! A Growing Teenager Diary !

today i woke up at 8.45am.
i was totally "shocked" as i awakens when i saw the time because i will definitely late for work.
then i quickly change my clothes and run towards the bus stop without having much preparation.
around 9am i reach Wangsa Maju by taking taxi.
during the moment at train, my mind tends to be "cool down a bit" as i think there will not have anything happen too if i am late for work.
somehow i just listened to other's people conversation and just remember on of them say you will get about RM500,000 for the pension fund (EPF) when they retire at the age of 55 working in the bank industry.
actually i do know that RM500K is not consider many for a 55 year old people but i feel what if the person do not married or having son and daughter, all the money will return back to government right?

so the conclusion might was to be as happy as possible by living on the present that is the most important things out of all.
when asking myself, the reason i want to get my "future degree" was also because i hope that i can work in the bank industry as the benefits is more good.
in fact, until now i don't really know what i want to be but what i know it must be earning a lot of money as my perception for now was "as long as i have money, i will eventually have those confidence back" although many people say that i shouldn't think in such a way just like what Dr Richard Teo sharing about Life, Weath, Success and Happiness.
anyways, let's time prove it although i know a person mindset play the most important role whether he/she want to be happy/sad in their life.

well, it does make me remind one of my Lecturer said that working does not measure Happiness, it can only measure the gross domestic product (GDP) of a country, so there must be something wrong in the "system".
around 9.30am i reach KL Sentral and quickly walk to my office where i just late for 10 minutes.
then i quickly continue to do my working related stuff.
somehow i decided to pause all the "ads" for marketing as i have used a lot of money and it does not bring an effective result than last week.
well, i just can say i will definitely "die" for next week meeting report.
around 11am there is a small meeting with other outsider where my superior asked me join together.
seriously i think i have learn a lot when listening to so much information and i guess the most important asset for any marketer out there was to make changes/decision in a very fast way without hesitate too much.

besides, i think smoking seems to be a part of "social activity" although i did not smoke but eventually become a "second hand smoker" when they keep smoking more and more during the discussion.
honestly, i do "jelly" on how they can earn money so easy but can't disclose much although i wanted to tell it so badly because i afraid i might get "sued" if say in a such detail way.
well, i just can say some people can really earn RMX,XXX in just 5 minutes time a day by "using so much of other people's effort" and i think there is no right or wrong when it comes to the so call "business" way.
one thing for sure now was there is definitely NO ONE MAN SHOW to be success because it is all about Connection and Networking in this generation.
for example, if i have a strong connection with Rober Kuok, Ananda Krishnan, Vincent Tan from Berjaya, Uncle Lim from Genting, Tony Fernandes from Airasia, all the people will eventually come to know me right?

during the afternoon, i went to have my lunch at Brickfields again as i seems to like to eat the "Prawn Ho Fun" noodles so much.
upon back office, i continue to research a lot of different kind website because the only way i can get those information was through the internet.
therefore sometime it is quite hard to avoid looking in those information that make me envy or sad.
for example, i saw how they use political news to gain FREE website traffic when one of the new website can direct boost from no rank to 350,000 pageview and become Malaysia's 655th most visited website in just 7 days time, yet the information is not sure true or not.
well, it was actually related something with the opposition Scandal video with an University student where the blogger say will post up the video soon. (pxpxgxmx, if you know what i means~)

therefore i feel that perhaps the way to be famous was in a bad way because if the news if more ridiculous that can cause a lot of attention, the more people will search for it right?
when i think about why people want to be famous even if it's in a bad way, it seems that the answer was to gain FREE publicity because every famous media such as the Star newspaper will talk about it where it will eventually become a hot topic that people want.
moreover, it still need to depend a lot of "contact" that you know where something gone viral must have their own reason instead of just happening out of no way.
anyways, i was carrying a "learning new things everyday" attitude when comes to work instead of think about "how this and that" because it will just make it more worst.
at least until this date, i have an experience of using almost 5 figures for marketing cost.

on the other hand, i feel it is so true that when you are doing your own business, you will become more contented and focus on it just like what i saw from my Japanese boss.
it is because he will be the last person to leave the office since it was his own business whereby employee like "me" will have a "selfish" thought such as "since this is not my business, what for i pay so much effort to work until so late" which i know it is not a good mindset if let my boss know i have such thought.
around 6.40pm i make a move from office and arrived Wangsa Maju at 7.30pm.
then i have "economy rice" as my dinner and using the "cover food skills" as it will be more cheaper.
finally i arrived back home at 8.05pm and get myself prepared before doing any other thing else.
well, i would like to share an information where i feel it was a SCAM case regarding a guy wanted to sell his Myvi car for just RM8,000.

the message i receive from him was as below.
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Hello,
The car is still available for sale and the price is 8,000 MYR. The car is in Malaysia , Petaling Jaya , it is registered Malaysia ! No accidents , no problems !
This was my father's car, but my father died and now i have to sell all his goods from Malaysia, since i have my own life in Italy ! The car is in the garage of my father's house from Petaling Jaya, and i don't know if can be arranged a view, since i took my mother with me in Italy and i left the house alone, ready to be sold !
If you are interested to buy the car , i will come to Malaysia to make the deal !
Regards, libosen112@gmail.com
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seriously i was laughed as i saw his reply because there have so many Nigerian scam having similar message.

however, i think that there is some people will believe this kind of news although most of us will know it was a scam base on our first impression.
in fact, this is the same way how they Scam those lonely people that desperate to find partner or wanted to be rich in a short time.
another information that i just know was about working in Huawei can earn about RM2500 + RM300 allowance (entitled after 3 months probation period)+ 13 month bonus (which is 1 month extra) + Performance Bonus + 16 days annual leave (After probation period) + ING medical card and IBM company can offer up to RM2800~RM3300 + 13 month bonus + others for fresh graduates.
somehow i do feel that as we grown older and older, what people concern was most about what's your salary income no matter what method you use as long as it is legal.

so for the "loser like me", we will continue to whine and jealous about those people who earn a lot of money according to them although i was trying to improve a bit on how to monetize anything that i can do.
in addition, do you agree that only "LOSER" will end up using MONEY to settle problem if they can't do it with their own capabilities.
for example, a person can use money to buy "prostitute or Wife in Vietnam" when failed to chase a girl, a person use money to buy Degree certification when failed in examination, a person use money to buy all the media page when failed to convince people, a person use money to buy fame when he can't get it on his own true strength and other more example.
later on, i was checking on some flight information to United Kingdom because today was the date to book the tickets with RM500 from the Air Travel Package company to SHU/LJMU 2013.

so if i miss it today, it will be more expensive as there were no more promotion.
when i check through the Emirates website, it seems that the flight will cost about RM4,636 to Manchester as shown picture below.

somehow i feel that it was cool to select your own flight from their website as you can experience to sit the Airbus A380-800, Boeing 777-300ER and Airbus Industrie A330-200 aeroplane.
well, my friend told me that college promotion cost about RM4,300+ with included Insurans and etc.
seriously until now i still worry about whether want to go or not to SHU because i have think too much as i afraid i might make a wrong decision.
some people might thought that i must be a rich person that can proceed to overseas studies but i just can say i still need to return back the money.

anyways, i don't think it is possible to survive with "RM30,000" because you need to pay RM18,300 for college fees and RM5,000 for flight before reach there where this left RM6,700 (1340£ pound sterling) for 3 month to eat there whereby you can't join any Euro trip unless you bring another RM10,000.
besides, my earning's salary seems to be does not help much to save those extras $$.
in fact, now i don't know how to tell my company that i will resign soon because they had teach me a lot of stuff and it is very confidential as i should not join it if i have plan to leave right? (don't ask me why i join, cause myself also very "blur" during that moment".
before i end my post, i would like to share the Top 10 Highest Paying Jobs video as below or the link >>> Here.

at last, there is a meaningful sentences that i wish to share was "Happiness is not something ready made, it comes from your own actions and people take different roads seeking fulfillment and happiness, just because they're not on your road, doesn't mean they've gotten lost" which is so true.
=)

today i woke up at 7.40am.
then i quickly get myself prepared and went to work as usual.
around 9.15am i reach KL Sentral where it seems like doing the same thing again as i would buy the marble cake as my breakfast and quickly walk to the office.
during the morning, i was quite worry when check about the result from my marketing campaign as there was lesser people sign up and spend a lot of money.
at first i plan to do something "tricky" to change the code to another but i don't feel like cheating my company. (see lah, want to pretend being "good guy" again? in the end who suffer? sigh~)
during the lunch time, we went to Chili Espresso at Sooka Sentral because one of our colleagues was having birthday.

besides, i do listened a lot of story and knowledge whereby the programmer for apps developer in Malaysia seems to be having lower quality when compared with foreign country.
anyways, i just ordered the mushroom chicken chop and it was quite tasty but the bill for each person was around RM23.
when arrive back office, i was waiting for the next 2 meeting with from other publisher who want to sell their advertising package.
somehow i think i can understand how "Cxrx" forum can earn so much advertising revenue but need to depend a lot of big brands to use their service.
after that meeting end, i start to think again whether it is worth or not to use their service because i just afraid it might be not very useful as most of the user in the forum simply click those advertisement.

around 3.30pm there is another meeting from "Frxxxdxxxr" and "Mxl" as he fetched us to Old Town that is near to Brickfields for the discussion with another 2 supervisor.
somehow i think it must be true that smoking really can improve socializing skills as they're were smoking while i am the only one inhaling their "second hand smoke". (=.=)
anyways, i think i have learned a lot through the marketer and impressed with him as he seems to have a lot of different business where i believe Food and Beverage business will earn a lot of $$.
one thing that left me a strong memory in my mind until now was "Marketing actually depends whether you are dare to play or not" (市场营销其实就是看你玩不玩得起) as told by him.

it is because there is no Guarantee to success or become viral for any marketing campaign that had been executed.

however, i think that it is all about how many $$ you can burn for marketing campaign as if the more you spend, the more people know about it.

besides, there is one opportunity told by him that "If you can find a good marketing strategy to encourage 18~25 year old youngster to buy those gambling tickets (Sportstoto, Magnum), you will eventually earn a lot money from those company because our generation now will not go out to buy those number as they preferring to bet online gambling for football.
in addition, i just learned that some Ads such as Cigarette, Alcohol, Sex products, Gamble and etc is not allowed to advertise some specific media.
somehow i start to understand why Genting marketing team seems to be so good to FREE this free that, invite blogger go play because the objective is to penetrate youngster (age 18~25) to go gamble at there.

therefore most of those marketer will advertise those "forbidden ads" in the social media platform because the government can't have fully control over online media.
in fact, i start to believe that there is no longer to trust local newspaper because most of it was bought over by government.
i believe not much people know that some newspaper firm had been closed down by government when they report some sensitive issue about the politic and until now still can't open back, while those firm that operates back eventually will be controlled by government.
therefore i think all of us should thanks to the internet because it allows us to get more sources but it is still depend on the individual to trust whether the news is legit or not as nowadays it is full of fake news.
over time, i just feel myself can relate more and more things that happened around me.

furthermore, i did really asked myself that "Do you really like marketing" in my heart because it was actually full of "ugly truth" which might not suitable for me that is so call want to have a "good guy" image.
it is because when come to business, you need to use a lot of "tricks+cunning" to reach your objective no matter what it cost.
once again my heart was frustrated as i still wondering "really want to go UK take my degree meh?" as i still can make a final decision to cancel it anytime.
when i was thinking deeply, the only answer for me to get my degree was actually go to join bank company or go to Singapore for work.
frankly speaking, until now i feel that marketing was actually an "extra useless jobs" as there is no need for company to hire marketer as the skills required can be learned by anyone in a short time.

the jobs that is getting more credible and high demand now was actually programmer or require any technical skills such as engineer, surgeon doctors and other high professional job.
when reach back the office at evening, i continue to do my working stuff.
somehow i found out how another company charge us so much money when i personally find out their direct supplier where they was earning about 500% profit margin.
seriously now i don't know want to say out or not during next Monday meeting as it was not my business although i feel not worth for my Japanese boss?
perhaps now i had understand why so many "Telco/Mobile/Electronic big brands company do not buy my blog 728x90 ads space when i asked them" as i did not get reply that might probably i might hurt their brand name if i tell the truth.

for an example, there is not much advertiser will like their publisher said that bad about it just like i say "OMG, U mobile 3G line so sucks lah" right?
around 6.40pm i make a move from office and arrived Masjid Jamek at 7pm to meet my sister.
then we took the LRT to Bandar Tasik Selatan and reach there around 7.35pm.
finally i arrived back home at 8.40pm since my sister don't want to drive as she feel so tired.
besides, i really enjoyed talking with my sister because she might be the only one will have that kind of patience to listen my whining story.
then i have my dinner prepared by mother and it was quite delicious.
after that, i continue to surf some information online as there was not much entertainment for me since i have that kind of "poor" feelings.

well, i would like to share a meaningful video about "Should You Use The SNOOZE Button" as shown below or the link >>> Here.

around 10.20pm is the Chan Fong (大城心事) sharing story program and below was the recording podcast of it.
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1) 第一位：陳小姐～她最近很煩惱，因為她父親欠外面大耳窿的錢沒有還請，每天不斷遭受對方的威脅和恐嚇；令她們一家人活在恐懼之中（深怕對方會以鏈鎖門、噴漆和大字報等等）。【陳峰大哥建議她去找政治人物幫忙，例如：張先生】

2) 第二位：Janny Ong（25歲/已婚 /育有一女）～和爸爸意見不合，話說之前是被家婆向她的家裡人投訴說她和老公的關係不好，老公在目前有外遇而且跟她的關係也變得不好；她打算離婚。【陳峰大哥認為她還年輕，做任何決定都要趁早以免造成將來的不便和痛苦】Part 1 + 2 >>> Here.

3) 第三位：Shalla～三年前嫁了去個很遠的地方，因為讀書時期相似至今也有多年，怎知道婚後半年就要搞離婚，她很不服因為前夫這樣對她不忠而且毀掉和背叛這段維持多年的感情。【陳峰大哥聽完她的故事后也覺得其實她還算是幸運的，因為至少她再不用繼續被一個不愛她的負心漢繼續折磨】>>> Here.

4) 第四位：shirley/ sheryl～兩姐妹一起合作做生意，生意做得好結果卻把兩姐妹之間的關係弄得很僵，她現在很想退出希望可以回到像以前一樣的好姐妹關係。【陳峰大哥支持她退出生意的決定，並且欣賞她是一個重視家庭關係和諧的人】>>> Here.

5) 第五位：黃先生（已婚 12 年 / 育有一子）～前幾天和老婆吵架吵得很凶，（故事）話說在 8 年前他因為結識了一個女性朋友兼知己，他們無所不談；事後他覺得自己有愧于太太然後就向她說明故事過後倆人的關係就一直沒有好轉。Remark: 原來他在 8 年前是個吸毒者，另有喝酒的壞習慣。【陳峰大哥建議他應該重新檢討自己是否還有其他地方有缺點需要改進和反省，要不然應該也不至於會令太太對他如此冷淡和失望】>>> Here.

6) 第六位：雯雯～她和男朋友在一起大概有超過八年多了，但是他們最近吵架吵得很厲害，她在考慮是否應該和他繼續走下去或是結婚。【陳峰大哥聽完故事之後認為她本身太過大小姐又任性、甚至具有女王本色的性格，導致男朋友開始可能忍無可忍但是不排除他可能真的已經變了心，或者可以先嘗試先向對方低聲細語溫柔些來試看結果有和反應然後再做決策】>>> Here.

7) 第七位：阿May（60歲）～他的丈夫有外遇將近二十年，她說自己和他開始覺得合不來但是又放不下也離不開，不知道要怎樣才好；她坦言自己不甘心曾經跟他一起白手起家。【陳峰大哥認為她是絕對有可能把這個丈夫放得下手】>>> Here.

8) 第八位：吳先生（最後一位）～去年開始因糖尿病而失明（本身有兩名孩子），現在他想找多一個人進來入股然後一起合作做生意，因為他覺得請一個會下手做的員工會比較困難。【陳峰大哥建議他應該先從找個會做的員工開始著手】>>> Here.
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somehow i just feel that what we can do was just treat those story as a learning part for ourselves.
in conclusion, i am having more "stress" when i grown older when i wish i can write down every single details things i encounter everyday but i tends to forget more.
well, this blog post was finished writing at around 3.30am (crazy) when i start writing at 2am midnight.
sometime i do wonder whether i write for "attention seeking" or what because if think in the long term, there might do not much benefits when compare with the bad side of blogging because how long more i can mumble to my life? (ROI not worth with time spend? gain 10 real reader only so far? spelling error? LOL)

the only things that i can draw readers to read my blog is my energy to continue writing everyday but what if i stopped forever, it will just be another abandon blog just like others in the end.
furthermore, the things that can let "Lonely Reload" last forever in the internet was from the "Google :cache" record and i should change it back to blogspot.com when i die if i can manage to write until 70 years old. (feel like i am start to planning my death despite i am 23 years old now~ LOL)
anyways, i would like to thanks for all my blog reader such as HenRy LeE, Anonymous, 小影, Konayachi-nyan, Princess Ren, Lynn, William for telling me the place i ate was actually known as Mayflower food court, Meitzeu, MEcoy, [SK] and Jijicat from my yesterday "Famous in a Bad Way" post.
at last, do remember that tomorrow is the Earth Hour 2013 day and you need to turn off your light during 23 March 2013 exactly 8.30pm.

today i woke up at 1.30pm.
well, i think the reason i woke up such late was mostly because yesterday think too much about whether i really like marketing or not.
then i just phoned my friend since there is so much miss call from him during this morning.
somehow he told me that it is better to change all Malaysia currency (RM) to pound sterling (£) now as the currency exchange for it now will be lower because they had forecast it will increase during next month.
therefore this might explain why those people who play Forex can earn so much money by just doing almost nothing productive other than speculating the flow of currency everyday.
sorry if i get anyone offended if saying those "Forex investor" did not do anything productive because i feel it really did not create much value to the society in term of creating job opportunity and etc.

so if you imagine you got RM100,000 now and exchange at the rate of RM4.60 now and then sell back when it raise until RM4.90 per pound, you will eventually earn about RM6,500+ within 2 month without need to work for anyone. (problem here is do you have that amount of money now?)
this theory is just same like those bank keep printing a lot of money that created out of nothing and get a lot of people to borrow money from them which eventually explain how they can be so rich by just managing money where all of us will work hard for it.
anyways, i don't think i have the authority to judge "productivity" as myself did not do much productivity things too other than "whining" everyday. (=.=)
during the afternoon, mother cook some simple dish as our lunch.
then i just surf some information online and think about what i want to talk for this coming Monday meeting.

it is because my brother keep telling me to "tahan" (stay/endure) there until they sack me because "poor people is like that one loh" in order to save some $$ according to him.
frankly speaking, my feeling for myself at the company seems to be like i am just a "cheater/scammer" because i will leave soon but still act like nothing happens and they were having more trust on me.
besides, i just "accidentally" found my Japanese boss blog's when his Japan friend posted it in his FB wall.
well, his blog was written in Japanese language using (Ameba/Ameblo) blogging platform and it was quite hard for me to read as i just use the Google Translate to English.
basically he was 32 years old this year and had stay until now when he first time came to Malaysia in 2004.
somehow i do feel quite motivated to read on his post because it was his personal logs about his experience working with Malaysian people and travel so far all the way from Japan.

i don't think much people will really capture those price tag of those fruit picture from shopping mall because it looks so common as a local people.
moreover, it was true that the cost living in Japan was so high when he talk about the food here is so cheap compare to his own country.
anyways, he just updates about 1 to 7 blog post every month and i truly admire his bravery to explore the international market from each different country.
in fact, he has a very high loyalty and love to his own Japan country unlike some typical Malaysian people like me having the thought of "since Malaysia don't like us, what for we like Malaysia" right?
besides, i realized that MSC company seems to be having unlimited working visas in Malaysia which eventually attract a lot of foreigner to invest in our country.

in conclusion, i just keep having the "guilty" feeling when i keep stay longer at the company because i will leave soon and did not deliver the expected result after used almost RMX,XXX advertising every week.
i believe if i having such performance in those typical Chinaman company, i will eventually get sack immediately rather like what i encounter now where "it is still okay to make loses" for Japan company.
during the evening, i start to feel tired and went to take a nap.
the moment i woke up again was 7.40pm and went to take my dinner.
around 8.30pm i closed all the light to support the Earth Hour Malaysia 2013 but my PC still turning on.
well, Earth Hour is a worldwide event organized by the World Wide Fund for Nature (WWF) and held towards the end of March annually to encourage households and businesses to turn off their non-essential lights for one hour to raise awareness about the need to take action on climate change.

somehow i feel it is just like writing an "annual report" for myself when i look back my Earth Hour Malaysia 2012 blog post date on 31 March. (so fast another pass again)
on the other hand, i would like to share an interesting Thailand song "MV สวมเขา - แพรว จีรวรรณ [Official MV]" video as shown below or the link >>> Here.

at the first scene when the women teach the child about Thai alphabet, she said " Ko Kwai (Buffalow)" in one way, it means "donkey" which reflects foolish people that she tried to say that her friend is a fool.
in the second scene, the woman change the light bulb and the man ask what she's doing, she said, "change the bulb, so that I can see everything clearer" but the man doesn't know that she knew about their relationship between her friend and him.
at the last scene, the child asked what's the animal in the picture.

then she said "monitor lizard, can be male and female" that is usually used to scold bad people in Thai language which is something same like "bull shxt/fxck you" according to the comments.
at last, i would like to share a meaningful post about "Are you with the right partner" as below.
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During a seminar, a woman asked," How do I know if I am with the right person?"
The author then noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so he said, "It depends. Is that your partner?" In all seriousness, she answered "How do you know?" Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing on your mind, replied the author.
Here's the answer.
Every relationship has a cycle. In the beginning; you fall in love with your partner. You anticipate their calls,
want their touch, and like their idiosyncrasies.

Falling in love wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called "falling" in love.
People in love sometimes say, "I was swept of my feet."Picture the expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something happened TO YOU.
Falling in love is a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few months or years of being together, the euphoria of love fades. It's a natural cycle of EVERY relationship.
Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts. The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship; you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your partner might start asking, "Am I with the right person?" And as you reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else. This is when relationships breakdown.
The key to succeeding in a relationship is not finding the right person; it's learning to love the person you found.
People blame their partners for their unhappiness and look outside for fulfillment. Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes.
Infidelity is the most common. But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances.
But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your relationship. It lies within it.

I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else. You could. And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later. Because (listen carefully to this):
The key to succeeding in a Relationship is not finding the right person; it's learning to love the Person you found.
SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. You have to work on it day in and day out. It takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it demands WISDOM. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make it work. Make no mistake about it.
Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your partner), Just as there are physical laws Of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships. If you know how to apply these laws, the results are predictable.

Love is therefore a "decision". Not just a feeling.
Remember this always: God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let GO! ♥
Happiest couple never have same character, they have the best understanding of their differences.

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during the night, i having some "personal feeling" regarding my dad issues about the "UK stuff" that makes me "emos" and feeling incapable.
somehow really don't feel like talking about it partly because i afraid someone will see it (家家有本难念的经) and feel myself seems to be not "open" as last time when got to know some real life friend know that this anonymous guy in this blog is me.
guess it was true that keeping something "real" hardly pays the bills as we live in such a fake world where there is full or liars.

well, i think it is true that "a poor girl can chase a rich man but it is impossible for a poor boy to chase rich girl while a rich boy can chase a rich or poor girl" (没钱的女可以找有钱的男，没钱的男不可找有钱的女，有钱的男可以找有钱跟没钱的女) due to "face problem" and own problem.
in fact, the reason why i did not chase any girl or having low confidence when saw any beautiful girl until now was because i have a thought of "i am a poor guy now where i can't promise i can give the happiness to the girl" due to this is reality world and there is no such things as "bread love" (爱情喝水饱)
seriously i do feel myself having same thought like the "Justfriend" blogger when he share his opinion but it is in Chinese. (生活是现实，所以我都不敢找另一半因为我没钱，没那个勇气给她幸福~ 我要她跟我一起幸福不是辛苦，所以一个人痛苦好过两个人痛苦~ 没本事就别结婚；就算结婚也不要生小孩因为你会害了那小孩)
the only thing i can have was my "imaginative love" because there is no need to be responsible to anyone.
maybe i need "love" badly and that's the reason why i keep feel "lonely".
LOVE me please?

today i woke up at 12.45pm.
then i just get myself prepared before doing any other thing else.
during the afternoon, mother prepared home cook steamboat as our lunch.
well, i do enjoyed a lot and feel appreciate about the food i ate.
after that, i watched the One Piece anime as usual for every Sunday and some others news.
besides, feel free to watch the "Top TV Coverage In Canada, As Taibs' Wealth is Exposed" video at the link >>> Here.

actually i don't really want to talk about political issues but i just feel "angry" if the news that those rich people are taking advantage of those people who were less educated.

it is because usually the rural area people will treat their leader in such a way like the "King" status.

therefore they can do anything they want and deny any other news saying that other foreigner country are just exploiting the local people mindset but the truth is themselves have control all the local media.
somehow i do gratitude for myself as i have the access to internet to read so much different source because during last time, i will trust most of the local news that shown on television and newspaper when the internet is not popular yet.
during the evening, i helped brother to collect and store back all the Chinese New Year decoration as CNY has ended quite some time ago.
around 7.30pm we have steamboat again as our dinner and i liked the fish mall with fish dish very much.
besides, most of the discussion was talking about my future as i might going to the SHU UK soon and i just feel frustrated when talking about it.

it is because i really don't feel to work anymore and wanted to "sit at home" during this moment but my brother keep ask me to "endure" until May only resign.
moreover, the reason i don't want to continue to work was because they're giving more contact and trust to me and i feel it is useless since i will leave the company soon.
other than that, i feel i might not very capable in handling those FB and Google ads when i spend a lot of advertising money and bring not much sales.
in fact, i am waiting to "die" (facing trouble) to write my tomorrow working report during meeting as i still having think of a good way to "blow water" (talk) about my performance and what did i do last week.
after having my dinner, i prepared myself because will be back KL house soon where my brother will fetch me to Asia Jaya LRT.

around 9pm we make a move from home and i arrive Asia Jaya station at 9.30pm.
during the moment at train, i keep listening to "Yu Shi Tian De" (雨是甜的) song that sang by "Bell Yu Tian" (宇田) and the lyrics was shown below.
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BELL宇田雨是甜的

大雨倾盆而下的这一刻，
比起相遇那天还要适合，
我哭了，雨舍不得。
妳越模糊了。

走着走着回忆把我围着，
一个人的城市没有颜色，
彩虹呢，雨狂啸着。
听着，梦醒了。

眼泪苦苦的，雨是甜的。
所以还记得，注定一起躲雨的我们。
时光滴答着，美得像诗歌，
我们爱了。

眼泪苦苦的，雨是甜的。
坚强回家了，泡在热水里等心回温，
回忆都晾着，慢慢风干了，
伤的，总会愈合。

大雨倾盆而下的这一刻，
比起相遇那天还要适合，
我哭了，雨舍不得。
妳越模糊了。

走着走着回忆把我围着，
一个人的城市没有颜色，
彩虹呢，雨狂啸着。
听着，梦醒了。

眼泪苦苦的，雨是甜的。
所以还记得，注定一起躲雨的我们。
时光滴答着，美得像诗歌，
我们爱了。

眼泪苦苦的，雨是甜的。
坚强回家了，泡在热水里等心回温，
回忆都晾着，慢慢风干了，
伤的，总会愈合。

爱情苦苦的，雨是甜的。
偶尔还记得，曾经一起躲雨的我们。
时光滴答着，值得不值得，
真心爱的。

爱情苦苦的，雨是甜的。
月光太清澈，照着我一个人辗转，反侧。
放了，我会试着快乐。

放了，我就值得快乐。
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the sentences that highlighted in red is something that make me feel quite down.
somehow i think myself have enjoyed this kind of "sad+emos" feelings as time goes by where i keep listening to this song repeatedly.
anyways, you can have a look at their "Bell 宇田 - 雨是甜的完整版MV" song at below or the link >>> Here.

well, i do like this singer when she saing "Take Me Away" (帶我走) and she was a Malaysian singer.
furthermore, i heard that she was having a Signature events (签唱会) at Aeon Bukit Tinggi this evening 4pm but i did not go.
upon reach Wangsa Maju at 10.20pm, it seems that i can only take "taxi" (cab) back home and finally reach KL house at 10.30pm.
nowadays i just feel that i am having almost same life everyday as you can see i can blog about songs, foods, movie review, special day such as Earth Hour when there is nothing much special things happens.
overall i am looking forward to this week as it will be a "challenging time" if i send my resignation letter to my Japanese boss.
guess the worlds is quite realistic where if there is no sales = no income = getting fired = sad = start all over again to repeat the working cycle.
over time, i think i might "fall in love" with this kind of lonely+stress+depression feelings which is not because of anyone but is my ownself problem.
=)

today i woke up at 8am.
well, i still manage to check on some email reply and quickly get myself prepared to work.
around 9.20am i reach KL Sentral and quickly walk to the office after bought the marble cake as my breakfast as usual.
during the morning, i was working out all the campaign report and think of a better way to present to my boss later for the afternoon meeting.
it is because i do feel there is some wrong decision that we made which resulted a bad performance for the advertising campaign.
around 1pm we went to have our lunch at Mayflower food court that is near Brickfields areas and i ordered the "Prawn Ho Fun" (noodles) again because i liked it so much.

in fact, i have been eating it for continuously four days during last week.
somehow i realized it was actually my own problem for not able to talk much just like what i encounter during my college life with my classmate.
upon back office, i do the final check up and recall back what i want to say for the meeting.
when the meeting start, i was nervous whenever i sit beside the Japanese boss.
during the moment when i presenting, my mind couldn't focus much when other's people looking at me when i explaining the performance report.
anyways, i am able to "cover" the bad performance by focusing on the good side of other marketing campaign activity.
finally i got relief when the meetings ends around 4pm.

after that, i went to contact with some publisher and admins.
well, i do feel quite "angry+frustrated" because one of the publisher have increase the advertising price to 3 times than what we had agree and executed last time.
therefore this might prove that human are more greedy from time to time.
in fact, i start to realized actually more and more "funny+love+targeted relationship keyword" page have been created in order to earn advertising money.
it is because if you have more people liked your page, you will eventually attract a lot of advertiser.
somehow i do asked myself what's is my final intention for "copy+paste" others funny/memes picture to my Lonely Reload FB page and what i want was just hope that someone will notice my existence since i was not a "leng zai" (handsome) guy type.

furthermore, i feel that most of my "marketing idea" that i have seems to be like "copy paste others people ideas" as myself was not consider as a creative person.
well, i quite agree with the quotes below talking about original and authenticity.
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"Nothing is original. Steal from anywhere that resonates with inspiration or fuels your imagination. Devour old films, new films, music, books, paintings, photographs, poems, dreams, random conversations, architecture, bridges, street signs, trees, clouds, bodies of water, light and shadows. Select only things to steal from that speak directly to your soul. If you do this, your work (and your theft) will be authentic. Authenticity is invaluable: originality is non-existent. And don't bother concealing your thievery - celebrate it if you feel like it. In any case, always remember what Jean-Luc Godard said: 'It's not where you take things from - it's where you take them to." -Jim Jarmusch, Film maker
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perhaps this might be one of the way to make myself in order to feel better when i copy+edit things when i am out of creative ideas.
around 6.40pm i make a move from office and took LRT back.
during the moment at train, there is something that caught my attention where i not sure what is the language that the foreigner talking which is either Korean or Japanese language.
besides, i do saw some beautiful girls from China and Austria where i think this might be one of the "entertainment" when taking public transport.
around 7.25pm i reach Wangsa Maju and went to have my dinner at Kopitiam Desa.
somehow i do feel quite "funny+emos" when the noodle's Aunty said "a guy should be playful during young age and be loyal to one girl when you're old" which might be true.

seriously i did questioned myself why everyday i seems like having those kind of "sad+emos" feelings because no one would really care how you feel as i keep remind the Chinese sentences. (再怎么痛，再怎么难过，人家也看不到，也不会心疼你，你难过给谁看？)
well, i think maybe i seems to "enjoyed" (crazy) with this kind of sad feelings due to the surrounding just like the weather was raining when i walking in the "tiny rain" as the bus stopped near my KL house and make me suddenly think of the "Yu Shi Tian De" (雨是甜的) song.
anyways, i just feel so tired when i arrived home at 7.55pm and just lay down on the bed.
the moment i woke up again was 10.10pm and i feel that i was lucky that i did not sleep until morning because i have something haven finish do.
then i just surf some information and watch some news.

somehow i do feel quite "sucks" to be a busybody by reading the "confession page" as he feel guilty when his senior technicians influenced/bring him to find "prostitute" while he was working as an engineer in the Japanese MNC.
well, i just feel that reading other's people story just can make it as a reminder for ourselves for not following their mistaken footstep when he say "Never ever ever try it once, you will regret for the rest of your life" which might be true for any "virgin" boy out there.
on the other hand, i do have a "evil" thought that he shouldn't blame himself to go for it because he was rejected a few times by girls and guess this might be the last "solution/hope" for any "lonely+sad" guy?
anyways, i feel that i should be thankful to my "blogging activities" because it had become a platform for me to release my frustration/stress and "anger" feelings rather than choosing smoking or go for "p" right?

furthermore, the benefits of blogging can be like "stalking" beautiful girl when i saw one of it from Camy Blog but sadly the girl (white colour shirt with a cute smile) already have a boyfriend.
perhaps this is what people say about "whoever take the action first to chase any girl will definitely have an advantage" which might explain why so many 25~30 years old guy want to chase those girls that ranged from 18~24 years old right?
before i end my post, i would like to share an interesting video that i just watch which is "Starcraft II: Heart of the Swarm All Cutscenes" as below or the link >>> Here.

somehow i do looking forward to play the "pirate version" of it as i don't have $$ to buy original. (>.<)
at last, i might "endure/hold" myself in this company before i get my SHU confirmation letter on this coming 28th March.
honestly, i don't feel like working when i think about the UK stuff because it demotivates me to perform well and i would be "dead" if my superior know that i have such thought.
overall today's mood was just "so-so" only when i think about the "cutting cost" part for company because it will just make myself having more things to do when i promised to manage "something" by myself during the meeting.
~.~

today i woke up at 7.45am.
then i quickly get myself prepared to work as usual.
well, i was manage to sit for the RM1 cab again as the driver was on the way to Wangsa Maju.
around 9.10am i reached KL Sentral and went to buy my breakfast as usual.
somehow i do have some thought again when saw the E-Print company has set up their automation stall near there because i did think about this idea long time ago but the fact that it was just a thought instead of taking any action. (this had proved that action speaks louder than words)
therefore i shouldn't "jelly" when see they was so successful in the printing industry.
after that, i just continue my working related stuff as usual and do faced a little problem with the publisher because he refused to reduce the price as we deal earlier.

however, i did do a very "stupid" thing that i "begged" him in to negotiate but he still did not reply.
honestly, my "inside feelings" at that moment was like "Wahlau, damm lansi (mean), how you get so many follower in your page was also because you keep sharing those funny picture+video only can get until 400K fans, without that, you won't be so mean loh" but luckily that's was just my thought inside my heart. (i admit i still have this kind of childish thought and i am trying to fix it, maybe copy paste the idea?)
well, this is what i want to say few days ago about how some people can so easy earn RMX,XXX in just 5 minutes in a day, using other's people effort to earn money.
perhaps the reason i express out now was partly because i did not have the capability to become like them.
sometime i did wanted to point out those name/page in my blog but i afraid being "searched", that's why i will add in some "xxxxx" word in order to be safe.

over time, i feel it was so true about the fact that "You start to get hurt the moment you begin to care" although it mostly apply in a girl boy relationship.
during the afternoon, i went to have my lunch with some colleagues at Mayflower Brickfields and i ordered the same noodles again.
somehow i did not talk much and just listen to others people conversation where mostly people talk about the M-Commerce trends is emerging very fast in Malaysia especially the educational E-books for kids/children because this generations of parents were willing to spend on it.
besides, i think the fact to earn money from those high income earners was you need to find more "water fish" (easily persuaded people) from that segments to buy your products.
upon back office, i continue to do my stuff again.

well, the Japanese boss distributed some snacks for us and i quite like the "Unagi snack pie" where i get 2 packs from Hamamatsu Japan as shown below.

perhaps this is the good things to have foreigner boss in our company where he will share his country culture and others things.
in addition, i do saw from opportunity when my superior told me about the company that we will be meeting tomorrow as i start to understand why they can earn so much money.
somehow i can't disclose much due and what i can say was our old school or older generation people's teaching to be "honest+good image" will not work well due to the "game rules had changed" in this new generation especially in Malaysia where everything is possible if you got money.
in short, it means that the old tricks will not work in this generation when people get smarter and smarter.

therefore this might apply to the same in the political party where the more educated people can "bully" (take advantage) on those people who less educated.
somehow i feel that the most sincere people was the one who can donate money using an Anonymous name rather than taking so much picture with their big names written on the cheque while handling it to some charity or organization.
around 6.40pm i make a move from office and reach Wangsa Maju at 7.20pm.
then i went to have economy rice as my dinner and feel a bit "emos" when eating alone while the weather still have some tiny rains that reminds me of the "Rain is sweet" (雨是甜的) song.
finally i reach home at 8pm and do feel quite tired although i haven wash+hang my clothes.
while checking my real FB account, i saw something that make me recall back some old memories again.

somehow i just feel myself still living in the past although i keep telling+comfort myself with those positive words such as "When you finally let go of the past, something better comes along" to cheer up myself.

anyways, i would like to share an interesting picture about "Why are you still caring HER" together with the transcript as shown picture below.
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Two monks, a younger acolyte and an older priest were traveling to the village of Sui-Shen to assist in the Moon Festival there.
On their way, they came upon a rushing stream, with a beautiful young lady in Moon Festival Finery, fretting at the stream's edge.
Then the lady : Oh, please, good monks! Won't you carry me on your back over the steam so that i do not ruin my festival dress?

Young acolyte : No! Not possible. Our order forbids us to touch the flesh of females.
To the shock of the younger monk, the older priest smiled...
Old priest : Of course my dear, please hop up on my back and i will carry you across.
The older monk dutifully carried the young lady across the stream, and set her gently down on the other side.
The girl thanked the older priest profusely, and then made her way to the Festival.
While walking towards the village, the youthful acolyte fumed and internally raged until he could take it no longer.

Young acolyte : Elder brother! How dare you carry that woman across that stream, when our order prohibits that?
Old priest : Younger siblings... I put the girl down on the other side of the steam. Why are you still carrying HER?
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well, it certainly keep make me think about myself why until now i still want to talk about my past or bring up the old memories which will only make myself suffer? (here goes again the Chinese sentences for 再怎么痛，再怎么难过，人家也看不到，也不会心疼你，你难过给谁看？)
on the other hand, i do receive the invitation for sponsored movie tickets from 2 different company to watch the G.I Joe movie at TGV 1 Utama tomorrow and another The Host movie at GSC Paradigm mall in 3rd April due to no transportation as i don't have car yet.
actually i do know this is just a part of "marketing gimmick" to attract people but i think it might works on "cheapskater" like me although i know it is cheaper than paying a blogger to write a post where the market price for writing a sponsored blog post can be range from RM10 to RM5,000 just a single post based on my past experience in the related field.
later on, i continue to wash+hang my cloth although i feel tiring after finish write this post.
at last, the only thing to cheer up or make myself stay positive was still need to depend on those motivational quotes such as "Learn from the past, Live in the present, Believe in future" although i'm still living in the past.

today i woke up at 7.55am.
somehow i don't really know why i only wake up at the similar time everyday although i had set my alarm at earlier 7.20am in the morning.
anyway, i quickly get myself prepared and went to work as usual.
around 8.50am i reach KL Sentral and walked to the office after bought my breakfast.
well, i was actually quite nervous for the morning meeting with another big company publisher as i afraid i might say something wrong since i did not do much research.
somehow he arrived at 11.20am and start to introduce his company together with my superior.
during the meeting, i realized and learned a lot of stuff where i can start to relate everything that happen around us during childhood.

actually the publisher was in charge for most of the entertainment magazine that you can see at any 7-Eleven, myNews store and other small business/franchise shop.
moreover, they have almost 20+ years of experience and has been one of the "monopoly" in publishing "cxmxc wxxkxy, yx, xpxp, xrxxg, fxxg yxn, xdd, xg, xmi" (replaced with a lot of "X" due to scare being searched) a lot of different title of entertainment magazine.
somehow it just make me think about the success story of Top Ittipat Thailand movie as the key to success was to find a big distributor such as 7-Eleven to accept for selling your product.
furthermore, you need to have a very big crowd of people to support your product at least every week in order to be counted as a success business.
overall i think i had understand how people make millions of money a month through this meetings.

honestly, i do feel a bit "emos" when see how other's people can be so successful in this publishing books industry as it was related to printing industry.
guess the key is to create own product instead of making what's others people want as this might be the failure of father's company.
before the meetings end, he gave us all the magazines (around 10++) to refer as i need to plan for the marketing budget for advertising in it.
while reading through those magazines, i saw a lot of "leng lui" (beautiful girls) picture which aged around 12 to 20 years old where most of the message was asking boys to call them with their number inside that might probably due to "loneliness".
therefore it might be true how those older people can "cheat" those "xiao mei mei" young girls feelings.

over time, i think the reason i fail in finding any girlfriend was because i did not take any action to chase after being "hurt" badly years ago.
in fact, i do have many opportunity to see/stalk a lot of beautiful girl (around 2000 from FB and 1000 from blog visiting) but i don't know it is like no feelings anymore. (gay? LOL)
perhaps i was so stubborn to keep think about the same girl after so long?
frankly speaking, myself already know that "something is past, will be consider past" which i'm saying myself keep living in the past that is no use to think anymore about it but sometimes the thought just came in my mind out of sudden.
moreover, i think i will really let go of my feelings when i found a girl that having similar looks with the girl i liked before.

however, one thing for sure is if any guy aim for a beautiful girl, he must be prepared to face a lot of competition and this might explain why some guy rather find some girl who just look normal or less beautiful as their life partner.
during the afternoon, i asked my sister to meet me at Gloria jeans coffee for joining me to have lunch together at Mayflower food court because i keep say the "Prawn Ho Fun" noodles there very nice.
somehow i do have a lot of conversation with my sister and just feel what she said was quite true.
it is because there is no use to keep compare our life with those people that live in foreign country because our lifestyle and education background is totally different.
for example, the hot news of Nick D’Aloisio, a 17-year-old British teen has become an instant millionaire after selling his popular news-reading app Summly to Yahoo Inc for close to $30 million.

regarding this news, it is proven that our education background and thing we see is totally different when he started to write apps as early as 12 years old.
so there is no use to compare because as you can see, most of the student who start to start/learn programming at college when they're 18 years+ years old in Malaysia right?
by the time they finish learn or get their degree cert, most of them already aged around 23 years old and just start to work in the corporate company.
as for those people who born starting from 1990 in Malaysia, i believe most of us don't have the opportunity to buy a computer when we're aged at 12 years old since that time was Window 98 (cost RM5K) right?
therefore what i am trying to say here is that sometime the "success term" need to match with the time, surrounding and opportunity (天时，地利，人和) in that generation.

anyways, there is no right and wrong regarding what i mention as i might just "butthurt+jelly" when see the foreigner youngster being so successful at such young age. (no need work liao if i got RM90 million~XD)
upon back office, i continue to do my working related stuff and i feel that there's no need to "angry" with the publisher yesterday when he increase the price because i have found another people.
therefore this story prove that "if you can't find this one, just keep on finding other's" as the world is full of people and no need scare can't find just like applying in chasing girls. (Don't because a tree abandon the whole forest)
around 7pm i make a move from office and suddenly feel to have my dinner at KFC KL Sentral.
somehow there was a lot of people waiting and i finally finish ate at 7.40pm.
then i took LRT back Wangsa and finally i reach home at 8.30pm.

after that, i just check on some mails and news.
somehow the program supervisor told me that the office still haven receive my offer letter to Sheffield Hallam University but i can come again next week instead of taking a leave for tomorrow 28th March as below.

it is because we need to arrange the free Manchester Airport pickup service during the pre arrival guide to Sheffield hostel.
actually i still having the contradict feelings because i feel that it seems to be useless to get my Degree for RM30,000+ because i do feel that marketing is something useless in our current trends/generation nowadays unless you're a boss or having family business.
seriously my mind now was quite "blur" and it is like "walk one step, see one step" (走一步，看一步) when think about my future because i am consider being late learner as a 23 years old guy.

the requirement that i feel to become a successful marketer is need to be very resourceful, able to adapt/change with clients needs and most important is friendly. (i seems to be not a friendly guy? T.T)
anyways, i would like to share an interesting video about the "Secrets from the Science Of Persuasion" as below or the link >>> Here.

somehow i just feel what he say was quite true regarding the 6 shortcut that guide human behavior which is Reciprocity, Scarcity, Authority, Consistency, Liking and Consensus.
before i end my post, i would like to share a Chinese sentence that is "在20年前，你所拥有的优势，可以用5年；在10年前，你所拥有的优势，可以用2年；而现在，你所拥有的优势，只能维持半年。有句话说的好：人要活到老，学到老，而不要活到老，做到老。很多人说学习啊，没时间啦！千万不要等到你有时间，却来不及的时候就太晚了！" which means that we need to keep learning until old without any excuses. (lazy translate to English)
furthermore, i did asked myself know so much about how other people can make so much money but what did i do until now? (ownself already know apps market can earn a lot $$ but still do marketing?)
in conclusion, i just feel that all of us will go back to the same question which is trying to earn as much money as we could using our capabilities even need to "compete among each other" just like the picture below.

today i woke up at 8.30am.
well, my whole body seems to "pop out" when looking at that time i awakes because i know i might be late for as i need to get myself prepared before 8.20am.
anyways, i just quickly change my clothe and get myself prepared within 10 minutes.
somehow i was lucky because the bus do arrived 5 minutes later when i reach the bus stop.
around 9.30am i reach office in time and do my work as usual.
actually i do know that i have learn something when day by day passed in this company which might better than i "sit" at home research.
however, i still haven tell them the news that i will leaving soon although i might not contribute much to the company since i haven get my offer letter from SHU.

certainly this company seems to be quite good as they let a "so call experience in oxline marketing" person like to spend so much advertising cost although it is not effective.
moreover, i do saw my senior seems to keep travelling for company business trip in other country to find new opportunity for the development.
besides, i just feel myself seems to be "ain't going anymore/being success" with my current low confident personality when i speaks because you can know there's a "shaky" of my voice while i speaking.
therefore this just reminds me some of my ex-classmate who can speaks well with spontaneous voice even if it is public speaking which i know they will be more success in career.
during the afternoon, we went to have our lunch at Sin Kee restaurant Brickfields and i start to have some conversation with my colleague which is quite good.

after that, i went to bank in $$ to the publisher bank account number at KL Sentral.
while i was queuing up at the CIMB cash deposit machine, the thing that caught my attention was their staff was taking/clearing out the money from the machine.
well, i think there's around RM500,000+ total when he taking out all the money from the trail one by one and just "throw" into the a plastic bag by keep compressing like it's worth nothing.
in fact, i think i will only have that kind of feelings when burning the "hell paper money" for my grandparent during the Qing Ming (清明节) day.
somehow i do have a "funny+evil+weird" thought that how great if i can those money because i don't think i will manage to save that amount of money within 10 years time, yet the money was just 50cm distance from me which is like "so close, yet so far" to ~~rob~~ earn the money.

actually the "evil" thought was about the fastest way to "earn" money is to rob the Bank's ATM machine in Malaysia when i saw their security at that moment seems to be quite low as there's only 1 guard and 2 staff opening the ATM machine.
anyways, below was the 10 tips from "How to Rob a Bank" movie which is quite funny but i just watch their movie trailer.
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Tip #1 – Decide to rob a bank.
Tip #2 – Have a plan.
Tip #3 – Have a back-up plan.
Tip #4 – Establish clear communications.
Tip #5 – Choose your partners carefully.

Tip #6 – Expect the unexpected.
Tip #7 – Shit happens.
Tip #8 – Don’t get greedy.
Tip #9 – Remember, shit happens.
Tip #10 – Hang up and know when to walk away.
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well, i don't think it will happens same as you can see one of the news about "Security Guard Caught – ATM Theft" as the ATM machine picture below.

upon back office, i just keep follow up on the ads placement and hopefully the strategy will works well on tomorrow as there was no guarantee when it comes to marketing.
moreover, there's no use to think so hard about it where i should treat it as normal.

around 6.40pm i make a move from office and still think a lot of stuff.
actually i was feeling quite annoying when the ex-colleague calling/bugging me using another phone number because about his "Axway" product yet i am very bias because i have a hatred and anti towards MLM / direct sales business although i know they can earn a lot of money if working hard to find "fish water".
when i reach Wangsa Maju at 7.20pm, i went to have economy rice as my dinner although the feelings was quite "lonely" again when see those happy Tarcian couples talking sweetly.
finally i arrived back home at 7.50pm by "taxi" (cab) because there was a lot of people waiting as the bus did not come for quite long.
then i get myself prepared before surfing the internet to watch some news.
somehow i have a good conversation with a friend which is quite famous but she already have a boyfriend.

well, i do feel she seems to be quite mature when talking about earning money as she said she like to mix with people older than her to gain more experience.
besides, i do get some news when some girls can earn about RM1,000+ per night by doing those "pour beer" + distribute cards freelance job in some place without need to "sacrifice body" (if u know what i means) which i still doubt it is true or not.
guess the moral of the story is to let those "old uncle happy happy" with your sweet mouth but most of the job require female to work.
therefore i just feel the world is just the same no matter what where everyone need to satisfy someone needs/demand in order to be rich although i keep say i have understand how people make millions of money a month but still did not do much things.

later on, i just learned the benefits of using Facebook Schedule post where you can set the time for your future post as i had tried it out myself in my Lonely Reload Facebook page as i had set 11 future picture post at different time as shown below.

therefore you don't need to worry whether you're late to post something and you even can plan what to post during this whole year after you spend some time posting and editing the time.
after that, i went out to refill my water and buy some snacks to eat when watching the "Vulgaria" (低俗喜劇) movie at night as shown below or the link >>> Here.

overall it was quite funny and there's goes my time flies for doing nothing much productivity things.
in conclusion, i just feel that there's seems to be no right or wrong when comes to "earn money issues" as it is just depend on how smart you can "use" other's people time to earn for you. (sad ugly truth, only loser will say such things like i did?)
T.T

today i woke up at 8.20am.
then i quickly get myself prepared as i might be late for work.
somehow i just took the "taxi" (cab) to Wangsa Maju and arrived at KL Sentral at 9.15am.
after that, i just do my working stuff as usual although my superior did not came today and Japanese boss still at other country.
during the afternoon, we went to Mayflower food court and i tried a new dish which is spaghetti with egg ham instead of the Prawn Ho Fun noodles.
upon back office, i make a final confirmation with those publisher about the message that need to post out.
well, finally i receive the pay cheque that need to "self bank" although i have skipped one day work to attend the briefing last time.

during the evening, i was feeling quite "moody" and just played some online games.
around 6.45pm i make a move from office to meet my sister at Masjid Jamek LRT.
it seems that i finally get my "Zombie Tsunami Diploma" certification after played so long as shown picture below.

well, my friend told me that the application for SHU is probably accepted while i was on the way to bank the $$ into Maybank cheque deposit machine.
then we take another train to Bandar Tasik Selatan since her car was park at there.
somehow i don't have much thing to share with my sister since i feel my life seems to be "almost same" every week and she might be tired to listen to my "whining" story.
therefore i just listened to the "I'm the catcher in the rye" (麥田捕手) song and feel "emos".

finally i arrived back home at 9pm and just have our dinner prepared by mother.
well, i just got the original CD soundtrack from the "Paper Moon (纸月亮) Movie" where there are two version of "Take me away" (帶我走) song by Bell Yu Tian (宇田) as shown below.

then i went to check my Maybank account statement and found out they had keep charging me RM0.50 for most of my transaction.
after check some information on the internet, i just realized how they charge it as shown below.
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Charges option:
Annual fee of RM8 per card for unlimited withdrawals per year, or
Free first four (4) cash withdrawals in a month at any Maybank ATM. Fifth withdrawal and above in a month*: RM0.50 per withdrawal**

*Fee waived if you have a balance of above RM5,000 at time of withdrawal.
**Charge will be debited directly from your account at the end of each transaction.
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somehow i just have the feeling that Maybank is stealing poor people money silently because i feel it is like an discrimination to poor people who don't have RM5,000 and above in their bank account.
it is because i had been keep withraw RM50 by RM50 in order to control myself to spend more and this has charged me around RM5 in total. (OMG? did i reveal to people that i don't even have 5K?)
honestly, i feel depressed because living so long, i don't have the 5K in my bank despite worked for some time because i have used my working salary in my repeat semester.
in fact, i believe most of the people who aged 23 year old will at least have 5 figures in their bank account.

guess the fastest way to "earn" is to rob the bank? (LOL)
besides, i would like to share the "DAN the MAN" which is funny video about life of a hero after rescue the princess as shown below or the link >>> Here.

later on, it seems that my marketing strategy for "something" did not work well and i feel myself will gonna "die" for next week meeting.
in fact, i should start to tell my boss i want to resign rather than let them having a "unprofitable staff" like me as i had spend around 5 figures of marketing cost when i joined till now and most of the idea that launched did not running smooth.
anyways, i did not listen to Chan Fong (大城心事) sharing this week as i was doing others stuff.
overall my mind was quite "blur" now as i finish written this post around 3am and i did ask myself is it necessary to update everyday about my life? (yet i still doing it without much reason)
in fact, i read a lot of story about the disadvantage of telling other's people about your life just like what's state in the latest Google glass related news.
>.<

today i woke up at 12pm.
after that, i get myself prepared because mother's say it was "Guan Yin Mah" (Chinese God) birthday and we need to have vegetarian as our meal.
around 1pm we make a move from home and went to a temple near Eng Ann as shown picture below.

well, i just have a feeling that "old people tends to be having a cheerful+good heart" as they have volunteer to help in the temple without getting any repayment.
it is because i feel myself seems to be not a "good guy" when i feel that anyone who do something must have some reason such as want to earn money for helping others people. (i am money minded?)
anyways, the food there was quite nice and it is free of charge (not sure what's is the intention) which is maybe today's is a special day.

during the afternoon, we went to Aeon Jusco Bukit Raja because sister want to buy something for her baby.
upon arrived there, i just went to the Popular bookstore and i saw they're giving extra RM50 popular voucher if you spend your RM250 BR1M book voucher at there.
somehow i was attracted with a book named "Ge Mei Lia Comic Story" (哥妹俩漫画故事) as the content was quite interesting and funny although it is a book for 10-18 years old people. (guess i was too childish+immature to read this kind of book?)

seriously i just feel the story was quite nice to read about "Scare Ghost" (怕鬼)，Positive Life (积极人生)，Room for Rent (有房出租)，Hainan Chicken Rice (海南鸡饭)，She is my mother (她是我妈妈)，He's not fat, he's my Father (他不胖他是我爸爸)，H1N1 Disease (禽流感)，Home (家)" story where i will try to recall back what i read.

for the first "Scare Ghost" story, it is about there's the drug dealer hide their drug inside the abandon castle (looks like Kellie's Castle located near Batu Gajah) and created a ghost story to prevent other's tourist to visits the castle.
as for the second story about "Positive Life", it is about the father get sack by the company after working for 15 years and afraid to tell his family that he was jobless.
the sentences i like most from the second story was "In life, we will face a lot of difficulties and obstacles, why don't we face it with a positive attitude as life stills goes on no matter how hard is it" (人生难免有挫折，不管多困难，日子一样还得过下去，那何不以积极态度去面对难关呢) as shown below.

for the third "Room for Rent" story, it is about the jobless father want to rent out one of his house's roomn out and finding suitable people.

then the person who rent was a girl and tells her story about his father who was a "funeral seller" (长生店) to "Ge Me Lia" and say's she was proud of his father as her father told her life's is full of different person and job, it is how we see it as long as we respect and responsible with the job we do.
the fourth "Hainan Chicken Rice" story was about the jobless father plan to sell chicken rice with his brother and face some difficulties.
as for the fifth "She is my Mother" story, i just feel it is quite a touching story because her mother was married to a guy who is gambler/smoker/bad, then she divorce him and get married with another guy.
however, the gambler guy did not happy when she get married again and splashed acid to her face after some times and the guy she married with divorced her after she was pregnant.
then now left mother raise her baby alone.

the story continued with her daughter (grown up baby) was too embarrass to tell her friend about her mother's face but until one day, her mother get was knocked by a car when finding her daughter who was keep avoiding her when her friend's around.
anyways, the 6th, 7th and 8th story i could not recall back much as i had forgotten now.
after that, father went to the factory and i helped to carry some of the printed material (around 30,000pcs) to another client house.
somehow i admit that i have the childish thought which is "why still continue do oh as it sound useless" but when i ask back myself again, it seems that i did not help much other than keep complain how failed is the printing business was.
finally i reach back home at 4.30pm.

then father went to "pluck" the coconut and i in charge of cutting it as shown picture below.

guess i am eligible to get my "Master in cutting coconut" certification as i seems to be able to cut it nicely.
around 7pm i went to have some vegetarian noodles as my dinner.
after that, i helped mother to fold the "Hell Paper Money" for the Qing Ming Festival (清明节) although it is not the official day as shown below.

well, it seems that there is a lot of "New pattern" for hell money which is keep following the trends product.
later on, i saw something about the Forge Sheffield picture shared by some friend which make me feel quite "emos" although "something" had passed so long.
in fact, i did ask myself what's is the reason for delaying to go UK during last year when i did not go to resit the exam during February 2012 and ended up repeat my semester.

anyways, i just can keep comfort myself that no use to check back or see what's had happened last year.
after that, i check the click stream for the "marketing result" and it seems that it was quite bad which i have a bad feeling again that i will "die" on this coming Monday meeting.
well, i do asked myself is it whether is the text, picture, link shorten or the placement was wrong about the campaign but i still don't know what's the problem.
frankly speaking, my heart want to resign but i just feel it might be like i am avoiding the problem when things does not happen in the way i want instead of facing it like a man.
therefore this had make me feel quite frustrated and contradict as i did not contribute much to the company which is like taking FREE salary when i kept staying there.
in fact, i do know it might probably my personality and attitude problem for having this feeling.

luckily i don't have girlfriend or anyone who was closed to me will care about me. (self comfort? T.T)
in addition, i feel it might be true about the Anonymous saying that the reason i continue to blog was because i hope the people who really care for me in my know want to get better and feeling happier. (Thanks!)
regarding the "Maybank stealing poor people money silently" post, i think it was my mistake for not checking on other bank charge for every withdrawal.
perhaps i should just withdraw RM500 in a time instead of RM50 by RM50 instead of getting extra charges.
before i end my post, i would like to share the "10 Things that won't be bought with Money" as shown below.
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1) Money can buy a house, but not a home.
2) Money can buy a bed, but not sleep.
3) Money can buy a clock, but not time.
4) Money can buy a book, but not knowledge.
5) Money can buy food, but not an appetite.
6) Money can buy position, but not respect.
7) Money can buy blood, but not life.
8) Money can buy medicine, but not health.
9) Money can buy sex, but not love.
10) Money can buy insurance, but not safety.
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anyways, don't treat it seriously as there is no right and wrong about this issue.
what was important was to be happy afterall.
=D

today i woke up at 6.40am.
well, i was awaken by my mother because we need to get ourself prepared for the "Qing Ming" festival (清明节) which is also known as Tomb Sweeping day.
basically it is a Chinese tradition where they will visit their ancestor's graves or burial grounds to clean up the surroundings and burn some offerings.

around 7.30am we make a move from home to Fairy Memorial Park Klang (巴生仙境山莊).
somehow the traffic was so jammed as we waited for almost 1 and half hour where there's still long way to go when we reach the entrance as shown picture below.

besides, i just have a "funny" thought which is sooner or later, there will be more less land to burry those deceased people because every day also got people die. (死人越来越多).

finally we arrived there at 9.15am and there was a lot of people.
anyways, i just help to carry those "Hell paper treasure box" that i help to fold yesterday to my grandparent's grave near the hill.
somehow i can see one of my uncle seems to be unhappy because he waited at there since 7.30am but most of us arrived around 9.15am~10.40am.
after that, i helped to burn the hell paper and lighten the fire cracker.
besides, i don't really know much about "Feng Shui" as one of my uncle said that our grandparent's grave did not have extra stone supporting at the behind (没有靠山在石碑后面) which means that our generation might need to work harder if want to be rich according to the myth.
after the prayers, we have our lunch beside the grave and have some chit chatting.

then my uncle pass me the Airasia Travel 360 books about his story in aviation.
around 1pm we make a move from there and i reach home at 2pm.
after that, i told my brother about the secret to cut coconut within 1 minutes and he tested with the remaining tree coconut which is very effective.
when i talk about my "current working" to him, he just say that i am "acting to be good guy" (死都要做好人) because i feel like i am "cheating" my company if i did not perform well.
well, what he say that most of the employee will always "drag/delay" the work as long as possible and it would be great if can get "FREE Salary" without doing much.
seriously the reason i keep worry was because i don't have much experience but "boasted" (吹水) that i am very capable in doing this and that, yet the result shown was not good and even bad.

however, i feel grateful that at least the company still can tolerate with my performance where i can gain real experience from the failure.
in short, what i means is i am using company resource such as spending five figures in marketing to learn whether this channel or that channel is effective or not.
anyways, i shall face my "judgement day" for tomorrow when i saw the result for today marketing performance was bad. (ownself "chap sang" 捡生)
during the evening, i felt tired and went to take a nap.
the moment i woke up again was 7.20pm and went to have my dinner.
around 8.15pm i make a move from house because father will fetch me to Klang KTM.
then he went to feed the dog at the office while i was waiting in the car.

when i reach Klang's KTM at 8.50pm, i realized that i forgot to bring back my shoe and feel quite "sucks".
around 9.50pm i reach KL Sentral and went to buy the Mc Donald ice cream.
as i arrived Wangsa Maju station at 10.20pm, it seems that there's was no bus and everyone was "snatching" the Taxi (cab) to back home.
suddenly a girl approached me and asked me where i stay and it was coincidence we stay quite near.
then she ask me whether can "tumpang" (car pool) together when for the next Taxi.
during the moment at car, i just know she was studying "Certificate" (A level cert before diploma cert) at the age of 20 and she thought i am the same due to my "baby face" which looks like still 18 years old.
anyways, what i am trying to say here is that "if you never ask, you will never know there's someone will go to the same direction" but this seems quite weird because most of the guy will take the action to ask instead of a girl right?
finally i arrived back home at 10.40pm and i did not collect the Taxi fare $$ from her. (guess i want to be gentleman? LOL)
overall today seems to be quite normal although my heart keep worrying about what i should say for tomorrow meeting for the bad performance in the marketing campaign.
T.T

today i woke up at 7.50am.
then i just get myself prepared to work although i "don't feel like going" to work.
around 9.15am i arrived KL Sentral and went to buy the marble cake as my breakfast again. (=.=)
upon arrived to office, i just continue to write the report from last week campaign performance.
somehow my heart keep "pounding" very fast as while writing the report as it is consider quite bad after spend those marketing $$ again.
beside, i couldn't finish the report when the time reach almost afternoon and i was worry about how to present it to my boss later.
around 12.45pm i went to have my lunch with one of my colleague at Mayflower food court again because i like the Ho Fun noodles so much.

suddenly i just feel relief when my colleague say the Japanese boss was still in the Taiwan trip and haven came back yet.
besides, today was known as April fools which is widely recognized and celebrated as a day when people play practical jokes and hoaxes on each other.
somehow i just prank my colleague that he dropped something and do feel myself quite "childish".
anyways, i would like to wish you all to have a Happy April Fools day 2013.
moreover, the feeling is just like doing "financial reporting" from last year 2012, 2011, 2010 and 2009 where i can read back about my thought during that day.
while looking back the post, i do feel myself tends to be "growing" a little regarding the blogging style and did having many thought as usual from last time.

however, i still refuse to put "Capital Letter" for every starting word after full stop because i am used to write in small capital letter although my academic paper will definitely write in capital letter.
during the evening, my friend phoned to confirm the booking air ticket to Manchester United Kingdom (UK) for this coming May when i paid him RM300 via online transfer.
somehow i do feel quite "money pain" as i had withdraw another RM300 from the Maybank ATM because i don't want them to charge extra if i make 4 or more cash withdrawal in a month.
on the other hand, i was feeling quite "worry" when i still did not resign because the longer i stay in the company, the more relationship will be built as my superior invited me to his next coming wedding dinner.
around 6.40pm i make a move from office and still think about whether i should resign or not because i feel "guilty" for not helping much after used a lot of ads $$.

when i arrived Wangsa Maju at 7.20pm, i went to have economy rice as my dinner.
finally i reach back home at 7.45pm and this might be the most early that i ever reach to home after work.
after that, i just received the offer letter from Sheffield Hallam University by Philip Bloor when i ask one of my housemate to go school take for me as below.

well, it seems that the total fees for it was about £3947 which around RM18,500+ without including the expenses about £800 per month according to the letter.

then i phoned my brother to talk about it and he say i should give notice to resign although at first he keep ask me to "endure" until the end of April.
somehow i do have the feelings of standing in the middle which is "Go or Not, Go or Not?" as i still have the final decision to decide.

it is because if i told them tomorrow about my resignation, everything might seems to be changed including those facial expression if my intention was to ~~cheat~~ work one more month salary before i go to UK.
later on, i continue to search some information and see some news.
well, it seems that my "lonelyreload.com" domain name will be expire at the end of this month and i had just renewed it using Google Wallet as below.

perhaps i should count today as an Anniversary for my blog domain renewal since i just made the payment?
in addition, i think i had gained some experience with my own exploration about the FB ads when i track back my Paypal payment to Facebook from 1st April 2012 to 1st April 2013 as below.

somehow i think i had used around $100+ to learn about how the trends going on in FB before i apply any social/online marketing job.

for over 1 year duration, i just counted that i received around $280 but spend about $160+ when i track back the activity from 1st April 2012 as below.

furthermore, i was quite "shock" when i saw the transaction start from 21st August 2009 until now as i didn't realized i actually used a lot of money for online transaction rather than earning.
in fact, after my GA account has been banned few years ago, i didn't really have the motivation to apply back after tried few method but finally approved when i use my friend's ID.
guess the moral of this story is keep trying and trying instead of giving up or whining/blame somethings.
besides, i still think that staying anonymous is a good compare to showing up real face because you can keep protect/deny anything that you write online even thought it is related to political issues. (irresponsible? coward? no balls? LOL~)

moreover, i like the quotes saying that "Give a man a mask and he will tell you the truth" which explain why do people question or answer anonymously because in certain answers, people was afraid that their opinion might affect their life if they express it out using real identity.
regarding this matter, this also explain why some people can scold vulgar words without thinking much in the online forum because no body will really know/care who they are.
as for myself, the reason i still blogging anonymous was because i don't want my real life friend (although 1~5 people know) that i have such a "childish/immature" thought as well as a super "emos+negative" guy.
in term of anonymous, we are everyone and we are no one; we are anonymous, we do not forgive, we do not forget just like the picture below.

at last, life is all about choices where you choose how you react to situations, you choose how people will effect your mood, you choose to be in a good mood or bad mood where it's your choice on how you live your life.
=)

today i woke up at 8.05am.
as usual i will quickly get myself prepared for work.
around 9.10am i reached KL Sentral and went to buy the Ham's sandwich as my breakfast.
during the morning, i just keep research about the working related stuff and still wondering whether is my own problem that the advertisement seems to be getting not much clicks although spent so much $$.
however, i just don't know why everyday i keep found a lot of my own weakness instead of focusing more on the advantages i have.
around 12.30pm i went to have my lunch with some colleagues at the Mayflower food court.
somehow one of my colleagues shared the "past story" of this company about the disadvantage where he will resign soon.

well, it seems that the top level management will hired those people who have less knowledge than them because afraid of their own position will be threatened.
according to what he say, there's a lot of good quality of staff that knows more things than the top level management people had been sack or being forced to write own resignation letter by them.
the company can still survive until now was all thanks to the rich Japanese boss.
in my point of view, i feel that it is because we was consider as "cheap labor" instead of hire people in Japan as what i know was if you hire 1 person in Japan, the salary can use to hire 3 person in Malaysia.
anyways, i think it is better to see/find out myself in order to find out the truth about those rumors.
upon back office, i was given the task to write out new ads words where i keep finding the related information and see how competitor write their advertisement.

during the evening, i was feeling quite sleepy and suddenly think about my past on how i can get the "magical energy" to get myself energized although i had say "never use it" again as it will make me think more but i failed this time after "tahan" (endure) so long.
well, the secret here was to see/think about "a girl" that you liked/failed to chase/someone that is important by looking her profile and other related information.
certainly it just make me feel so energetic but with an "emos" feelings as i ~~stalk~~ saw the 151 picture and 225 places visited in UK.
over time, i really tried not to think about it and keep comfort myself that "Don't give up the entire forest just because of a tree" (不要为了一棵树，放弃整座森林) but yet i had failed to do so this time.

maybe this is the things that i so call Magical "Love" energy to get motivation for myself.

other than that, i do feel a bit disappointment for myself when i saw those ex-classmate picture at SHU UK last year because there's not much meaning for me to go this year other than getting the degree certification. (talking to myself > 毕竟他们都是你Diploma一起到4年的朋友)
around 6.45pm i make a move from office and just feel my office time table was like doing nothing much such as "9:00 Starting Time, 9:30 Arrive at Work, 9:45 Coffee Break, 11:00 Check E-Mail, 11:15 Prepare for Lunch, 12:00 Lunch, 2:45 Browse Internet, 3:00 Tea Break, 4:00 Prepare to go home, 4:30 Go Home and 5:00 Finishing Time" as shown picture below.

when i reach Wangsa Maju at 7.30pm, i went to have economy rice as my dinner.
finally i arrived back home at 8pm and just do all the checking emails, news, information (seems like no life) after taken my bath.

there's one motivational video that i strongly recommend anyone to watch which is "Do you dare to dream? It all depends on what you believe" as shown below or the link >>> Here.

well, it is so true that since our childhood we all know how to dream, asleep and awake which thanks to the power of our imagination we believe we are capable of achieving anything we can dream of.
however, as we grow older we lose this wonderful ability we'll later need to be creative, to innovate, to change our lives and to transform our organizations.
another story that i would like to share was "Ah Boy Short Film" from the Tarcian who studied Advanced Diploma in Multimedia Design as shown below or the link >>> Here.

basically the story was about a mother and son who lives in a poor village where the poor kid need to work every morning to get paid to support his mother who is sick.

the story continued with the kid being laughed and tease by the students when he was to participate in the running competition that the rewards from the prizes is about RM500.
then the difficulties he have to go through was to get a new shoe and defeating his enemies (3 bad kid) who always tried to bully him.
in addition i would like to share another funny message that i saw from forum by Blackpen as below.
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Guy : What size of your borh?
Gal : What is borh?
Guy : Neh...boobs ah~
Gal : Oh, why you want to know?
Guy : Because i want to cha your borh lo...
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according to him, this was a "tricks" to tackle some girls and i think it will only happen to those "super desperate lonely girls" right?
overall i just feel life is all about the same whereby you need to keep find "water fish" or people who less educate than you to cheat/scam in order to reach your objective no matter it is business, relationship or others. (sounds cruel?)
later on at midnight, i just feel myself seems to be "over-super-duper crazy" in blogging when i need to wait my housemate to go out from my room, then only start to write this blog at 1.50am and finished at 2.40am because i was feeling uneasy if someone at behind me looking what i type right?
perhaps i just overly addicted to jot down every single things i wish to say before i "die" as i have a feeling that i will not live long with this kind of lifestyle although i know not much people will really care. (blogwhore?)
before i end my post, i would like to share something nice as below.
As long as we have Memories, yesterday remains.
As long as we have Hope, tomorrow awaits.
As long as we have Friendship, each day is never a waste.
As long as we have Love, today is beautiful...
=D

today i woke up at 8.05am.
then i just get myself prepared to work as usual and it seems the bus was full of people this morning.
around 9.20am i arrived office and continue my working stuff as usual.
well, i was trying my best to find the suitable keyword for the FB ads and just hope my creation will bring the best result for tomorrow.
somehow i was wondering why our competitor's FB ads and Google Adwords ads keep appear in most of the website but why i don't saw the ads that i created in FB, yet used so much $$.
in fact, i asked myself is it whether the text, picture, price or target placement is not suitable?
anyways, i don't think anyone will teach their "secret method" to get the top or first placement in those website unless you research/find out yourself after facing a lot of failure.

guess this is why a real knowledge/skills is more valuable when you use real money to learn it.
around 12.30pm i went to have my lunch with one of my colleague at KFC KL Sentral.
upon back office, i just continue my stuff as usual.
during the evening, i will be meet with my brother's girlfriend to take the shoes that he bought from warehouse sales as i forgot to bring back my shoe from hometown and it was "broken".
then i just quickly run to KL Sentral and took the LRT to Bangsar station to meet him as my excuse to go out from office was going to "toilet".
therefore it is so rush where i used about 25 minutes to do all this thing before arrive back to office at 4.20pm as shown below.

seriously it is so coincidence that i saw my sister when i took the LRT back to KL Sentral.

it is because i feel that is too "miracle" to meet her at the same train inside, exactly same time and she was doing other things too. (speechless, lol~)
around 7pm i make a move from office because i had promised Yappy.tv that i will go for the Host movie special screening at GSC Paradigm mall as it start at 9pm.
somehow i just keep listening to "Mai Tian Bu Shou Bai An" (麥田捕手白安) song and "Yu Shi Tian De Yu Tian" (雨是甜的宇田) which eventually make me feel quite "emos", yet i enjoyed it?
when i reach Kelana Jaya LRT at 7.20pm, i just depend on the online guide saying that you can either take RapidKL U623 or rapidKL U43 or the free Paradigm Mall shuttle bus to reach there as i saw my phone GPS seems to be quite near as shown below.

after waited for quite some time, i asked the RapidKL staff and they say i can take the U624 to go there.

anyways, there is no free shuttle bus during the moment and i just take the U624 bus but the driver say he will drop me somewhere nearby where i can walk to there as shown picture below.

around 8pm i reached there and went to take the free ticket from their staff as shown below.

therefore feel free to like their Yappy.tv FB page because you can win some free movie tickets.
somehow i think i might learn something from they when see they do this kind of marketing activities as it may help myself to improve my own "so call" marketing skills where you need to target those premiere movie before actual launch date to get attraction from pucture.
after that, i went to have my dinner at Burger King and phoned a long lost friend that stay nearby there because i have 2 pcs movie tickets.
when he reach there, we just have a little conversation as the movie start soon.

anyways, the synopsis of the Host Movie was shown below.
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An alien invader inhabits a captured human in an attempt to locate the last surviving free humans on Earth. When an unseen enemy threatens mankind by taking over their bodies and erasing their memories, Melanie will risk everything to protect the people she cares most about, proving that love can conquer all in a dangerous new world.
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during the moment while watching the movie, i just feel a bit annoyed when our Malaysia government keep "cut" those kissing or sex scene where you can heard the "cut" sound.
well, you can have a look of "The Host Official Trailer #3 (2013) - Stephanie Meyer Movie HD" as shown below or the link >>> Here.

honestly, the main actress that is Saoirse Ronan in this movie seems to looks quite beautiful.

besides, there is some scene from the movie was shown below.

overall i would rate this movie for 2.5 out of 5 stars because it does not show much futuristic gadgets and was quite boring when it keeps talking other than the "sex" scene has been cut.
around 11.20pm we make a move from there and thanks to my friend who fetch me back home.
during the moment in the car, we talked a while and he suddenly asked me about the "girl" i liked which eventually make me feel quite shock.
seriously my tears almost come out during that moment when he talk about it and i really hate myself for "acting" like it is nothing and agree that he say about "Be a man, be strong" (哎呀，做男人的要坚强一点，这样女生才会喜欢你，没有一个女生要自己的男人/老公那么脆弱) which is so true.
perhaps i still need few more years to get myself prepared to become a mature man.

therefore i do feel quite "sucks" to humiliate myself by saying "lonely reload ah, don't be such a pusxy guy lah, if i am girl also will run always lah when encounter with this kind of guy" just to be stronger in heart.
actually in life, i do understand a lot of things but just keep ignoring it like nothing happens.
over time, i also discover that not everything you can talk about even though using an anonymous name because "some" people will be "naught" to find/track/hunt you down no matter using any black hat method.
seriously i really try my best to forget the girl i liked but when someone mention it, my heart seems to be just cheating myself and the only way for me to express/release it out was using blog as no one would really care what an anonymous person say but yourself will definitely feel better when telling it out.
at once i did think is it because of i never "pak toh" (dating) before or never see "leng lui" (beautiful girls) but it seems the answer was not as i already seen about 3000+ beautiful girls in my life.

then whether the answer is to get "sxx" when chasing girl, it seems that it won't make much feelings if you had TFK/DIY (if you know what i means) right?
in fact, there is too much of information and it is all depend on yourself to judge the statement whether it is true or wrong because some people really have the "Die also can talk until alive" (死都咬反生) skills.
furthermore, the way to make myself feel better all the time was to see those unfortunate people such as those disability people and other poor example. (izzit life need to be like this in order to feel happy?)
at last, the things i left out when referring back to my phone's note was about our Prime Minister Najib had announces dissolution of Parliament at 11.30am this morning.
another thing was i still wonder why so many people so like to drink Chatime at KL Sentral and another one was about so many rich people driving sport car, BMW, Merc and other luxury car at my working place which shows like money is so easy to earn.
in the end, maybe what my friend's say was right that for a guy, his main objective is to maximize his earning ability and find a lot of $$ before 30 years old, then only start to find girlfriend, don't ever "trapped" in girl relationship issues if want to be successful where i feel it is like reffering to myself.
therefore there is no such things as "Love energy" to get motivation other than keep finding $$?
(Self Note Reminder:再怎么痛，再怎么难过，人家也看不到，也不会心疼你，你难过给谁看？)
T.T

today i woke up at 8.10am.
well, i just get myself prepared and quickly went to work because afraid i might be late.
during the moment while waiting the bus, there's a guy start to have conversation with me and i just realized he was also one of the Tarc guaduate but pursuing his internship at a market research company.
actually i had been seen him long time ago during the moment i start to work in this new company but we never talk as i am not a very sociable person.
while he was sharing, i just realized that actually there is so much well paid part time job available and it seems like i did not put much effort to find it other than finding this full time job as i will resign soon.
for example, Disney and Blackberry events will have a payout of RM2,000+ within 2 weeks of work and they pay the salary on the spot which is quite good.

another was about a company at Sabah where they will provide the allowance for air ticket if you willing to work there for part time.
anyways, i just got to know the well known market research company in Malaysia was Nielsen and another was TNC company.
upon arrived the office at 9.25am, i just check on the ads that i created yesterday and it seems the result is bad which i continue to doubt my capabilities.
besides, it seems that the biggest boss in this company was the current Japanese boss brother's.
well, i think the reason he was there was to monitor us since his brother haven back from Taiwan but he know how to speak Chinese although he was a Japanese.
during the afternoon, i followed some colleagues go for lunch at Mc Donalds KL Sentral.

well, they was talking about working related stuff but suddenly sharing about some gay's story that he know/encounter before.
at first i was feeling quit okay to listen to those Gay's story but it seems i start to worry.
it is because i just don't know why i suddenly myself seems to be in the "Gay's categories" and my heart just keep pumping fast when they talk more about gay's stuff.
for an example, they say those people who're gay will usually know how to hide they "gayness" and act like a normal person in the public which make me feel "gay" out of sudden.
the first story was about some of the Malay's promoter did not hide they gay's personalities and shown out in public which make he feel "vomit".
another story was about his ex-company supervisor from Maxis seems to be a gay keep "touching" him.

the next story that he share was there's a guy who have a girlfriend, suddenly one day his friend who was a gay had sex with the guy who already had girlfriend when the he get drunk.
somehow i was feeling so uneasy when listening to those gay's story and i keep wonder myself why i have such feeling where i even asked myself am i a Gay?
in fact, my facial expression seems to be so fake like hiding something, yet they seems like keep "testing me" whether i am gay or not when they continue to talk for almost 1 hour.
seriously i really don't know how to say myself during that moment as i was just keep pretending looking my phone, yet i know my eyes seems to be keep "wink" (眨眼睛) as it looks like i am "guilty" where the girl colleague seems to be suspecting something that i am gay that make me totally speechless.
while walking back office, i keep thinking why i keep had those "guilty feeling" when they talk about gay.

honestly, i was keep having the "weird" feeling after the lunch as i keep questioned myself whether "I am gay? I am gay? Why i feel so guilty when someone hinting/thought that i am gay" which is totally make no sense right if i react awkward just now.
during the evening meeting from the guy who promoting his ads service that installed in most of the Cyber Cafe, i couldn't focus much due to keep thinking that "stupid gay" question.
around 6.35pm i make a move from office as i just keep listening to music in order to get relax a bit.
when i reach Wangsa Maju LRT at 7.10pm, i went to have economy rice as my dinner.
finally i arrived back home at 7.35pm which is consider quite early.
while taking bath, that kind of "stupid and awkward" thought make me feel disgusting as i keep wondering why myself keep think about it.

at last, i forced myself to think deeply the 7 reason why i feel myself awkward this afternoon when they sharing about the "gay topic" as shown below.
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1) I remember I have this exact similar feeling when friend's/ex-ex-classmate sharing this related topic while girls around when i still at Tar college years ago.
2) Don't have girlfriends, which eventually make other's people think something wrong is going in me.
3) Never have "sxx" with girl before. (still virgin till now if no count TFK/DIY)
4) Keep hanging out with guys most of my time, did not have much conversation when girls around.
5) Maybe someone has accused/spread out the rumors or thought that i am gay?
6) Writing 20 related post saying that "i feel myself so gay" in blog when no girls hang out at >>> Here.
7) A housemate's friends sleep in my bed together with me due to it's late at the link >>> Here. (ma pou)
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it is because there's people say that the more you deny a thing, the more you will be! (in fact, my friend's name that start with "S" saying this statement that i will "beat my wife one day when i say i won't)
seriously i realize the problem here is that i listening too much of voices/noises that make me feel doubt about myself whether i am this kind of guy, or that kind of guy. (OMG !!! Lonely Reload Is Gay???)
while writing this post, suddenly my housemate walked in and i had got a "shock" where he say i must be doing something guilty (只有做亏心事的人才会吓一跳) but the fact is i am writing this "gay post" and don't want anyone to see it.
perhaps i should really try the "p" related things that recommended by "prostitute blogger review" as he have a lot of contact just to prove that i am not "gay"?
furthermore, i did afraid that will get HIV if i really go for it and where i keep my "V" until now.

somehow i seems to be having super strong imaginary mind where i can relate back to "The Host movie" yesterday as i might be "hosted" by Aliens.
on the other hand, i think i had found the bad side of being too alone or "too free" which will eventually lead to having so much of thought.
one thing for sure is that if you have this kind of negative thought, it will surely affect your real life which you can't really hide/pretend unless you're a master of fakers.
in conclusion, i totally feel myself getting more weird and weird as i express more and more feelings on the online atmosphere.
maybe my intention of "blogging to express feeling" is a totally wrong move from the beginning although until now i still not sure it is good or bad? (not even have long term goal?)

however, if you place myself in your shoes, when you have not much people or having some sensitive topic like this to express out, who will you find other than writing in blog? (even close friend i also don't feel to ask about this kind of weird thing, when looking back my phone contact for girls, i couldn't find any girls to ask about this weird issue)
frankly speaking, i almost want to send an SMS to the girl that i liked last time about how's she was doing recently but when think deeper, it seems that there's no use looking at my own problem now.
in fact, i already accepted the fact that i will never be with her as if i am a girl, i will definitely choose a guy that is older, more mature, independent, capable and etc where i will need few more years to reach that level but it might too late to chase back and probably she already married that time.
when writing this post, my tears almost "drop" down again when i think about my past.
my feelings now was totally like the "feeling that doesn't reach" song as below or >>> Here.

it is so FAKE to keep "self-comfort" myself with the Chinese motivational words again. (再怎么痛，再怎么难过，人家也看不到，也不会心疼你，你难过给谁看？)
perhaps i really got "mental" problem or professional self-bully where i "enjoying" making myself sad?
=(

today i woke up at 8am.
then i just quickly get myself prepared to work.
somehow i saw my ex-housemate pass by and i he fetched me to Wangsa Maju with his motorcycle.
around 9.25am i reach office and continue to do my stuff.
after that, i went for a meeting with some "cyber cafe related advertising" company as they have the centralized system that can connect most of the cyber cafe computer.
well, through his sharing, i seems to learn a lot about the current cyber cafe market and understand more about the typical Chinese businessman in Malaysia.
according to him, "Player" of cyber cafe is always "Dai Sai" (biggest) as some of them don't like to see banner advertisement being popup when starting game.

moreover, Malaysia game market is different with those Western or China company because most of the Malaysian gamer don't willing/like to spend money to play game and the biggest market was actually the Malay community instead of Chinese market due to they was the most dominate races. (not racist)
furthermore, the gamer's market is just also related with "probability" whereby it is just a "number game" to find super rich (VVIP) user or those "Bai Ga Zai" (prodigal) son to spend a lot of money top up the reload card in game. (which eventually explain how a game company can earn money)
as for the "typical Chinese businessman" part, it is also happen due to typical Chinese mindset whereby when we see other's people earn so much money from an industry, they will come out be boss to work out themselves and keep cutting the price which eventually explain why so many group buying website that existed in our country have so much lousy price and product.

somehow they keep smoking while meeting and i was the one who keep inhaling second hand smoke.
on the other hand, i do understand how other's people "wash black money" to make it illegal and it was true that not everything can be expresses out even thought blogging anonymously.
one thing for sure that you need to keep find "people" who willing to spend money on your although you know they're "washing money" but in the same time you need to spend money back to them. (mutual benefit)
in addition, the older generation people (age 35~50 years old) seems to be not very know about how to gamble online and that's why they still stick on to those local illegal gamble slot machine and etc.
anyways, the feelings quite "sucks" again whereby if you understand how other's can make millions of money, yet yourself still end up doing nothing.
perhaps it is true that you need to do something "illegal" first, then only "legalized" it at the end.

overall i think my understanding for marketing is like this whereby after all meeting, yourself need to decide which channel can bring the best to result when promoting your product.
so far after all the meeting experience from "Frxxxdsxxr", "Mxl", "Mxxsxxxxd", "Mxxhxxxxxf", i think i should decide to choose most of the "M" company as they have the a very strong database that cover most of the cyber cafe in Malaysia.
somehow it is quite hard to reach "Garxnx" as they had dominate most of the gaming industry with their own platform and "small fries" like my company would not attract their interest.
well, i was grateful to learn something everyday when i working in this company although i might leave soon.
it is because if i never come out work, how can i write those gay topic, food places, sponsored movies or even some events if compared with "sitting home" while waiting to go UK right?

around 1pm i went to have my lunch at "Xin Dong Ting Hunan Cuisine" (新洞庭湖南) in Sooka Sentral and enjoyed the "Ramen" noodles that cost around RM9 as shown below.

upon back office, i continue to do some research and being "busybody" to search for the guy that we had the meeting this morning as i saw his name card written was "Chief Executive Officer" (CEO) position.
it seems that he had went to the WeChat Malaysia launch party and bought an expensive condominium which is quite nice. (sweat for being a busybody)
around 6.35pm i make a move from office to take LRT back KL house instead of following my sister back because i forget to take something.
while walking pass Sooka Sentral, it seems that there will always have some salesman/girl will stop people to promote their product/credit card and etc service.

well, i just feel that maybe that's is the life of salesman whereby you need face a lot rejection before you can be successful no matter what product you're selling.
when i reach Wangsa Maju at 7.10pm, i went to have economy rice as my dinner again.
finally i reach home at 7.50pm and get myself prepared before doing any other things.
somehow i had received the Pre-arrival guide to Sheffield Hallam University emails and it looks great that you can travel to York, Manchester, Whitby, Blackpool, Liverpool, Cambridge, Leeds/Royal Amouries Museum, Cheshire oaks, Newcastle and Nottingham with just 12~20 GBP as shown below.

frankly speaking, it is quite exciting although i just looking through it and hopefully everything will get smoothly until next month.
guess it would be my most special journey although i am trying to forget anything from my past.

besides, i would like to share some interesting Chinese content as "It is hard to be a Man" (做个男人也挺难为的) as shown below. (sorry no English Translation due to poor grammer)
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找个漂亮女人太操心，不漂亮又不甘心。
光顾事业说没责任感，光顾家又说没本事。
专情点说你不成熟，花心点又说你是匹狼。
有钱说你会作怪，没钱又说你窝囊废。
不去应酬怕被老板骂，去应酬又怕被老婆骂。
女人还有个妇女节，男人啥也没有。
长的帅太抢手，不帅又拿不出手。
话多点说你太油，不出声又说你太闷。

会赚钱怕你包二奶，不会赚钱又怕孩子断奶。
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anyways, i just feel that the objective of every Man/Guy is to keep find $$, more $$ and $$ which is the things that i have been keep thinking although did not take much action now.

around 10.30pm it is the Chan Fong (大城心事) sharing program and below was the podcast recording.
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1) 第一位：阿（妹）媚～和男朋友相識五年還沒結婚，因為她覺得這個男人很大男人注意而且脾氣不好。【陳峰大哥建議她應該試著想像如果自己沒有遷就他的時候會不會更快樂一些，但是為何凡事都千依百順】>>> Here.

2) 第二位：雯雯（已婚 13 年 / 育有三名子女）～老公有外遇時常遲遲不回家，他告訴她決定兩個都要；她很想離婚。【陳峰大哥有兩個建議：1:開心點，別理會他 2:就讓他繼續，最重要的就是能維持目前的生活狀況】>>> Here.

3) 第三位：阿文～他家姐最近有些問題（關於她孩子），問題是宗教信仰問題。【陳峰大哥認為可能是在外國常住會比較理想，但是希望他們看開一點同時別過於宗教歧視】>>> Here.

4) 第四位：Ah Shu / 阿淑～她老公說有足夠的證據證明她有外遇，還要她發毒誓以表清白，其實是她的老公先有外遇在先而她根本是被冤枉的；現在甚至還要和她離婚。【陳峰大哥建議她要有心理準備，萬一真的是要和這個男人離婚會有何打算】>>> Here.

5) 第五位：阿桑～四年前已離婚也沒有第三者，主要的原因是溝通不良，另一方面也是破產的因素；（他）前一陣子甚至還鬧情緒搞自殺令大家覺得措手不及。>>> Here.

6) 第六位：阿妮～孩子的問題，話說他兒子補習不敢去小便然後小便在地上。>>> Here.

7) 第七位：阿May～老公染上毒癮欠下卡債。

8) 第八位：莫先生～他希望節目能夠提前結束，他擔心家裡的孩子會因為沉迷于追聽而遲遲不睡覺。

9) 第九位（最後一位）：Lina～夫妻感情的事，已經十年了，搞得互不信任。【陳峰大哥建議她如果能夠就和平相處，好好地坐下來談也不要一直搬問題出來吵】Part 7 + 8 + 9 >>> Here.
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overall there's so much story and some of it i just afraid i might end up be like those guys because the world is so big, so many unpredictable and there is no right and wrong.
later on, i went to refill my water, buy a burger although it was already midnight.
besides, i was distracted with the "Prostitute blogger sharing" as the content that he write was so seductive and horny. (Do you know who is Meguru Kosaka? OMG? LOL! talking to myself~ =.=)
before i end my post, i would like to share the "Petman Tests Camo" video as below or the link >>> Here.

basically the video was about a robot which developed by Boston Dynamics that is used to test the performance of protective clothing designed for hazardous environments with chemical protection suit and gas mask.
well, it might looks quite scary but i think if this technology success, our future will mostly depend on robots to do our stuff right?
anyways, this blog post was finish written at the next day (Saturday 8.10pm) because i was so tired yesterday and eventually fall asleep.
>.<

today i woke up at 10.25am.
somehow i was awakens by my friend's call to hang out together after he went to meet his "upline" at Mc Donalds Kota Kemuning.
then i just get myself prepared while waiting him to come.
around 12.20pm we arrived and i just have my "breakfast+lunch" at there.
well, my friend told me that his friend was quite successful where he was driving BMW 5 series, another Porsche and living in a quite a big house at Kota Kemuning.
when the friend arrive, i just keep listening to what he say and through his experience sharing, i feel it is true that you need to ask yourself what you want in life, whether you feel it is okay to work for others or you prefer to work for yourself.

after that, he use his iPad to present the slides that 10 years ago a McD set only cost RM5 but now cost RM10, property price increased but the things that never increase much to match up with the inflation was the salary paid in Malaysiaas he get RM2,500 10 year ago.
well, basically his product was Hong Leong Assurance (HLA) saving plan whereby you don't need much capital to start up and just need to explain the benefits of "save money" by finding people buy your savings/insurance plan.
however, the failure rate in this industry is very high whereby if 100 people join and after 1 month, 50% people will leave, few more month later might left below 10% people which is the success people.
moreover, you need to achieve RM10,000 sales per year in order to continue your membership where he say it is super easy to achieve this goals.

so, the question here now is how to find RM10K sales target per month right?
according to him, the best way is to start is find your relatives, then your friend (which explain why so many people reject their friend when they call them up for "yumcha") then only approaches stranger to sell your savings plan schemes.
it is because if you directly find stranger to sell your product, obviously it is 10x times harder than selling to your relative and friends because strangers will ask "why i want to buy your product as i don't know you?".
furthermore, he say this "theory" is just like chasing a girl that you must first locate your "target" (girl) first before ask the girl for contact number or whatever she likes.
therefore this same goes to do his saving plan as you need to set a goal to work first achieve RM10,000 sales, then only find the way to promote or ask people to join, not by planning first then only decide.

then i further ask where he work last time and he say in oil and gas company where he earn about RM8,000 per month but quit to start this insurance saving business at age of 30, that's why now earning millions which consider to be a successful person at the age of 39 years old.
his advice to us was give yourself a chance to "try" because it has the capabilities to earn until RM1,000,000 instead of working for others people as yourself also know that you will not able to earn one million within 3 year time right?
somehow i really don't know how to see whether someone is telling a truth or not but the way he speaks seems to be so confidence and persuasive.
after all his presentation, i feel that persistent+patient is the key to success because when you face a lot of rejection+failure, you might be success no matter how many years it takes?

anyways, i feel myself just want to stay back in my comfort zone and i start to feel myself maybe i will end up earning RM5,000 maximum working for other's people?
seriously it is quite contradict and "sucks" because when people say that if you think you're rich, then you will be rich, if you're poor, then you're poor, if you write how sucks your life, then it will be sucks so do "lonely" that is what i am writing+doing now?
moreover, it might be true that in order to be success, you need to cheat first which might explain the typical Chinese businessman personality?
for example, if i drive BMW and equipped with all those luxury goods to promote savings plan, of course you will be more happy to approach me and buy from me right?
this same goes to some blog that i saw offering RM0.02 cent paid to any visitor to visits their website.

after that, we went to Jusco Bukit Tinggi to watch movie with my ex-ex-roommate and his girlfriend.
during the moment at car, my friend's shared his the he first time experience encounter "ghost" where he had listen the sound's of baby cry, people walking when was at the 12th floor of Campbell Shopping Complex.

it is because he never noticed the surrounding of the entire floor was totally dark as he keep see his phone.
then he quickly press the lift and suddenly got a lot of voices from behind yet it is totally dark.
so the reason i write this is want to ask whether anyone would mind to try go to Campbell Shopping Complex which is one of the KL's oldest shopping centers that located at Jalan Dang Wangi, then take the lift to 12th floor to discover what had happened? (because i scare)
around 2.20pm we reach Jusco and went to buy "Ah Boys to Men 2" movie at TGV cinema.

somehow i saw there was a lot of people and some beautiful girls around.
the synopsis of the Ah Boys to Men 2 movie that adapted from GSC was shown below.
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After his recovery & realization of his mistakes, Ken returns to Tekong Island to continue his Basic Military Training (BMT). Determined to change, Ken prepares to prove himself. However, this change in attitude from Ken, immediately draws the dislike and mockery from some his Section mates led by Lobang. They feel that he is following after Wayang King’s footsteps, just trying to flatter the commanders so that he can stand out. Ken tries to explain but to no avail. Instead, their misunderstandings deepen as the training continues. At the same time, Ip Man’s girlfriend broke up with him because of another guy. Unable to contain his anger, Ip Man ask for help from Lobang & his Section mates to hatch a plan for revenge. They were able to get back at Ip Man’s girlfriend & her new boyfriend.

The new boyfriend immediately informs his gang, and quickly found Lobang and the Section mates at their usual place where they have dinner before booking in. A fight broke out. Wayang King was the first to run away, while Ken hesitated, but eventually stayed behind to defend his Section mates. When questioned by the Commanders, Ken defended his actions because he learned that he should “Leave no man behind”, he can’t just run away. Seeing his Section mates being beaten up, is he right not to go through thick & thin with them? After this incident, what else is in store for Ken? What punishment will be met out because of the fight? How will the antagonisms between Ken, Wayang King, Lobang and the rest of the Section mates be resolved? In such an environment of mutual distrust and sabotage, will they be able to shake hands and work together, to face their greatest challenge?
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after watching the movie, i just feel it is quite nice and some scenes makes me recall of my past.

it is because the camp transfer from Aloysius Jin seems to be reflecting myself as i changed group last time.
one of the funny scenes from the movie was "Acting so good ah? Today Sunday they won't come lah. Stupid sergeant Ong! Stupid sergeant Heng! Stupid Stupid Stupid. For the sake i will turn back to take a look.(Turn back n front again show a dying face) as shown below together with other scene.

feel free to have a look of the "Ah Boys to Men《新兵正传》Part 2" movie trailer as below or the link >>> Here.

the song that i like from the movie was the "Theme Song - "BROTHERS" MV" as shown below or the link >>> Here.

overall i would rate this movie 4 out of 5 stars and it is recommended to watch as it have some good moral values in my point of view.

after the movie, my friend fetched me back home and finally arrived back hometown at 6.20pm
then i just have some noodles as my dinner and surf some information online.
it seems that the hot topic for tonight was the Manisfesto from government to promote how good they is but i feel that a CHANGE is needed to stop those corruption.
the theory it same for those people who have practice "monopoly" and if they say things we should not change the government, then what's the reason we having election or so call "democracy", we might as well use follow the "China Kings" rules back right?
later on at midnight, i still need to check on the office emails, Fb ads although Saturday, Sunday is not working day but it is my responsible. (result bad, paused all the marketing activities again, waiting Monday to get scold?)
anyways, i just feel that my final objective after getting my degree certificate is need to go Singapore to work, or perhaps find a Singaporean girls to get my PR status there? (goodbye Malaysia?)

*opps, left out something i suddenly remember* whereby a friend say maybe how some get motivation is by finding prostitute, then you will eventually have the mood to earn more money to satisfy your needs? (don't know cause i haven try yet but afraid if i keep mention this things, i might end up be like those guys?)
at last, this blog post was finish update at tomorrow (Sunday) afternoon 1.45pm.
the conclusion to be success is there's no easy way to earn money if you never put 100% effort in doing anything just like what has been say in the Ah Boy to Men 2 movie.
=)

today i woke up at 11.15am.
then i just get myself prepared because will be going out soon.
while i search for some information and other's stuff, i saw my FB's Ads has an unbilled payment of $20 USD when i tested a few ads for "experiment" purpose and one of it about "Chinese sharing" had used the most $$ while i testing something.
through the experiment, i feel that it is useless to pay Facebook ads to share that's content as i saw it will only benefit's other page (such as 100K~500K fan based page) to gain more likes where they just need to copy and post in their page.
besides, i was testing with the "schedule post" and it seems quite good whereby you just need to spend some time to set the time that you want to post. (i tried scheduled 1 post every hour for the past 2 days)

anyways, i don't think i will pay anymore to test the sponsored result as i was planning to do it for my current company page because their advertising fee was a lot and i will get blame if the plan failed.
therefore i just use own $$ to test it in my own FB page before implement it for the company. (stupid?)
actually i think i had used a total of RM500+ paid to FB for advertising since few year ago where i keep experiment it with $1~$5 last time.
in fact, i do admit that the reason i pay for FB Ads was to get some "attention" from someone to visits my blog, to listen my story, in hope that they can give me some advice.
however, it is not easy to find True Real reader because 1st of all, you're just an anonymous person where some people will not believe much about your "story" and the most will read only one post and never visits back anymore after that.

over time, i think i have learn some tips and tricks about FB by just Google around.
one of the effective way i saw is that you need to create some "Trending keyword" that can automatically gain a lot of organic likes.
for example, if you search "Love Facebook" keyword in Google, you will eventually found the most liked page ranked on 1st where it had about 1.6M likes.
during the afternoon, mother had cook some delicious food as our lunch.
then we make a move to one of my relatives house at Kota Kemuning to talk about UK related stuff.
somehow my relatives advice me to brush up my English as we might not familiar with their British ascent.
moreover, i shall contact one of my relatives staying there because she was the only cousin i have that staying at foreign country.

furthermore, she also share about the things that need to prepare before departing there such as buying sweater, raincoat jacket and etc where you can buy in Uniqlo.
besides, i just have a feeling that life is all about "contacts" whereby it is about "who you know" and is important to know more people instead of stating "alone+lonely" which is a wrong way of life.
around 6.10pm we make a move from there and my brother suggested we go to have our lunch at Uncle Jang Korean restaurant that near Puchong.
well, it has been quite some time i did not go there since last year and just too some picture of my 2013 experience as shown picture below.

somehow i just feel that the Korean owner there might be earning about RM2,000 for every two hour since there is 100 people around 7.30pm if 1 person pay RM20 for my "estimation" in heart.

besides, i also really there is more "Tomboi" (girl) at there since they bring their beautiful girlfriend that caught my attention to notice "her" was a her. (LOL? sorry no offence)
after that, my brother took me to do some banking stuff and fetch me to Taman Paramount LRT at 8.20pm.
finally i arrived back KL house around 9.15pm and prepared see some working related stuff.
actually i don't feel like working anymore start from tomorrow but it is just all about the SALARY that i want to continue to ~~Scam/Cheat~~ work until this end of this month although i might left a bad reputation for the company if i "MIA" (missing in action) right?
it is because i should start to prepare the things that i need to go to Sheffield Hallam University
well, i just saw the list of TARC graduates who obtained Kojadi loan for this coming UK Summer Programme at Sheffield Hallam university (SHU) and Liverpool John Moores University (LJMU).

somehow i feel that everyone is "betting" their future/fate to get this degree certificate as they was about 140 people according at the list that do not depend on family/sibling/relative/friend/people for financial support.
in addition, i just get some information whether you should choose your flight to Manchester Airport or London Airport as shown below.
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I would strongly advise u to take flight to Manchester airport rather than London Airport.

Advantages of arriving Manchester and departing from Manchester.
1) On arrival, you will pick up by your Uni (LJMU or SHU) student crews. There are really helpful and always provides lots of useful information and share their experience before arrive at your student accommodation. It takes approx 1-1.5 hours from airport to Sheffield / Liverpool.

2) When you finish your course in September, you might wish to travel to Scotland and Europe. You can't leave your belongings at student accommodation anymore. You can't take all your belongings travel with you north and south, everywhere. You can store your luggage in local storage at Liverpool and Sheffield by renting a storage room. You can share it among with your friends, hence the cost is quite low actually. You can leave your laptops, luggage, etc inside storage rooms, and carry only your backpack with you and travel.
Once you finish your tours, you can come back to Liverpool and Sheffield to collect your belongings from the local storage and take direct train from Liverpool / Sheffield to Manchester Airport to take flight back to Malaysia.

3) You don't need to show your products when claiming VAT refund at Manchester airport. There is no staff at counter, you only need to put your original receipt and VAT form in the envelop and drop it into VAT refund box. It takes few months to process and you can receive the refund through debit / credit card with no queue needed.

Disadvantages of arriving London and departing from London
1) On arrival, you will pick up by the coach provided by ticketing agent. No student crews on coach. It takes approx 4-5 hours from London airport to Sheffield / Liverpool. It might be a little more tiring after long hours flight.

2) When you finish your course in September, you might have to take all your belongings to London and rent a storage room there before travel to Scotland and Europe. It could be a nightmare to carry all your luggages, baggages, laptops, etc to London. The underground (LRT) that you takes in London are complicated for new comer and crowded. Some of the stations do not have lift or escalator, which means you have to carry all your extremely heavy things up and down the stairs. You might want to CRY.

3) You can claim cash refund at London VAT counter. However, please take notes that the queue normally takes approx 2 hours and you need to bring along your products for checking. After your VAT refund claimed, then only can put your products into check in luggage and queue for luggage check in. No products, no VAT refund. Although you can get cash refund on the spot, however, there is additional charge for cash handling.
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well, upon looking at this information, i do feel quite exciting and can't await my turn to go there as i have delayed one year due to "many own personal problem" as myself "don't know how to say".
anyways, i just can tell myself that what's had past, shall be past and no use to keep think about it just like the "Ah Boys to Men 2 (新兵正传II)" song yesterday where the lyrics that i like most was "Whether they be good or bad, we have stood together as comrades. From all walks of life, we have bonded as one. These memories, I’ll hold forever, we're not just buddies, we are a band of brothers. Will we still be close after time passes by, or is this really the time when we say goodbye? Nobody really knows but as time goes, we all realize what matters is that we were bros at one point in time.You know it really doesn't matter who's the best, cause at the end of the day, we represent the same crest. I confess no less this is one of life's tests, and what we gain are moments that will flash as memories. No matter when the memories fade away, I will always remember and keep you guys in my heart, because without you guys, I will never be who I am today" which is so meaningful.
later on, i just wash my clothes and hang my clothes before i went to sleep. (=.=)
at last, i just want to share a meaningful picture about "A head that full of fears has no space for dreams" where i feel it is like saying myself as shown below.

>.<

today i woke up at 8.10am.
somehow i was feeling quite "reluctant" to wake up to work due to sleep late yesterday but i still "forced" myself to wake up in the end.
moreover, my sore throat has came back and some complementary illness came together which make me feel quite "sucks" to sick at this moment.
around 9.20am i arrived KL Sentral and quickly walk to office without having my breakfast.
during the morning, i was concentrating writing the report that will be present later on afternoon.
besides, i just received a call from the "Akxxi" household product company asked me whether interest to work for them where my feeling was like "Wahlau! So long liao after interview, now only call me back?" and i just say i can't due to further study.

around 1pm i went to have my lunch with one of my colleague at Mayflower food court where i can only take the "Ho Fun Prawn" noodles as my lunch since i still not feeling well.
while reaching back office, i start to feel nervous as the meeting will start at in 10 minutes time and my performance for last week was bad.
during the moment when reach my presentation part, i just say whatever that stated on it despite my sound still having "shaky+no confidence" feelings.
anyways, i was require to find more alternative to advertise and review what happened to FB ads.
frankly speaking, my feeling during that moment was very contradict as i feel myself like training to be "even more fake+pretending" at there because i will resign soon but until i haven tell the Japanese boss and he seems like getting more trust in me.

it is because if i say that i will resign now, the "feelings" will be totally different as i saw one of my colleague who have tender the resignation letter will not join the meeting anymore.
honestly, you can say that i am "cheater+selfish" as my intention to stay in the company as long as i could was to learn more things as day by day pass, i tends to receive more private and confidential information that really need to spend real money in order to know whether which channel can bring the best result.
moreover, i don't think i able to use so much advertising $$ while i still in this company if compare to my previous so call "public listed" company with RM100 million but so stingy.
other than that, i also need save some extra $$ when go to UK and "survive" which is the reason i hope can take until the end of this month salary before i "run" (resign) although everyday seems to be like doing "show" but i did really learn a lot with my own research and free time.

i believe if i "sit" at home, i will not have much motivation to "work" and it would be totally zero income.
during the evening, the Japanese boss seems to be keep playing the Japanese version of "不想睡/梁静茹" song which named "Shima Uta, the boom" as shown below or the link >>> Here.

well, i just that the voice from the song was quite "old" that eventually caught my attention since the office was so quiet.
anyways, i just feel the Japanese girl version of "Natsukawa Rimi - Shima Uta (夏川りみ-島唄)" song was nicer than the previous as shown below or the link >>> Here.

in fact, i don't know "who copy who" as Fish Leong also got sing this song in Chinese version long time ago.
around 7pm i make a move from office and reach Wangsa Maju LRT at 7.40pm.
then i went to have "Wan Tan Mee" (noodle) as my dinner at Wang Chuang restaurant.

finally i arrived back home at 8.20pm and do some research online.
well, i was thinking to pay someone money to help me make a website but it seems that the market price for making a website was more than RM1000+ and i even feel myself "funny" to pay others as i seems like don't know create website despite study so long in college? (=.=)

in fact, what i really want was those website that created from scratch instead of using ready made open source template which is no more unique if keep created the same things.

somehow i saw the domain name of "www.reload.com" was available for bidding now but the price was "skyrocket" expensive.

on the other hand, i was keep thinking about why the "advertisement" for my company is not effective and i think i can relate with the 13th General Election (GE) Malaysia 2013 that is coming soon.

it is because as you can see, most of the online advertisement such as "Facebook, Google, Youtube and Facebook" has been "dominated" with most the government party ads.

in fact, they had been doing all sort of marketing activities such as giving out "BR1M, BR2M, XX1M, BB1M, Chinese new year bunting, Chinese new year ads on tv, Chinese new year ang pau, Chinese new year Colour A4 letter, Government bonus RM500, Petronas bonus RM1000, GE Advertising, SMS advertising, Banner on highway advertising, Bunting GE on every street

therefore those "small fries" like us will not able to compete with the advertising bids as they was have more budget in million of Ringgit.
somehow i just feel that this things had proven that "who got money can dominate the media" in term of larger+bigger scale.

furthermore, i saw a news that most of the printing company who got tender to print government banner will earn a lot of money as shown below.

anyways, i would like to share a meaningful "Malay" version of "Sehari dalam hidup rakyat Malaysia" (A day in the life) which reflect how monopoly+crony can earn a lot of money as below or the link >>> Here.

another video that is quite funny which is "Virus You Help Me, I Help You (Warga Malaysia Mesti Tonton Sebelum PRU)" as shown below or the link >>> Here.

well, i would like advice you guys to check for your status to vote at the link >>> http://daftarj.spr.gov.my/
at last, i was getting more and more excited to go to SHU when i saw the summer school accomodation allocations has been fixed from The Forge, Charlotte Court, The Pinnacles, Bramall Court, Trigon, Opal 1, Liberty and Victoria hall as shown below.

somehow i do feel that surrounding, environment, personalities and others do play some roles in changing or influence something just like i did get some influence from Japan culture.
hopefully everything will go smoothly without having any obstacles.
=D

today i woke up at 8.05am.
then i just quickly get myself prepared to work.
while waiting for the bus, i continue to chat again with the guy who went to internship.
well, he told me it is quiet "sien" (bored) to keep continue working in the market research company because sometime he need to stay late for "OT" (overtime) work for the internship.
frankly speaking, i just feel that it is totally not worth to work for internship company unless you're seeking for future employment in that company.
it is because internship company salary's really very low which is around RM500 per month although their "advice" to those youngster was always using the word "you came here to learn things, not to earn money" to "cover" as an excuse?

in fact, it was an advice from many "older generation" or people who more mature saying this statement.
well, i am agree what "they" say was quite true but have you ever wonder that if you're just do it for your school's marks instead of looking for future employment in big internship company, i feel that it is totally a waste of your time (your age) for 6 month internship. (sorry for looking down small company)
it is because if i am a boss of a company, i might use the "internship" keyword to hire all good degree graduates who need to settle complete the internship and just pay them RM500 every month to work for me, then continue keep finding more internship after they leave the company right?
somehow i do feel myself so "funny" that i can think so much even it is just waiting the bus to come.
around 8.40am i reached Wangsa Maju LRT and we continue to talk during the moment at time where he keep sharing the advantage of invest in Public Mutual funds since can consider as a "agent" for it.

when i reach KL Sentral, i quickly walk to office and it seems that i just "ngam ngam" (closely) arrived there at 9.30am.
during the morning, i just continue to research some information and explore about the "Xenu link" software and hope i will learn something new everyday even though i only can depend on "Mr. Google" to learn.
around 1pm i went to have my dinner at Mayflower food court and order the prawn noodles again.
upon back office, i continue to do my result to bring the best result for company website as i still wondering how come those competitor Google Adwords can keep appear in most of the website.
well, i do wonder my placement is wrong all of the time which eventually cause a lot of "wastage" for the marketing adverting fund?
seriously i really want to find out the answer before i leave this company as it need money to learn this skills.

around 7pm i make a move from office and arrived Wangsa Maju at 7.40pm.
the weather was raining heavily and when i was eating half way my "economy rice", it seems that the "some of the rain has dropped" into my rice but i still continue to eat it. (=.=)
finally i arrived back home at 8.40pm and get myself prepared before "touch" my computer.
on the other hand, i finally receive my "financial support" for my Sheffield Hallam University at next month in United Kingdom after i had "delayed" it 1 year due to various of problem.
seriously what is the feeling holding around RM40,000 in your bank account if you is me as below.

honestly, i feel "sad+emos" more than "happy" because most of the balance is not my money although i had been trying to save some money during last year but end up used my working salary to repeat my semester which is even more "money pain".

well, writing this post does not mean that i want to "show off" i got the 40K "bullet" but it is just for my self reference as i never have such amount of money in my bank before for my entire 23 years of living.
in fact, it is more into that should we re-consider whether is it a wise decision or not to spend such amount of money to get a degree certification and we still end up working for others people to pay our debt?

moreover, it is so REAL and TRUE that most of us can't depend on ourselves to earn that kind of money with our "own hand" (靠自己) unless you're very capable or "super special" to earn RM40,000 (fully profit without deduct expenses) within 1 years time.
therefore some of us still need to depend on other people to support our financial for education no matter it is come from the help of Kojadi loan, parents, siblings, relatives, friends or any sort of financial because in the end, we still need to pay back our debt.

anyways, i would like to share a meaningful picture about "Congratulation kids, go chase your dream after getting a lot of debt" as below.
besides, i do have some "bad+evil+horny" thought when i receive the money on how i would like to use it no matter it is good or bad as shown below.
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Might be Good
1) Invest a strategic RM300,000 property in KL to invest. (Pay 10% deposit?)
2) Invest shares just like what i share about how to earn RM100,000 in one day. (no dare risk)
3) Invest in Forex/Public Mutual? (no dare risk)
4) Start a business? (chicken rice, noodles shop, laundry shop, bubble tea, fruits stall and etc)
5) Invest those so call "saving plan" that can guarantee a 15~20% return? (don't think it is true)

Bad
1) Travel around the world for 2 month. (waste?)
2) Buy a Vios car. (waste $$)
3) Buy latest iPhone/iPad/Macbook or any gadget that i like. (totally waste)
4) Go to Genting gamble one round to earn double? (stupid idea)
5) Prostitution/Clubbing (Due to too "lonely", might be influence by "prostitute blogger review" as his blog content was so horny, might also explain why when guy rich, will go find more girls 男人有钱，就身体痒)
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well, please don't take it seriously about what i had mention above because i still want to keep my "good guy image+virgin" status (No count TFK/DIY~ Imagine if one day my future son see this? LOL)
anyways, i was wondering how they will use for "anyone" who have this amount of money.

for my case, my plan has been fixed where i will use it to pay the RM19K SHU course fees, RM5K flight fee, RM5K Euro Trip, RM5K eat and the rest buy some things at UK which eventually become RM0 when i back to Malaysia.
therefore it might be true that those friend who go to SHU last year saying that you need to have RM30K instead of RM40K to study at there since i haven experience it myself.
actually when writing this post, i still think back about my past again because there will no longer have such a big group of ex-ex-classmate go there as my feeling was it is like a totally "lonely journey" since i did not get to know about the new classmate and having those "memories with old friends". (sigh)
over time, i think i had learned something important which is try to stay "low profile" as possible because i remember last time i keep post those "funny/meaningful/emos" status or picture in my real FB profile.

regarding the "13th General Election (GE) Malaysia 2013", i had saw more and more news about how "dirty" the government was whereby one of the news state that anyone who register this year as a voter is not eligible to vote because you need to register before 31th December 2012. (don't know true or not)
somehow i do feel bad because i still holding my "Scomi 7158" stock since last year and the RM1K is stuck inside where i don't feel like to make lost for my first investment.
seriously i feel that when day by day pass, our time to earn money with our limited capabilities/resources is very hard and if i have a choice and dare to jump out of the box, i might use this RM40K to start business instead of "play safe" to study for my degree certification and i would never have such money in 3 years time by end up working for people. (count save RM1K x 3 years = 36 month = RM36K)
overall i spend most of my time listening to the "Natsukawa Rimi - Shima Uta (夏川りみ-島唄)" song repeatedly where i feel myself seems to addicted into it as below.

in conclusion, life has too much possibilities and we can't really expect what will happen and we can only face our each day with a positive thought.
=)

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