it before and don't think it can be so easy.
the next story was about the "Rich Lifestyle of Chinese heiress Zhang Jiale, 22" news that has gone viral in China when she posted the photographs on her personal account on Weibo.
at first i thought it was a boy when i saw the news but it seems that she was a Tomboy.

anyways, below was some of the picture and stories i saw.
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Ms Zhang, who appears to be something of a tomboy, is the daughter of Zhang Jun, an electronics, property and insurance magnate who heads Sinolife Insurance in Shenzhen.

His daughter, one of four children, posted on her Weibo that "Money can buy you a house but not a family. It can buy you a watch but not time. It can buy you a bed but not sleep, a book but not knowledge, can buy you medical care but not health."

Other things that money can buy her include a pile of designer trinkets.

A bevy of models to accompany her at parties.

Membership of China's Supercar Racing Club, whose members rent out race tracks to speed around in their sports cars.

The pictures have reignited a long-running debate about the behaviour of the "Fu Er Dai" (富二代), or "rich second generation".

The often spoilt children of the tycoons who emerged in the 1980s and 1990s, they are often held up as examples of China's moral decline.

A blog, suggested both envy at Ms Zhang's wealth and anger at her privilege. "We do not hate the rich, what we hate is the unfairness behind the wealth" wrote by one commentator, alluding to the way in which the first generation of tycoons had risen in the world.
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after looking through the news, i just feel that everything was great but the only "disappointment" here was she was a "Tomboy". (i am not bias/racist)
somehow i think i shouldn't be "jelly" because there are some people earning lesser than us where i saw a TV program about the jobs around the world where there's people earning RM10 per day by doing those laboring construction job in other country.
well, i believe some people might say that "Money doesn't buy happiness, but I'd rather cry in a Ferrari than on my bike" right and my thought was just a typical Malaysia mentality whereby we always compare with those people who having lesser capabilities or less fortunate than us to boost our ego in order to feel better for not being successful than other's people.
therefore i do admit that i am not a successful people and i was just self comfort myself to feel better.

around 7pm i went to have my dinner and continue to surf some story again.
the next story was about a "18++ story" from the confession page that happening at Utar/Tarc college as you click the button below. (I don't believe it was a true story)

I am a degree student from utar kampar. I have a boyfriend who we are together for almost 1 years and we broke up just before the cny. just half year after we getting together, we already have some close attitudes like i gave him a blowjob. For the first time, i had reject his request and he did ok with it. After few weeks, i went to his room to do revision for the midterm test. at that time, after studied awhile, then we keep on playing on the bed. I was sit on his front side and he was lying on the bed. In that moment, i cant control myself and we had our very first time. I sacrificed my first time for him. Firstly, i gave him a blowjob and he enjoyed it so well.

Actually i feel weird and unhygenic since i have to put the penis into my mouth. But because of him, i was willing to do so. It was very painful for the first time and he didnt use condom as well. My downside was bleeding and i was shouting. It's so high and enjoyable for having sex. When he was going to inject the sperm inside my vagina, the sperms are hot and it made my vagina feels so warm and feel good. After that time, we had intercourse for 3 times in a week. For all of that, he also didnt use any condom with it and also inject inside my body as well. Due to that time i was just finish my menstruatation, i told him that it's safe for having inner body injection, and he did so. The bad thing was coming so fast just 3 weeks right after we had intercourse. I found that my menstruation period was delayed for almost a week and we went for doctor. Thank god, the doctor told me that it's just sth wrong with my body but not pregnant. I was so scared and i tell my bf for having sex with condom. He also listen to me and do so for the rest.

All pass smooth until the weeks before cny, there is a girl who was going to stay near to him in the previous semester. i realize that the girl always invite him to her house and even i can find some seminal fluid on my bf's underwear after he went to that girl's house. I was argue with him that he was having sex with that girl while together with me. Then, i decide to break up with him since i cant have such kind of bf. But i am really very very love him. Last few days, he contacted me and told me he cant forget about me. He told me he had broke up with that girl and ready to come back to my side. I cant control myself as i meet him and we having sex in the night again. What i should do? What i can do? What if i do the right?

seriously i did feel "emos" because i did not experience those kind of things throughout my 5 years college life at Tarc which probably cause of "writing this blog".
sometime i just wondering that if i did not start this "blogging to express feeling" blog, i might be able to ~~cheat~~ find a girlfriend and might experience what those ~~bad~~ boys did right?
later on at night, i spend my time teach my mother about how to use the computer.
at last, i think the reason i having those so call "stress" was because i was listening too much story in life that have made me feel frustrated.

therefore i feel that sometimes it is good to not to get know so much information.
on the other hand, i do think about how my life would be if without any computer knowledge?
before i end my post, i just feel that it is "too good to be true" about FOREX Investment when a friend send me a Chinese message that is "朋友，我是一间资金管理团队的客户经理。这班专业人士在资本市场有着7年未输过的交易记录证明。而且可以让你了解为何银行能给你一年3%，而且还越做越大。漏洞在于？今天我想分享给你，如果你跟，肯定有赚；赚不到，包赔！ ?本钱多少不是问题。要了解，让我知道。"
well, i just can say it is not i don't trust it but it just that i don't feel to do any investment at this money although it say's 100% guarantee can earn money.
in conclusion, i feel that life is full of opportunity and it is just depend how you see it but you can't blame anyone if it fails as the final decision is still in you hand.
=D

today i woke up at 12.30pm.
then i just have some "Popiah" as my breakfast.
during the afternoon, i continue to surf some information online although feel this is like a "no life" style and i just can say internet is the cheapest "entertainment" that i can afford.
around 3pm i went to have my lunch since my sister just came back together with her baby.
mother had cook quite a delicious lunch for us and i appreciate very much. (my English grammer seems to be have a lot of error, looks like secondary level standard~ sad)
on the other hand, i do feel a little "sucks" for myself when i listened my father answered a call related some foreign worker because my thought at that moment was like "haiz, factory already like no hope still want hire people to work meh?" which i know i am bad even it was just a thought inside my heart.

in fact, i know i shouldn't criticize like that in my heart because i just know how to "say how bad it is" instead of taking any action to help and no matter what, "the almost closed down factory" seems to able to raise 3 of us throughout the whole 30 years.
while checking through some information, i just wondering whether it is true that you can earn RM9,000 to RM15,000 per month at Australia by just working as a fruit picking, packaging and pruning jobs as below.

well, i just want to note down all the feedback i receive because to me, it was like a log of my life and i feel that it "might can help" someone to decide whether want to work at foreign country as below.
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1) That's peanuts to Australians to pay such salary to us.
2) It is a 1 week 7 days work, 10 hours per day, weekly earned around RM2800++.
3) You need a degree to work there, got degree but go there picking fruits? hahaha~

4) Consider as a high class Bangla (cheap labour)
5) Must think about other opportunity cost which is the time with family, with girlfriend, enjoy movie and much much more in Malaysia.
6) A friend son just graduate and work over there, first job already got 5,000 AUD (15,000 MYR-16,000 MYR) per month working as Engineering/IT field
7) My friend take degree to there work, come back Malaysia told us that they are like Bangala in Aussie, girls got paid a lot higher, especially Taiwan and Korea girls, because those Aussie like to "touch touch" them. If they (girls) are willing to let them "touch touch", they will recommend those girls to their friends and provide more "opportunity", pay is good tho, totally worth it. (My thought at that moment is like asking them to do "chicken" or prostitute meh? =.=)

8) Yes you can earn that much or even more. But depends on your visa. When I was working there (picking strawberries), i was under student visa so normal tax rate apply. Can earn easily 2,000 AUD per week. Depends on your luck and skills, you can get up to 4,000 AUD per week over there. But if you go under holiday working visa, they will tax maximum rate, close to 30% plus I think.
9) Few years ago my friend worked at call centre there can get around 80 AUD daily.
10) UK, if u managed to work in company as engineer or IT people, your starting pay will be from 2,500 pounds, waiter 1 month also 1,200 pounds.
11) I got colleague monthly salary in Sydney 4,000 AUD, of course convert to Malaysia currency will become RM12,000, but living there is not cheap, especially Sydney.
12) If u got guts, go Singapore do window washer for high rise building.

13) Now the problem is no more working visa after graduate, so you can't even stay in UK (You can go to EU then back to UK just to extend your visa for 6 months i think), last time you can get 2 years working visa after you graduate because currently UK unemployment rate is too high. However, middle east people are much more easy to get job compared to Asian, but there is a lot of job like waiter, waitress etc is available. (1 week approximately can earn about 250 pounds but work almost 12 hours per day X 6 days)

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however, it seems that you have a chance to get SCAM/CHEATED because "some company" is using real testimonies to set up a scam as you can see the news link >>> Here.

so you shall think twice before risking yourself to work at those foreign country although it looks like a easy jobs as a fruit picker or anything that require low skills.
somehow i was appreciate for the feedback and my goal had achieved which is gaining anonymous reader.

well, if you're me, would you want to work as a fruit picker just money.
for my case, i think i facing a "face problem" if i do such job because some people will say "see lah, study so high also work as a fruit picker/dish washer at foreign country" right?
anyways, i can't found any blogger who share their experience working at foreign country on a daily basis about the pros and cons working at there.
besides, i would like to share a Border Security video as below or the link >>> Here.
somehow i just feel it is quite worth to watch despite one of the part is talking about Malaysian people which is quite embarrassing that might bring down our country name.
suddenly i just remember a friend told me before that there is a job about "helping people swap their stolen credit card" (illegal job) but you can't tell who the mastermind behind if you get caught.

around 7pm i make a move from house and father fetched me to Klang KTM station to back KL house.
during the moment at train, i was playing my phone's game to "kill my time" and i reached KL Sentral at 8.25pm.
when i reach Wangsa Maju at 9.05pm, i went to have "Wan Tan Mee" (noodles) as my dinner because it was quite cheap and big bowl at there.
finally i arrived back home at 9.40pm and feel quite tired.
honestly, i am "chasing against time" recently as i seems to be not having much time left after working.

in fact, i was just "waiting to die" (sacked) for tomorrow meeting where my Japanese boss ask me what did i do for the whole last week.
at last, i think what's Uncle Sean say's was quite meaningful when he say "but the truth is, even though there are many people who might be wealthier and seem more fortunate than you, there are many many more people who are poorer and not as fortunate as you either ... it's just that you won't be able to read about their lives on blogs." which i feel is quite true.
in conclusion, i shall be appreciate of what i have for now instead of keep listening so much story that make me feel "emos" right?
=)

today i woke up at 7.55am.
actually i had automatically awakens around 6.15am but my "lazy persuasive" attitude have drag me sleep back since i slept late yesterday.
anyways, i quickly get myself prepared and went to take the LRT as usual with some friends.
around 9.10am i reached KL Sentral and have the same marble cake as my breakfast again.
during the morning at office, i was quite nervous about the meeting that held on every Monday as i seems to be not contribute much.
therefore i just wrote the report about what i did yesterday although it seems like "blowing water" that might be the required skills of any marketer need to have in order to "survive" in this competitive/complicated working world.

around 1pm we went to have lunch together at Sooka Sentral at another noodles shop name.
well, the taste was quite nice and the price was slighly higher which is about RM8.90 per bowl but i had forgotten the name of the shop. (might recall back tomorrow~ LOL)[Update: Xin Dong Ting Hunan Cuisine]
somehow i still feel it is hard to create a topic as my colleagues and Japanese boss was older than me.
after back to office, i just do the final check up of my report.
during the meeting, my body seems to be "shaking" and my voice become softer when speaking due to my nervous feeling when explaining the report.
the duration for the meeting was about 1 hour and i finally feel relieve when came out from the room as i am "save" for this week before being "fired" (sack) by company.
honestly, i do admit that i have the thought of "can live a day, then one day" (能过一天就一天) feelings.

in fact, i think my colleagues might having the thought like "What is this guy presenting just now?" as it seems like no add-in value.
therefore if my company know i have such working's thought/attitude or feelings, i will definitely get sack and luckily i still can blog anonymously until today.
however, tomorrow task will be quite difficulties as if i spent the advertising money and still get no sales, i really don't know want how to say myself which looks like i can resign myself.
actually i should think in a good way that at least i know most of the advertising cost for those media website such as the "N", "C", "G", "L forum" (can't disclose much as it is quite confidential, self reference) although sometime it is quite "shock" to know how they can earn so much money just from advertisement.
around 7pm i make a move from the office despite i still haven finish those "keywords" related things.

well, i just can say it is not easy to be creative enough to think about those words that can attract the attention of people although my English level still at the "secondary" level.
when i arrived Wangsa Maju at 7.40pm, i just went to have my dinner at Kopitiam Desa again.
sometime i just comfort myself that at least i have some food to eat when i was wondering about why i want to eat that kind of "RM2.50 cheap curry chicken with fried noodles" as my dinner.
seriously the moment that i can always have a full stomach was always at my Klang house instead of living in KL house as i can eat until very full every few hour when finding food at my hometown kitchen.
on the other hand, i feel that it is not my problem for being "busybody" to listen other's people story.
for example, when i sit on the bus waiting to back home, eventually i will listen a lot of story from other people when i was alone and i can't close my ear so obviously right?

somehow i just listened how a guy can ~~flirt~~ chat with another girl by talking those things that girls like.
guess i am "jelly" about those guys that can always have "sweet mouth skills" when chatting with girls to draw their attention.
finally i arrived back home at 8.20pm and get myself prepared (bath) before seeking for information online.
well, i would like to share meaningful Chinese story about "Cerebral palsy" disorder" that related to mentally disabled (Mental retardation) that have a happy mindset in life as below.
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有一位牧师的女儿，她天生就是一位脑性痲痺患者，且无法言语。
但，她却靠着无比的毅力与信仰的扶持，在美国拿到了艺术博士，并到处现身说法帮助他人。

有一次，她应邀到一个场合演「写」（不能讲话的她必需以笔代口），会后发问时，一个学生当众小声的问：「妳从小就长成这个样子，请问你怎麽看你自己？妳都没有怨恨吗？」
这个无心但尖锐的问题让在场人士无不捏一把冷汗，深怕会深深刺伤了她的心。
只见她回过头，用粉笔在黑板上吃力地写下了「我怎麽看自己？」这几个大字。
她笑着再回头看了看大家后，又转过身去继续写着：

一、我好可爱！
二、我的腿很长很美！
三、爸爸妈妈这麽爱我！
四、上帝这麽爱我！
五、我会画画！我会写稿！
六、我有隻可爱的猫！
七、还有……
八、……

忽然，教室内一片鸦雀无声，没有人敢讲话。

她又回过头来静静地看着大家，再回过头去，在黑板上写下了她结论：「我只看我所有的，不看我所没有的。」
众人安静了几秒后，一下子，全场响起了如雷的掌声与无数感动的泪水。
那天，许多人因着她的乐观与见证而得到激励。
这个乐观的脑性痲痺患者是谁？
她，就是美国南加州大学艺术博士，在台湾开过多次画展的黄美廉女士。
「我只看我所有的，不看我所没有的。」
幸福，不在于您拥有多少事物，乃在于您用怎样的态度去看待、享受自己现下所拥有的一切。
若是能这样，即便您看似一无所有，也能比那些大富豪或身体健壮但成天愁眉苦脸的人们更快乐、更富有。

注：黄美廉出生于台南，父亲是位牧师。出生时由于医生的疏失，造成她脑部神经受到严重的伤害，以致颜面四肢肌肉都失去正常作用。当时她的爸爸，妈妈抱着身体软软的她，四处寻访名医，结果得到的都是无情的答案。她不能说话，嘴还向一边扭曲，口水也不能止住的流下。十四岁时，她全家移民到美国，进入洛杉矶市立大学就读，之后转至洛杉矶加州州立大学艺术学院，如今已取得博士学位，成为画家。
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the sentences that highlighted in red means that "she only see the things that she had, not the things that she did not have" when questioned by the audience whether she have hatred for being born like that or not.
therefore i feel that it is all about how you can think positively or not about your life, just like whether you want choose to be happy or sad in your life. (知足长乐 as told by a friend)
somehow i told myself that i should be appreciate that at least there is someone caring me in blog right?

actually i admit that i am such a "greedy" guy because all the time i keep say "lonely" was because i want someone who care for me in real life rather than in an online world.
to my fellow online reader, please don't misunderstand that i do not appreciate you guy's feedback, is just that i hope when friend's gathering in real life, they would invite me.
besides, there is a Chinese sentences that i quite like that is "如果你想拥有从未有过的东西，那么你必须去做你从未做过的事" which means "If you want to have something that you never had before, then you must do something you've never done before" in life.
somehow i seems to get the answer about how to be success in life which is doing something special/unique but i still doing the same things everyday.
anyways, i am trying to "plant" the positive thought in my mind nowadays.

however, do you think is it back to see those poor country picture as below to remind myself how grateful i am about my life?

some people might say that this is just a typical Malaysia mentality whereby we always compare with those people who having lesser capabilities or less fortunate than us to boost our ego in order to feel better for not being successful than other's people.

moreover, i like one of the feedback i get from Anonymous which is "Life is full of uncertainties about the future. The only thing for sure is all of us will die one day. Just enjoy it as much as you can now. If you were to die tomorrow, would you want another chance to live your life as it is now again? Or would you live it differently?" which is quite true.

over time, i seems to be need depend on that kind of quotes to make myself cheerful.

another sentence i like was "Don't let the people who do so little for you to control so much of your mind, feelings and emotions by ignoring it because at the end of the day, no one really cares, no one will help you if you needed money where they will just fade away, if you will be happy it's for you or sad it's also for you no one will feel them in your behalf" from Anonymous which is quite true.

before i end my post, i would like to share an interesting video about "Paper War short animation"(纸片战记) as below or the link >>> Here.

anyways, writing all this feeling seems to be like a post card message from the "older me" to a "younger me" because when it gets hard, remember you are not alone, it gets better, i'm waiting for you from the older me as shown picture below.

Be Positive Lonely Reload !!! (talking to myself again~ LOL)
=D

today i woke up at 8am.
then i quickly get myself prepared and went to work.
around 9.05am i reach to my office and quickly continue my work after having some biscuit as my breakfast.
after some moment, my superior asked me about the "keyword" but i still haven prepare finish yet.
somehow i manage to "die out" all those words despite i still having less confidence due to past experience.
during the afternoon, i went to have my lunch at Sooka Sentral with one of my colleague.
upon back office, i seems to be quite worry as the ads campaigns seems to not very effective but the advertising money keep increase every hour.
seriously if this time can't work out, i really can resign myself instead of waiting the company to "goreng fried sotong for me to eat" (sack) me.

actually there is a friend advice me to think in a positive way that "Wow, I can go work and learn many stuff in order to be happy" during work instead of saying like "i will get sack lah and etc" related negative words.
around 6.40pm i make a move from office and have my dinner at Burger King KL Sentral since there is a promotion of RM5.95 burger set for all day.
however, it seems that their "marketing strategies" for the promotion did not work well as there was not much people eating at there when compared with Mc Donalds.
when i arrive Wangsa Maju at 7.35pm, it seems that the bus still not move after 30 minutes passed.
somehow i just have a feelings that "Rich people tends to be having more time" that if i pay for taxi to back home, i no need to wait for so long right?
finally i reach home at 8.10pm.

after taken my bath, i just surf some information online as usual.
somehow my "negative thought" have won over the "positive thinking" when it comes to money related problem where someone share about "Why it is so hard to find a job with starting pay of RM3,000 per month for their first job as an overseas graduates" and i feel some of the reply was quite useful to post it in my blog as an reference below.
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1) The only fresh graduate over RM3,000 salary that i know off is Oild and Gas (O&G) field.

2) If not mistaken, Maybank offer RM3,200 for Degree holder.

3) There are a lot company offer more than RM3,000 for fresh graduate, some even can reach RM4,000, the question are you the one they was looking for?

4) Public bank offers around RM2,800 for fresh graduate.

5) Plenty of jobs paying fresh grads RM3,000 and above in the banking sector, whether you have the credentials to command that salary is the bigger question.

6) To be honest, there are not many jobs that offer over RM3,000 salary for fresh grads. I do know Intel offers more than RM3,000 for a fresh grad who has good grades and most of the O&G companies pay around RM4,000 to RM5,000 for engineers. You need patience, luck, and perseverance to get a high paying job. I would suggest you aim for RM2,500 to RM2,800 job, then change after a couple of months.

7) If you can fit into companies like JP Morgan, BCG, RM5,000 salary for being an Junior staff is possible. Question is, whether they want to hire you or not. Basically, you need to know how to sell yourself. In fact, RM3,000 is not a lot in today's jobs market. If you are good, you can usually hedge up to RM3,000 decently.

8) My friend's brother graduated in Australia about 8-9 years ago. He came back to Malaysia and his starting pay was RM1,800. But guess what? His pay hit RM10,000 by the time he was 28. He went into the right field where there weren't many people doing what he did back then. The moral of the story is that you shouldn't overemphasize the difference of a few hundred ringgit, but rather pick a right field and excel in your job. Eventually you will earn big bucks.

9) I noticed that the ones who complained about fresh grad salary being too low either didn't do their research well or weren't qualified for that pay range. I'm not trying to show off, but the social circle that I am in has a lot of high flyers. I have a take RM4,000/month salary as a fresh grad, yet I am on the lower end of the curve. My best friends get RM5,000 (ex. benefits) and RM12,000 (ex. benefits) per month (fresh grad as well). My point is, the opportunity for fresh grad isn't that bleak. Search harder and you may find it.

10) Every fresh grad that comes into the market has high expectations.to make matters worse is when grads compare their jobs when outing with friends which causes more peer pressure.

11) Go Singapore to earn SG dollar and definitely you will get more than RM3,000.

12) A more accurate way of estimating salary range is to do some kind of probability distribution of salary. The top 5% of graduates might get a salary range of say RM3,000 to RM4,000, 85-95% earns RM2,500 to RM3,000 and so on. Many graduates have this simplistic view that all graduates get the same pay. They don't, therefore they must fit into the upper salary range. It's better to honestly evaluate your ownself based on your communication skills, university results, how prestigous your university is, intelligence, leadership skills, networking where you lie in terms of performance. If you truly think you're the top 5%, then go ahead demand for the salary range of the top 5% of graduates. Otherwise just accept the lower salary range.

13) Let me just share that i know at least 4 friends, who graduated with commerce degrees, came back Malaysia, worked for average 4 months at MNCs, and then went back to father's companies, not to mention those who didn't even work outside and just went back to family's business straightaway.

14) Haha interesting. I also get 2 know my finance manager in the SME company i'm in now started off working in her parents company after she graduated from Australia few years ago.

15) It is common for those very lazy to look for jobs end up in family business. I would have done that also because at the end of the day when you succeed in family business, you will pawn all the rest experienced people working in MNC. Hahahaha...

16) Apart from being lazy, it also makes more sense to work in your family business. For example, the harder you work, the more sales/productivity you get, more profit, more dividend for your family.

If you work outside, no matter how hard you work, the pay is all you get. For my friends that have no family business, their politically powerful fathers usually get them good jobs in MNCs, like Singapore Resort World. Given the same grades and degrees, we will never be able to get in.

17) Do you aware that these so call foreign country bosses are "moving" many jobs to Asia? Because hiring Asia people cost is far lower than hiring their own. The same reason why China economy is the top in the world list, because "cheap". You can "cry father cry mother" about how shitty is Asia employees being treated in term of pay, but the ironic part, it's also where all the jobs opportunities are highest at the global level. Welcome to the world capitalism, coupled with globalization.good luck for you to quit the local job, and hunt for oversea job.

18) Malaysian companies likes to earn 3x time for their profit and pay 0.3% of their profit for workers.

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the negative part that i would like to talk about here is maybe that's is the reason why some people have gone into the "illegal business" as they have given up to earn slow money.
for example, when i see the news about "A student of age 21 years old, got scammed RM76,100 in total for bulk ordering an allegedly "cheaper" iPhone 5 sold by a suspected Nigerian with the name of Yemi Williams at a very low price of only AS$300 (RM932.96) for each iPhone where she ordered 75 units through the advertisement from Shop Gadget Store at a website and did a fund transfer of RM55,000 to the suspect", i was like "OMFG", like that also believe meh?
seriously my thought when see this news was anything also can possible happens no matter how ridiculous the story right? (perhaps i should be one of the scammer? but how woh? cheat old Aunty $$? LOL, in fact, i did saw some news about an old aunty got cheated million dollar, don't know how)

another story i saw was about a girl got cheated by a guy who using social media when the girl gave the guy her nude pic, then the guy threaten (威胁) her to give reload RM10 reload number everyday. (swt~ =.=)
so the question here is whether you want to do those illegal things or not and also are you capable to do it without caring your "good guy" image?
actually i have a choice now whether want to do some "illegal things" such as introduce some pervert guys to the "prostitute blogger", then if you have use their service, i might get some commission but this sound like i am a "pimp" and seems to encourage more people to go for prostitution although myself haven try/no dare try yet since i still want to keep my "good guy image + worry how my son see me if i do such thing" right?
another "illegal things" might related with working at foreign country (not picking fruit), but something very serious as if got caught, you might end up jail.

OMG ! Suddenly i have so much NEGATIVE thought and i had failed for not listen so much story as i seems to can't stop to see so much news.
therefore i might suggest you to "please leave my blog alone" as it was too sensitive.
however, i feel that if i want to be positive back, i need to keep telling myself that i have a great job which is 5 days job, can FB+research your stuff, learning new things instead of thinking the bad side.
later on, there is one of my Txxxtmastxr senior find me and he seems like knowing about my blog as the keyword i use seems to be found on Google.
somehow i did feel a bit worry because i feel awkward for someone in real life know about my identity.
in fact, i feel myself so "funny" again as i want some anonymous people give me feedback, but not some of my real life friend "read/give feedback" to my blog.

as a conclusion for this post, i just feel that the reason i write so much of my personal feeling was because i worry that i will make the wrong decision in future as if someone can give some advice/guidance for me to correct now, i might not face the same mistake.
anyone here can teach me how to "blog for someone to see, not for someone to see?" as i want someone to leave my blog alone while someone not to leave me. (what i am talking? LOL)

in fact, even myself feel so "blur" now as i don't know what i am writing with my super duper broken English.
furthermore, it is more "sucks" when yourself know that blogging is totally waste of time, and yet you still doing it everyday. (the goal for gaining some blog attention which is about 1~10 true readers had achieved, i can stop writing my story but why i still want to continue? talking to myself again)

~.~

today i woke up at 8.05am.
somehow i wanted to sleep back but had "forced" myself wake up as i will be late later.
then i just quickly prepared myself and went to work.
when i reach Wangsa Maju at 8.35am, i waited some friend before we went to take LRT.
around 9.15am i reach KL Sentral and quickly walk to the office.
well, it seems that i having a bad stomachache as i did not eat any breakfast during the morning.
anyways, i continue my unfinished work and seems like need to "re-test" something.
during the afternoon, my superior asked me to have lunch together and we went to Chili Espresso in Sooka Centre where i usually saw a lot of foreigner people ate there.
after we give our order, here's come the harsh part as my superior told me about my working performance.

honestly, i did feel "hurt" when listen about it because it sounds "harsh" but i do feel thankful to him when he told me about my weakness.
first of all, a marketer need to create a "hype" when the product launching, or else it is totally useless to create "snowball effect" and company hire me is to create some hype instead of growing slowly.
moreover, as a marketing person, you need to always carry a happy/smile in your face as my face seems to be moody most of the time.
somehow i feel that it is maybe because blog to much "emos" or negative stuff will eventually change a person face appearance as you can't hide in real life if i sad in the online world.
well, it was so true when he say that i always sit alone in front computer like a lonely person there instead of having conversation with colleagues to discuss more about the product related stuff.

furthermore, he also say that i seems to lack of confidence during the Monday meeting when the Japanese boss question about something but i answer in such a soft weak voice as he think in a way that "serious or not this guy is working?" when he told me about it.
somehow i do recall back some of my college memories when talking about this part as it was my weakness.
therefore this might the reason why i am so unattractive in real life and fail to find any girls as no one will really like weak/emo guy just like the Sad Larry video link >>> Here.
besides, it is proven that a person characteristic or attitude will affect him/her no matter where he goes or want to hide it when doing anything.
other than that, my weakness was weak in copy writing skills and schedule planning.
seriously i just feel maybe's it is time for me to leave despite not even finish work for a month.

well, what should you do if you start to understand yourself was actually having so much weakness and was below average than a normal human "standard" should have?
during the evening, there is a little brainstorm session and i couldn't focus well when my colleagues asked me did i really know what i am talking about during that moment as i keep thinking another things.
perhaps i should really need to think whether i should go for my SHU UK or not as i see the marketing jobs seems to be quite useless in nowadays as it look like a job for the boss instead of employee.
in short, it might means that company really don't need to hire any marketer as it was a role for the boss.
once again i was "stuck" again with a decision whether want to go or not because a less talkative people like me should do the job that no need communicate much with people such as IT technician, programmer, repair car and etc jobs.

around 7.05pm i make a move from office and arrived Wangsa Maju at 7.45pm.
then i went to have my dinner at "Wan Tan Mee" noodles stall instead of queuing up at the Kopitiam Desa.
somehow the VCD shop was playing a Thai series ghost movie and i dislike it since my table was just in front of the TV. (speechless~=.=)
finally i arrived back home at 8.25pm and feel quite tired as i did not sleep much hour yesterday.
before i end my post, i would like to share a song that i like recently which is named "Shi Shen Me Rang Wo Yu Jian Zhe Yang De Ni" (是什么让我遇见这样的妳) which means "What Was It That Made Me Meet Someone Like You" that sang by Bai An (白安) as below or the link >>> Here.

well, i just feel quite "emos" again when listening this kind of song especially when i look at it's lyrics as shown below.
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我是宇宙间的尘埃，漂泊在这茫茫人海。
偶然掉入谁的胸怀，多想从此不再离开。
我是宇宙间的尘埃，微不足道的一种状态。
偶然成了谁的最爱，多想相信永恒存在。

是什么让我遇见这样的妳。
是什么让我不再怀疑自己。
是什么让我不再害怕失去。
在这茫茫人海里，我不要变得透明。

我是宇宙间的尘埃，漂泊在这茫茫人海。
若妳是我必然的存在，多想从此不再离开。

是什么让我遇见这样的妳。
是什么让我不再怀疑自己。
是什么让我不再害怕失去。
在这茫茫人海里，我不要变得透明。

若时间注定要让妳离开，
我又该怎么学会不依赖。

是什么让我遇见这样的你。
是什么让我不再怀疑自己。
是什么让我不再害怕失去。
在这茫茫人海里，我不要变得透明。

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the sentences that highlighted in red is truly what if feels too and it means that "What was it that made me meet someone like you? What was it that made me stop doubting myself? What was it that makes me no longer fear of lost? In this vast sea of people, i don't want to be transparent" which is quite true.

in deed that sometime i do think about the girl that i liked whenever listening this kind of song and the things that comfort myself is to tell myself take care of own problem first before think about other thing else.
maybe somewhere, somehow in future, i still have the chance to meet my Mrs Right.
the most important issues now was to find $$ to able to "raise" (养自己) first and i do admit i was "jelly" about the "Disclosure of Directors remuneration for Tenaga Nasional Berhad (TNB)" picture as below.

however, it is no use to think about the things i don't have just like what Anonymous comments.
later on, i went to refill my water and wash+hang my clothes.
in conclusion, i found one of the reason that drive me to continue writing everyday was probably because i still have some "online people" who care about me although it just few people and i do appreciate them very much where i keep told myself that "Life is full of opportunities, if you didn't succeed this time, you will surely succeed the next time" which might be true.
thanks you for all the time staying with "me" despite i am just an anonymous guy.
don't leave me~
=)

today i woke up at 7.50am.
then i just quickly get myself prepared and went to work.
while i was walking on my way to wait for the bus, it seems that the bus just pass by in front my and i just feel that i might late for work.
however, after 5 minutes passed, there is a taxi driver which is an Indian lady stop in front of me and told me that she charge only RM1 to go Wangsa as it might be on the way to go there. (guess i was lucky?)
around 9.20am i reach my office and continue my so call "working" although it seems like i do not produce much productivity. (if one day company found out/see this, 100% will fire me LOL)
during the afternoon, we went to have our lunch at Homie Recipe (家传食谱) restaurant despite i not very like as it was in small portion and cost about RM8.90 per bowl but no choice since i follow the majority.

upon back to office, i just continue my stuff as usual.
somehow the TalkFilm have extra 1 movie tickets for Django Unchained as i can go if some people can't make it with my "begging skills" and i just accepted.
around 6.50pm i make a move from office and guess i was lucky again because as i walk down to the KTM station, the train just arrived at 7pm.
when i reach Mid Valley at 7.10pm, i just feel that i was having a lot of time and decided to walk from bottom to top of the Gardens shopping mall about 1 hour++ where i might get some "marketing" ideas.
sometime i do wondering how those shop can sustain as it seems like there was not many people visiting those luxury brands shop.
perhaps they was just target high end customer or "washing black money"? (i have no idea~ LOL)

while walking at the top floor, i saw a lot of Japanese shop such as Hokkaido Ichiba, Wagyu and some name i had forgotten.
somehow the "feelings" of eating Japanese food came back again as i ended up eating at Sushi Zanmai Gardens since there is a lot of people waiting as i can use it as an excuse to "kill my time".
however, i seems to no need to wait long for the queue as i was just alone while others people was in couple or in a group. (T.T)
in fact, i do have a bit "jelly" feeling when the people beside me was both girl but together with their boyfriend just like a friend told me before better don't go alone to Mid Valley.
anyways, i do enjoy myself very much as i had tried the fried oyster dish as shown below.

well, looks like it does not show exactly same in the menu as it do not came with oyster shell. (LOL?)

other than that, i enjoyed the peach salmon, udon noodles and chawanmushi although it cost me about RM33+ when i pay for the bill.
around 8.30pm i went to redeem the tickets from TalkFilm booth and they seems can't find my name in the list as i was confirm on the last minute when got extra tickets.

anyways, they gave me 2 tickets but i say i was one person and changed to another seat since all of the seat was a couple seat as shown below.

since there is still some time before the movie start at 9pm, i walked to the Borders bookstore and saw their have some promotion for RM250 BB1M book voucher as picture below.

somehow i was attracted with a keyword of book that title "Ask for No Bullshit, get some more!" as below.

guess it was mostly related with the political opinion about our current government.

while i read more and more, it does ignites some anger when see the "B" performing how such according to what the book say and i saw most of their argument was using other people brand name such as below.

if you ask my what's my political view, i believe a CHANGE IS NEEDED for our corrupted country although my best choice is Vote for Nobody as picture below.

around 8.55pm i went back to the GSC cinema and i did not buy the book as it cost about RM35+.
anyways, below was the synopsis of the Django Unchained movie 2013 and the movie start at 9.20pm
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Freed slave named Django is trained as a bounty hunter by a German dentist named Schultz, and the two men set out to find Django's captive wife from a brutal Mississippi plantation owner.
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during the moment watching this movie, i keep looking at my watch with the light from the screen as i need to make a move as the KTM/LRT will close before 12am.

well, i just manage to watch until the Django meet her wife at the "Titanic main actor's sister house" (don't know his name but from Inception movie, picture below synopsis) and the time was already around 11pm.
moreover, i feel that the movie is quite true about those Negro slaves during the olden days.
besides, you can have a look of the "Django Unchained - Official Trailer (HD)" video as below or the link >>> Here.

overall i would rate this movie as 4 out of 5 stars as it was funny despite it had many bloody scene with vulgar language spoken although i just watch half of the movie before i left.
therefore this is why the blog post of this title was named as "Django Unchained Movie Half Review 2013".
as i reach the Mid Valley KTM station at 11.15pm, it seems that the train just closed it's door and i feel like life is not always lucky as i encounter this morning.

honestly, i did have some "hatred about myself" because promised to go for the movie and feel bad if i "put aeroplane" although i do not have car.
anyways, the train reach again at 11.45pm and it took about 5 minute to reach KL Sentral and i quickly run to the LRT station when i reach there.
besides, there was 2 China girls asked me about how to go to Plaza Rakyat where i feel to help but i forgotten how, while the last LRT train just arrived at 11.55pm.
during the moment at train, i do feel a little "guilty" as i did not help them and maybe i was just "selfish" to care for myself as if i missed the last train, i will need to take taxi which will cause a lot of money.
somehow i just keep listening to Bai Ann song to forget other things.
finally i arrived Wangsa Maju at 12.25am and took taxi back home although it have extra charges.

upon back home, i was recalling back what i did for today and looks like i had spend around RM70+ for today although i feel to save some $$ but keep having the contradict feeling that "work to save $$ but no enjoy, then work for what?" feelings.
furthermore, i can't blame TalkFilm Facebook page for giving the free tickets right as myself have requested for it as i might not spend so much if i never been there.
somehow i feel myself so "funny" as i just want to find something to do and just like an internet beggar.
besides, i still remember the tagline from the movie which is "You've got my curiosity, now you got my attention" where i feel quite funny.
later on, i just quickly see through some news and information where i feel the "N" company response so fast to the "Google Shut Down Google Reader news" as it was an opportunity for them to recruit more people.

well, i think i no longer can visits back some blog because i always use Google Reader in my dashboard.
as for the SAP couse, i found some useful information as below where it divided into functional or technical skills as shown below.
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Functional : MM, SD, PP, WM, FI, CO (Core Modules) BI, BOBJ, SRM, SCM
Technical: Basis, ABAP, PI
Approx earning per month
For a fresh graduate SAP consultant: RM4,000
2 years experience with 1 full life cycle implementation: RM5,000 - RM6,000
3 full life cycle implementation: RM8,000 - RM10,000
Lead/Project Manager: RM10,000 - RM20,000
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seriously until now i still not clear about the SAP course but feel what the people said was meaningful as "A few years back, SAP consultants were highly sought after because there weren't many people experienced in SAP. But these days, there are way too many SAP consultants (because everyone knows it pays well and thus jumps on the bandwagon) and the market is approaching saturation" which is quite true.
perhaps the moral of the story is a profitable things must have less people know about it, or else it will cause a lot of problem just like why those opposition keep having demonstration as the "B" having too much cronies on hand which will make other people feel "red eye" when know about the ugly truth.
at last, i would like to share a meaningful picture as below.

it means that "Don't need to jealous of other people's success as they also have their imperfect and hard feelings. (不要去羡慕别人的表面风光，其实每个人都有不足为外人道的苦/自己内心的苦)
however, it might be easy to said but hard to do.
finally i finish writing this post at 3.05am and feel myself REALLY NO LIFE as i need to wait up at 7am+ tomorrow, yet the time still running.
in fact, i do know that no one will give a damn whether i update or not and there is no long term goal to continue writing for this blog but the only thing that drives me now seems to be i just hope someone will "give a damn" for my lonely life. (sweat~ =.=)
LOL?
=D

today i woke up at 7.50am.
after get myself prepared, i quickly went to take bus around 8.30am as i did not have much time left.
somehow i hope that i can have a paper to "wrap" my "emos" face when i looking at the car window's where i saw my most "ulgy fugly emos" look which will eventually make other's people get annoyed if they saw my this kind of emotion just like the Sad Larry video as below.

around 9.25am i reach the office and quickly continue my related job task.
somehow it is quite hard to die out some "idea+keyword" and what i do was just surf through all of the related website to get some ideas.
during the afternoon, we went to Sooka Sentral food court to have our lunch and i still did not talk much or create topic although i tried to talk.

during the evening, we have a small brainstorm meeting for the upcoming event.
somehow i did feel a little funny when my superior say that he will in charge for the "Yam Cha, Sek Fan, Kiu Kai" (喝茶，吃饭，叫鸡) with those high profile people to persuade "something" but i don't know is real or not since i was in charge for the online marketing part.
well, i just feel that this might be the skills that did not teach by college/school in order to "satisfying customer needs" other than treating customer food right?
after the meeting, i was feeling quite tired as my eye will "automatically close" and i feel quite hard to pretend that i am energetic.
around 6.45pm i make a move from office and do saw some event happening at Malones restaurant but i did not go up to take a look although i see a lot of catering food served which might be free.

as i arrived at KL Sentral, i went to have my dinner at Mc Donalds and then went to meet my sister at Masjid Jamek around 7.30pm.
somehow i do think a lot of "useless stuff" while waiting my sister such as i feel that "Life is all about finding (water fish) dumb people to cheat because if the market lack of this kind of people, there will be no such things as we call profit" when come to business.
while saw some people are selling Streamyx Unify, i just feel that they seems to earn a lot as a friend told me if you can close a deal, you can earn up to RM300 per contract and guess it is all about "contact" that you find/have to sell to them.
while i meet my sister, i just continue talk all the way until we reach Bandar Tasik Selatan at 8pm.
well, today was known as International consumer right but i it seems like doesn't matter to me.

besides, sister just told me to do the things i like and enjoy myself while i still single as i did not have much commitment when i keep "whining" my problem to her.
anyways, she keep told me that whenever she feel frustrated about her job, she will take the picture of her baby and feel it is all worth after all the hard work. (guess this is call mother love)
furthermore, she told me that i should be faithful as our parents still can raise us until so big where my mother did not work last time and it will be very hard if one of the parents did not work in this generation.
finally i reach home at 9pm and have my dinner prepared by mother.
when my brother reach back home, i continue to express my working frustration to him and he just say that every job have their own difficulties and problem.
in fact, he just told me the mistake that he do yesterday which will probably get him sacked on next Monday.

basically it is about a "SPY AUDIT" from government come to their office to check their financial statement since it was an MNC and the document too confidential, but he also don't know why he pass "the thing" to him as the auditor seems to be not suspicious.
in the end, this case was brought up to his boss and until make the director notice about it which is a very serious case that just happened yesterday.
anyways, i just can say the corporate world is full of dirty+ulgy truth especially it involve with the government contract that we do not know where this might explain why people tends to be more evil+cruel when you grow older. (i might put myself in a deep ship if i disclose it in my blog no matter how much i want to tell the story as there was a limitation too although i was just an anonymous guy)
seriously i do feel the world is not as naive as i thought. (someone say only loser will say this kind of words?)

it is because if you think such way, why don't you do more evil+cruel stuff in order to earn more money instead of just an empty talk like i said right?
anyways, my brother say he is responsible for it although the worst case scenario is he need to self resign or get sack by the company.
somehow just feel that there is a Chinese sentence that is "有时做人不要太热心，不然会被人利用，就算利用不成，还会被说酸酸的话。我们要抱着平常心，朋友与否，双方都有“责任”。" which is quite meaningful.
on the other hand, i seems to can saw some event happening at Malones Sooka and the Future Music Festival Asia 2013 (FMFA) through the social media platform.
besides, i was enjoying eating the seaweed and keep think of Top Ittipat movie whenever i ate it.

around 10.30pm is the Chan Fong "大城心事" sharing story and below was the recording podcast from the program.
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1) 第一位：Angel（東馬沙撈越人）～她和男朋友是遠距離戀愛，自從見過雙方的家長之後關係就開始慢慢互相冷淡下來了，她想問該不該搬過去吉隆坡和他一起生活。【陳峰大哥建議她應該理性分析和想像與對方未來的生活畫面是怎樣的，才做出判斷和決定】>>> Here.

2) 第二位：阿弟（東馬人 /上次話說太太離家出走不回應的那位）～他說他和太太終於重新見面了，現在決定要離婚，；他是以樂觀的心情去面對這一切。

3) 第三位：黃先生～他說和一個有夫之婦在一起還搞上關係，現在對方還不小心懷上他的孩子，雖然對方已經墮胎了目前他只是想繼續跟這個女人在一起；甚至教唆慫恿她和現任老公離婚。【陳峰大哥認為他應該考慮清楚是否能夠接受對方的一切和條件，包括有孩子之類的問題；以免將來因為一些麻煩的因素和種種原因的產生導致關係破裂】Part 2 + 3 >>> Here.

4) 第四位：Lisa～她打電話進來純粹只是和陳峰大哥閒聊，和他談了一些關於人生百態和生活上的瑣碎事。

5) 第五位：阿儀（自稱是個婚姻失敗著）～她愛上了一個男人是有家庭的，對方是的家庭身在外國。【陳峰大哥很歎氣地勸她，希望她先調查清楚對方的家庭背景了才來做決定】Part 4 + 5 >>> Here.

6) 第六位：啊龙～问关于事业上的问题。>>> Here.

7) 第七位：xxx～她被男友一而再再而三的背叛還是選擇要和對方在一起，逃不出穀底。【陳峰大哥勸她不要再浪費時間，等待奇跡】>>> Here.

8) 第八位：Max～她想問關於想創業的問題。

9) 第九位：姓黃的～感情事，他想問問和女友分手后該不該把送給她的屋子賣掉刪除回憶。【陳峰大哥給了兩個建議>>>1-:)從此不再過問她的生活事和感情事；2-:)屋子的問題要怎樣決定權在於她】

10) 第十位：一个男人，分手了，他还放不下过去。还活在自己的回忆中。
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well, i do feel myself like the No.10 guy but there is no recording for it as i listen until 1am.
somehow i do feel myself seems to be wasting more and more time where i keep "busybody" to listen other's people news and story instead of doing something that can earn money.
guess my friend was right that i just don't have any goal, that why there is no motivation and seems to be quite "cheapskate" just like how i get my Django movie ticket yesterday.
actually i do have a dream such as want to have a flight career company such as Air Asia or the latest Malindo Airline but it seems to be impossible where i just know how to talk and the Boeing 747 will at least cost around 50 million USD for second hand.
however, i think i might afford to buy a small aircraft for 4 seat such as the 1969 Cessna 401 at >>> Here.

i believe most of us here thinks that aeroplane must be an expensive transportation but the truth is it would cost about below RM500,000 for a 4 seat aeroplane but the expensive was the "parking fee" as told by my uncle last time.
in conclusion, if i REALLY want to have my own flight company, i think the only way is to convince those RICH people to invest in me as i will rent the second-hand aeroplane in overseas for start up where i saw a lot of aircraft being abandon in the parking slot just like how we see so many luxury car being parked in the car shop where we waiting they drop their price.
seriously i feel that the world is full of opportunity if you can find those super Rich people to invest on you just like the picture below. (guess that was dumb rich? LOL)

this blog post was finish written at 3.50am and i feel myself so "funny" again for doing something useless.
anyways, tomorrow still need to wake up early as my parents went to travel to Sabah but i did not follow.
overall i should keep think in a positive way about my life.
=)

today i woke up at 8.50am.
somehow i do have some "weird" feelings about myself when i was on the way driving to my friend house.
around 9.45am i reach my friend house and wait another friend come as we will going to have some breakfast at somewhere near Bangsar.
during the moment at car, i start to having more "weird" feelings and feel like vomit.
upon reach nearby that place, i quickly ask my friend to stop me at one of the nearby restaurant.
as i walk out from the car, suddenly i just vomit at the roadside of some restaurant before i manage to go in the toilet.
anyways, it feels better when i vomit out and it was mostly "seaweed" if i am not mistaken.
luckily my friends do not see my condition when i walk to the Antipodean Cafe.

well, there was a lot of people queue up and we do saw a girl host from the "Hojiak 8TV" program where everyone seems to keep looking at her.
besides, this cafe seems to be quite special because the menu was written on the board as below.

then i just order based on what my friend order which is the big breakfast with extra bacon as below.

somehow i don't have any "taste" when eating the food which might probably because after vomit.
in fact, i do feel myself seems to be very waste of food when i just eat 1/4 portion of the food and don't feel like eating anymore.
luckily my friends helped me to eat and the meal for my set cost around RM31.
actually looking at this matter, i think i should follow my heart instinct that i shouldn't follow at first after having the "weird" feelings during morning.

perhaps i afraid that how my friend see me if i "FFK" (put aeroplane) and promise want to go and end up no go right?
however, it seems that there is no different when i go because with my "sick" condition, i couldn't talk much at there.
around 12.20pm we make a move from there and i followed a friend to fetch me back.
during the moment at car, my friend shared a lot of "chasing girls skills" and explained why it is so true about the theory of "If Guys not bad, girls don't like" (男人不坏，女人不爱) where i feel so meaningful.
often time we saw a guy treat very well to their girlfriend, but ended up the girl having affair with another guy.
moreover, it is very stupid for a guy to "cry" over a girl because as a guy, we need to hurt girls instead of let girls hurt us.

anyways, i can't share much of it here because my friend said it was a "guys secret".
overall there was 5 example that i feel so meaningful when he talk about the "standard" part.
one thing for sure is that never be a good+honest guy when come into a relationship as this also explain why some guy can one time chase so many girls and end up let those girl chase them back where we can see a lot of girls doing stupid things to get their guys back.
over time, i realize a lot about my mistaken steps and guess the biggest problem was myself instead of others as i discover more and more about my personal feelings.
perhaps my final goal for blogging is to publish a book that teaches those "lonely+sad guys on how to chase a girls" with my 5 years experience in life and would you buy this books for RM33?
finally i arrived back home at 1.30pm and did not have any appetite to eat.

suddenly i feel to vomit again and quickly went inside the toilet to "settle it".
for now, i think i am confirm that i have food poisoning from eating seaweed because the vomit contains "seaweed together with the morning breakfast" and it is quite suffering to do "force vomit".
therefore this might be the second time i having food poisoning after my first experience back in 2011.
anyways, the murderer for causing my food poisoning case was this "Dozo seaweed" that bought by one of my relative when he travel to Thailand as below.

on the other hand, i have canceled another gathering from my college classmate due to rest on home.
after having a bread, i took 2 pieces of Panadol and went to sleep.
the moment i woke up again was 7.30pm and feeling not well.
therefore i asked my brother to fetch me to the nearby Sabrina clinic to get some treatment.

around 8.05pm we reached there and there was a lot of people.
after waiting about 45 minutes, it finally reach my turn and the doctor said if i come during this morning, my illness will probably cured by now as if i keep delay it, it will cause more and more complementary disease.
finally i arrived back home at 10pm and take all the medicine then went to rest.
before i end my post, i would like to share a meaningful Chinese story from "LeeXinYi page" as below.
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后悔，是人不满于现状时最常出现的情绪之一。

“现在我所拥有的怎么那么不够好，如果当初我可以怎样怎样，我今天就不会有这样的环境了。”

所以，后悔的产品是希望可以重来的念头。

最近一部叫《恋爱季节》的香港连续剧，对“重来”这种念头，用了有别于一般港剧的手法做了一个有意义的诠释。

故事说到女主角同时被两个男生追求，一位是家境富裕的律师，一位是开朗乐观的发型师。女主角本来想赴律师的约，可是却阴差阳错和发型师在了一起。

他们结了婚，原本以为可以快乐永远在一起，可是之后却因为女主角斤斤计较和不成熟的待人方法，让她和她的丈夫及婆婆之间闹得非常不愉快，结果丈夫要和她离婚。

故事说到这里，女主角气急说：“如果可以重来，当初我选的是律师，结果就不会这样。”

就在那时候，镜头playback回到去选择的关键一刻，女主角再次做了选择，和律师结了婚，可是结果并没有因为换了对象而变得好起来。律师还是因为女主角的恶略态度而要求离婚。

带你来到现在的日子的，是你自己的态度，和身边的客观因素无关。想过好日子，先改变自己的态度吧。
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basically the story was about the cause of problem was actually cause from your own problem about how your personality and attitude.
often time we always hope that "how great if i can rewind back my life" to change those mistake but it seems useless because it was your own attitude that cause those problem arrise.
perhaps it is useless for me to share my own "failed experience" to people because it is useless because people will not feel appreciate when the things haven happens.
therefore it might be a waste of my time too for sharing so much in the online atmosphere as people just don't care.
furthermore, it might explain why the society is becoming more cruel and cruel where all the so call "good guy" start to disappear which is a GOOD scenario right?
=D

today i woke up at 10.20am.
well, my right side of eyes seems to be having a little swollen when i was awakens.
somehow i just remember that i might having allergic due to one of the fever medicine that i take yesterday given by the doctor.
therefore my brother fetched me to see the doctor in hope can change some other medicine since the doctor said he had give me a better medicine that cost about RM46 in the total bills of my treatment.
when i arrive there, it seems that the nurse did not know much that i have allergic when check back my past record and advise me to take the medicine on different time instead of taking all at once.
after that, my brother fetched me to buy our lunch at the nearby food stall and i just can take some soup or porridge type of meal.

upon back home, there is one TV program that caught my attention that is CSI New York (S7) at 12.50pm.
well, that episode talk about how a girl cheat/scam others people but ended being murdered.
then the following episode is about a burger stall that extra service that related to prostitution and ended up being murder by one of his competitor's son.
overall this two episode was quite nice to watch and there is an upcoming new show which is Hannibal.
after taken my medicine, i went to rest by taking a quick nap.
the moment i woke up again was 5.10pm.
then i went to buy our dinner and pump the car's air.
when i was finish prepared myself around 8pm to back KL house, i was attracted by another TV movie show named "The Magic of Sciene" from Discovery Channel where a guy turn silver into gold with heat.

seriously the TV program was so nice because it had reveal the so call "magic" into the knowledge of science and i feel it might explain the YIF Magic trick last time about changing the water colour magic.
around 9pm i make a move from house and drive my sister car back KL house as she was on leave and i have a lot of things to do tomorrow.
during the moment at car, i just keep listening to the "Mai Tian Bu Shou" (麥田捕手) (The Catcher in the Rye) that sang by Bai An (白安) and below was the lyrics of it.

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有一首诗，关于一个人在穿越麦田时遇（抓）到另一个人，

我们都在麦田里奔跑，谁会等待在悬崖边抓住我们呢？

黄昏的视野很美好，我拿着望远镜看远方。

我看见不少美丽的微笑，也摆脱不少的烦恼。

Cause I know you won't be here,

Cause I know you won't be there.

I don't even wanna talk,

but I'll catch your smile.

I'm the catcher in the rye.

我听不见妳的叫嚣，也看不见妳的打扰。

或许麦田是个让妳耕种微笑的地方。

它让我学会用微笑当作人生的肥料。

Cause I know you won't be here,

Cause I know you won't be there.

I don't even wanna talk,

but I'll catch your smile.

I'll sing this song for you my dear,

I'll miss your words and love forever.

我知道妳或许听不到，我说的一切。

Cause I know you won't be here,

Cause I know you won't be there.

I don't even wanna talk,

but I'll catch.

Cause I know you won't be here,

Cause I know you won't be there.

I don't even wanna talk,

but I'll catch your smile.

如果在麦田里迷路，谁会等待在悬崖边抓住我们呢？

也许我们可以守望彼此。

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the words that highlighted in red is something i feel too and just liked so much the song.
somehow i just keep listening to this song repeatedly until i arrive my KL house at 10.05pm.
besides, feel free to watch her MV video which is "白安Ann[麥田捕手The Catcher in the Rye]MV官方完整版" as below or the link >>> Here.

on the other hand, i was worry about my working stuff because tomorrow i will take an Emergency leave to attend the SHU briefing that decide whether i can go UK or not this year.
well, i feel the law of attraction seems to be quite true because during last week, i had planned to say "i am sick" on this coming 18th March but end up i am really sick by getting the food poisoning illness.
therefore the moral of this story is never "curse" yourself to be sick because it might get real and it is so true that if you don't have health, how are you going to talk about earning money?
later on, i was in "deep shxt" as there was many office stuff still haven settle and i really can "wait die" for this coming Tuesday.
furthermore, i just found out my FB ads still running and they still charge me when i check my other email today as below. (guess i am the only one who so stupid to spend $$ to get attention? LOL)

at last, i just hope that my sickness will cure faster because i seems to have many things to do yet i seems like wasting my time and complain that my time is not enough.
=)

today i woke up at 7.45am.
somehow i was having such a "weird dream" whereby i am cheating a girl until bed but luckily it's not real as the dream getting more weird.
anyways, i just sleep back for a while and woke up again at 8.25am after having another dream.
honestly, i still think back about what my friend say about the (男人不坏，女人不爱) things that "there is no CONFESS word in a guys dictionary when chasing girls because it is too stupid for a guy to confess anything to a girl where the guy will chase the girl without need to tell the girl that they're chasing them, next is hold their hand, have "sxx" first, then wait the girl ask back guy whether want to be their boyfriend or not instead of a guy need to do such "confess thing" which eventually make me having a little "hatred" of myself as i was the guy who do those "stupid" thing although so many years had past.

perhaps i still haven fully "cure" my "jelly" feeling after blogging for so long. (or i am small gas? LOL?)
anyways, this post was totally not related to what i want to say for today because all the words has been written down in my phone's note. (也许冤气太多，想发泄一些)
around 8.50am my friend arrived to my house and fetch me to go to the SHU briefing for the Advanced Diploma Year 2 students (ABU,AEM,AMK,AHR,AIN,AEC,ALM & ARM) at 9am in DKB.
actually i don't feel to go at first but the attendance is compulsory because we will be receiving our conditional/unconditional offer letter or sit for English test/interview (selected students) on that day.
somehow i do saw the Kaxxxrxxe Gxxdixxr as it just make me recall something from last year where i got directly rejected from her before the briefing start as below. (哇老，一年过了还酱记仇咩? LOL)

over time, i did asked myself whether have i made any changes from year to year?

besides, i do have a feelings that "Tar college student came from rich family background as this year i think there will be at least 200+ people go for the SHU" when saw the number of student at the lecture hall.
so if imagine 1 student spend RM40,000 x 200 student = RM8,000,000 (1.6£ Mil) of our country currency flow to United Kingdom within 3 month right?
before the SHU briefing ends, i seems to be so "lucky" to be one of the student who need go for the English interview at 11.15am in R003.
after that, i followed my friend to settle his stuff at Bursary.
during my interview process for Sheffield Hallam University briefing, they asked me about why i fail in my previous exam, asked about 4P Marketing, how to market a product and my past working experience.
well, i just answered based on my "blow water" skills because i can't say i am "emos", that why fail right?

anyways, we still need to wait until this coming 28th March to get our final offer letter whether we're accept by the SHU or not.
after that, i walked to SBS to collect the RM250 Student Book Voucher (BB1M) as below because one of my friend told me that there is my name of it although my one of my lecture say i'm no eligible to take.

as soon as i reach home, my friend came to fetch me for having lunch together at Canton Kitchen Sri Rampai with other few friends.
somehow we have a great conversation there although i did not know well other's friends.
perhaps the secret to have good relationship with friend is try to find those people who don't know you well but having similar interest/topic in order to have a good conversation? (don't really know~ LOL)
when i reach home at 1.40pm, i quickly get myself prepared because need to collect my IC at Shah Alam.

after Google a while for the JPN Plaza Masalam map, i make a move around 2.30pm by driving my sister car and start to depend my phone GPS when i near that area and finally arrived at 3.25pm as below.

well, the process was quite fast as i just need to insert the resit that i pay during last month into the My Card paper box as shown below.

finally i arrived back hometown at 4.15pm and returned my sister car.
somehow i was attracted with one of the TV Drama series which named "A Song To Remember" (星洲之夜) where that episode talk about the father+grandmother is selling their daughter because no money and the mother was helpless as girls have no power during that era.
around 7.40pm i drove my father car because need to meet them at KL Sentral where they will be back from Sabah trip.

before that, i need to meet my brother at Asia Jaya LRT to pass his coat as he forgotten to take it and i arrived there at 8.20pm.
after that, i just drove to KL Sentral at reached there around 8.45pm by depending on my GPS again.

somehow i was enjoying with the "Mai Tian Bu Shou Bai An (麥田捕手白安)" throughout my whole driving journey as i was keep repeat and repeat on the song.
during the night, we went to have our "dinner" at Genting Klang and i finally reach back home at 10.40pm.
then i just left a bit time to do my so call "blogging logs" activities as there was many office stuff i still haven settle yet.
in fact, the Japanese boss just send out an email which is like an "warning email" because today was so coincidence that there is another 2 other people take emergency leave as i did this morning.

on the other hand, i think i might make a wrong decision to work in a full time job before going to SHU because i should work in a part time job basis such as "Wearing a Mascot job" as my personality was "don't like to show face but want to earn money" because i saw one of my friend posted the wages for the Mascot job can earn about RM7,000+ for 42 days.
the reason was quite simple because working in a full time job seems to make myself go into more stress as i need to keep worry how my boss will scold my for tomorrow as it was my feelings for now.
guess it was my mistake that i did not think properly or find properly before make a decision.
at last, i still dislike my housemate keep coming in my room when i was on the way writing this post as i still need to "pretend" doing other thing else as i do not like anyone see my typing things. (no choice cause not enough money to rent whole room, need to share room with people)

perhaps i was just a selfish guy that need a lot of "privacy" or just a cowards (keyboard warrior) who just know how to write my anger feelings in words instead of saying out loudly in real life?
seriously i really no idea as my mind was very blur now and it was quite frustrated, yet excited to express my feelings. (what's am i talking about? =.=)
overall the SHU briefing selection for random people was actually quite not fair in term of "random" because it is selected based on the result of the student as if the student have more fail subject, he/she tends to be selected for English test or go through the interview process.
at last, 1 sentence i can say about myself = wait "die+get scold" tomorrow as my working report having finish do.
T.T

today i woke up at 7.30am.
then i quickly get myself prepared and went to work.
around 9am i arrived KL Sentral and bought the same food (marble cake) again as my breakfast.
as i arrived to office, i quickly check my email and do my working report.
well, i just feel so "dead meat" (serious) as i used a lot of marketing cost and only get a very less sales.
seriously it is so true that no matter how good your marketing plan is, if there is no sales, it will be totally useless to company.
during the afternoon, i followed some colleagues to have our lunch at somewhere near Brickfields.
guess i have found the place that "SK" said before where there is a lot of cheap food because i couldn't find it last time due to the place was behind from the road.

anyways, i just ordered the "Ho Fun Prawn Dumpling" (noodles) as my lunch where i really like it because the dumpling prawn can consider as big with 6pcs and it just cost for RM5 per bowl.
besides, i do listened a lot of story from my colleague about my current company status.
upon back office, i just continue my unfinished task and have a small discussion during the evening.
somehow i just feel that "i should make a move/run first" before everything gets into more complicated because there is more and more task given, yet i feel like "leaving" soon.
around 6.50pm i make a move from office and went to have my dinner at Burger King as they were still having the all day promotion.
actually i do know it is not healthy to eat fast food but i still eat in the end.
during the moment at train, i keep continue to play my games until i reach Wangsa Maju.

finally i arrived back home at 8.05pm.
well, i would like to share a Chinese guide on how to make girls fall in love with you (如何让女生不由自主的喜欢上你) if you're having low self confidence or "weak/soft heart" and anything that you can say.
actually this article was recommend by one of my close secondary classmate as he see i tends to be having the "emos face" everyday.
however, it was in the Chinese language and if you want the English language, i think i need some time to translate it with my broken English at next post. (please take some patience to read it as i know it was so long but i bet you will be happy at the end~ maybe? LOL)
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男女朋友关系的建立是一段很不容易的过程。
当你看到街上成双成对的情侣，有的其实是人家从小青梅竹马就注定在一起，有的是单方经过长时间苦等挣扎抗战的成果。

话说回来，不论你从哪个角度切入，我个人认为男女朋友的形成必经以下四大阶段：

┌──┐ ┌──┐ ┌──┐ ┌──┐
│相遇│→│吸引│→│交往│→│维持│
└──┘ └──┘ └──┘ └──┘

相遇：不管你们是同班同学、同公司工作、朋友介绍、甚至是街头搭讪，或网路交友，事情的发生总是有个开端。
吸引：如果你是男生，传统的说法就是你开始「追求」的时候，你的目的在于如何说服女生喜欢上你。
交往：男女之间达成协议「在一起」。除了口头上承认彼此，同时也发生某种程度的身体关系。
维持：成为男女朋友之后，双方的共同课题就是如何让你们的关系维持下去，甚至更加恩爱。

有些男生明明条件很好，为什么交不到女友？
原因是他没有认识女生的管道，不懂得制造「相遇」的机会。
当然啰，连对象都没有还谈什么其他的？

搭讪这件事情本身也是大学问，但前提是你必须有那个胆量去行动。
简单一句「同学，我可以跟妳认识吗？」用一个很大方、很有诚意的语气去试，我相信至少有一半的女生会继续跟你聊下去。重点是你敢不敢尝试罢了。

恋爱的秘诀是什么？或情场致胜的关键在哪里？我会毫不犹豫的告诉你：
a) 不是勤打电话传简讯。
b) 不是送礼物请吃饭。
c) 不是贴心接送献殷勤。
d) 不是无时无刻的赞美。
e) 不是苦心计画如何告白。
f) 不是开出无法兑现的承诺。
g) 不是无可救药的浪漫。
h) 不是烛光晚餐渔人码头。

统统都不是！

没错，这些是一般人认为追女生应有的作为。
你必须让她也喜欢上你！
所谓「吸引」(Attraction)，就是让女生不由自主的喜欢上你。
问题是，大部分的男生根本不明白吸引为何物。
雪上加霜的是，坊间关于感情的建言，大多把重心指向如何讨好，如何做贴心的事感动女方，以及如何找机会告白。
殊不知，这些大概是史上最烂的建议。
他们不明白，做这些事情并不等于对方就会喜欢上你。
因为讨好就只是讨好，贴心就只是贴心，但它们都不等于吸引。

说穿了，这些顶多是用来巴结女生的小撇步。
至于你精心设计的告白词呢？我看丢到资源回收筒算了。
原因无他，告白等于翻开底牌给对手参考，等于是直接把主导权拱手送给对方。
换言之，这些典型的追求行为，往往只会让她更不被你吸引！

当然，事情总是有例外。
我不否认，有些女生可能会被你「感动」，就算从未对你产生心动的感觉，但因为你实在为她付出太多，基于良心层面的考量，或是没有更佳选择的前提，她或许会试着说服自己她是喜欢你的。
这就好比催眠自己苦瓜是甜的。

当然，活在现实世界的人都知道，这种例外发生的机率真的不是很高。
尽量不要走「感动女生」这条路线，除非你确定对方本来就喜欢你，否则绝大部分是自讨苦吃。
那到底该怎么做才能让女生喜欢上你？哪些东西才是构成「吸引」的主要成分？

让我给你一些线索：
神秘感、好奇心、主导权、安全感、暧昧、不确定性、欲望激发、情绪转移、肢体接触、生理反应、人际证据、竞争对手、非言语沟通…等等。
以上每组关键字，各自代表一个重要观念。

女生的逻辑很有趣，同样是贴心的举动，若是她喜欢的男生所为，她会觉得受宠若惊；
若是她不喜欢的男生，她甚至会产生反感：「恶心，不要来烦我啦！」
这也就是为什么我个人并不全然反对偶而的讨好与贴心，我也不反对偶而的赞美与夸奖。
条件是，必须建立在吸引的基础上。
换言之，如果你能让女生喜欢上你，一切都好说。
这个观念真的非常重要。
与其把焦点放在女生身上，你再去取悦她、膜拜她、追求她，为什么不跳出那个框框，把焦点调回自己，专注于发挥吸引力，最终使她喜欢上你？

强化你的心理素质！「心态」最重要！
很多男生在情场上的功力之所以无法进步，就是他们太过情绪化，而且不懂得从失败中学习。
然而，很多情场赢家的共通特质就是，他们抱着一种ＦＵＮ的态度，一种累积经验值的思维。
如果你是那种害羞的男孩，你需要跳出巢臼，大胆尝试多跟女生互动。
有时候你就是要硬着头皮去做该做的事情，否则事情不会有进展。
被拒绝几次没关系，重点是，你是否有所改变？

当你的心态越紧张，越是想把某某女生追到手，你失败的机率往往越高。
反而，当你越是抱着一种「无所谓」的态度，你成功的机率不降反升。
虽然听起来很玄，不过这其实是有理论基础的。
因为当你跟女生来往时，你若不轻易投入真感情，同时却又专注于发挥吸引力，对方因此被你所迷惑，试图猜透你为什么会这样，你就已经成功一半了。

让我告诉你：当女生对你产生好奇心，往往就是喜欢上你的征兆，而且屡试不爽。

很多痴情男子最为人诟病的地方就是太「专情」。
他们的心态很奇怪，天涯何处无芳草，但他们宁可浪费两三年的时间。
反覆去追一个从一开始就追不到的女生。他们认为那是国父精神，我倒觉得比较像是自虐倾向。

他们犯了把鸡蛋都放在同一个篮子里的错误。
今天如果你还是单身，我建议你采取「多目标策略」，跟多个不同的女生出去。
这不是花心，这叫选择与评估！

最近有位读者来信，抱怨现在的女生都是「外貌协会」。
他说，女生根本就不会看上像他这种条件差的男生。
我不否认外在条件很重要。
就像玩大老二，牌运好当然占有绝对优势。
但是我更相信牌技，既使烂牌一副，有些人照样能赢。
当然，关键就在于如何最佳化你手中的筹码。

如果你条件不佳，你又因此感到自卑，时常担心女生会嫌弃你，你将更加突显你对自己的不安全感，恶性循环的结果只会印证你最初的信念，最终你是被自己击败，你的吸引力完全溃堤。(So self-confidence is very important in the process of ATTRACTION!)

成功＝心态＋方法＋经验。
女人内心最深处渴望的是什么，这个东西叫做「安全感」!
所谓「安全感」指的是一种「被保护」的感觉。
这也就是为什么女人偏好身材高大、资源丰富的男人。
这不是偶然，因为在某种程度上，这些特质象征的是一个有能力保护她的男人。

不过很多男人误解「安全感」，他们以为女人要的是一个肯听话、不花心的男人。
所以他们矫枉过正，对女人必恭必敬，有求必应，也不太会拈花惹草。
他们不明白的是，这种过度服从的行为看在女人眼底就是「弱」。

女人测试男人的原因不外乎是：
1) 看你喜欢她的程度有多少。
2) 看你肯付出的极限在哪里。
3) 看你能不能反过来「克制」她。

好男人之所以不受青睐，原因就是他们只会「付出」。
表面上女人也说希望男人对她们好，结果这些男人脑筋转不过来。
误以为女人要的就是他们无止尽的讨好与牺牲。
矛盾的是，女人真正要的是一个不受她支配的男人。

重点是，你必须让她感觉到你是那种不会容忍她「恶劣行为」的男人。
你必须让她感觉到，如果她真的做得太超过，你是那种「随时都会走人」的男人。
当你在你们的互动中树立起这种感觉时，矛盾的是，女人往往会反过来拉住你不放。

假如你是先天条件平庸的男生，女生会自然喜欢上你的机率本来就不高。
所以你当然需要透过后天的努力来弥补你这方面的不足。

人格特质与思考模式的转变。这个过程需要时间去酝酿与内化!开始你必须尝试改变。
或许会感觉有点不自然，但你总不能说他是「装出来的」吧。
换个角度想，其实这就是学习，由内而外，直到这件事变成自己的一部分。

《坏海豚的故事》
野生的海豚怎么训练呢？
海豚很聪明但很坏，吃了训练师给的鱼之后仍然不听话。
后来训练师想出一个方法，就是一次给海豚整桶的鱼，饱餐后竟然就不再给了。
心慌的海豚惊觉训练师一百八十度的转变，开始竭尽所能的来讨好训练师。
逐渐的，它发现当它正确的做出训练师所要求的动作时，训练师就会赏一条鱼给它。
一次又一次的动作后，原本的坏海豚就变成好海豚了。

从刚刚的故事中我们学到了什么？
虽说男女要真诚相待，不过连海豚都必须使点技巧才搞得定。
我相信你在追求女孩子的过程中若是使点小手段其实也不为过。
这也就是为什么我很反对死缠烂打的攻势，因为那大概是最土法炼钢、最没有创意的手法。

提醒你，你的目标在于启发女生对你的想像力。
如果你惯用的是不断讨好女生的策略，我建议你适时抽离，以达到以退为进的效果。
因为在你稍作冷却的同时，女生会开始感到不安，她会开始胡思乱想：
「难道他不喜欢我了？他该不会有新目标吧…」
但是她不明白的是，当她开始对你产生这些挂念，你的重要性因此提升。
紧接着她喜欢上你的机率也将水涨船高，有如连锁反应一般。

我的建议
1) 不要做什么事都是以讨好女生为出发点。
2) 眼神中流露出自信，知道自己要的是什么。
3) 对某些事情有原则，不因女生的在场而刻意作修饰。
4) 对美女与丑女在某种程度上一视同仁。
5) 保有神秘感，不该为了追一个女生就掏空自己。
6) 生命中总是有比女生更重要的目标要达成。
7) 女生若是做得太过分，随时走人。
8) 不持有强制性的观念，尊重女生的决定。
9) 不会像苍蝇一样死缠烂打！

为什么从古至今，那么多聪明独立的女性始终不学乖，却一再被这种「坏坏」的男人所吸引？

新世代的用语很奇怪，今天假设你被形容成「好人」时其实一点也不好。

就我所知，这个用语最常被拿来诠释的是：
一个上衣扎进去，说话客气，守法守时守规矩，被拒绝Ｎ次仍然苦苦等候的痴情男子。
并不是衣服扎进去不好，但女人的下意识告诉她，这男的一定很龟毛，不然就是乖乖牌。
自小就不敢违背父母师长，否则都什么时代了，连衣服都还穿得那么拘束。

而所谓「坏坏」的男人，除了装扮有型有个性，面对女人时不会扭扭捏捏，懂得跟女人嘻笑怒骂，言谈之间该有的分寸却又拿捏得宜。
他们的处世态度很自然，不会对任何事情过度依赖或过度在乎。
更不会为了女人痴情等待，因为他们的人格比较自我，甚至偏向自恋，随时可能走人。
对于平日被男人捧在掌心中的美女而言更具杀伤力，正因为这样，结果反而变成被女人追求的那一方。

而且这种男人散发出叛逆的气息，换成女人来解读。
叛逆代表的是能力与勇气「坏也要有本钱跟本事才坏得起来」。关键往往在于态度。

很多人会断章取义，认为「坏」就是学人家抽烟喝酒吸毒耍狠。
没错，那是一种叛逆，我不否认有些不成熟的女生的确会因此被你吸引。
不过这绝对不会是我的建议。

我要你培养的「坏」不是在行为上学坏，而比较偏向一种态度，一种发自内心的安全感。
就因为你对自己很有安全感，当女人在你身上嗅出这丝特质，她们往往会不自主的被你吸引。
反而，当你越是抱着一种「无所谓」的态度，你成功的机率不降反升。女人内心最深处渴望的是什么，这个东西叫做「安全感」！
不要犹豫了～你需要改变改变是进步的最好途径！让你喜欢的女生也会喜欢你！
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seriously those Chinese sentences that mentioned above seems to be an advice for myself.
somehow i just think that how great if i know this back in few years ago while i still on my 18 years old moment but it is no use to regret for now.
on the other hand, it seems that there is no use to tell this kind of advice because myself haven change yet just like a guy keep teach others people so much theory on how to be rich, but if he was not rich in real life also hard to convince people right?
later on, i do have some chat with friend regarding something about the UK stuff and i just have a feeling that not everything can truly express out. (家家有本难念的经)
sometime i just feel that it is good to be totally unknown/anonymous to anyone as you don't need to think so much when talking about something.

at last, i would like to share a interesting video about "Inside Malaysia's Shadow State" and "Di Sebalik Bayang-Bayang Sebuah Negeri Di Malaysia" as below or the link >>> Here.

well, i don't really like the guy who said "Over 30 years, anyone can be rich if you have something out there (brain), but if you don't have it, there is nothing you can do" in that video.

perhaps this was the harsh truth that rich+powerful people can do whatever they want and poor people will be just a "tools" to serve them.

furthermore, i think the reason why i keep "whining" maybe because i have become the so call "upper class" yet, who knows i will totally change to another person when i reach that stage and it might be really the time to say "bye bye" to this so call "blogging to express feeling" blog when i became a part of the cronies. (LOL)
=)

today i woke up at 8.05am.
well, i was feeling quite tired as i awakens but still keep "forced" myself to get ready fast.
it seems that the "RM1 taxi" pass by again and she charged us the same amount since there were other people sit together.
then i waited some friend before take my route to KL Sentral.
around 9.25am i reach office and quickly punch the "time card" as i arrived there.
after that, i just continue my working related stuff as usual.
during the afternoon, i went to have the "fresh prawn Wantan Ho" that is near Brickfields area because it's taste quite delicious to me and it only cost RM5 per bowl.
upon back office, there is some small meeting again to discuss about the marketing plan.

honestly, i did have a "guilty" feelings for myself when my senior or the Japanese boss teach me something because they do not know that i might leave soon.
seriously i don't think i will have much chances to involve myself in the marketing plan if i say it out now.
as to this date, i think i have experience to handle/manage 3 digits to 4 digits figure for marketing cost, then 4 digits to 5 digits figure cost and now almost want to reach 6 figures cost as i don't think i will experience in any other big company in such a short period of time as i seems to gain more trust from them.
somehow i think the reason why i feel "bad" for the company because i will leave a bad impression for myself or even get blacklisted in the job market in future with my current working attitude.
around 6.45pm i make a move from office and took the train from KL Sentral.
somehow my body seems to get "shocked" when someone touches me during the moment i fall asleep in it.

as i arrived Wangsa Maju at 7.30pm, i don't feel to go Kopitiam Desa to have my dinner because there is a lot of people which make me feel like just a waste of time.
finally i arrived back home at 8.15pm and just surf some information online.
well, today was known as International Happiness Day that is celebrated throughout the world on 20 March and was established by the United Nations General Assembly on 28 June 2012 according to Wiki.
in fact, it was the first ever International Day of Happiness and the purpose was to encourages people all over the globe to have lots of fun and reflect on what really matters.
therefore i would like to wish anyone who reading this to be HAPPY and have a Happy International Happiness Day 2013.
talking about happiness, i do admit that i don't have much of it but i will try my best to be happy.

the most important things is the perception of yourself is the vital key to be happy because our inner boundaries will always sabotage the good feelings no matter what you do or how hard you try.
for example, if you say you have a good mindset to be happy, you will be, if you're keep saying you're sad, then you will continue to say. (LOL, feel like saying myself)
on the other hand, i found something quite interesting whereby Facebook might charge it's user for some money if they send a message to some stranger as i get it below.
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You aren't connected to Jenna on Facebook, so your message would normally get filtered to her Other folder. You can:
Send this message to her Inbox for R47.32 MYR
Just send this message to her Other folder—What is this?
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well, i just feel that this might explain why some people say that the more influence you have, you can be having more opportunity to earn money.
for example, we can see high traffic website can sell their advertising space easily and some FB fan page with few hundred thousand fans can sell their ads post too.
actually i just feel that everything is related to each and others and also explain why FB can be so successful.
during last time, we can see people read blogs but it is totally different now as people preferring FB page because it have lesser words since new generation people don't like to read words including me and i am prefer things to be goes on an easy way.
anyways, i start to feel my post is not much different with FB too as i just share about what i see or feel everyday when looking at different kind of news and information.

on the other hand, i couldn't translate the "How To Make Girls Fall In Love With You" into English as i am running out of time and i have a broken English.
before i end my post, i would like to share a meaningful video that titled "Muse - Animals (Competition Winner)" as below or the link >>> Here.

well, i do feel that the video seems to be reflecting the society we're currently living as most of the people will become more greedy and greedy in the end.
seriously who can really help those rural people who in need just like the "Inside Malaysia's Shadow State video" where i strongly advice any Malaysian to see through that video.
perhaps this was the sad/ugly truth that educated people tends to be more cunning if use in the wrong way.
in conclusion, i don't feel like saying so much about those things as i myself can be consider as i "selfish guy" since all i want was just to be happy for myself first before caring for others.
>.<

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